Chapter 86
◎The real farewell◎
In the eleventh photo, the girl is lying on the hospital bed with a pale face.
Gao Shuo snuggled up to her, his eyes red and swollen, and he looked much more haggard.
Maybe they have a habit of taking a group photo at a fixed time every year.
All the remaining photos became very monotonous and stereotyped. Jin Meng in the photos became thinner and thinner, and Gao Shuo became older and older.
Time did not stop because of Jin Meng's sleep. Her cheekbones became higher and higher, and her eye sockets became deeper and deeper. The medicines, nutrient solutions and years of inactivity made her body weaker.
The last photo was probably taken not long ago.
Gao Shuo sat by the bed, gently holding his sleeping wife's hand. Behind him was a ventilator that was plugged in and running.
【Wow, this makes me so sad.】
It's really hard to watch two people go from being romantic and lively to becoming increasingly dull and exhausted.
[Their love in their youth was like something out of a novel, but unfortunately, the ending in reality was not destined to be as happy as in the story.]
[The two of us were so beautiful when we were young. I can’t get over it just by looking at these photos, let alone Gao Shuo himself.]
I don't really believe in the existence of lasting love in this world, but what can I say? Perhaps she hadn't had any accidents and had given birth to the child safely. Eleven years of marriage and friction might have worn away their feelings for each other, but Jin Meng fell asleep when they loved each other the most.
Many people have speculated about Gao Shuo's current feelings for his wife, believing he may have been secretly having affairs with someone else. He was only 26 when Jin Meng's accident happened. His appearance, status, and position meant countless people were attracted to him. Faced with an unconscious wife and countless temptations, could he really remain faithful?
I can only say that people change, let alone a fickle relationship. But once I met a lover who was my equal and shared my deepest affection, even if they were just like me, who could compare to losing someone when you loved them most?
For those who loved passionately and recklessly in their youth, any anxiety and suffering, apart from the consequences, will only make their feelings stronger.
…
While the audience was reviewing the twenty years of Gao Shuo and Jin Meng's acquaintance through the photos, Gao Shuo was also letting the memories of the past roll through his mind.
As one of the parties involved, he knew their beautiful past better than anyone else.
However, all the beauty of this happened ten years ago, when my wife was pushed into the delivery room.
Gao Shuo's eyes were dry. He lowered his eyes to look at the watch on his hand. It was 2:28.
"It makes me want to cry." Xiaoshui said with red eyes.
Gao Shuo pursed his pale lips and forced a smile.
Qian Yang raised his eyes and looked at him, "Mr. Gao, your watch seems to be different from ordinary watches."
Xiaoshui looked over subconsciously and found that Gao Shuo was wearing an electronic watch.
Gao Shuo's body stiffened for a moment, and he subconsciously covered the screen with his right hand.
"It's just an ordinary electronic watch." Gao Shuo said.
Xiaoshui looked at Qianyang in confusion, wondering why she was interested in watches.
It is not uncommon to see people wearing electronic watches these days, especially some devices that can detect vital signs and heartbeats.
Qian Yang was silent for a few seconds, then he sighed almost inaudibly and said, "Gao Shuo, not everyone becomes a ghost after death."
Gao Shuo's expression froze visibly, his eye circles quickly turned red, the muscles at the corners of his mouth twitched, and he tried to make an expression but couldn't.
"What?" Xiaoshui looked at Gao Shuo in confusion.
【???】
【What's the meaning? 】
【I don’t quite understand.】
What did Gao Shuo do?
[Oh my god... no way? ]
[Oh shit! I suddenly have a bold guess!]
【ah? ? ? 】
Gao Shuo seemed to be struggling with something, and clearly wanted to cover it up with a smile, but the muscles on his face refused to obey him.
In Qianyang's opinion, what he was going to do could be described as obvious.
Before meeting Qianyang, he had tried countless ways to wake his wife up, but nothing worked.
He actually only asked Qian Yang one question: could his wife still be saved?
Qianyang's words were like his last hope. He had used spiritualism and learned to open his ghost eyes. He already knew that his wife was not dead, so her soul naturally could not leave her body.
So, when his wife's final hope of recovery was gone, it was not difficult to guess what Gao Shuo would do in order to see her again and talk to her again after several years.
He knew that his wife would never wake up.
"When a person dies, all light goes out. She is your wife in this life, but she will have nothing to do with you after her death." Qian Yang said.
Gao Shuo's faith seemed to be shattered, and two lines of tears suddenly fell.
"Can't, can't you turn into a ghost?" Gao Shuo asked in a trembling voice.
Qian Yang said: "If she has no attachment in her heart, your will alone cannot keep her."
"...Why? Ruyi, Ruyi, that child, wasn't she left behind like this?" Gao Shuo covered his eyes and tightened his lips.
"Ruyi, she's just a baby."
Gao Shuo arched his body in pain, "I want to see her again... I want to talk to her again..."
"Even just one sentence."
[No way?!]
So, he wanted to kill his wife? Is that what you mean?
He learned to open his Yin Eyes and went to Qianyang to confirm whether his wife still had a chance to wake up. After getting the answer, he would not intend to kill his wife and let her become a ghost to meet him, right?
Ahhhh, he's been laying the groundwork! Jin Meng can only rely on a ventilator and medication to stay alive. The only people at home who care for her are him and his mother. He's out on the show, and his elderly mother is left at home. Even if something "accident" happens, it's perfectly natural!
"Brother Shuo..." Xiaoshui shouted in a daze.
"I want to see her... I really want to..." Gao Shuo covered his eyes, his voice hoarse and choked.
"I...there's no other way. I don't want to go on any longer."
Gao Shuo tightly grasped the watch on his wrist. When he raised his hand, the screen automatically lit up.
The image on the screen is not time, but a moving electrocardiogram.
Qianyang lowered his eyes and looked at him. The movement on the electrocardiogram was getting weaker and weaker, almost approaching a straight line, which meant that his wife's heartbeat was already very weak at this moment.
If Jin Meng had retained consciousness all these years and death had been a relief for her, then she would never have become a ghost and continued to stay in the human world.
Qianyang didn't know whether the purpose of his doing this was simply to see his wife again, or whether he also wanted his wife to be relieved, or maybe both.
However, a vegetative person is not dead and still has personality. Killing a vegetative person will still violate the criminal law.
【For a moment, I didn’t know what to say.】
【Perhaps, it would be better for my wife to die than for her to live like this.】
If his wife turns into a ghost after death, he can see and feel her, and both of them can be liberated.
[Qianyang is right, not everyone becomes a ghost after death.]
[When a person dies, all connections in life are severed, and she is no longer his wife.]
If I were Jin Meng, and had a choice, I would definitely choose to die.
[The problem is that we are not Jin Meng, but legally speaking, a vegetative person has the right to life. Gao Shuo killed her, which is intentional homicide.]
Gao Shuo raised his head and looked at Qian Yang. His body went limp and he stood up from the sofa. He slowly walked in front of Qian Yang, bent his knees and knelt down.
"Master Qianyang, please... please... let me see her again. You must have a way. I just want to, just want to feel the real... the real her again..." Gao Shuo said in tears.
Even though he was exposed in public, Gao Shuo did not refute or defend himself. All he cared about was meeting the real her even at the last moment.
He believed that Jin Meng, who was getting older and could never wake up, was not his complete wife.
He wanted to have a conversation with his wife's soul and felt that was the real golden dream.
Qianyang looked at him with a complicated expression, "Aren't you going to stop? In my opinion, your wife will not become a ghost."
Gao Shuo's expression was painful, tears soaking his entire face. "No... She doesn't want to live anymore."
"She... was in great pain. I thought that as long as, as long as..."
"Please... let me see her... for the last time... just for the last time..."
How could Jin Meng not be in pain? For all these years, she's been lying in bed like a log, unable to speak or move. What's the difference between her and a dead person?
More importantly, Qianyang was helpless to treat her condition. She would continue to lie in bed like a living dead, being cared for for the rest of her life.
How could Gao Shuo not know this?
[Whether he met his wife's soul or helped her find liberation, he would ultimately have to watch her die.]
From a legal perspective, I know he broke the law, but from a personal perspective, I can understand him.
[I can't stand it, fate is playing tricks on me.]
Is there any way to get them to meet again? Please.
Gao Shuo admitted his actions in front of so many people, and he must have been prepared to bear the consequences.
The movement on the electrocardiogram has become infinitely close to a straight line, and Jin Meng's life is in danger.
"Close your eyes." Qianyang said.
Gao Shuo closed his eyes, tears dripping down his chin onto his suit. His shoulders were hunched and his hands hung on the ground, revealing his thin wrist bones and the electronic watch that connected to his wife's vital signs.
Qianyang put his fingers together and drew a rune on his forehead in mid-air.
"When a person is dying, the soul can temporarily leave the body." Qian Yang said softly.
"I brought her here. She still remembers you. You must remember that death is like the extinguishing of a light. If she lingers in the world with your memories, she will not be able to be reborn, even after your death."
When a person is dying, his soul will leave his body and float in the air, watching his loved ones mourning him. This usually does not last too long. It can be said that this is the last scene they feel in the world.
If she had not left with her body at this time, cleared her memory, and severed the cause and effect, she would have no obsessions and naturally no unsolvable thoughts. Without thoughts, there would be no solution. Cause and effect would be concluded, and the word reincarnation would have nothing to do with her anymore.
She reminded Gao Shuo, hoping that he would not affect Jin Meng.
[Without erasing her memories and severing the karma of this life, Jin Meng will never be able to reincarnate.]
【Qianyang is a soft-hearted god! 】
[Wow, I said goodbye to my wife properly. At least we can both be relieved.]
Gao Shuo definitely can't get over it. If he could let it go, he would have done so long ago.
[After watching so much of Wanwan Leiqing and Lan Yinxuguo, I suddenly realized that this kind of separation is the most painful.]
【God doesn’t always fulfill our wishes. What can we, as insignificant humans, do to change this?】
【At least say goodbye properly? 】
[No one knows which will come first, an accident or tomorrow, so everyone must cherish it.]
"...Xiao Xi?" Gao Shuo closed his eyes, but seemed to see something. "Is it you, Xiao Xi?"
He knelt on the ground, his hands stretched forward as if he could grab something.
He didn't know what he saw, nor did he know whether his expression was crying or laughing. He said to himself, "This is the first time you see me now, right?"
"I've dressed up and put on makeup! Do you remember this dress? You bought it for me before we got married. It's a little too big for me, but I still love it!"
Gao Shuo raised his head and chattered incessantly.
"Will it scare you if I get older and uglier? You only remember me when I was younger, right?"
"Xixi... please... please talk to me, please don't do this..."
Gao Shuo's voice became choked.
【He saw Jin Meng! 】
[Wow, my defenses have been broken. I shouldn't have learned to open the Yin Eye.]
【Oh my god! It’s really coming!】
Anyone who has learned how to open their ghost eyes should definitely give it a try. Jin Meng really showed up! This is the first time I've seen a ghost so clearly.
[Help...I'm so sad.]
[I can't learn to open my Yin Eyes, but I really want to see them.]
[Oh my God! Is Ms. Jin Meng really here?]
【Someone from the University of Tokyo saw it! 】
[Damn it! Why can't we learn to open our Yin Eyes?]
That must be a very touching scene.
[I'm so touched. I believe in love for now.]
"Jin Meng... talk to me..."
"I missed you so much... I really... I'm sorry..."
Gao Shuo almost burst into tears, "I shouldn't have had children, I don't want twins, I don't want anything! I was wrong... If not, if not... You will definitely be fine, we will all be..."
"Jin Meng...you lied to me..."
"You said you would be fine, that you would come with them to see me, you lied to me."
"Wow... I miss you so much... Please... Talk, talk..."
"I don't want to keep talking to myself..."
He almost collapsed, holding his chest and crying out loud.
He knelt on the ground, pressing his upper body to the ground, as if it could ease the pain and despair that was almost torn apart in his chest.
A hand gently covered his head, and he felt as if struck by lightning, his breathing stagnated. He gathered almost all his senses on his head, using all his strength to feel the hand that seemed to be there and not there.
"No... don't say sorry..." Gao Shuo slammed his head against the ground, his voice broken by the sobs in his throat. "I've been waiting for you to wake up... I've really been waiting for a long, long time..."
He seemed to be having a conversation with Jin Meng, but no one heard what Jin Meng said. They could only imagine and speculate based on his answers.
"I'm sorry... I can't save you..."
"No! You didn't. You're still as beautiful as before. It's me who's become ugly."
"Can you hear me? Can you hear me?"
"We still have a lot of places to go. We have plans. I'm sorry, Jin Meng."
Apart from his voice, the scene was completely silent.
Some of the more emotional staff members gritted their teeth and refused to make any sound, even though their eyes were already filled with tears, so as not to disturb the two people who were "reunited after a long separation".
"Are you feeling very uncomfortable? Is there a power outage at home? Can you still breathe? I wish it were me, if only I could bear this for you..."
"I don't want you to suffer, but I... I can't help it..."
[Ahhh, help me, I'm crying.]
[How much has he endured over the years to have such a breakdown?]
[It's so hard! Why is life so difficult? ]
[Nothing is perfect, but don't be so miserable.]
I'd rather they go from being happy and content to being fed up with each other. This feeling is so powerless, and even through the screen I feel despair.
It's difficult from Qianyang's perspective. Even if she could save many people, she can't do anything about what has already happened or is destined to happen. Ordinary people know they have no ability and can only be spectators, but she has the ability to become half a player in the game, and there are many things she can't change.
[Don't use ordinary people's thinking to speculate about Qianyang. Things in the world should follow the cycle of cause and effect. Qianyang understands these things better than us. If she would feel agitated every time she encountered such things, how could she have cultivated to this level?]
Qianyang didn't pay attention to the argument on the big screen, but looked thoughtfully at Gao Shuo and the ghost in front of him.
The feelings between people have always been something Qianyang needs to think about.
She was ignorant about relationships and mostly just acted on her intuition or what she had learned from her master since she was little.
After coming down the mountain, although she had witnessed many sincere feelings between people, she did not have a deep understanding of the feelings between two equal men and women who were not related by blood.
So, she was just thinking and felt a little sorry for them.
Gao Shuo got up from the ground, tears streaming down his face like a river.
"Let me take a good look at you."
Gao Shuo raised his right hand and seemed to touch something in the void, rubbing it lovingly.
"Same as before... No, very beautiful."
"It's been a long time since I've looked into your eyes."
“Beep—”
The watch suddenly vibrated and the electrocardiogram beats fluctuated.
Qianyang reminded: "There is not much time left."
Gao Shuo pursed his lips, tears streaming down his chin.
"I don't want you to accompany me." Gao Shuo said.
"I just want to see you."
He held up the other person's face and forced a smile, "Jin Meng, you go first, no need to wait for me, I will definitely find you in the next life."
"It doesn't matter if he's much older than me. I don't care."
As he spoke, he couldn't stop crying.
"Thank you for your hard work over the years."
I weep like a whirlwind.
[Wow, there are so many age-gap relationships in the world. Could it be that the lover from the previous life passed away first?]
[Just imagine, if it was someone I really, really liked, I would also disregard their appearance and age.]
[Does love really exist in the world that is independent of appearance? ]
[Of course there are, but they are rare, especially in people like Gao Shuo.]
The more temptations you face, the more choices you have. It's really not easy to stay true to yourself.
Gao Shuo embraced the invisible Jin Meng in his arms.
He clenched his teeth, tears like continuous raindrops, almost drowning him, and almost deprived of his breath. He suppressed the trembling in his voice and said, "Let's go."
"I promise you, I will find you."
"Jin Meng, I love you..."
“Beep!”
The vibrations from the watch touching his skin seemed to tug at his heart.
Her heart finally stopped beating.
It was as if something was torn out of his body, and he instantly became a bloody mess.
When he clearly felt the disappearance of the vague touch in his arms, he finally broke down and burst into tears.
The cries were deafening and echoed in the studio.
Xiaoshui gritted her teeth, tears streaming down her face.
Although everyone felt his sadness, no one in this world could empathize with him. No one knew whether the pain and sadness in his heart at this moment was like a flood that would overwhelm people.
Crying and tears could not express the pain in his heart.
[If this continues, he will go crazy, right? ]
[We're used to seeing couples betraying each other and pulling each other's hair, so this kind of sincere and persistent love is incredible.]
[I suddenly felt that even if nothing happened, they would still love each other forever.]
Will he be arrested again?
He probably doesn't care anymore.
[Jin Meng's cause of death was likely suffocation, as the ventilator stopped working after the power outage.]
Qianyang walked up behind him and slashed his shoulder with a knife. The man's crying stopped abruptly and his body fell to the ground.
"Send him to the hospital. If this continues, his spirit will collapse." Qian Yang said.
The director nodded and immediately had him carried down and sent to the hospital.
[Wow, I thought Gao Shuo was going to make a comeback yesterday, but I didn't expect this to be the result.]
I've liked him for over a decade. I heard he was only going to be on the show, so I'm not surprised. I've known for a while that he and Jin Meng were in a good relationship, and I don't believe a word of the media's speculation. The entertainment industry is just an industry, after all. Even though it's full of good and bad people, it doesn't mean there aren't beautiful relationships here.
[It's over. I opened my Yin Eyes and watched the whole thing, but I can't get out.]
[Me too, it was so tearful.]
【Jin Meng also didn't want to leave him alone.】
[It's just that Jin Meng has been in a lot of pain these past few years. She must really want to forget the ten years she was trapped in this body.]
I hope Gao Shuo will be well for the rest of his life, and I hope they can meet again in the next life.
Qian Yang said: "Let's end today's program here."
I guess everyone needs some time to slow down.
Xiaoshui twitched her shoulders, her eyes reddened, "I live in Bengbu too."
The director sighed, "Okay."
After leaving the studio, Xiaoshui still hadn't recovered.
The chief director received a call and came in front of the two of them.
"The police have found Jin Meng. There was only one elderly person at home. They said there was a sudden power outage and they didn't know how to use the backup power supply. Not long after the ventilator stopped working, Jin Meng died."
"What's the reason for the power outage?" Qian Yang asked.
“…dues.”
Xiao Shui couldn't help but sigh, "Gao Shuo must have done it on purpose."
Qianyang couldn't deny it, "Who knows."
Xiao Shui was stunned for a moment, then suddenly realized: "Yeah... who knows?"
On the way back, Qianyang clicked on Weibo, and the matter between Gao Shuo and Jin Meng was indeed high on the hot search list.
Qianyang clicked on it and found that the hot search Weibo was a handwritten letter drawn by two people who had been fans for many years.
She drew the last scene she saw.
Gao Shuo was not the only one who saw it.
As he embraced the void tightly, Jin Meng also hugged him.
His wife said a real goodbye to him.
【Author’s words】
Thank you for your support, mua [Let me Kang Kang]
This is the first dimension, different from the third dimension [dog head]
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