Chapter 200: Crazy
At first the dream was very warm. She accompanied the two children in chasing butterflies in the imperial garden, and their soft laughter could be heard from far away.
But in the end it turned into a nightmare, with the two children hugging her legs and crying, "Mom, Mom, don't you want us anymore?"
"Mo'er! Ran'er!"
Chen Wan woke up from a nightmare, tears dripping onto the mandarin duck pillow.
Looking at the green gauze curtain above my head, Shen Wan felt a sense of emptiness in my heart.
In her previous life, after the two children were killed by Xiao Yun, she wanted to see them in her dreams, but she had never dreamed of them. Why would she dream of them tonight? After her rebirth, Shen Wan had been suppressing herself and not thinking about the two children. It wouldn't be that she would dream about them at night if she thought about them during the day.
Is it because the birthday of Concubine Dowager Kang is coming again?
In the previous life, they were there on the birthday banquet of the Concubine Dowager Kang...
In her previous life, she married Xiao Yun, who was indifferent to her. However, there were no other concubines in the harem, so there was no palace fighting. However, she was also lonely. Fortunately, she had two children to accompany her.
Mo'er Ran'er brought her too much joy. After being reborn, Shen Wan wanted to keep all the good things around her at all costs, except for the two children. She wanted them, but she couldn't have them.
She didn't know who the father of the child was. She lost her virginity to him in her previous life. She had no memory of it due to Chinese medicine, but the other party did. He never looked for her, obviously because he was afraid of Xiao Yun's power. She looked down on such a person.
But two children...
If she missed the birthday banquet of Princess Dowager Kang, even if she was reborn in the future, she would not be Moer Raner.
Shen Wan wiped away her tears but they welled up again.
I had a sleepless night.
Chen Wan wanted two children, but she still had her sanity. She was now the princess consort of Xie Jingyu's prince. If she went to find someone to have children with, she would be cheating on him. If Xie Jingyu knew about this, he would definitely kill her.
I’m afraid that not only will she be killed, but my father and elder brother will also be implicated by her.
Shen Wan suppressed her longing for her two children, but no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't resist dreaming about them for three consecutive days.
If you can't sleep at night, you'll easily feel tired during the day. If you have a lot of things on your mind, you'll feel even more distracted.
She sat on the small couch and didn't even notice that the book in her hand had fallen over.
Yinchuan gently pushed Shanhu and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong with the Crown Princess?"
Usually when Chen Wan goes out, she brings Shanhu with her. Yinchuan suspects that something may have happened when she left the house. Shanhu follows Chen Wan closely, so she must know the truth.
Shanhu shook her head and looked at Shen Wan with some worry, "The Crown Prince's Concubine has lost a lot of weight in the past few days, but are you feeling unwell?"
"I'm fine."
He said it was nothing, but Shanhu had been with Chen Wan for several years. How could she not see that not only was there something wrong, but it was a big problem.
But since the Crown Prince's wife didn't say anything, she didn't dare to ask more.
Shen Wanxin was in a mess. In a few days, it would be the birthday of Concubine Kang, and she didn't have much time to hesitate.
After dreaming about it again and again, Shen Wan's sanity collapsed and she wanted the two children to come back to her.
The only obstacle is Xie Jingyu.
She couldn't afford to offend him.
If she had not been so impulsive and lent him the position of Crown Prince's Consort, she would not be in such a dilemma now.
However, since the Lantern Festival, Xie Jingyu has become much more distant from her and has become much easier to talk to than before. Anyway, he no longer has any feelings for her, so perhaps she can try to convince him...
Shen Wan put the book down and went to the study to find Xie Jingyu.
She went there but didn't dare to speak. Xie Jingyu gave her a look and she became intimidated. She pretended to find two books and went back to the house.
After returning to the room, he felt annoyed again, but he mustered up the courage to go to the study.
He went there three times in a row and brought back seven or eight books.
When they went to the fourth round, Xie Jingyu saw that Shen Wan was holding his military book and asked, "But do you have something to tell me?"
These days, Xie Jingyu only returned to his room during meal times. At other times, he either went out of the house or stayed in the study.
But he could also sense that Shen Wan was absent-minded and had something on his mind.
It's just that Chen Wan didn't go out these days, and no one in the mansion found fault with her. Chen Ping asked Shanhu, but didn't find any problems.
Shen Wan was about to escape again, and Xie Jingyu asked, "What is it that makes it so difficult for you to speak?"
Shen Wan's feet felt like they were tied with iron blocks and he couldn't lift them.
She looked at Xie Jingyu and said with difficulty, "Well...you and I were married by the Emperor, and divorce is as difficult as ascending to heaven. I know this can't be rushed, but I also have to make some plans for my future. I don't want to end up alone..."
Xie Jingyu put down the book in his hand and asked, "What are your plans?"
"I want to have two children..."
Shen Wan's voice was too weak to be heard.
Chen Ping stood aside with his eyes wide open.
Xie Jingyu couldn't believe what he heard and stared at Shen Wan in a daze.
Shen Wan was a little nervous, "I know my request is too much..."
Xie Jingyu asked, "Give birth to a son and a daughter?"
Shen Wan nodded hurriedly.
Xie Jingyu smiled and said, "If you like, you can have more children..."
Shen Wan's heart skipped a beat when he heard this, and he suspected that he was speaking sarcastically, but looking at his expression, he didn't look angry at all.
What kind of living Bodhisattva did she meet? He didn't mind her giving birth to two other people's children under the identity of his prince's consort, and he also asked her to have more children.
"No, no, I'll just have two."
She was not sure whether she could get these two things. She didn't even know where the father of the child was. How could she dare to think too much? Besides, giving birth to children was so hard. Two was enough.
Fortunately, she was still struggling for a few days. If she had known that Xie Jingyu was so easy to talk to, she would have come to ask him earlier.
The stone weighing on his heart was removed, and Chen Wan returned to the house with a light heart.
As Shen Wan left, Chen Ping followed and said, "Congratulations, my lord, the clouds have finally cleared."
Xie Jingyu was in a good mood.
"reward."
After obtaining Xie Jingyu's consent, Shen Wan returned to the house and thought about how to find the child's cheap father. In her previous life, she had left her no clues, including a jade pendant.
Later, she burned herself to death in the cold palace, and it was because her spirit was possessed by the jade pendant.
Chen Wan could draw the jade pendant he had carried with him for seven years even with his eyes closed.
However, after her rebirth, many things had changed. The child's adoptive father might not necessarily wear this jade pendant to celebrate the birthday of Concubine Kang...
My eldest brother knows a lot of people, maybe he can help her find out.
But the more important question is, now that she has found the person, does she really have the courage to force herself on him?
As soon as one problem is solved, another one arises.
The maid brought the dinner, and Xie Jingyu came back to eat with Shen Wan, picking up some food for Shen Wan and saying, "Eat more."
Before, Chen Wan had always regarded Xie Jingyu as the King of Hell, the person who could decide whether she would die at three or five in the morning. But today, her opinion of him had really changed. She returned the favor and picked up some food for him as a token of her gratitude.
But Xie Jingyu picked up chopsticks for her one by one, and Shen Wan was a little dazed.
Is it her illusion?
This person feels in an unusually good mood.
Is it because she cheated on him, the emperor will definitely grant them a divorce, and she will vacate the position of Crown Prince's Consort for him?
No wonder he agreed so readily, they really hit it off.
The meal was particularly harmonious. After the meal, the prince asked Xie Jingyu to come over for something. Shen Wan strolled around the yard twice and then went back to the house.
With nothing to do, the maid brought some paint and she painted the jade pendant to make it easier to find.
Shen Wan spent the entire night looking at the jade pendant.
The night passes quietly.
After Chen Wan finished bathing, he came out from behind the screen. A gust of wind blew in from the window, blowing the drawings on the small table to the ground.
Shen Wan walked over to pick it up, and Xie Jingyu walked in.
Why did he go back to the house?
Chen Wan felt strange, but since this was someone else's house, he might have come back to get something, so Chen Wan didn't think much about it.
She was about to bend down, but the drawing was picked up by Xie Jingyu first.
Xie Jingyu looked at the blueprint, and Shen Wan's heart moved, and he asked, "Have you seen this jade pendant?"
Xie Jingyu took another look at the drawing and said, "It looks familiar."
Shen Wan looked at him intently.
Xie Jingyu said, "I don't remember where I've seen it before."
She wants to find this jade pendant, so just help her find it later. Nothing is more important than consummating the marriage right now.
He put the drawing down casually and put his arm around Shen Wan's waist. Before Shen Wan could react to his sudden intimacy, his kiss fell.
Shen Wan, “……!!!”
What's wrong with this person?
Why does it suddenly feel like I've taken the wrong medicine?
Shen Wan wanted to speak, but he kissed her seriously, domineeringly and gently, and Shen Wan was swallowed up by him several times when she opened her mouth.
at last--
He picked up Shen Wan horizontally and walked towards the bed.
Shen Wan's head was dazed, "What are you doing?"
Xie Jingyu looked at her, the tenderness in his eyes could squeeze out water, "Aren't you going to have a baby?"
Shen Wan, “……!!!”
Shen Wan panicked. What kind of misunderstanding was this? She hurriedly said, "I want to have a baby, but I don't want to have it with you..."
The smile on Xie Jingyu's face froze and cracked inch by inch.
Anger swept through his eyes like a violent storm, "Say that again?!"
Shen Wan was frightened by his furious look, and her throat was tied, "I, I..."
"explain!"
Shen Wan didn't dare to say anything more.
Even if Chen Wan stopped talking, Xie Jingyu heard what he said before. He only felt the taste of blood in his mouth, and he was so angry that he threw Chen Wan onto the bed.
Even though the bed was covered with bedding, my butt would still hurt badly if I fell.
Shen Wan subconsciously wanted to rub him, but Xie Jingyu pressed down on her. He was like a mad lion, and the anger in his eyes seemed to be able to destroy everything. "Who do you like? Do you want to give birth to his child?!"
The words came out from between his teeth.
Shen Wan was so frightened that he was shaking all over, because Xie Jingyu looked exactly like the time when he tried to assault him in the Imperial Garden in his previous life.
Shen Wan's face turned pale, and he trembled as he spoke, "No, I don't like anyone. I don't know who he is..."
Before he could finish his words, his neck started to hurt.
Xie Jingyu bit her neck.
He reached out and pulled at her waist.
He was mad as hell.
Since the Lantern Festival, he has been patient and restrained, not overstepping the line. But she, despite her status as the Crown Prince's Consort, wanted to have a child for someone else and even asked for his opinion, hoping that he would agree.
Xie Jingyu didn't know when he had given her the illusion that he was so easy to talk to?!
She wants to have a baby, sure!
It can only be his!
The corset was very tight, and Xie Jingyu was so angry that he had no patience at all and tore it apart.
Shen Wan was frightened and cried, "Don't be like this, I won't have a baby, I won't have a baby..."
Xie Jingyu bit down her neck all the way. Shen Wan was trembling so much that she couldn't speak clearly, so he stopped.
He thought of what the third prince of North Vietnam said and how he almost assaulted her in his previous life, and he suddenly stood up.
Shen Wan quickly sat up and pulled the quilt to cover herself.
Xie Jingyu looked at Shen Wan with cold eyes and turned to leave.
The door opened, the wind blew in his face, and Xie Jingyu could no longer suppress the bloody taste in his mouth.
He spat out a mouthful of blood.
"My Lord!"
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