Chapter 43 (Second Update) This is a marriage she has no choice but to marry Li Da...
During the day and night that Tang Mingmei was delirious with fever, she heard her mother calling her name, but she was too trapped in a nightmare to wake up and couldn't respond.
This is another dream related to my previous life.
After marrying Li Dazhu, she never dreamed of her previous life again.
She thought this life had begun a new chapter, allowing her to completely let go of her nightmare-like past life. And she couldn't explain why, as time went on, her memories of her previous life seemed to fade away.
But this time, the miscarriage caused her to vividly dream of her past life and recall some things.
At that time, she had been married into the Fu family for almost three years. Because she had not had any children, her neighbors in the tenement building secretly mocked her as a hen that could not lay eggs.
She felt so wronged. She and Fu Ci had been married for almost three years and had been sleeping in separate rooms. How was she supposed to get pregnant?
Although she was the one who started it, Fu Ci never intended to give her a way out.
She wanted to save face, but every time she met Fu Ci's restrained gaze, she would get angry again. It was as if facing her was such a humiliating thing for her.
But she dared not tell anyone about this, not even her own parents, whom she was ashamed to speak of. All the grievances and stigma, though she was unwilling, she had to bear alone.
When she felt extremely wronged, she even considered taking revenge by throwing caution to the wind.
Since Fu Ci doesn't treat her like a wife, she might as well find someone else outside. This would prove that she's not a barren hen, and it would also slap Fu Ci and his family in the face, making them lose face.
But in the end, she still didn't dare; the tradition ingrained in her bones made it impossible for her to do such a thing.
If she really does that, she might feel good for a while, but after that, her reputation will be ruined, and her parents might not even accept having such a disgraced daughter.
In her previous life, she failed to prove herself and died without ever knowing what love between a man and a woman was like.
Having been reborn, after meeting Li Dazhu, she reluctantly agreed when he made this request.
They are lovers, and they are more qualified to do this than couples who have a marriage certificate but no love in name only.
It was a gloomy afternoon, and the entire Lijia Village looked as if a storm was brewing and the city was about to collapse.
The villagers all stayed at home, waiting for the storm that was bound to come, though no one knew when. Only these poor educated youths, in order to fill their stomachs, had to sneak up into the mountains to hunt for wild game when they were less likely to be discovered.
In that almost deserted corner, she experienced what people often call ecstasy.
After trying it, she was somewhat disappointed. It turned out that it wasn't all that great.
It wasn't very comfortable, so why were so many people so engrossed in it? At that time, she was new to this world and couldn't understand it at all.
Perhaps this is the most intimate act that men and women in the world can express.
It seems that only by giving themselves to each other can two completely unrelated people become inseparable.
Although the experience wasn't pleasant, Tang Mingmei didn't regret it.
Why did she live such a repressed life in both her previous lives?
However, she soon learned what it meant that everything comes at a price.
One transgression resulted in her getting pregnant.
Unable to distinguish whether it was fear or the injustice of her past life being proven true at this moment, she cried when she realized that her period was late.
She tearfully told Li Dazhu that she was pregnant.
Li Dazhu panicked too. If people found out, neither of them might be able to return to the city.
Upon hearing of this terrible consequence, she made a decisive decision: the child could not be kept.
She used the dumbest and cruelest method to kill their first child.
Whether it was a boy or a girl, the child came and went without a sound.
She has no regrets.
Having been given a second chance at life, she clearly understands what she wants.
At least, at that time she thought she knew.
She wanted to hold on until the college entrance examination was reinstated, to take the exam, to change her fate, and to have a life completely different from her previous one.
Therefore, she will not want this child.
Li Dazhu didn't want to stay in Lijia Village for the rest of his life, so he eventually agreed to her decision.
The happiness was for both of them, but the pain was for her alone.
After that incident, no matter how much Li Dazhu pleaded, she resolutely refused.
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That child was a secret between her and Li Dazhu.
She had vowed never to tell anyone, and she ensured that Li Dazhu would never speak to a third person about it for the rest of his life.
Although she didn't want to think about it, when she lay in the hospital bed, memories of her previous life flooded back, and the pain of both lives came at the same time, she had to admit that this secret was one of the reasons why she was so determined to choose Li Dazhu in this life.
Looking back on the path I've walked in this second life, it seems so bitter.
Two lines of tears slid down Tang Mingmei's cheeks as she drifted into a daze.
Why is she suffering so much?
In contrast, Tang Mingli seems to be living a good life, both in her previous life and this one.
Why?
Why was she able to get into university after being sent to the countryside, while I couldn't?
Why was she able to get along well with the Fu family and be deeply in love with Fu Ci after marrying into the Fu family, while I couldn't?
Why is it that, whether in this life or the previous one, her neighbors still praise her while criticizing her behind her back?
Tang Mingmei couldn't understand it.
In her past life and in this life, everything has become an inescapable inner demon for her.
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When Tang Mingli followed her aunt into the ward, she saw Tang Mingmei lying on the hospital bed, her face pale and her thin body barely covered by the blanket, calling her name and murmuring why.
Tang Mingli shuddered.
She also wanted to know why.
Why are you calling her name?
Even while he was still delirious from his illness.
Seeing her daughter like this, Li Hong, who had been crying all the way, burst into tears again. Heartbroken, she walked to the bedside and gently patted her daughter's face.
"Daughter, Mingli has come to see you. Wake up!"
However, if someone can be woken up by shouting but is delirious with fever, what is the point of having a doctor?
Li Hong's shouts were futile, so she could only pick up the handkerchief next to the pillow and carefully wipe the sweat from Tang Mingmei's forehead.
At the same time, he didn't listen to what was being said and kept cursing the Li family in a low voice.
"They're really awful. I was only gone for half a day, and they couldn't even take good care of me for half a day."
Before going to the Fu family's house, Li Hong specially asked Li Dazhu to come and take care of her.
Li Dazhu made a promise, but who would have thought that when he returned, there wouldn't be a trace of him.
"He's a real scoundrel. He looks honest and kind, but he can't even take good care of his sick wife."
"I truly regret it. I should have stopped them back then. Even if you hate me, I should have stopped them."
Tang Mingli listened from the side, not daring to say a word, and could only silently watch Tang Mingmei on the hospital bed.
It's really worrying that she's burned like this, especially since she just had a miscarriage.
Thinking of this, she said to Li Hong, "I'll go find a doctor and ask about my cousin's condition."
"Okay, sure." Li Hong thought to herself, Tang Mingli is young after all, so she might understand what the doctor is saying better.
After leaving the ward, Tang Mingli went to the nurses' station to inquire about the situation. After finding out which attending physician it was, she went to find the doctor to understand the situation.
Tang Mingmei's attending physician was a female doctor in her fifties. She looked very kind and seemed to have a high level of medical skill.
After stating her purpose directly, the doctor gently explained Tang Mingmei's condition.
After learning that there was no danger to her life and that it would not affect her future fertility, Tang Mingli felt a little relieved.
Some things you can only understand after you've experienced them yourself.
Tang Mingmei desperately wanted to have children. If this miscarriage made it difficult for her to conceive in the future, the blow would be enormous, and she might even be unable to cope with it for the rest of her life.
Tang Mingli then asked, "Doctor, do you know why my sister had a miscarriage this time?"
After thinking for a moment, the doctor told Tang Mingli what he had just thought.
"At first, I thought it was because of a previous miscarriage, a recurrent miscarriage, but the patient herself and her husband were adamant that this was her first pregnancy. So... I can't say for sure what the specific reason is, after all, various unexpected things can happen in the early stages of pregnancy."
After saying that, she comforted him, "It's okay, the patient is still young, and her husband is still young. As long as they take good care of themselves, they will be able to have their own children again soon."
Tang Mingli nodded. "Thank you, doctor."
When I returned to the ward, it was almost the same as when I left.
She felt that her aunt was a little obsessed. Even though Tang Mingmei's face was no longer sweaty, she kept wiping it with her handkerchief without realizing it.
When Li Hong saw Tang Mingli return, she quickly asked, "How is she? What did the doctor say?"
Tang Mingli probably relayed what the doctor had told her to Li Hong.
Li Hong looked visibly disappointed after hearing this, "They all gave the same answer."
Tang Mingli comforted her, "That means my cousin is really alright, isn't it?"
Li Hong said, "I've been delirious with fever the whole time, how come I'm fine?"
Tang Mingli couldn't refute it, but as if possessed, she reached out and touched Tang Mingmei's forehead.
It seems, but actually, it's not very hot anymore.
The reason Tang Mingmei can't wake up is probably more because she herself doesn't want to wake up.
No matter how smart Tang Mingli was, she couldn't guess Tang Mingmei's mental state at this moment. She assumed that Tang Mingmei was deeply affected by the miscarriage and preferred to sleep to escape.
But now that the fever has started to subside, waking up is only a matter of time.
After Tang Mingli reached out to check her temperature, Li Hong stopped wiping her hand with a handkerchief and said to her with red eyes, "Can you talk to your sister for a while? Call her name, maybe you can wake her up."
Tang Mingli: ...
It wasn't that her aunt's request was excessive, but rather that she didn't know what to say to Tang Mingmei.
What if Tang Mingmei called her name not because she missed her?
No, I shouldn't say "what if," the reason is almost 100%.
But when faced with Li Hong's pleading gaze, Tang Mingli gave in.
"I'll give it a try."
Taking a deep breath, Tang Mingli tried to speak as if she were a visitor to a patient: "Sister, you've been unconscious for quite a while now, don't sleep anymore, it's time to..."
Before she could even finish saying "I should wake up," Tang Mingmei, who had been groggy just a second ago, opened her eyes.
What happened to the promise of being in a deep, unconscious state?
And just like that, she opened her eyes, so bright and clear!
They act like she's some important person.
It made the atmosphere really awkward!
Fortunately, Li Hong was there.
Seeing her daughter wake up, Li Hong was stunned for a few seconds, then frantically ran out to call for doctors and nurses.
"Doctor, nurse, my daughter is awake!"
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