Chapter 43 I instinctively want to see him.
The sound of water gurgling.
Suddenly there was a burst of rapid gasps.
There were flashes of white light before my eyes.
Ji Mingxue suddenly woke up from the hot and sticky dream.
“Hoo…Hoo…”
His bright golden pupils were filled with translucent light. By the cold pool, Ji Mingxue buried his head in his arms, not looking up for a long time.
Although the water in the pool was cold, Ji Mingxue's body was still burning hot, and her whole body was an ambiguous pink.
Only when her breathing gradually became steady and her body stopped shaking violently did Ji Mingxue raise her head. However, she quickly closed her eyes in shame and slapped the water in annoyance.
Ji Mingxue hardly had the courage to recall what happened in her dream.
But even if he didn't recall it deliberately, those crazy scenes and the burning sensations would still explode in his mind like fireworks.
This made Ji Mingxue feel more embarrassed and awkward than ever before.
Ji Mingxue never knew that he would be such a shameless person!
He also never knew that without the constraints of his reason, he would have such a wild and bold side!
The extremely surprised expression of someone when he forced him down on the coral bed appeared in front of his eyes again. Ji Mingxue covered his burning cheeks with his hands, and he felt like exploding with shame.
Also, why does Shen Qingzhu have two things in the dream? !
It must be because he has read too many "Dragon Family" setting collections recently!
Zhen Miao misled me!
If one's perception of oneself is compared to a majestic city, then after this dream, Ji Mingxue's city has basically become a ruin, devastated by bombing.
After lying on the ruins for half a day, Ji Mingxue finally accepted this new self and began to slowly "rebuild after the disaster."
Although Ji Mingxue has never been in love, she is not completely ignorant about this aspect.
So he knew very well that the reason why he had such an outrageous dream, in addition to the influence of fever pheromones, was probably more due to his excessive favorability towards Shen Qingzhu.
"Mingfeng, help me check what kind of dreams the newly differentiated Omegas have during the fever period."
Ji Mingxue now urgently needs to find some similar cases to prove that he is not an LSP.
Although such cases are almost non-existent on StarNet, there are a lot of them in the "Omega's Afternoon Tea" forum where Ji Mingxue has registered.
In fact, many Omegas who have just completed secondary differentiation are very curious about themselves.
They are never as mysterious and reserved as people on Starnet think. Most of them like to chat during "Omega's Afternoon Tea".
At Ji Mingxue's request, Mingfeng quickly searched out many related hot posts for Ji Mingxue to see.
But Ji Mingxue didn't expect that the first hot post was actually related to Shen Qingzhu.
[Help! I dreamed about Mr. Zhu last night! Mr. Zhu is so gentle and considerate! He even called me baby!!!]
Ji Mingxue: ...
Ji Mingxue recalled and found that in his dream, Shen Qingzhu never called him like that from beginning to end.
To be exact, it seemed as if the man had not spoken a single word to him.
Ji Mingxue suddenly felt a little uncomfortable in his chest, it felt sour and swollen, as if he had eaten a lemon.
Although the title made people want to report it, Ji Mingxue was still very curious about what kind of monsters were in this post, so she forced herself to click on it.
Then, Ji Mingxue was overwhelmed by the fancy plays posted on tens of thousands of floors, so much so that Ji Mingxue couldn't help but wonder, is this really an Omega-exclusive forum?
So Omegas are also so... bold?
Compared with those Omegas’ dreams, Ji Mingxue felt that she was too reserved and polite!
This made Ji Mingxue suddenly feel confident.
——Compared with those Omegas’ dreams, his dreams are nothing!
This shows that he is not an LSP.
Ji Mingxue also specifically looked up relevant papers and sharing notes from older Omegas in the forum, and clearly realized that at the age when pheromone secretion is vigorous, it is very normal to develop a liking for someone of the opposite sex and even have some spring dreams.
Although he had systematically learned all of this after he differentiated into an Omega a year ago, no matter how rich his theoretical knowledge was, Ji Mingxue still felt uneasy when he encountered such a thing in person.
This is why I have to seek some similar cases to give myself some psychological comfort.
After confirming again and again that this was indeed a normal phenomenon, Ji Mingxue calmed down completely and began to think about what he really wanted and what he should do in the future.
He immediately contacted Mr. Ethan and had a long conversation with the attending physician.
Inside the isolation door, Ji Mingxue: "First, I have to confess something to you."
Ethan outside the isolation door: "Please go ahead."
Ji Mingxue took a deep breath and said slowly, "Perhaps you still remember that a month ago, I said that I seemed to have met an Alpha with a very high pheromone match."
Ethan: “Yeah, I remember that.”
Ji Mingxue: "I did a lot of abnormal things because of him at that time, so I think it was pheromones and instincts that were at work."
"It made me feel uncomfortable and scared, and it made me feel different from myself."
"So I decided to stay away from him and even refused to receive any news related to him."
Outside the isolation door, Ethan's wise eyes showed a hint of understanding. He stroked his beard and smiled, "You were so depressed during this fever period and refused to see anyone. I'm afraid it is related to this?"
Although there was no hint of ridicule or questioning in Ethan's words, Ji Mingxue still curled up her toes slightly out of shame in the isolation room separated by a door.
After a long while, he said softly, "Yes."
He finally confessed his feelings, "I have been in a bad mood for the past month."
Ethan said worriedly, "Your Highness, you should know that mood has a great influence on Omeg hormone."
The reason why the average lifespan of Omegas is shorter than that of ABs is because many Omegas suppress their emotions too much and die of depression.
Ji Mingxue naturally knew this common sense.
Moreover, it must be said that after a month of forced repression, Ji Mingxue has completely realized that he cannot let go of Shen Qingzhu.
But, "Mr. Ethan, I have known him for too short a time."
"I don't really know him. We've only met a few times."
"But after just a few encounters, I developed such a strong liking for him. This almost instinctive attraction derived from the body and pheromones terrifies me."
After hearing what he said, Ethan finally understood the crux of why Ji Mingxue was so troubled.
He pointed out sharply, "So, Your Highness, what you are really resisting is actually your own instinct?"
Ji Mingxue responded softly.
Although Ji Mingxue is only 19 years old, she has witnessed many tragic combinations between AOs over the years.
Most of the AOs that initially combine due to strong pheromone attraction will end up with the Alpha wandering around with other women while the Omega silently sheds tears at home.
Therefore, Ji Mingxue knew from a very young age that pheromone attraction was the most unreliable and the easiest to disappear, which made him resist it from the bottom of his heart.
Ethan obviously didn't think so.
He gently said to Ji Mingxue, "Your Highness, what do you think made humans, despite countless hardships and even genocide thousands of years ago, still be able to find a new home and reproduce such a large population?"
Ji Mingxue: "It's the instinct for survival."
Ethan: “Yes.”
"When you are thirsty, you drink water. When it is cold, you put on more clothes to avoid getting sick. When you are sick, you feel pain. These are all derived from human instinct."
“But are these bad things?”
Ji Mingxue shook her head, "No."
Ethan is a loving elder. He said gently, "Yes, this tells us that instincts are not all bad."
"In many cases, our instincts perceive our needs before our brains and bodies do."
Ji Mingxue understood what he meant. "So, you mean, the reason why I'm so abnormal is that my body is telling me...I like him?"
Ethan: "Even if you don't like him/her enough, you must have a high impression of him/her."
"Your Highness, in addition to instincts, humans also have thoughts and souls."
"Why don't you ask yourself what you really want to do?"
Ji Mingxue had already figured out the answer when she watched Shen Qingzhu's vlog two days ago.
"I," he swallowed his dry throat, closed his eyes in shame, and finally admitted for the first time, "...I really want to see him."
Outside the isolation room, Ethan smiled with relief, his voice becoming gentler, "Yes, it's not a bad thing that you want to see him."
"Your Highness, I know you have many concerns, such as the fact that you have known each other for too short a time, that you don't know each other well enough, and your identity, etc."
“But if we don’t move forward, nothing will change.”
"Anyone who has such a high degree of compatibility with you must also be an excellent Alpha."
"If he/she has other suitors or develops feelings for other people while you are avoiding your inner self, will you feel regret and remorse?"
Ji Mingxue had already figured out the answer, and the broken nutrient bottle was the best proof.
"thank you."
After this long talk with Ethan, Ji Mingxue finally understood his own heart and began to try to accept the instinctive attraction to Shen Qingzhu.
But this does not mean that Ji Mingxue will pursue Shen Qingzhu immediately or even be with her.
Although Ji Mingxue has a very good impression of Shen Qingzhu, he still knows too little about Shen Qingzhu.
Therefore, the most urgent task is to understand this person better.
After all, only when you truly understand a person can you know whether this person is really suitable for you.
If you want to understand a person, you must interact with him more.
When this thought came to her mind, Ji Mingxue could clearly feel the pheromones in her body cheering, and her flagging mental strength gradually replenished, and even her tired body regained some vitality.
Ji Mingxue: ...
So, how badly had he been holding it in that his body would undergo such a big change just because of this tiny decision to "go see him"?
Tsk.
…
Although she had decided not to avoid Shen Qingzhu anymore, and even to take the initiative to have more contact with the other party, Ji Mingxue was very clear that her practice of not contacting the other party for a month was actually a bit rude.
It would probably not be appropriate to suddenly show up as if nothing had happened after leaving someone alone for so long.
So, we still have to find a way to coax people.
…
Today is the fifth day that Ji Mingxue has stopped updating her vlog.
Shen Qingzhu was somewhat uneasy.
If he remembered correctly, Ji Mingxue's last fever should have ended within three days. After all, that person became his little teacher on Star Network on the fourth day.
Although the duration of an Omega's fever period may not always be the same, Shen Qingzhu is actually a little worried about Ji Mingxue as there has been no news from the other party until today.
Although he was worried, Shen Qingzhu was always good at hiding his emotions and did not let anyone notice anything unusual about him.
After the practical class today, someone came to confess to Shen Qingzhu again.
Similar things have happened almost every day in the past month.
Fortunately, Shen Qingzhu had been good at rejecting people since a long time ago, so he just politely declined the other party.
The person who confessed to Shen Qingzhu today was a male Beta senior. After being gently rejected by Shen Qingzhu, the senior did not get angry, but just smiled and said, "Junior brother Shen, no wonder everyone still praises you even after being rejected by you. Junior brother, you are really too polite and too gentle."
He actually thanked the person who confessed his love to him. This kind of Alpha is simply unheard of!
Shen Qingzhu said seriously, "Being liked by others is something to be thankful for, but I don't have any idea in this regard at the moment, so I can only let everyone down."
The senior student immediately covered his cheeks with a "hmm". Although he was just following the trend to confess to this junior, he had to admit that Shen Qingzhu was really impeccable from her looks to her character, which made him really fall in love with her!
"So, junior, what is your ideal type?"
Senior Beta looked at Shen Qingzhu with sparkling eyes, "Do you like Omega, Beta or Alpha?"
"Do you prefer an open relationship or a one-on-one relationship?"
"Do you like long hair or short hair?"
Shen Qingzhu: ...
It was obvious that this senior didn't really like him, and Shen Qingzhu was amused by his rapid-fire questions.
Suddenly, a vague shadow flashed through my mind.
Vaguely aware that the shadow seemed to have short snow-white hair, Shen Qingzhu lowered his eyes slightly, and after a few breaths of silence, he jokingly replied, "This is a secret."
The senior student let out a strange cry of disappointment, but suddenly fell silent when he saw a figure not far behind Shen Qingzhu.
“Wow, Junior Brother Shen, I have something else to do, so I won’t bother you for now!”
After saying that, the senior who suddenly became inexplicably excited waved to Shen Qingzhu and ran away.
Shen Qingzhu: ...
Although this senior was a bit strange, Shen Qingzhu somewhat realized that he seemed to have suddenly decided to leave after seeing something.
At the same time, a familiar restlessness that had been dormant in his body for a month was beginning to revive.
My heart suddenly skipped a beat.
Shen Qingzhu turned around as if he had realized something, and happened to meet a pair of beautiful golden eyes.
A light pierced through the dark clouds, spreading golden light across the vast expanse.
Squinting his eyes slightly because of the light, Shen Qingzhu could clearly perceive that he was smiling at the person who finally appeared, "Long time no see."
It was very strange. Although Ji Mingxue had watched Shen Qingzhu's vlog many times on Starnet in the past few days and had heard his voice many times, the moment she actually saw him, when she clearly saw the gentle smile in Shen Qingzhu's slightly curved green eyes, and when she heard his greetings that seemed to carry a hint of nostalgia and a sigh, her heart was still pounding at that moment.
Her body was almost shaking with excitement, and an outrageous dream suddenly flashed through her mind. It was clearly autumn now, but Ji Mingxue felt like her whole body was burning.
In the end, he could only move his burning red eyes away in embarrassment, swallowed his throat, and said in a slightly hoarse voice, "Long time no see."
After saying that, Ji Mingxue gently shook the palm-sized gift box in her hand, pursed her lips and said, "...I bought a small cake, do you want to eat it together?"
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