Chapter 124: Moths and Fire Helan Wei's Previous Life (2)
She is engaged to Li Xun.
From then on, she and Li Xun were a couple in public, an engaged couple, and everything was legitimate.
He became the one who was hidden from the public.
How could Helan Wei be willing?
Therefore, he began to quarrel with her frequently and asked her to break up with Li Xun.
Until the last time.
Xie Yanyu could no longer endure it: "I've broken up with him. How can I continue to be your plaything? He can give me money and power, but what can you give me?"
She said this.
This actually contradicts some of what she had said to him before.
She'd said she wanted to be close to him for no ulterior motive, but now she's getting engaged to someone else simply for money and power. Isn't that contradictory? If she truly loved him and had no other ulterior motives, why would she ask what he could give her?
But he can also give her money and power.
He already wants to marry her, he just hasn't told her yet.
He wanted her cultivation to be higher and her strength to be stronger.
But after discovering that her spiritual roots were not suitable for cultivation, he decided to give her a noble status. He had already sent someone to retrieve her life disc from the Xie family, and then find a sufficiently prominent family to force the head of the family to recognize her as his own daughter. The difference between a daughter of a noble family and an adopted daughter is completely different.
But what’s the point of doing this?
Helan Wei had never asked this question, but in fact he always knew the answer.
He knew from the beginning that she was an orphan, without noble status and bloodline, nor strong strength and spiritual roots. Whether she became the adopted daughter of the Xie family or was adopted as the biological daughter of another prominent family, she was still herself.
Did he mind her identity, or did he know deep down that she was a lowly creature born from incest between a cousin and a brother, and had no Helan blood in her veins?
Who is the truly lowly one? Hasn't he ever known it in his heart?
Because I know it clearly and care about it, it has become a ulcer in my heart and a thorn in my ribs, and I dare not even touch it.
So, is it that he looks down on her, or does he not want to admit that he is just a lowly thing, does not want to go back to the Helan family's backyard, be called the Twenty-Nineth Young Master, and have to beg for even a piece of cake, and admit that he actually does not deserve anything?
As long as you appear noble, you are noble.
As long as you look down on lowly people, you can create a gap between yourself and them.
As long as you always stay high and mighty, you will not become a worthless person who is unworthy of being loved.
But the person in front of him crawled out of the mud, and even though he was as small as a blade of grass, he could still crawl to him.
Her body was composed of hard, unbending bones, and her soul was burning with an inextinguishable fire that burned and burst forth with light so ostentatious that one had to focus their attention on her.
The light here can better contrast the darkness next to it.
It makes him look cowardly, despicable, and a completely dark and twisted rotten person.
Helan Wei didn't say anything else and didn't ask any further questions.
How can we not know some answers deep down in our hearts?
I know I am lowly, so I don't want to admit it.
Knowing that she probably never liked him, he didn't want to ask her whether she really didn't like him.
Blindfold your eyes to pretend you can't see.
If I don't ask, if I don't hear her clear and straightforward answer, I can pretend I don't know—
Maybe she did love him, but she changed her mind, right?
If she really didn't love him, how could she have stayed with him for so long?
In order to force her, in order to test whether her love was really without any other intention, he did not give her a name. If she had other intentions, why didn't she leave for so long?
So she had loved before.
It's just that the love has worn off and the heart has changed.
Since she no longer loved him, he didn't have much to ask.
Helan Wei knew that he liked the feeling of being loved by her, he just liked the feeling of being loved by her.
That's all.
So, since she no longer loved him, his previous plan of marriage should be abandoned. So be it.
But why couldn't he take his eyes off her?
After that day, he and she had no more interactions, except that she came to him to remove the love thread Gu every two weeks. When they met, they pretended not to know each other.
But he began to watch her in the dark.
He began to hate her a little.
He hated her for being so dazzling, always letting him see the bright light from the fire in her soul. He was not a moth, nor did he move towards the light, but why did he always have to stare at her, why could he never take his eyes away?
Why, why, why?!
Not long after he helped her get rid of the poison again, she and Li Xun broke off their engagement.
Li Xun posted the letter of divorce, which listed her affair with him.
How funny.
Now that she has changed her mind, will Li Xun treat her well?
With all the rumors going around, she will never be able to break away from him.
…
Because of rumors, she was taken back by the Xie family.
She was placed under house arrest.
Xie Chengjin was not too harsh on her. He placed her under house arrest according to family rules, but placed her in a pretty good house. However, the house was built in a very depressing way, with very high walls and a roof over her head to prevent her from escaping. It was also dark and gloomy all day long without seeing the sun.
Knowing about the love thread Gu, Xie Chengjin found some kind of miraculous medicine to suppress her love thread Gu.
When the poison takes effect, she will feel very painful, but she will not explode and die. As long as she can endure the pain for one night, her body will return to normal the next day.
Helan Wei knew this.
Because he was staring at her, staring at her, staring at her.
He also knew that Li Xun had gone to find her and wanted to re-engage her, but she refused.
It was obvious that Li Xun could take her out of this place.
But she refused.
Later she cut out her spiritual roots.
The love poison in his heart no longer responded.
Even though he was keeping an eye on her, he lost her in a busy city and she disappeared.
Being locked up in such a dark place for such a long time.
But why did the fire in her soul burn more and more brightly?
…
Something seemed to be wrong with him.
After losing her, he began to think about her frequently.
In severe cases, he may experience hallucinations.
It's like when a person stares at a fire for a long time and then suddenly looks away, he will still see the illusion of the flickering fire.
Maybe he had been staring at her for too long, so he was not used to not being able to see her suddenly.
But the situation did not improve over time.
He began to see more and more visions and hear more and more voices.
But he knew it was an illusion, so he ignored it.
When I find her again.
She is in the demon world and is about to marry the demon lord Chen Lang.
For some unknown reason, Helan Wei went to find her again and took her hand to take her back: "Are you crazy? Making a deal with the demon tribe? I'll take you back."
But Xie Yanyu shook his hand away: "You're taking me back? What for?"
The veins on Helan Wei's forehead were throbbing.
He opened his mouth and for a moment wanted to say, "Don't marry some demon lord. If I marry you, the life I have here will be no worse than the one here."
But then he thought that she didn't like him anymore, and talking about marriage was a little funny, but he still slowed down his tone: "It will be better than you staying here. Will you be happy if everyone hates you in the future?"
Instead, she spoke very bluntly.
She said, "You mean, it would be better for me to cling to you than to stay here?"
Helan Wei stared at her.
I heard her say again, "I have no value to you. I'm clinging to you. How you treat me depends on your mood. I know betraying the human race is shameful, but I want to live a better life. At least to the Demon Lord, I am valuable. Exchanging benefits is safer than depending on your mood. I'm not stupid. I won't go with you. Go back."
Helan Wei opened his mouth, wanting to say something to her.
But at this time, the Demon Lord came over.
Xie Yanyu pushed him away directly and explained to the Demon Lord that she had nothing to do with him.
…
That was the last time Helan Wei looked for her.
He was unwilling to bend down, let alone bow his head to others.
He said those words to her because he was possessed by the devil at that time. He had never spoken to anyone like that before, in a manner that was almost like a request.
This feeling repelled him, and he couldn't accept himself making such a gesture towards anyone.
Even hearing news about her or seeing her appearance would remind him of his own attitude at that time, and he felt very resistant.
He shouldn't look at her anymore.
But he did not change his bad habits and continued to secretly spy in the dark.
When I could see her, when I heard news about her, all the illusions and false shadows that I had always seen before disappeared.
Maybe it was because he saw the fire again.
But sometimes when I can't see her or hear from her, the visions reappear.
He didn't know why he kept seeing visions.
Until one day, he saw the Heart Mirror glowing——
It gave rise to his inner demons.
What you see, think, intend, and obsessive desires are all demons in your heart.
If you have demons in your heart, you will see illusions.
After that, some changes happened in the Helan family.
Helan Mingci learned that Helan Wei was not his child, but a bastard born from the affair between Madam Yi and his cousin.
So Helan Mingci remained calm and studied the evil arts for a while.
A sorcery that can make a man have children.
He wanted to give birth to a child who was truly his own flesh and blood, so he used the evil magic to make himself pregnant with a child, and then began to seize Helan Wei's power to pave the way for the child in her belly. He wanted to extract Helan Wei's bones and muscles and give them to the child, just like what Madam Yi did back then.
Of course, Helan Mingci's methods are more sophisticated.
Helan Wei only realized something was wrong when most of his power was taken back, but by then he had already been imprisoned.
It can't be said that he has fallen into the dust, because the baby in Helan Mingci's belly has not been born yet, so he is still regarded as the only son of the Helan family, but it is indeed a feeling of being treated as a prey.
Helan Wei saw the illusion again.
I see Xie Yanyu every day, even with my eyes closed.
He suddenly understood why she didn't want to come back with him. At night, he sat in the yard, looking at the illusion in front of him, and suddenly asked: "If others were the butchers and you were the meat, what would you do?"
Shadow moved but didn't say anything.
It was as if a fire jumped and burned brighter.
The vision was voiceless, but he knew her answer.
Resistance.
Later he killed Helan Mingci.
It took some time and effort to unite with Zhao Zhen.
But even so, the Helan family was such a huge force, and he was imprisoned. Even with Zhao Zhen's help, if he killed Helan Mingci, he would kill a thousand enemies and lose eight hundred of his own. But from then on, he became the new head of the Helan family.
It was also that day.
He heard that she was dead—
Dead?
…
The hallucinations were getting worse.
The light on the Heart Demon Mirror became brighter and brighter.
He began to have difficulty distinguishing between reality and illusion, or rather, he could tell the difference because sometimes, as long as he told himself that these were fake, the illusions would disappear, but he did not want these illusions to disappear.
So the time I was awake became less and less.
When he was awake, he put his hand on his waist and felt a sachet.
This sachet is dusty and a little worn. He has been wearing it all the time, but sometimes he can't remember why he wears it. But sometimes he thinks, oh, it seems like this is her sachet.
ha.
You want to separate from me completely, but your sachet is here with me.
How can I say it is broken cleanly? I wear it on my body every day.
…
If you indulge in obsession, you will see what you see.
But the more he indulges in it, the more the Heart Demon Mirror will absorb his spiritual power and efforts, becoming stronger.
The Heart Demon Mirror is getting brighter and brighter.
His inner demon grew into a monster and became the spirit in the inner demon mirror.
The mirror spirit crawled out of the mirror and looked at him. It was not satisfied with devouring his heart and blood, and wanted to devour him, eat his flesh and blood, and transform into a new human body.
But it was unable to devour him.
Even though his memory and thoughts had begun to become confused, he was going crazy, and even his time awake was getting less and less, and even when he was awake he couldn't remember what had happened before, but it still couldn't consume him.
The mirror spirit heard him talking to the void, going crazy and crying to the void, then laughing, and showing a look of desire and pity.
This is a complete madman who indulges in illusions.
But why can’t it be swallowed?
Day by day, year by year, Jing Ling's eyes turned bloodshot with greed, and he looked more like a ghost than any other ghost.
Until this day.
It saw Helan Wei open his eyes.
The man was very handsome, even when he was crazy he was still handsome. He opened his eyes, and his dark eyeballs turned and looked in his direction.
Then he tilted his head, smiling, as if he was surprised: "My blood, sweat and soul actually raised a thing like this?"
The Mirror Spirit said resentfully, "Why can't I devour you?"
Helan Wei lay sideways on the beauty couch, closed her eyes, and spoke lazily, "I heard that if I feed my blood and sweat into a magical instrument and raise a spirit... the spirit can do something for me."
The mirror spirit said quietly, "The price is that I can eat you."
The mirror spirit did not lie.
As long as it swallows Helan Wei, it will no longer be trapped in the mirror.
It was born from Helan Wei and the Heart Demon Mirror. It is a spirit, and can indeed exchange with him and help him fulfill a wish, but this wish must be related to the Heart Demon Mirror. For example, if the Heart Demon Mirror can make people see the past, it can help him see the past.
But the Heart Demon Mirror has more than just this one function.
The Heart Demon Mirror has many functions, and as long as it is related to the Heart Demon Mirror, it can satisfy him.
It suddenly felt a little strange. What on earth was he obsessed with?
It asked Helan Wei: "Is what you want me to do related to the woman you always see in your visions?"
Helan Wei: "Forget it."
It asks, "Do you love her?"
Helan Wei thought about it for a long time.
He closed his eyes.
The head of the Helan family used to be an arrogant and proud genius, but now he looks pale and weak. He even asks Jing Ling to help him do something, so much so that Jing Ling sometimes can't help but wonder, he is not raising it on purpose, right?
He is half crazy.
When he was awake, he could not remember what happened before, and he could not even remember what happened when he was awake. His mind was confused. At this moment, if he closed his eyes again, went crazy again, or fell asleep again, he would not remember what happened now when he woke up.
It shouldn't be the case.
A madman with incoherent memory, how deep must his obsession be to remember to plot against it?
Not really.
The mirror spirit looked at him again.
He closed his eyes and said nothing.
Just when the mirror spirit thought he was asleep and would not answer its question.
It heard his answer: "Maybe I just like the feeling of being loved by her."
Yeah?
If he just liked the feeling of being loved, the illusion he saw should be that countless people loved him like she did.
And why has he been half crazy all these years, and why has all the images he sees only that woman?
The mirror spirit didn't ask any more questions.
It got down to business: "What do you want me to do for you?"
Helan Wei said slowly, "It's alright. Sign a mind contract with me. After the mind contract takes effect, you will swallow me and naturally know what I want you to do."
The arrogant young man still spoke in an overbearing tone at this time.
The mirror spirit felt like it was being ordered around.
It was very unhappy, but still made a pact with him.
Then it changed back into the shape of a lake, right outside Helan Wei's yard, making it easier for it to devour him.
Let him jump into the water, and then eat away his flesh and blood bit by bit.
After throwing water.
You will see what you hold in your heart for the last time.
This kind of death is not too painful. Even if one is torn to pieces bit by bit and his flesh and blood are devoured, the obsession of the inner demon is enough to numb the pain a little.
Jing Ling thought that what Helan Wei said was that he was obsessed with the love of that woman.
So logically speaking,
After Helan Wei jumps into the water, he will once again feel what he wants. Since he only likes the feeling of being loved by her, he will experience the scene when she loves him.
Helan Wei thought so too.
But as he walked into the lake little by little.
When the ice-cold lake water flooded my head and my consciousness became dizzy.
He touched a ball of fire.
A burning, bright fire that never goes out.
…
The mirror spirit devoured Helan Wei's flesh and blood bit by bit.
The heart contract takes effect.
It originally thought that this wasn't an excessive request, but at this moment, it realized that this madman's request was -
Time goes back.
He wanted to see her again.
The Heart Demon Mirror can trace back to the past.
However, it has a deep connection with the Helan family, and only the Helan family knows that this magic weapon can trace back to the past. After giving birth to the spirit of the weapon, its effectiveness is enhanced, and it can also trace back time.
But if time went back, the mirror spirit would disappear as well. It let out a sharp roar, its eyes bloodshot. This twisted lunatic had truly fed it with his own soul and blood for so many years. Paranoid, lunatic! Madman! Sick! !!!!!!!!!
However, the contract had been made, and it could no longer regret having swallowed the madman's flesh and blood.
…
After Helan Mingci died, his son Helan Wei succeeded him as the head of the family.
But this person is crazy.
After that, he stayed indoors, was in a trance, and sometimes talked to the air. He was completely different from before.
Many years later.
The attendants saw that a lake suddenly appeared in front of his courtyard.
Helan Wei walked into the lake and jumped into the water.
A moment later, huge waves appeared in the lake, just like ocean waves, as if there was an extremely angry monster underneath, making sharp roars.
The second day.
The lake disappeared without a trace.
The attendants looked in that direction.
Helan Wei disappeared.
All I saw was a body, with all the flesh and blood gone and only bones left.
There was no time to scream.
Everyone was frozen in place.
Time seemed to have stopped from then on and would never move forward again.
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