Chapter 158 You Hit Me, I Want to Get Beaten
After the last meeting, Xie Yanyu returned to the Xie family.
The Xie family's demon-killing formation was reinforced by Xie Chengjin, and Chen Lang could not get in no matter what, so he never saw Xie Yanyu again. Not long after, it was heard that Xie Yanyu took away the Zheling Ruler and disappeared.
He searched all over Tiandu, trying to find her, and found a teleportation array on the outskirts of the city.
Following her breath, he could sense that she had left with Helan Wei, but Helan Mansion also used the same demon-killing formation, which Shen Lang was unable to bypass.
So did he do something wrong?
Shouldn't he have tried to capture her and tie her up?
It's like grabbing a handful of sand in your hand. The tighter you hold it, the faster the sand will flow away. But if you don't try to hold on to the sand in your hand, won't the sand still flow away?
Yes, I will.
It's just a little slower, but he will still lose her.
——Because he never had it and would never get even a little bit of her love in the future.
This thought nearly sent Shen Lang into a rage. He threw many things in a rage, forcing himself to suppress the thought. Impossible, impossible, there's still a chance, there's still a chance...
He waited outside the Helan Mansion, waiting for her to appear day after day.
But she never left the house. The only time she appeared was when she opened the door and released a cloud of mist. Shen Lang recognized that she had cast some spell on the mist, which she had learned from the book he gave her.
He followed the mist and came to Peidu.
He knew that he could definitely wait for her here.
But what should we say when we meet?
Shen Lang looked at her, and for the first time, he felt a little overwhelmed and didn't know what to say.
After a long while, he said, "I'm sorry."
He was probably apologizing for rejecting her last time, but it could also be something else, but Xie Yanyu didn't want to think about it.
A bit strange.
In past lives and present lives, she had been with him for quite a while. In this life, he had been at her beck and call and done a lot for her, but she only felt accustomed to him and had no other feelings towards him.
How could she be emotionless?
But it was all in the past. She was struggling to survive and never had the time to care about these things. She couldn't even take care of her own emotions and feelings. When it came to her true wishes, she was at a loss. How could she spend too much time thinking about other people's feelings?
But she knew.
She felt very little guilty towards Li Xun; towards Helan Wei, she had twisted emotions that made her want to step on him, want to see him cry, and want to hurt him; and between her and Xie Chengjin, it was a tangled mess that could not be cut.
But for Shen Lang, there was nothing except a little habit.
If one compares her heart to the surface of water, when she thinks of Chen Lang, there is not even a slight ripple.
So she didn't want to think about him.
Hearing what he said, she nodded and turned to get in the car.
However, the next second, Shen Lang came over: "I..."
He wanted to ask if he could be with her, but the words got stuck in his throat. What he finally said was, "Can I follow you? I don't want anything." His tone was a little hurried. He really couldn't bear not being able to see her. "I won't refuse you again, I won't ask you for anything again. Whatever you want me to do, can I follow you?"
He rarely sounded so urgent.
Xie Yanyu turned around and looked at him.
He had a good appearance, but now he looked a little pitiful, like a puppy that had been abandoned by its owner and was holding the corner of its owner's skirt. But: "Why do you ask me?"
Xie Yanyu said, "Even if I told you not to follow me, you would still follow me. You know, I can't stop you. So, does my wish matter?"
This wasn't the first time she'd said something like that.
But this is the first time he has said it so bluntly.
Shen Lang was stunned for a moment. He wanted to refute and say how could her wishes not be important?
But countless times in the past, he had never asked her if she wanted to follow him. Even if she said no, he would still follow her. Even if he didn't want to disturb her, he would still let her know of his presence, like an elusive ghost. His gaze, from past lives to this, had always been like a leech, seeping into her every breath.
While he was doing this, he never cared about her answer.
So her answer doesn't matter.
The beautiful face suddenly lost its color and turned pale.
So, he was wrong again, wasn't he?
Shen Lang felt very confused, but he just wanted to see her, he just wanted to be by her side, he just wanted her to love him too!
He never wanted to disregard her wishes, he didn't want to—
But the next second,
He heard her say, "If you ask me what I want, then I don't want you to follow me. I never wanted you to follow me. I don't like the feeling of being watched. I kept asking you to follow me because I couldn't refuse you, and you happened to be useful to me. So, I simply stopped refusing you. I know it's useless, so I might as well save some energy and think more about how to use you."
"But you can still use me now. I'm useful. I'm still useful, right?"
"But I don't need it anymore," Xie Yanyu thought for a moment, "I used to think that there were many things I couldn't do on my own. I had to plan with all my might and make use of everything around me. Only in this way could I be absolutely sure. If I were just reckless, I would die, and my end would be miserable. My life can't tolerate any mistakes. But now I still got the Zheling Ruler myself, you see, I'm not dead—"
So she no longer needed him.
It was he who pushed away the last chance, allowing her to fully understand his heart and make a completely different choice for the first time.
Then she discovered that the moment she no longer feared death, fear was just an illusion, and he was an object she no longer needed.
Shen Lang stood there stiffly, not even knowing how to react.
Until Li Xun came back,
He was carrying a lot of bags and had been silent in the car. When he opened his mouth, his tone was extremely harsh: "Why are you still following her?"
Because he wanted to see her.
He loves her, he loves her. Shen Lang wanted to say this, wanted to answer this question, but he couldn't speak. He was no longer able to speak, because he remembered what she had just said. He had never obeyed her wishes, but was love supposed to be like this?
Chen Lang didn't know how animals could learn these things. He only knew that he felt uncomfortable when he couldn't see her. He wanted to follow her, wanted to kiss her, wanted this and that, all of which he wanted. Humans said this was love, but he had forgotten that humans would say that love is about respecting the other person's wishes. He only remembered it at this moment -
He remembered her words and the sword that stabbed her heart in his previous life.
She fell on the bloody ground, and the bright red blood dyed the snow beneath her body red. At the last moment, she was smiling.
That smile was like a leech for many years to come, and he could not forget it. On the first day of burying her, he began to feel uncomfortable because he no longer had to stare at her every day. Then, day after day, he thought of her habits, and he found that he remembered every detail about her.
Why does it feel so painful when I can't see her?
Why, day after day, did he begin to see visions? Why did he run, furious and bewildered, to dig her out of the earth? Recalling the moment he'd stabbed her with the sword, he'd resisted, but he'd suppressed it and thrust the sword into her nonetheless. He'd believed he was seeking only the Great Dao, but why hadn't he finally achieved it? Why had he gradually driven himself mad? Was it because he wasn't used to it? But even cradling her body day after day, he felt it wasn't enough. He wanted to resurrect her, to bring her back to life, to be like before.
He loved her, he loved her.
But no one could teach him what love was. He wanted to answer Li Xun, but the word could no longer escape his lips. He loved her, but was he worthy of love? Was he worthy? Was he worthy?!
What should he do to deserve it?
There was a roar in Shen Lang's ears. He didn't understand, but he seemed to understand something. He wanted to grab her clothes and struggle to say something. Perhaps besides obeying her every command like before, he could do more, could achieve more -
But the next second,
Then he heard Li Xun say again: "Don't follow her, she doesn't want you to follow her at all. Don't always think about her liking you. If she could fall in love with you, she would have loved you a long time ago. She didn't love you for so long in her last life. You don't know, the love she says is only because you are suspicious, and only when she says it will you believe it. You don't really think she loves you, do you? You can feel it yourself, she doesn't love you, and after you married her in your last life, she still coaxed me..."
These words were like a heavy hammer, breaking the eardrums.
Shen Lang could hardly hear what was said next. He could only stand there awkwardly, watching Li Xun pulling Xie Yanyu into the car.
*
Li Xun bought some strange things——
When he arrived at the inn, he opened the bags in his hands, and Xie Yanyu saw a lot of... weapons inside.
Dagger, long knife, soft sword, steel needle...
There are all kinds of weapons, except for whips.
Because Li Xun usually used a whip, he had one in his hand, so he handed her his whip: "Here."
Xie Yanyu was dizzy: "What are you doing?"
Li Xun said grimly: "Aren't you angry?"
He said, "Then you can do all the punishments written on it to me. I wrote them down, but I haven't done any of them to you. If I allow you to do them all to me, will that calm you down?"
Xie Yanyu: "..."
Sometimes she didn't understand what was going on in this person's head.
So he pinched her mouth in the car just now to stop her from talking because he thought she was angry and would curse him even if she opened her mouth?
Xie Yanyu: “…………”
People really do laugh when they feel ridiculous.
She looked at him for a long moment and couldn't help laughing: "This is the first time I've seen someone like this. He's eager to get beaten."
Li Xun sneered: "Do you think I'm a jerk?"
Xie Yanyu said nothing.
Li Xun muttered, "How could I be considered cheap?"
I want to make you happy.
He didn't say the rest of the words, his tone was a little impatient: "Do you want to fight or not? If not, don't even think about it in the future. I'll give you this one chance to take revenge on me."
Xie Yanyu asked, "What's the first item? It's in that booklet."
Li Xun: "Whip me! Use this whip to whip me until my skin is covered in bruises and flesh is exposed. Dip it in salt water and whip me."
He said this, curled his lips, a little aggrieved: "You really asked, do you really want to beat me?"
I was just asking.
But seeing him like this, Xie Yanyu really wanted to slap him.
So she raised her eyes and looked at the whip in her hand. She had never whipped anyone before, and this was even her first time touching a whip. It looked light, but it was very heavy. It must hurt to hit someone. She swung it and actually whipped him: "Didn't you say you would whip me?"
It didn't take much effort.
But after the whip came down, Li Xun suddenly grabbed it and bent down.
Xie Yanyu was stunned for a moment. Seeing his expression, she felt that he was hurt by her whip, so she was about to put down the whip and help him up: "Does it hurt?"
But the next second, the man pulled the whip and pulled her closer.
This is a condescending attitude.
She was the one on top, and he was half-kneeling, holding one end of the whip, wrapping it around the back of his hand, and shortening the whip.
Therefore, Xie Yanyu had no choice but to bend down. When he put his ear close to his lips, he heard him say, "No, it's..."
What is it?
Xie Yanyu saw him hesitating and his eyes were red.
Inexplicably, she felt a pity for him, as if he had been truly beaten, so she pressed his shoulders and straightened his body, wanting to see his wounds. The whip had just hit his chest and abdomen, but when she glanced over, she saw that even his clothes were not damaged at all, except for the clothes between his legs, which were slightly undulating.
His breath was hot.
He whispered in her ear, "It's hard."
Xie Yanyu was confused for a moment——
How, how could someone...
How could someone be so... after being whipped?!
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