Chapter 182: After four years of searching for the answer, I slapped him hard in the face
The living room fell into silence for several minutes.
It was so quiet that even heavy breathing could be heard. Lu Xiyan felt as if he was in an ice cellar, and the initial chill was long gone.
"Depression?" He looked at Xu Zhijun in disbelief, his voice a little hoarse, "How long has it been?"
"Four years."
Lu Xiyan's whole body stiffened, as if he had been electrocuted.
Seeing his surprised expression, Xu Zhijun knew that An Ning had never mentioned her illness to him.
He took out a bottle of medicine and placed it on the coffee table, pushing it towards Lu Xiyan. "I came here today to give her some medicine. This medicine can control her condition and prevent her from self-harming when she has an attack. She has been taking this medicine for four years. In the past four years, not only has she not stopped taking it, but she has often secretly increased the dosage herself."
"Do you know why?" Xu Zhijun's tone was filled with unconcealed anger, "Because you have been hurting her ever since she returned to Jinghai!"
"If you cared about her a little more, you would have noticed the scars on her wrists! She's lying in your bed right now, and you don't even know how many scars she has on her wrists!"
Lu Xiyan's deep pupils suddenly shrank, and he immediately thought of the tattoo on An Ning's hand, "Left hand, wrist?"
"Yes, she has self-destructed several times. If I hadn't discovered it in time, she would have died long ago!"
When Xu Zhijun took her pulse, he noticed the tattoo on her wrist. He laughed at himself, "Even now, she's still trying to comfort you, worried that you'd be upset if you knew about her condition. She even hid the scar from her self-harm, pretending it never happened! I tried to persuade her to tell you about her condition and resolve the misunderstandings you've had for so many years. Only then can she live."
"But she doesn't listen. She thinks about you in every way!"
Lu Xiyan's eyes were already dark red, and his back teeth were clenched tightly.
That's why An Ning went to the beach alone today.
She wasn't unable to get over it because of this blow.
This blow was just the last straw that broke the camel's back.
In fact, she has been ill for several years and is on her last legs.
And finally, this breath of air was gone.
If he had been a minute late, she would have sunk to the bottom of the sea without hesitation and been swept away by the waves.
Thinking of this, the man clenched his fists tightly, wishing he could crush his bones.
"If I don't tell her something, she might really want to hide it from you forever."
Xu Zhijun looked around at the luxurious decoration and said with a smile, "Mr. Lu, while you are enjoying such a comfortable life, have you ever thought about what your wife is like living alone in Jining?"
"Jining?" Lu Xiyan's voice trembled. "She has been in Jining?"
"Yes. She went to Jining four years ago and has been staying there for the past four years."
Lu Xiyan felt as if someone had hit him hard on the head.
She is in Jining, in the country!
Then why couldn't he find her!
He mobilized all his connections, searched for her like crazy, and searched almost the entire country but could find no trace of her.
He even looked for her wherever he could abroad, but there was no news of her. It was as if she had disappeared from the face of the earth.
For the past four years, she has actually been in the country, in the most remote city of Jining!
"At that time, she was living alone in a small one-bedroom apartment in a very simple environment."
Xu Zhijun took out his cell phone, opened the photo album, and pushed it in front of Lu Xiyan.
"This is an old neighborhood, and the house is run-down, but the rent is very cheap. I think she rented it because of the cheap rent."
The cell phone was like a red-hot iron, burning Lu Xiyan's hand.
In the photo, the palm-sized room is cramped and dim, but it is kept clean and tidy, which is her habit.
Didn’t she take the money and leave? Why doesn’t she live in a better place?
Thirty million is enough for her to rent a bigger house.
"I don't know what she went through or what kind of life she went through. But the first time she came to the hospital to register with me, the An Ning she saw was far from what she is now."
"She was so thin she could fall over without even a gust of wind. Sitting in my office, she looked lifeless. I could tell she was young, but that didn't diminish her beauty. So I couldn't understand why such a young, beautiful girl didn't have a vibrant vitality, but instead looked so lifeless."
"I saw her broken."
As Xu Zhijun spoke, he recalled how An Ning looked when he first met her four years ago. He was a little excited and took a few deep breaths before he could barely steady his voice and continue speaking.
"She lost a lot of hair. Due to lack of sunlight and malnutrition, most of her long hair fell out."
He raised his eyes to look at the man opposite him. The other party was not in much better condition. He listened to him silently. Although his handsome face still looked calm, the traces of tears on his face could not deceive anyone.
This kind of hurt expression is not common on a young master like Lu Xiyan.
"Do you know what the first words she said were?"
Lu Xiyan raised her hand and wiped away the tears hanging from her nose with her fingertips, her eyes were red.
Xu Zhijun smiled lightly, feeling bitter and distressed.
"She said, 'Dr. Xu, I'm pregnant and I'm in a very bad state, but I want to live. Can you please help me?'"
"She was not in a good condition to get pregnant at the time. A baby would have taken away nutrients from her body, which would have been detrimental to her recovery. But she insisted on keeping the baby. She said she had nothing left but this child, and she couldn't live without it."
"During those four years, she desperately tried to survive for the sake of this child."
"I gave her the first psychological counseling session. To find the cause of her illness, we had to understand what she had been through and what had caused it."
Hearing this, Lu Xiyan raised his eyes and met Xu Zhijun's gaze, and his bones ached.
He seemed vaguely certain that the answer he had been looking for for four years would soon be right in front of him and slap him hard in the face.
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