Shen Qingmang did not participate in this activity at all. The reason was very simple. Once the suona sounded, no matter how sleepy a person was, they would wake up immediately. It could not be used as a requiem, but only as a funeral song.
She has been practicing in a more secluded corner of Wuyin Peak these days. She decided to enter a state of self-pleasure first, and find a melody that expresses her heart and makes her happy. Her progress is currently slow.
After practicing for many days, she finally learned a complete piece of music. That night, she returned to Qiongzhi Hall and played it for Gu Suihan. His expression was blank, and his voice was a little weak: "So... So this is what the suona sounds like."
"Yes." Shen Qingmang put down the suona and looked at him doubtfully: "Haven't you heard of this before?"
"No."
"No wonder you were so calm when you listened to my story." Shen Qingmang laughed. "So how do you feel now?"
"It's... quite shocking." Gu Sui Han said after thinking for a while.
Shen Qingmang looked at his expression and laughed so hard that he fell backwards. "Okay, okay, I won't play the suona at night from now on. By the way, have you never played those instruments I gave you?"
Gu Suihan shook his head. "No. I can't."
"Yes, when I gave it to you, I didn't know your background. I thought you might be a noble or something, and that you had learned these skills since childhood."
"Why does Qing Mang think I'm a noble son?"
"Hmm..." Shen Qingmang recalled, "Because at that time I thought you were a child who grew up in a happy family, gentle and kind. Now that I think about it, you were really good at disguising yourself."
"How can I make my master like me without pretending?" Gu Sui Han put his arm around her waist and brought her to the couch.
"If you had revealed your true self from the beginning, I might have liked you sooner."
"No, you will definitely treat me the same way you treated Hao Xin."
Shen Qingmang raised an eyebrow. "Isn't that a bad thing? I remember you used to love competing with Axin for favor."
"Master, your memory is messed up." Gu Suihan turned his head away from her. "No, I didn't. And it's not good at all. You treat Hao Xin as a troublesome child. You will never like him. I don't want you to see me that way."
"Aren't you also a troublesome kid?" Shen Qingmang reached out and pinched his nose.
Gu Suihan said in a muffled voice, "You still treat me like a child?"
Shen Qingmang dodged his hand that was about to cause trouble, and said with a grin, "I now treat you as my senior brother. Are you satisfied with this answer?"
Gu Suihan's eyes immediately lit up with joy. Shen Qingmang turned over, lying on top of him, looking into his eyes, and murmured, "If the goal of pleasing someone is just to make them feel happy, then with you here, I can definitely achieve it easily."
Gu Suihan had heard her talk about the three realms of the Wuyin Sect before, and now he looked puzzled. "I thought that for Master, the easiest realm was the realm of pleasing others."
"Because I'm a teacher?" Shen Qingmang asked.
"Because you always think about giving to others."
"But you taught me a lesson, didn't you?" Shen Qingmang lay back down, looking at the roof. "When I was considering everyone else, I subconsciously ignored those I loved and those who loved me, leaving the pain to you. How can this be considered joyful? But..."
"But what?" Hearing her talk about this, Gu Sui Han became a little nervous again.
"When I felt your pain and it awakened the guilt in my heart, I told you that I was wrong and that I shouldn't have done that. I meant it sincerely. But these days at Silent Peak, I've had new ideas."
"What?" Gu Suihan straightened his body.
"I had almost no contact with the monks on Wuyin Peak before. I only remembered Zhong Yingshao's goose-yellow Taoist robe, his cute little face, and his money-loving nature. After practicing on Wuyin Peak during the day, I found that many people there were very lovely. For example, my fellow senior brothers and sisters and junior brothers and sisters. At first, I was afraid that they would be disturbed by the sound of the suona, so I chose secluded places to practice on my own. But they took the initiative to find me, told me not to feel any burden, and even used their instruments to play with the suona, colliding with different notes. Not to mention that some of the ensembles were really beautiful, like the kind of beauty that makes your ears temporarily clear when listening to celestial music. I thought the suona was abrupt and isolated, but it turns out that I had misunderstood the suona."
Gu Suihan said, "Then I want to learn a musical instrument and play with Master."
"Haha, wait until you have time, Sect Leader." Shen Qingmang teased him and returned to the previous topic: "I've found that the atmosphere on Wuyin Peak is very harmonious. There's almost no distinction between people of different sects. It's lively and united. I thought at the time, if I hadn't made a deal with Li Shutong, if the Taichu Sect's spiritual energy continued to decline, perhaps the first sect to be weakened would be Wuyin Sect. These fellow disciples who laughed and joked with me would definitely lose their smiles."
Gu Sui Han held her arm tightly.
"I have many people who love me, who are heartbroken and despairing over my fall. I love you too and cannot bear to see you suffer. But... there are still many people who have never met me, but who can feel happiness or pain because of a change in my mind. What I want to save is the entire Taichu Sect, even the entire world. Maybe this sounds illusory, but beneath this nothingness, there are living lives. Even if I was selfish in the beginning, wanting to escape the accusations of conscience and ensure a clear conscience, and letting you bear the pain, but... if I were given the chance to choose again..."
"Master, you've changed your mind again, right? You will still sacrifice yourself." Gu Sui Han clenched his hands even tighter.
Shen Qingmang showed an apologetic expression. "Sorry, Sui Han, I don't want to deceive you, so..."
"I guessed it a long time ago. When you cried and admitted your mistake, I thought that you were just influenced by us and had such an impulse. But when you come to your senses, you will definitely not regret your original choice."
"Then you still forgive me..." Shen Qingmang shrank his neck.
"Because I also want to respect your wish, even if it causes me pain." Gu Suihan kissed her forehead gently. "I will always choose to bear more pain for you, as long as you can be happier."
"You'll understand, Sui Han. Now that you're in this position, you'll understand too." She gently hugged him. "If the people are guilty, the fault lies with me. Those in power should have this mindset: to worry about the people's concerns and work for their benefit. Personal feelings are important, very important, but there's another kind of feeling that transcends personal feelings, yet is equally moving. The world I live in was once driven by a group of people who sacrificed their own families for the greater good. My own status was earned by someone who sacrificed their own families for the greater good, so I'm willing to do the same. My death in exchange for the lives of all. No matter how many times I'm hurt, I won't change this belief."
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