52. Can I choose not to do it?
◎Kicked out◎
Yan Sui covered her wet face with her hands. "Can't I choose not to do it?"
【Can. 】
A glimmer of hope ignited in Yan Sui's heart. "Is there any other way?"
.001 calmly and composedly said, "If you don't move, let the female lead *you*."
【No, why are you even censoring this? I didn't say anything wrong.】
Yan Sui wished she hadn't understood.
She silently finished washing her hair and taking a shower, then picked up a towel to dry herself.
"But I really don't know how to do this kind of thing, and I'm not ready yet."
.001 remained completely calm: [It's alright, it seems the female lead doesn't need you to prepare. Anyway, with the lights off and the curtains drawn, it doesn't matter whether you open your eyes or not.]
The words may be rough, but the principle is sound; however, these words are far too rough.
Yan Sui said slowly, "If I get close to her and our souls resonate completely, but we do nothing, that's actually feasible, right?"
Just like last time.
.001 was puzzled. "Theoretically, it's feasible, but it would be incredibly difficult for both of you. Transmigrator Yan Sui, why can't you face your own desires? It's not shameful."
Yan Sui took another towel to dry her hair, "Because these things are best done when both people are in sync. I..."
She looked pained. "I can't reciprocate anyone's feelings right now. I haven't even sorted out many things myself, and I feel it's unfair to her to do that kind of thing with her so rashly."
In the past, when Lu Shutian was assertive towards Yan Sui, Yan Sui felt it was okay to go with the flow, since she herself didn't care, as long as Lu Shutian was having fun.
But the more time she spent with Lu Shutian, the more she could feel Lu Shutian's deep and sincere affection for her.
She didn't want this sincerity to be taken lightly.
There was a knock on the bathroom door, and Lu Shutian's voice came from outside, "Sister, are you done showering?"
Yan Sui took a deep breath, concealing the strangeness in her emotions: "I'm done washing."
creak—
The bathroom door was pushed open, and Lu Shutian said with a grin, "Now it's my turn to shower."
She pretended to take off her shirt, but the shirt slipped down to one shoulder and got stuck.
Lu Shutian pouted, "Sister, I can't take it off."
Yan Sui hesitated, as if she wanted to say something but then stopped.
She looked away and continued to look at herself drying her hair in the mirror. "If you unbutton it first, you can take it off."
Lu Shutian knew that doing this would make it easier to take off her clothes, but her original intention was to have Yan Sui help her take off her clothes.
"My sister is a block of wood!"
Lu Shutian angrily began to unbutton her clothes.
Yan Sui dried her hair. "Since you're going to take a shower, I'll take the hairdryer to the living room to dry my hair."
Lu Shutian gave a dissatisfied "hmm," then suddenly remembered something, "Have you ever undressed a wild woman?"
She really did take her clothes off, even during the few days she was on set.
Lu Shutian didn't miss the hint of guilt that flashed across Yan Sui's face. She cried out, "That's too much, sister! What happened to treating everyone equally?!"
Yan Sui hurriedly fled the bathroom.
When Lu Shutian came out after taking a shower and wearing a bathrobe, Yan Sui had already changed into a nightgown and dried her hair.
She stood in the living room, her body slightly stiff, watching Lu Shutian's face flushed pink from the steam, her lips trembling, unable to utter a word for a long time.
As soon as Lu Shutian saw Yan Sui, she snorted coldly, "What are you standing there for?"
"I think……"
Yan Sui really didn't know what to say.
I want us to embrace each other, our souls completely in harmony, but not to do *that*?
She couldn't bring herself to say it.
Lu Shutian couldn't bear to see Yan Sui like this, so she gave in and said, "Sister, come to the bedroom and help me blow-dry my hair."
Yan Sui readily agreed.
Unlike Jian Liyun's waist-length hair, Lu Shutian's hair was just past her collarbone, making it much easier to blow-dry.
Yan Sui slipped her slender fingers between her fingers and gently brushed her hair aside.
Lu Shutian squinted her eyes comfortably; if she had a tail, it would be wagging happily right now.
After Yan Sui dried Lu Shutian's hair, Lu Shutian was completely appeased.
She snatched the hairdryer from Yan Sui's hand, casually placed it on the bedside table, and then hugged Yan Sui and pounced on the bed.
The two fell onto the bed at the same time, and because the mattress was so elastic, they were even bounced up more than ten centimeters.
Yan Sui's eyes were filled with nervousness. She pursed her lips and said, "Tian Tian, I..."
Lu Shutian was so engrossed in rubbing against Yan Sui that she whimpered like a puppy, nuzzling her cheek against Yan Sui's neck and shoulders. Her hands were also not at peace; one hand gripped Yan Sui's slender waist, while the other pinched the back of Yan Sui's neck, preventing her from escaping her control.
"Sister...you seem even softer and sweeter after just a few days..."
The filter is simply Lu Shutian's own filter, which is 800 meters thick.
As Yan Sui thought this, she called out .001 in her heart.
".001, help me unlock the Eye of True Sight."
[Yan Sui, the transmigrator, will now grant you an hour of true sight.]
Yan Sui closed her eyes to catch her breath. When she opened them again, she could see that Lu Shutian's skin was glowing red, and there was a black hole in her chest. The edges of the hole were constantly breaking and trying to expand, but they were repaired by the red energy on Lu Shutian's body. The two forces were in a state of battle.
Yan Sui took a deep breath, trying to push Lu Shutian off her—
Instead of pushing them apart, the two actually pressed themselves even closer.
Yan Sui was so overwhelmed that she could hardly breathe. She said with difficulty, "Tian Tian, let's have a good talk."
Lu Shutian let out a dissatisfied sob before releasing Yan Sui.
She braced herself on the bed with both hands, straddling Yan Sui with her upper body suspended in mid-air, leaning slightly forward and looking down at her: "What do you want to talk about?"
Yan Sui stared at Lu Shutian's chest: "Your scar."
Lu Shutian understood. She grabbed Yan Sui's wrist and led her to her soft chest. "Sister, it hurts, feel it."
“Be serious,” Yan Sui said, feeling like she was the only one in the world who was seriously working on the mission. “This scar can sometimes cause you a lot of pain, which can affect your daily life and also poses a risk. We need to solve this problem.”
This scar is like a weakness buff in a game, which weakens the character and makes them easier for the enemy to defeat.
Lu Shutian didn't care at all, "It's okay, sister, I'm used to it anyway."
“You don’t need to get used to this,” Yan Sui said earnestly. “I’ll help you cure it.”
"How can it be cured? But I think if my sister kisses me, I won't feel any pain anymore."
In some ways, Lu Shutian's method is actually correct.
But Yan Sui wanted to verify her conjecture first.
She grabbed one side of the V-neck of the bathrobe with her other hand. "May I lift it up and take a look?"
Lu Shutian was naturally more than happy to accept it.
She feigned shyness, "Oh dear, how can I just look at other people's private parts like that? But if it's your older sister, then it's okay."
Yan Sui gently lifted her bathrobe and saw the still hideous black scar.
The difference is that this scar is about one-third shorter than when Yan Sui first saw it.
"call."
Yan Sui felt a great weight lifted off her shoulders.
Lu Shutian frowned. "I know this scar of mine is ugly, but it doesn't have to be something that makes you breathe heavily to relax."
Yan Sui shook her head. "That's not what I meant. Have you felt less pain lately?"
Lu Shutian has been busy with too many things lately, but now that she has some free time to think about it carefully, it really is just as Yan Sui said.
"It definitely doesn't hurt as much anymore."
Yan Sui helped Lu Shutian adjust her bathrobe at her chest.
"Tian Tian, I want to discuss something with you."
Why are you gathering the clothes? I haven't even started the demonstration yet.
Lu Shutian thought to herself, then asked, "What is it?"
Yan Sui decided to tell Lu Shutian about it, but she also concealed the real reason why the two of them had a soul resonance.
"...That's how it is. Because you chose me before, our souls can resonate, and when we reach complete resonance, we can also heal each other's wounds, including this scar on your heart—"
"I've already told you the method for complete soul resonance; you can do whatever you want."
Yan Sui once again placed her own feelings last, as she always has.
After Yan Sui finished speaking, Lu Shutian fell silent, which was unusual for her.
She straightened her back, got off Yan Sui, and sat down on the other side of the bed.
Yan Sui also sat up from lying down and crawled to Lu Shutian's side. "What's wrong? Did I not explain it clearly?"
Lu Shutian moved to the side, her almond-shaped eyes losing their luster.
Yan Sui was a little anxious, "What's wrong with you? Your scar needs to be taken care of, otherwise..."
“Because I can tell,” Lu Shutian finally said.
She clenched her teeth, and the veins on her forehead bulged for a moment.
After concealing the ferocity in her eyes, Lu Shutian turned to look at Yan Sui, whose eyes were filled with concern.
"You're forcing yourself, sister."
Yan Sui was taken aback. Lu Shutian's words were too frank, and she didn't know how to smooth things over.
Lu Shutian gave a bitter smile. "Did you think I would definitely choose to heal by sleeping with you? Because you know I want to do that kind of thing with you?"
Yan Sui didn't know how to deny it, so she could only look at him longingly and whisper, "Tian Tian."
It was as if this would extinguish Lu Shutian's anger.
Lu Shutian said expressionlessly, "Am I such a terrible person in your eyes?"
Yan Sui could only shake her head. She wanted to say that wasn't true, but she couldn't say anything.
Seeing Yan Sui's pitiful appearance, Lu Shutian scratched her hair in frustration. "You can do that kind of thing with wild women without any guilt, but doing it with me is like it's going to kill you."
Yan Sui weakly retorted, "I didn't do that kind of thing with Li Yun."
Lu Shutian gave a forced smile, "Trying to fool me with such a clumsy excuse at a time like this won't make me feel any better, sister."
Yan Sui also felt a little wronged, "But I really didn't do that kind of thing, I didn't, and that's it. You're always like this..."
At least Jian Liyun would listen to what she said and believe her.
Lu Shutian turned her back to Yan Sui, crossed her arms, and said disdainfully, "What do I always do? Compared to that wild woman, you just like her more and are more biased towards her."
The feeling of grievance in her heart grew stronger and stronger without her realizing it, and Yan Sui's eyes became a little moist.
Her voice trembled with a barely perceptible sob, "I just hope you can all be happy."
That's all.
The moment Lu Shutian realized that Yan Sui was not in a good state, her heart softened.
She cursed herself inwardly for saying those hurtful things again, "I..."
Buzzing.
Yan Sui's phone started vibrating; it was a video call from Jian Liyun.
Why did it have to be at this time...?
Yan Sui pursed her lips, quickly composed herself, and answered the phone—
Of course, she didn't turn on the camera.
The phone screen displayed Jian Liyun's flawless face. Even though her face was very close to the camera, causing some distortion in the image, it did not affect her beauty at all.
"Sui Sui," Jian Liyun's voice was as gentle as ever, "Are you home yet?"
Yan Sui gave a soft "hmm".
There was a pause on the other end, then the person continued, "Have you had dinner? Do you want me to order takeout for you?"
"I ate," Yan Sui replied softly.
She looked at Jian Liyun's dark eyes on the screen, thinking that the other party would question her about why she hadn't turned on the camera.
After all, before they parted, Yan Sui had promised Jian Liyun that they would video call each other every night.
But Jian Liyun's expression didn't change; she still said gently, "Dinner wasn't good?"
Yan Sui first shook her head, then realized that the other person couldn't see her, and said again, "It's delicious."
Jian Liyun sighed, her tone devoid of any blame or prying, only filled with heartache.
"Then why did you cry?"
As soon as Jian Liyun finished speaking, a hot, crystal-clear tear fell onto the back of Yan Sui's hand.
She herself shuddered from the heat, and her breathing became a little erratic.
Despite her expression showing more sadness than anyone else, Yan Sui forced herself to smile. "I... I wasn't crying. Li Yun, you misheard me."
Jian Liyun knew the other person was putting on a brave face. She frowned slightly and said, "My filming starts late tomorrow morning, so I'll go home tonight and go to the set tomorrow morning."
Someone snatched Yan Sui's phone away.
Lu Shutian gripped Yan Sui's phone tightly, her tone sinister, "Have you finished talking?"
Have you talked enough in front of her?
Why can Yan Sui shed tears in front of that woman because she feels wronged, but she has to put on a brave face in front of me?
Does she really seem that unreliable?
Jian Liyun's smile also faded. "Sui Sui, are you at her house?"
Yan Sui panicked. She had thought that Lu Shutian would at least shut up by now.
She tried to snatch her phone back, but Lu Shutian could easily subdue her even with just one hand.
Without holding back, Lu Shutian pushed Yan Sui back onto the bed, straddling her waist once more. She gripped both of Yan Sui's wrists with one hand and held her phone tightly with the other.
Lu Shutian chuckled casually, "Yes, Jian Liyun. She's at my house now. Surprising, isn't she?"
To be honest, seeing Yan Sui's interactions with Lu Shutian recently, this matter is not surprising to Jian Liyun at all.
only……
I still feel a little sad, and very jealous.
Yan Sui looked at Lu Shutian with pleading eyes, signaling the other woman to stop talking.
But how could Lu Shutian let her have her way? She scoffed again, "Do you know why she came to my house?"
Yan Sui's pupils suddenly contracted.
No, Jian Liyun must not know about this!
Jian Liyun had turned off the camera at some point, so Yan Sui couldn't see her face, only hear her voice.
Jian Liyun's voice was unreadable. She said calmly, "I really don't know why Sui Sui came to your house, but whatever she does, she has her own reasons. What I can be sure of is that what she did was for your own good."
Seeing that Lu Shutian did not answer, Jian Liyun switched to offense and pressed, "Am I right, Miss Lu?"
Lu Shutian was speechless.
She even began to suspect that Yan Sui might have told this wild woman about what happened between the two of them.
"You're absolutely right, Jian Liyun. Then I'll be merciful and tell you, my sister came to my house because—"
Lu Shutian stopped mid-sentence as she saw Yan Sui's numb and empty eyes.
"Why?" Jian Liyun asked when Lu Shutian remained silent for a long time.
A look of panic flashed in Lu Shutian's eyes. She gritted her teeth and said, "Jian Liyun, I really hate you. You are the thief who stole my happiness."
Beep beep beep.
Lu Shutian hung up the phone. Jian Liyun didn't get an answer and could only hear the beeping sound of the call being disconnected.
Lu Shutian threw the phone next to the bed, released her grip on Yan Sui, and got out of bed by herself.
Where are you going?
Lu Shutian heard Yan Sui ask her.
She said expressionlessly, "Go somewhere you can't see me."
Anyway, Yan Sui probably feels disgusted and wants to vomit when she sees her now.
Lu Shutian hadn't taken more than a few steps when she heard the rustling sound of clothes behind her. Then, a cold hand gripped her wrist.
Lu Shutian turned around and saw Yan Sui, whose eyes were still moist.
She bit her lip, clearly sad and aggrieved, yet stubbornly determined to achieve her goal.
"Tian Tian, let's not fight," Yan Sui was still trying to appease her, trying her best to control her emotions. "Let's solve this problem first and then talk about other things, okay?"
If Lu Shutian's heart scar is not addressed for a long time, it will definitely become a major hidden danger later on.
Lu Shutian didn't turn around. "So, to you, I'm a 'problem' that needs to be solved. As long as the problem is solved, everything will be fine. As for the emotional needs of the person in question, that doesn't matter, right?"
Although she was asking a question, Lu Shutian's tone was very confident.
She couldn't understand why Yan Sui could be so kind to her on the one hand, yet be unable to accept her feelings on the other.
Yan Sui's voice was dry; she didn't want to lie to Lu Shutian anymore. "I'm sorry, but I really can't respond to Ren right now..."
"Then don't give me any hope!"
Lu Shutian almost shouted as she forcefully shook off the other person. Looking at Yan Sui, who had been forced back several steps, she continued defiantly, "If you truly have no chance of even a one in ten thousand falling for me, then don't give me even the slightest hope. You reject my love while not rejecting my advances, I..."
Lu Shutian couldn't continue speaking.
Yan Sui didn't meet the other person's eyes again. She pursed her lips and insisted on doing what she had started with, "At least treat your scar first."
“Scars, scars, scars… Why are you so concerned about this?” Lu Shutian laughed angrily. “Even if I die from the pain, it’s none of your business.”
Watching Lu Shutian storm off to the living room, Yan Sui took several deep breaths before following her.
Sitting expressionlessly on the sofa, Lu Shutian glanced at Yan Sui, who had followed her up, and asked, "What? You want to sleep on the sofa too?"
Yan Sui shook her head, "Tickets to your concert the day after tomorrow..."
Lu Shutian opened the cabinet on the coffee table with a cold face, took out a ticket and handed it to the other person, "Take it or leave it."
Yan Sui forced a smile and said, "I'll go see it, tonight we..."
Lu Shutian interrupted, "I don't want to be in the same space as you right now."
Lu Shutian knew that making Yan Sui do that kind of thing would cause her pain, and if Yan Sui was in pain, her heart would ache along with her.
If that's the case, then there's no need for it.
After being rejected so many times, even Yan Sui lost the courage to continue.
She nervously clutched the fabric of her nightgown. "This is your home. Go back to bed and sleep. I'll change out of my nightgown and leave."
Watching Yan Sui change her clothes, Lu Shutian didn't stop her at all. Her mood visibly worsened, and her resentment almost materialized.
Bang.
The front door was opened and closed again, leaving Lu Shutian alone in the house once more.
She took out her phone and dialed a number with a displeased expression.
"Help me investigate someone, yes, thoroughly investigate him."
When Yan Sui returned to Jian Liyun's house, she closed the door and slowly went to the sofa in the living room, where she lay down listlessly.
The light from the ceiling chandelier was inexplicably glaring to her at that moment. Yan Sui reached out and covered her eyes, speaking in a nasal tone.
"I still messed it up."
The system felt extremely sorry for the host. [It's not the host's fault. That female lead is too domineering. She judges many things by actions, not intentions. The host has already done so much to help her, yet she still asks for this and that—it's simply too much!]
.001 also appeared, but made sarcastic remarks: "[Transmigrator Yan Sui, please find an opportunity later to heal the female lead Lu Shutian's scars. Due to the rules, there are some things I cannot say, but my advice is to try not to delay this matter.]"
【.001 Why are you in such a hurry? My host is a human, not a machine. This isn't something she can just do because she wants to!】
The two systems seemed poised to start arguing again, but Yan Sui suddenly said something completely unrelated, "Actually, I'm a little tired."
The two systems, which had been making a racket, immediately fell silent.
Yan Sui dragged her heavy body to her feet and went to the bedroom to change into her pajamas. She felt very heavy and tired, but for some reason, she couldn't fall asleep.
She never imagined that she would experience insomnia one day.
Hmm... Jian Liyun seemed to have taken melatonin before; she remembered it was placed under the left bedside table.
Yan Sui opened the drawer, but paused when she saw the white medicine bottle.
How could she forget that she had secretly replaced all the melatonin in the bottle with vitamins when Jian Liyun wasn't looking?
Unexpectedly, Yan Sui smiled bitterly and pushed the drawer back.
Yan Sui tossed and turned in bed for an unknown amount of time but still couldn't fall asleep. She simply grabbed a Jian Liyun coat from the closet, wrapped it around herself, and went to the study next door.
Without much thought, Yan Sui quickly copied the game of chess between Jian Liyun and He Chenyu.
Since I can't sleep anyway, I might as well think more about what He Chenyu will do next.
When Yan Sui is immersed in the world of Go, she always forgets the passage of time and ignores the noise of the outside world.
So when Jian Liyun opened the study door and appeared in front of her, Yan Sui couldn't help but open her mouth.
She exclaimed in surprise, "Why are you back?"
Jian Liyun smiled, still carrying the chill from outside. "I said on the phone that I was coming back, of course I'm coming back."
Yan Sui's hand trembled slightly as she held the chess piece, so she simply put the white piece back into the chess jar.
Looking at the game of chess, which she had turned the tide of under her own strategy, Yan Sui seemed to be asking Jian Liyun a question, or perhaps a question to herself.
What if I'm not in this house when you come back?
Jian Liyun instantly understood the unspoken meaning behind the other person's words.
"What Sui Sui is trying to say is, what should I do if you're still at Lu Shutian's house when I come back, right?"
Jian Liyun's words were too direct, and Yan Sui was stunned.
The aloof beauty smiled, stepped forward, and gently flicked Yan Sui's nose. "Why do you look so serious? Do I look scary?"
Yan Sui could only shake her head. She didn't even dare to think about what Jian Liyun would do if she really faced that kind of scene.
"sorry."
All Yan Sui could say was an apology.
Jian Liyun frowned slightly. "Why apologize for something like this?"
She took off her coat. "I came back because I was worried about you, that's why I did it."
Yan Sui felt increasingly guilty. She had only wanted to help Jian Liyun, but in the end, she had caused trouble for her.
Jian Liyun softened her tone, "But whether you're home or not, I'll accept it calmly. If you're not home, it proves that you don't need me right now; but if you are home, if you need me too—"
She opened her arms. "Want a hug that's not like a long-awaited reunion?"
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