Chapter 142
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In a pure white dream.
Xiu Si waited in meditation and sorted out his strength level. Since he broke through level 90, he unlocked a series of skills, such as [Absolute Defense] and [Absolute Dodge].
He was very familiar with these skills because he was the one who thought of them for the children.
He could feel that this was not only because of his upgrade, but also because - the system restart had begun.
Since his resurrection, the system that had been stagnant is gradually returning to normal, with the old being replaced by the new, and the information inside constantly changing.
Although he was full of curiosity, he also knew that such a system update would inevitably take a certain amount of time to complete.
"We have to wait."
He was not as anxious as before because he knew that his children were safe and the day of family reunion was just around the corner, it was only a matter of time.
They have something to do outside and will go home as soon as they finish it.
However, perhaps because he had been sitting there for too long, he couldn't help but have some random thoughts.
He remembered the "Door of Memory" he had seen in his dream before.
He never told anyone about that incident because he always felt that it was something he couldn't talk about and it was a "secret."
As for whose secret it was, he didn't know, but since it was in his dream, it should be his secret. But is there any secret that he can't tell others?
Zeus shook his head. When he created Erzai, Erzai had told him that He could see most of his memories.
In this sense, he had no secrets from his children. He didn't feel anything at the time, because Erzai certainly wouldn't read his memories at will, and he told him that it was a reminder. He also smiled and told them that his memories were open to them, and that his father had no secrets from them.
But even children probably don’t know about the existence of this “Gate of Memory”.
It was in ordinary shape, like any wooden door you could find anywhere, even a little shabby, with the door handle probably breaking if you pulled it. But it was this door, hidden deep in his memory, that seemed to have existed for a very long time, at least a hundred years, at most tens of thousands of years, or even longer.
Zeus was shocked by his own idea, because "ten thousand years" is indeed not a normal way of timekeeping for humans.
"Is it because I have been in the dream for too long that I have gradually lost my normal sense of time?"
Hughes was puzzled, and later concluded that it had an impact, but was not the root cause.
He shook his head, turned the page, and continued to look at the dilapidated narrow door of memory.
He thought that there might be some memories of past lives behind the door. The other world was so bizarre, so it wouldn't be strange to have a past life setting of his own, right? It shouldn't be considered a magical development.
so……
Xius slowly stood up in his consciousness, his eyes flashing with thought. After a moment, he took a decisive step, his figure flashed through the void, and finally appeared in front of the narrow door.
He observed it, closed his eyes and sensed it, but found nothing. This meant that only by opening it could he know what was inside. Just standing in front of the door, no matter how long he thought about it, was useless.
But do you want to open it yourself?
Assuming that behind the door is the memory of the previous life, then after opening it, he will be able to know his previous life. But does he have to know it?
"Whether or not this door is opened...it probably doesn't mean much."
Zeus lowered his eyes, as if in deep thought.
He is not one to rock the boat.
When he was at Bluestar, although his colleagues frequently changed jobs, some in pursuit of higher salaries, and some unable to bear the pressure, he always stayed in his original company. This was not because other companies did not offer him an olive branch, nor was it because the benefits of his original company were so attractive, with salary increases every year, but simply because of his personality.
There are many such voices around him: A person who is unwilling to make progress, no matter how good his character is, is destined to be cannon fodder in the concrete jungle.
He also agrees with these views to some extent.
Therefore, he will go with the flow and reflect on himself for a while, but ultimately he will choose to stay where he is, as if he were confined in a prison.
It cannot be said that he refuses change, he just does not have enough energy to adapt to the completely new environment.
Of course, in the eyes of his friends, he might not lack energy so much as he lacks "courage."
Many people know what is right, but knowing is not the same as being able to do it. Sometimes it is better not to know these "right" things, so that you will not be confused and distressed because of wasting time.
When I think back, it’s very contradictory. He actively and diligently learns new knowledge and improves the aesthetics required by his profession. In theory, he should be a person who is positive about change. However, once he faces a completely unfamiliar environment, he becomes hesitant.
Is there a fundamental difference between them? It's hard to tell the difference, right?
Xiu Si suddenly realized that his life in the past was actually quite chaotic.
It’s not quite muddle-headed; “chaos” is more appropriate.
People don't necessarily need a clear self, right? Although the latter may live more transparently and freely, Hughes himself has not tried such a life, so he cannot make a hasty judgment. Any judgment without personal experience may be narrow-minded. Only those who have truly experienced such a life can know the true feelings.
Xiu Si pondered for a moment, and his feelings became clearer and clearer. He found that the real reason why he didn't want to open the narrow door was that he didn't want to face a strange self.
Aren’t the so-called memories of past lives just the memories of a strange self?
He was afraid that accepting these memories would cause him to undergo unpredictable changes, so he hesitated.
There was a long silence.
"I am just daydreaming. People can't just change."
Hughes shook his head, trying to suppress his distracting thoughts, but the more he suppressed them, the more active they became.
It even seemed as if the door sensed some irresistible force, ready to open on its own.
"What?" Zeus stood up in astonishment. This was his inner world, but at this moment it seemed to have escaped his control. This strange feeling had only occurred in dreams.
But it seems there is another reason.
"Could it be that it sensed that I would not push the door open, so it would open automatically at the set time, just like an alarm clock?"
Hugh paused, thinking that he had thought of the truth. If this was the case, then he could only be the one who set the "alarm".
In other words, is it time to “wake up”?
Xiusi took a deep breath, and an indescribable feeling surged in his heart.
There is something indescribably strange about making a person who is already awake wake up.
However, the "alarm clock" rang more and more urgently, and the presence of the door became extremely strong, almost face to face with Hughes, making it impossible for him to ignore its existence.
Will it finally open? Hughes stared at the slightly trembling door crack, and when he was about to push it open, the figures of the children suddenly flashed before his eyes. He couldn't help but wonder whether opening this door would be good or bad for the children. The answer was still unknown.
There was no time to hesitate. He thought to himself that as a brave man, now was the time to show his courage.
Hopefully... things will be good after opening it.
He finally pushed the door open with both hands, and as he expected, behind the door was a long and dusty memory.
There is no beginning and no end. Perhaps it is as long as the universe has existed.
This was the first time that Hughes had seen "memory", and also the first time he had seen such a long memory, which was boundless, like a river of light with no end. The human brain could never bear this memory, and the huge amount of information it carried, which was on the scale of "ten thousand years", was far beyond the processing capacity of the human brain and reached the limit of overload.
It was the first time that Hughes had seen such a scene. The memories surged like a river, spreading out to form a vast river of memory. The whole scene was extremely shocking.
As soon as the door opened, the memory rushed out like a flood, instantly submerging the entire consciousness space of Xius, forming a deep and boundless sea. The sea level continued to rise at an alarming rate, as if it was going to swallow everything.
Faced with such a huge amount of memory, Hughes felt helpless. He tried to find a starting point for digestion, but everything in front of him seemed to be disorganized, leaving him at a loss as to where to start.
"All my memories of past lives...are they here?" Zeus murmured to himself. He felt like he was standing on a floating island. As the sea level continued to rise, he could be submerged by his own memories at any time.
This feeling is really indescribable and weird.
Hughes was confused for a while, but soon accepted it. Then, Hughes walked to the edge of the island, took a deep breath, squatted down, and plucked up the courage to scoop up water with both hands. The moment his hands touched the water, a huge amount of memories flooded into his mind like a tide, making him stunned in an instant, with a face full of shock.
At the same time, his system restarted steadily, and the voice of congratulations on the upgrade kept echoing in his mind. His level jumped from level 91 to level 99, as if it was just a matter of a moment, and the matching degree of the Creator profession jumped to 99%.
The promotion in rank strengthened his body and consciousness in time, enabling him to successfully withstand the surging torrent of memories.
These memories were filled with countless visual and auditory information, as if countless people were talking in his ears at the same time, with chaotic and noisy voices. However, what caught him off guard was the emotional impact.
These emotions may not seem particularly strong individually, but each one is the result of years of accumulation, like wine that has been fermented to the extreme, and every glass is intoxicating.
Hughes didn't know how much time he spent digesting these memories. He had always lacked a sense of the passage of time. Once there was no reference or periodic thing to remind him, he would easily fall into something and even forget the existence of time.
In the past, he had missed many important things because of this. He knew it was a bad habit, but he couldn't correct it. He always needed them to remind him to pull himself out of the world he was immersed in and realize that so much time had passed.
——Yes, this time too.
Houston paused, as if he had finally found the beginning of everything.
He discovered a serious flaw in the children that could not be ignored and had to be repaired, otherwise they would suffer.
He was troubled by this for a long time, but the Creator is not omnipotent, and he himself was also crossing the river by feeling the stones, constantly creating something out of nothingness based on his intuition and experience.
Yes, creating something out of nothing, this is exactly where his divinity lies. But in that barren world, even concepts like "method" and "road" are "miracles" that were conceived with great difficulty in the mind.
No matter what, he couldn't just sit there and do nothing.
So he went looking for a fix for the defect, and as he searched...he came to the present moment.
He kept searching without stopping. He went to many places and tried many methods. He got lost at one point and almost forgot who he was.
But even now, there seems to be no way to fix that defect.
I don't know where to start. I have had many ideas, but none of them are methods.
Therefore, he could only blame himself.
——It was his responsibility and his fault that he failed to create them and make them perfect.
Thinking of this, Xiusi trembled all over and his face became heavy.
His "past life memories" were very long, and after sorting them out, he finally succeeded in sorting out a thread, with the cause, process and result all in it. He watched his own memories like a bystander, until the truth came out, he finally realized that he was the creator god.
The creator of this universe, the parent of countless children. The children of children prefer to call him the Creator.
After he realized this, the system's career matching rate instantly became 100%.
Zeus was shocked by himself. He felt that it was as he expected, but also felt that it was unreal, as if divinity and humanity were engaged in a fierce struggle.
He was in a trance for a while, and it took him a long time to calm down. No matter who it happened to, it would be a long time to be shocked.
Xius was a little confused, and he lowered his head and muttered to himself: "But speaking of it, how did I become a human?"
This is definitely a long story. He looked up at the endless sea and couldn't help being silent. Who else finds it as difficult to recall the past as to find a needle in a haystack? He is one of them.
“The difficulty is extremely high.”
He fished for a while, almost running out of patience, and finally found the "reason".
"It turns out that I was just accidentally curious."
This reason is a bit outrageous, but it somehow fits his character.
He felt that by experiencing life without any memory, he might be able to come up with a sudden inspiration and an unprecedented method.
After all, for him, life is no more than a hundred years, which is just a blink of an eye. There is nothing he cannot try.
Any method is worth trying.
Xius nodded and continued, "Then... why did I travel through time?"
Questions surfaced one after another, and he had to slowly recall and answer them.
"It seems that I got involved in summoning magic by accident."
He frowned.
Wait, by chance?
There are so many people on Blue Star, was it just a coincidence that this happened to him?
Hughes shook his head.
It shouldn't be that simple. There must be a will in that magic. I don't know whether that will is good or bad, but it definitely chose him on purpose.
Xius thought that was probably well-intentioned, although his life after traveling back in time was not easy.
As he recalled this, he gradually felt exhausted. After all, the human body is limited. Although Agares helped him strengthen his body in time, the human brain still could not digest the memory of the god.
He had to change his body. But after using his human body for so long, he couldn't bear to give it up.
The body, like clothes, has its own terms of comfort. The finite is more comfortable than the infinite, just as having clothes is more comfortable than having no clothes.
Hughes couldn't help but hesitate.
It was not until this moment that he suddenly remembered something.
Yes, Agares, his second cub is waiting for him outside!
Hughes quickly sorted out his memories, and in order to strengthen his sense of time, he built a huge clock in his conscious time.
Bad habits must be changed. He stressed to himself that when he closed his eyes and opened them again, he would wake up and the scene in front of him would return to his dream.
Xius lowered his eyes slightly and just happened to meet the gaze of the snow leopard in front of him.
The snow leopard seemed to be very worried about him, and his usually calm eyes were slightly disturbed.
"Don't worry, Dad is fine."
Xius answered immediately, and thought about how to explain himself to Erzai, but then he remembered that Erzai was omniscient and omnipotent.
His eyes changed, and he couldn't help but ask: "Do you already know?"
The snow leopard nodded.
Xius was shocked and asked subconsciously: "When did you know?"
The snow leopard made no move to speak, but gentle voices came from all directions.
"At the beginning, at birth."
Xiu Si was even more shocked, and didn't know what to say for a moment. His second child actually knew his identity as soon as he was born. Logically speaking, no one except the gods of the primitive period could recognize him in that human form, right?
Although it was a power I set myself, I was still shocked by the result.
Hughes paused for a moment, his eyes attracted by the long-lost appearance of the second cub. He couldn't help but squat down and gently stroke the soft fur, following the texture of the fur while asking gently.
The snow leopard seemed more worried about him.
Erzai knew everything, even the fact that he had recovered his memory.
"I can't hide it from you."
He smiled and explained, "It's okay. It's just that I have too many memories and it's a bit difficult to sort them out."
The snow leopard stared at him and rubbed its head gently towards him.
Xiu Si touched His head and said, "What's wrong? Are you worried that I will be a burden? Haha, it is indeed a burden for a human body, but fortunately, I won't force myself even if I feel that I have reached my limit."
The snow leopard still stared at him.
Hughes blinked, "Are you worried about my 'trouble'?"
The snow leopard nodded slightly, and its crystal clear, emerald-like eyes seemed to be able to see through everything.
Xius could only say honestly: "Well... yes, there is still no solution to my troubles."
As he spoke, he lowered his head and said in a complicated tone: "I am also being too picky. We have to admit that not all problems have solutions. Eternity... is inevitably accompanied by the disease."
Nothingness, the unbearable weight of consciousness. In this era, it seems to have another name called eternal depression.
As Zeus pondered, he said, "Nothingness can only be filled with 'something', but 'something' has its limits and is often not enough to fill it. Moreover, if this method is used for a long time, once it is awakened by intelligence, another kind of nothingness will be created."
——Why can there be only one way to achieve nothingness?
Eternity inevitably produces ennui, and the longer one lives, the harder it is to get rid of this ennui.
In fact, this kind of fatigue not only occurs in gods, but also in short-lived species. It has no necessary connection with the length of life. Humans under the age of 20 may also experience it.
It sounds similar to metal fatigue, and it is indeed somewhat similar. It cannot be completely eliminated by any means.
If it were just a matter of "lack of durability", this problem would be easy to solve, but unfortunately it is not. The real problem is more complicated.
He once thought it was due to "emotion", believing that creatures without emotional functions would not have it, but later he was proved wrong.
I don't know why, but creatures without emotional functions are more seriously affected. It's as if there is a hole in their hearts, and as time goes by, the hole can only grow larger and will not shrink naturally.
Hughes thought of countless methods but failed to find an effective one.
If he could abandon all emotions and use consciousness as an experimental object with a cold and ruthless attitude, he might be able to find a solution to the problem more quickly, but he could not conduct such a ruthless experiment. As long as he was himself, he would not be able to do it.
As the Creator and their Father, is he too incompetent?
Xiu Si lowered his eyes slightly and sighed softly: "It seems that observation alone will not reveal the answer."
As soon as he finished speaking, the snow leopard shook his head.
He was stunned for a moment, and couldn't help but ask: "Do you know the answer?"
The snow leopard stared at him intently, then suddenly came closer lightly, raised its front legs, and gently extended a furry paw.
This action was very familiar to Hughes.
Hughes took His paw skillfully and let Him lean over him with his head buried in his shoulder.
He spoke a long passage in Hughes' ear.
At first, Hughes opened his eyes wide in shock, confused and puzzled, but later he gradually understood and his eyes gradually became gentle.
The dream was unusually quiet until he suddenly broke it.
“So there is such a method.”
The snow leopard nodded and lay lazily on him, its long, fluffy tail swaying slightly.
He seemed a little tired. Maintaining magic for such a long time was naturally a burden for Him who was not yet "omnipotent" at that time.
"I haven't thought about it."
Hughes had to admit that this method was simple and effective.
After listening to it, he felt that...it was really stupid of him to think of a solution for so many years.
It's such a simple matter, why did it take so long?
--accompany.
It's not some complicated cosmic magic, just companionship.
The more he thought about it, the more he felt that... he had been worrying for nothing before, and he had walked for so long even though he said he was going for a walk.
How can I be a father like this!
Xiusi reflected deeply and felt even more ashamed.
What happened to the children after he was gone all these years...
"etc."
Zeus' eyes lit up, and he suddenly realized something: the system restart had been completed, and now he could see the complete creation atlas.
He took a deep breath and nervously opened the Creation Atlas. Then, in just a moment, his body trembled and his eyes widened.
Incredible and terrifying numbers and a series of exaggerated skill bars are right in front of you!
What's even more exaggerated is that there are a series of titles. The Deep, the Lord of the Abyss... and the Demon God!!
Xius' eyes widened, and all his previous understandings were overturned.
How could he and his cute little cubs be the Lords of the Abyss?
At this point, all the cognitive tampering had been solved. Of course, whether it was solved or not did not affect his cognition.
The shock of each truth made Zeus's mind confused and he was unable to accept it. It took him a long time to recover.
He thought, isn't it said on the mainland that the Abyss Lords often quarrel? Hmm...wait, recent history seems to say that they are just exchanging family affection, not that their relationship is bad.
Zeus then thought of several abyss lords who were particularly feared by humans and were nicknamed human threats. Yes, they were his Amon cub, Butis cub, and Beelzebub cub!
His eyes went dark and he almost couldn't bear it.
Fortunately, he remembered it in time, and later historians seemed to say that it was a misunderstanding.
Yes, it’s definitely a misunderstanding!
Zeus was brought down to his wits by the deep fatherly love and the terrifying filter, and even felt a little angry.
How can such an outrageous title be spread around? This concerns the reputation of my child!
Zeus was inexplicably excited, but he was actually more happy because his cub was so amazing!
The eldest is Baal, the demon god who is famous throughout the universe. The second is Agares, the sage who is feared by the whole universe. The third is the one who has been sleeping for many years...
Wait, slept for years?
Houston paused and carefully looked at what the system said about Vashak.
He skipped over the level, strength, and skills and stopped his gaze on the historical evaluation.
——"The Abyss Lord Vassago is powerful but lazy. He often sleeps for decades. He has a gentle temperament and no bad interests. His only shortcoming is laziness."
Xiu Si was silent for a few seconds, then his brows relaxed and he smiled, "It's nothing, so what if I'm lazy? Dad can take care of me."
He then saw Samkina. The fourth child was indeed a reassuring child. He had never had a bad reputation for more than 8,000 years. It seemed that he just liked to capture a few gods to educate them?
Isn't that a good thing? Only by developing education can the world progress!
When Zeus saw Malbus, he immediately noticed His wealth value. Normally, it was only five stars, but his fifth child broke through five stars and went straight to ten stars, and even the star slot collapsed!
Good boy, I knew that Wucub liked shiny things, but I didn't expect him to put it into action. As a father, Xiusi's pride in his heart is simply beyond words.
Then there was our sixth child, Wallifer. After seeing his series of "resumes", Hughes couldn't help but applaud and exclaim, our sixth child is indeed an artistic genius!
And Amon, he just likes to play, he's just a kid, there's nothing wrong with that.
Barbatos is indeed a good boy. He actively protects world peace and makes his father cry.
Baimon likes fighting, since he was a child, and he likes to learn from Bal.
Tenth-child Buyer actually has such a powerful vest and is called the God of Potion by humans?
Xiu Si paused, as if he remembered the scene when Shizai was a child and said in a childish voice, "If Dad gets hurt in the future, I will definitely heal him."
Whether in the past or now, the ten cubs are always cute!
And his eleventh child, Guxin's fairy-like child, is really well-behaved! The twelfth child, Xidi, likes to travel to historical sites? Haha, a very good interest.
Hughes looked down and widened his eyes again. His thirteenth child turned out to be a wandering poet! Bryce loved music since he was a child. Yes, it really makes sense.
Zeus approved very much. After knowing that the fourteenth cub Lelakin was the ancestor god of the elves, he couldn't help but be stunned for a moment, and his eyes showed kindness.
His leaving before...may have hurt the child. But not now.
Hughes made a promise in his heart and turned to see Eliog.
Wait, God of War?
He paused for a moment, then suddenly realized what was going on, and pounded his fist on his palm, saying, "So that's how it is."
Then, his eyes were deep and he said silently: "After all these twists and turns, you, the original consciousness, finally came back to me."
He was touched and felt a great sense of responsibility.
Then, he saw the Sixteenth Jie Clan.
The Jie faction is still the same as before, outspoken and prone to getting into trouble, so I have to remind them when I meet them. Xius said helplessly.
The seventeenth boy, Butis, has a bad reputation and is feared by everyone on the mainland. But he knows that he is not a bad boy by nature. It is just that due to his power, he is too close to sin, so his personality is a little extreme. As long as he is disciplined, he will still be a good boy.
The Eighteenth Cub Bachin founded a country in the subspace? Xiu Si was shocked for a moment, then he found it reasonable.
The 19th cub, Celeos, turned out to be a master of alchemy? No wonder he was so good at alchemy before.
Xiu Si looked down and found that his twenty cubs Bushong had been posing for thousands of years. It was true. That was what the information card said.
That's fine. It doesn't matter if I lie down, my dad can take care of me!
Twenty-one cub Moragas still likes the ball as always, but playing with planets... aren't the toys a little too big?
Xiu Si saw the twenty-two cubs, Inbosi. Inbosi occasionally had small fights with his brothers, but spent most of his time studying. He had secretly helped humans a lot in the long history, and he also had several vests that were famous all over the continent.
The moment he saw "Grand Master Matros", Xius almost doubted his own eyes.
So Matros is Inbos?!
Reasonable, yet shocking.
Then Hughes looked at the twenty-third cub, Little Aini. Little Aini was very naughty, and his temper had not changed in eight thousand years.
Beelzebub of the Twenty-Four had a bad reputation, but fortunately history proved his innocence.
And...his little white bird and little black bird turned out to be the God of Light and the God of Hades respectively?
After being shocked countless times in a row, Zeus gradually became numb and felt that he was no longer shocked by anything he saw.
It took him an hour or two to digest the information in the illustration. When he came to his senses, he still felt a little fuzzy and as if he was dreaming.
Just then, the snow leopard next to him rubbed him gently.
He woke up as if from a dream, smiled slightly and asked: "What's wrong?"
The snow leopard buried its head and leaned over to whisper.
Xiu Si was shocked again, "So... the Lord of the Abyss is actually me?"
The snow leopard nodded.
Hughes was in disbelief for a moment, stroking the snow leopard's soft fur.
He took in too much information in one day and his head always felt buzzing.
You need to slow down, you need to slow down. He took a deep breath, finally sorted out some things, and asked, "So what you were dealing with just now was the 'Creator God'."
The snow leopard nodded again.
"Have you defeated Him?"
"Um."
Xiu Si sorted out his thoughts and suddenly asked, "Has Bal returned home?"
"soon."
Xius's eyes were gentle, and he asked again: "Are you waiting for us?"
"Yes."
"Then we have to go home as soon as possible."
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On the other side, in the bookstore.
Eliog transformed into a black cat, pacing back and forth anxiously.
Beelzebub transformed into a silver tabby cat. He first took a subtle look at Bushong's silver tabby appearance, then slowly looked at Eliog and said suddenly, "Why are you in such a hurry?"
Black Cat paused, his eyes sparkling with anger, "Father hasn't come back yet, shouldn't I be anxious?"
The silver cat raised his chin and suddenly said, "Compared to this, Eliorg, do you realize it?"
The black cat turned to face the silver cat and asked in confusion, "Realized what?"
The silver cat glanced at him with contempt and said proudly: "Father is the original creator, and I, the God of Destruction, am a creation of my father in the primitive period. At the same time, you are also."
The black cat frowned, then suddenly realized.
In other words, He was the Father’s child from the beginning, 100% pure!!
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