"Let's keep some distance. If you have something to say, just say it."
As soon as these words were spoken, the little joy that had just emerged in Xu Qingying's heart disappeared instantly, and her heart seemed to sink to the bottom of the sea along with the sun.
She pinched the hem of her skirt and sat down two body lengths away from Lu Qingan.
Lu Qing'an didn't look at Xu Qingying, but continued to look at the sunset in the distance.
He likes to look at the moon, but not so much the sunset, because he always feels that the sunset represents the end. After dusk, when night falls, it is actually the beginning of all things.
In his previous life, after finishing all his work and returning home on the moonlit night, his grandmother would always be waiting for him under the moonlight.
"Qing'an, I, can we go back to the past?"
Xu Qingying's eyes turned red quietly. After adjusting her emotions for a long time, she said the words that had been in her heart for some time. Her voice trembled slightly and she choked a little.
When Lu Qing'an heard this, it was exactly the same as what he was thinking. He took a deep breath and then sighed.
He had already thought about how to answer.
He turned his head and looked at Xu Qingying, deciding to leave a gentle touch to his past, and called out the name he had called Xu Qingying in the past.
"Qingying, everything between you and me is already too late."
A crack appeared in Xu Qingying's heart. She was most afraid that Lu Qingan would be gentle to her at this time.
If Lu Qing'an scolded her heartbreakingly, she might still have hope.
But now his gentleness made her feel suffocated.
Silent pain invaded her entire mind.
"Qing'an! I, I was really wrong! I, I will change! I will love you with all my heart in the future! As long as we work together, we will be able to repair our relationship!!" Crystal tears slid from Xu Qingying's eyes, like a broken string of beads.
"Once something is broken, it's broken. I'd rather remember its beauty than mend it and then spend my whole life looking at its broken parts. Frankly, Qingying, I don't care anymore." Lu Qing'an spoke calmly, without any emotion showing.
Some relationships don't end with quarrels, but with silence; some don't end with hatred, but with never again causing any ripples.
He never hated Xu Qingying from the beginning to the end, because he knew that Xu Qingying was not a bad woman. She had her own pursuits and her own ideas. He was unhappy at the beginning only because he was unwilling to give in.
I am unwilling to give so much to love and end up with nothing.
His original love for Xu Qingying, his pain of unwillingness, the hope of his dreams, all these strong emotions have burned out, leaving only the last trace of cold ash.
"I have exhausted every last bit of emotion I have for you and everything related to you. Your feelings, your awakening, your future, they no longer mean anything to me now."
Lu Qingan used up all his tenderness and said the last heartless words.
From then on, Xu Qingying would be in turmoil, and he would turn around calmly.
Xu Qingying listened to Lu Qingan's words, and every word was like a hammer, hitting her heart hard.
She was silent, speechless, and unable to speak.
Only endless tears poured down.
She knew that she was completely gone from his heart.
The man who originally loved her more than himself will never come back.
She held her head and cried, but found that she couldn't cry out loud.
Lu Qing'an looked at Xu Qingying at this moment and had nothing to say. The last trace of tenderness had been released, so he stood up, turned around and flew away, leaving only a word and lingering in the wind.
"I hope you can find your own happiness too."
Xu Qingying quickly raised her head and looked towards the direction where Lu Qingan left. Looking at the gradually moving back figure, her eyes were blurred by tears.
She raised her hand to touch it. In late October, there was only the warmth of the wind.
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