In this family, Lin Xuanxuan feels like a free babysitter, but there is no other way. If the Ji family had adopted her, she would not have been able to eat well and wear warm clothes, let alone go to school and take the college entrance examination.
Therefore, Lin Xuanxuan does all the housework at home without complaint.
Just as Lin Xuanxuan stood up to leave, a slender and powerful hand suddenly grabbed her slender wrist.
"Don't go."
The man spoke in a hoarse voice, somewhat unclearly.
In a second, the man grabbed her wrist and exerted force. Lin Xuanxuan was dragged over unexpectedly and fell into her arms.
"Ji Qingping, you..." Lin Xuanxuan looked at him in panic.
At this time, the two lips are very close, almost nose to nose, and the slightest movement will touch each other's lips.
Feeling the man's hot and alcohol-filled breath, Lin Xuanxuan's whole body stiffened and she dared not move again.
The man's rough hands held her soft little face, his deep eyes stared at her for a long while, and then he kissed her deeply.
Instantly Lin Xuanxuan's eyes widened in disbelief. She struggled hard, but the physical strength gap between girls and boys was too great, and she failed to struggle.
Gradually, she indulged in the man's gentle and deep kiss.
At the moment when her consciousness was about to blur, she heard the word "깊", which struck her like lightning.
"Xuezhi..."
The man shouted in confusion.
Lin Xuanxuan's face turned pale, tears streaming down her cheeks.
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"Early the next morning, after Ji Qingping woke up, he was silent for a long time." Lin Xuanxuan said, "Until Li Xiumei came and saw this scene, Li Xiumei chased me."
"This time, Ji Qingping protected me and told Li Xiumei that he wanted to marry me."
"No matter how Li Xiumei objects, marry me."
Lin Xuanxuan said, with a self-deprecating smile, "I knew that the person I liked was Su Xuezhi, but when she said she wanted to marry me, my heart was moved."
"That's how I married her." Xuan Xuan choked up and said, "But she treated me very coldly after we got married. She even touched me on our wedding night. Since then, Li Xiumei has treated me like a thorn in her side and scolded me for every little thing... Sometimes I wonder, when will this life end?"
Shen Li looked at her sympathetically, "In fact, you don't have to work like a slave in the Ji family. You always think that they took you in, and you work like a slave to repay them, but this in itself is that they owe you! If it was your father who saved Ji Qingping's father, you would lose your father and become an orphan!"
"Xuanxuan, you are still too weak, that's why you are controlled like this." Shen Li said.
Lin Xuanxuan looked at her in confusion, tears all over her crying face.
Shen Li wiped it for her, "You are always so self-deprecating. You even look down on yourself. How can you expect others to respect you?"
"I do have low self-esteem because I have no parents, I have nothing, I am so ordinary, I have a poor family background..." Lin Xuanxuan lowered her head and began to list her shortcomings.
"Xuanxuan, I find that your biggest problem is that you always find fault with yourself and always talk about your good points." Shen Li said.
Lin Xuanxuan was stunned where she was, but what she said was all true.
"You always magnify your own shortcomings infinitely," Shen Li's voice was very soft and gentle, giving me a very reassuring feeling, "Look, you even approve of yourself. Don't you realize that you have been mentally abusing yourself?"
"Mentally abusing yourself?" Lin Xuanxuan was a little confused. These words had never been said to her before.
"Yes, although you were born in the countryside, many sisters-in-law on the island were born in the countryside. I was born in the countryside, so what? It shows that we have a good family background," Shen Li said.
"But I'm like you, you're smart and pretty..."
"Why is it the same? You are beautiful, you are smart, and you are kind and honest. You are not sneaky, but you are sincere. You study hard and learn things quickly. For example, when you dance, you are the first one to learn those moves. Other sisters-in-law have to learn them two or three times, but you remember them after just one time and can dance them fluently. This shows that you are smart and have a strong learning ability." Shen Li looked into Lin Xuanxuan's eyes sincerely and said word by word.
Lin Xuanxuan stood there in a daze.
"I'm smart?" She was a little too confident to believe it.
After all, she had been oppressed for a long time, insulted and scolded by Li Xiumei for a long time, and Li Xiumei compared her with Su Xuezhi. After being oppressed and insulted for a long time, Lin Xuanxuan felt that she could do anything, that she knew everything, and she looked down on herself.
This is the first time someone has praised her for being smart.
"Of course you are smart. If you were smart, you would be a college student?" Shen Li said with a smile, "Look, how many college students are there on our island?"
Thinking about it this way, Lin Xuanxuan felt that it was true.
It seemed that she was not as good-for-nothing as Li Xiumei said she was.
She has strengths.
"In fact, with your conditions, you could find a decent job after graduating from college and live a refined and happy life. But you are like this now, marrying Ji Qingping before graduating from college and being completely dependent on him. Don't you realize that you revolve around Ji Qingping and Li Xiumei all the time, and your life is centered around them, and you have lost yourself?" Shen Li said.
"You're right..." Lin Xuanxuan suddenly felt like she had been enlightened. "After I came to the island to join the army, I stayed in the house all day, cleaning and doing housework, serving my mother-in-law and my husband. I only had a little time to work as a part-time worker in the canning factory... I had no self at all. I was like a piece of wood, like a nanny for our family."
"You are the most diligent person in the canning factory. Although you are a part-time worker, you are nimble and quick. You can do the same amount of work as my sister-in-law in one and a half hours in one hour," said Shen Li.
"If your current life is what you want, then you should change it." Shen Li continued, "For example, you can try to spend some time on yourself every day. When you get your salary every month, you can reward yourself with some beautiful new clothes and a beautiful hair ornament, and reward yourself with something delicious. You can also go out more often, socialize more and make new friends. You can go to the beach with your sisters-in-law, watch the sunrise and sunset together, and feel the sea breeze. In this way, won't you feel much better? Don't stay at home all the time." In her previous life, Shen Li had seen news about housewives who were depressed and committed suicide or jumped off buildings because they were stuck at home.
She hoped that this would happen to Xuanxuan.
After all, she is still so young and so lively.
"Li Li, you're right." Lin Xuan Xuan clenched her fists and bit her lips. "I want to live for myself. When I earn money in the future, I will give it to my mother-in-law and spend it on myself."