Mu Xingzhi naturally had not experienced the "nonsense literature" that was once very popular in Su Qingluan's previous life, so he frowned and wondered what the subtle difference in meaning was between the first half of her sentence and the second half.
Or does the other half of the sentence have some deeper meaning?
After pondering for a while without understanding, Mu Xingzhi smiled bitterly and shook his head: "This sentence is even more mysterious. I wonder what Qingluan's deep meaning is?"
It was the first time Su Qingluan saw Mu Xingzhi truly bewildered, and she couldn't help but sigh: What is this seemingly unintentional temptation! What is this head-tilting killing! If she didn't clearly understand that this harmless guy in front of her was definitely a black-hearted and ruthless person, she would definitely be shaken, right?
Even though I know that the other person might be a bad person, I still can't hate him...
Thinking of this, Su Qingluan smiled and said, "Actually, there's no difference between the two sentences - I just wanted to see you pondering the deeper meaning of this."
After saying that, he stuck out his tongue with a mischievous expression.
Mu Xingzhi shook his head helplessly and asked, "How do you know I'm 'unsuitable for marriage'? I don't think I'm ugly, and I'm somewhat educated and wealthy. How could I be unsuitable?"
Su Qingluan was speechless and said, "Is this the point? The point is, you simply wouldn't choose to live peacefully with an ordinary woman in this remote place, right?"
"Oh?" Mu Xingzhi raised his eyebrows. "Why do you think so?"
"You asked me to say this, so it's not like I'm being tactless." Su Qingluan made a gesture first, meaning that Mu Xingzhi should not be unhappy later.
Seeing the other party nod in agreement, he spoke again: "No matter what your original identity was, you were willing to pretend to be a disabled person and hibernate in this remote village for many years. According to your parents, you have lived here for seven or eight years. It is definitely not to find a country girl here to live an ordinary life."
Seeing Mu Xingzhi's expression of "go ahead," she sighed, "For you, neither marriage nor your own emotions are important compared to your true goals. Therefore, your in-laws—even just concubines—must be carefully considered and able to provide you with sufficient value."
"Does Qingluan think she has no 'value'?" Mu Xingzhi teased.
"Of course I have my own value, otherwise you wouldn't cooperate with me, right?" Su Qingluan's smile was filled with a hint of pride. Mu Xingzhi felt that it wasn't the pride of being confident, nor the arrogance of being self-righteous. Before he could figure it out, Su Qingluan continued, "But who says that just because I'm valuable I have to be chosen by you and exchanged for marriage?"
"So Qingluan actually attaches so much importance to the love between men and women in marriage?" Mu Xingzhi was a little surprised. In his opinion, Su Qingluan seemed to be carefree about nothing.
Of course, it wasn't that she was completely heartless towards everything—for example, she cared deeply about the Su family. It was just that Mu Xingzhi always felt that Su Qingluan's "concern" for the people around her was always separated by an invisible layer, something unknown. It felt like Su Qingluan was just passing through everything around her. It was just... just like what?
Su Qingluan's voice interrupted Mu Xingzhi's contemplation: "On the contrary, I don't think I can find someone who is completely compatible with me." In modern times, she already felt that "true love is hard to find", not to mention the era spanning thousands of years. The huge gap in time alone is an insurmountable barrier.
Other differences in personality and world outlook are negligible in the face of this huge gap cut by the giant of time.
"But even so," Su Qingluan took a sip of the tea in front of her, "even if we can't achieve 'mutual affection', we should at least achieve the next best thing of 'mutual support', right? If we can't be each other's irreplaceable one, being a pair of partners who can weather the storm together and keep each other warm wouldn't be bad either?"
"Then wouldn't someone like me be more suitable?" Mu Xingzhi was a little confused. "I can absolutely guarantee that you won't be in any trouble, and even your family can rest assured."
"Where can there be so much 'peace of mind'?" Su Qingluan shrugged. "The more you enjoy, the more you must bear. If I completely entrust myself and my family to someone who is too powerful and I am completely powerless to resist, then what if one day 'he' no longer wants to protect us? Perhaps I have forgotten how to walk on my own because I have lived under the wings of others for so long."
This is not because Su Qingluan is too pessimistic, but it is a real feeling from her previous life.
When she was young, she had envied those children who lived a prosperous life and had both parents. Later, she was adopted by her master. Although he had some differences with her due to their age, the master and his wife were kind and wise people, so they would slowly discuss things with her.
That period of time was the happiest time in Su Qingluan's previous life, and she thought that this time would last forever.
Unfortunately, both of their parents passed away, and the place Su Qingluan had always considered "home" disappeared. Then she became seriously ill, and she had to earn money for her treatment alone...
During this period, some of the stories given to her by her master and his wife helped her a lot. Compared with those who were abandoned in the hospital by their relatives, Su Qingluan felt that she was lucky enough.
So Su Qingluan gradually began to not rely on others, gradually began to learn to be content, and cherish everything she already had, until now.
so……
Su Qingluan retracted her distant gaze and looked at Mu Xingzhi again: "So I will not completely hand over my life to you or anyone else."
"It's okay if we're not soulmates. At least we should find someone who makes us feel warm—although if possible, I'd rather not get married."
This was the first time Mu Xingzhi had heard a young woman who was determined not to get married. Although it might be seen as heresy by others, and even condemned as "morally corrupt" in the eyes of some old scholars, Mu Xingzhi actually thought that "if the other party was Su Qingluan, it would be normal."
So he asked, "If you don't get married, where do you want to go?"
"Build a big ship and go out to sea!" Su Qingluan's eyes lit up. "I heard there's another continent on the other side of the sea, with all kinds of creatures that don't exist on our land. I want to go and see it!" Her peppers, her corn, her potatoes, her tomatoes! !
...Okay, although there are other precious items, for a foodie, delicious food is indeed more attractive.
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