After Shen Qingmang finished talking with Hao Xin and sent him to the door, he unexpectedly saw Gu Suihan, so he welcomed his eldest disciple in.
She poured out the old tea, took out a new cup and poured one for Gu Suihan. He took a sip and said to her, "Master, don't you blame me, Junior Brother?"
"Huh? Why complain? He just didn't win beautifully today. He didn't do anything wrong."
"I mean in your past life. He treated you like that, and you didn't feel any resentment?"
"Oh." Shen Qingmang's expression was calm. "He was possessed by a ghost back then. I won't let him make the same mistake again this time."
She was also worried at first that the same thing would happen again, but the original author was already in her spirit palace, so what was there for her to fear?
She looked at Gu Suihan and asked, "What about you? Don't you hate Axin? Although you don't seem to like him very much, you still helped him when he was building his foundation."
"Just a stupid chess piece. If you want to hate someone, you should hate the person who plays the chess piece." Gu Sui Han said calmly.
Shen Qingmang was a little surprised. It was the first time she saw her eldest disciple show such indifference in front of her.
"Master, you're doing your best to train these outer disciples. Are you worried that if the Taichu Sect is attacked again, they won't be strong enough to defend themselves?"
She paused for a moment, then slowly stroked the edge of the teacup. "I haven't really considered that. I just feel they shouldn't be buried, and I happen to have the ability to sculpt them. If that day ever comes... I will protect them and won't let them charge into battle."
"If the Taichu Sect is in danger of being wiped out again, will Master make the same choice as before?" Gu Sui Han asked softly, his fingers clenching the teacup.
Shen Qingmang pondered for a moment and said, "As the master, I am honored to hold the position of Peak Master. I am admired and worshipped by everyone in the sect, so I naturally have to bear the due responsibilities. If disaster strikes, and only my sacrifice can bring peace to the sect, I am still willing to do so."
Honestly, even if the worst-case scenario was a forced plotline conclusion, it would be sixty years from now. If she were still a modern mortal, she would have reached old age and her life would be drawing to a close. Even if she died, she would have no regrets. She didn't seek hundreds of years; the value of life isn't measured by length.
Gu Suihan stared at her intently, his voice a little hoarse, "Master, have you never considered us? How can I...how can I bear the cost of losing my master again?"
Shen Qingmang looked at him gently: "But I can't be with you forever. You will eventually grow up and become independent. By then, if you can come back to see me occasionally, I will be satisfied."
"Disciple will never leave Master." Gu Suihan said earnestly, "If I can stand on my own, I will protect you."
Shen Qingmang felt the joy of becoming a mother without any pain, of having her child skip puberty and become mature and sensible. The corners of his mouth curled up. "Okay, then I will wait for the day when Sui Han achieves success and fame."
Gu Suihan blushed slightly and smiled. Shen Qingmang asked again, "What do you want to see me about?"
"Nothing, I just miss Master."
"But we see each other every day." Shen Qingmang asked in confusion.
"That's different." Gu Suihan shook his head, but didn't say what was different.
She looked at this senior disciple who was taller than her and felt a little puzzled.
Since he revealed his reborn identity, the fog in front of her eyes has dissipated a lot, but there seems to be a faint layer that prevents her from seeing through him completely. She believes that it is because he has lived a second life and is mature in mentality and good at hiding his emotions.
But he would show his clingy side from time to time, relying on adults like a child, which made her feel that he was still a child who needed care.
But... because of his understanding of Qiongju's past, she could no longer approach him and care for him without worries.
But she couldn't show it obviously and hurt his feelings.
Shen Qingmang smiled and said, "Okay, then, have you encountered any confusion in your practice recently? Or do you have something on your mind that you would like to share with me?"
"What did Master say to Junior Brother just now?"
"It relieved him."
"Has Master also tried to enlighten Second Junior Sister?"
"Arong is carefree and doesn't need much comfort. However, I have heard a lot about her worries."
Si Rong would also secretly imitate her dressing style and behavior. Shen Qingmang had met such a little girl when he was teaching in the past. He knew that this was a sign that the other party liked him, and he found it interesting and heartwarming.
"Then Master has his own concerns and needs guidance from others?"
Shen Qingmang laughed: "How could I? I am an adult, and adults will deal with their worries on their own."
"But adults are also human beings." Gu Sui Han said seriously.
Shen Qingmang was speechless for a moment.
He then asked, "Does Master have anyone he loves?"
This time she said without hesitation: "Of course, I love each and every one of you. You are all my good children."
"That's not what my disciple is talking about." Gu Suihan poured himself another cup of tea, drank it, and continued, "It's another kind of love... a different kind of love."
"You mean love?" Shen Qingmang tilted his head. "I don't need this."
"Master is really like a god." Gu Suihan sighed.
God loves the world, but He does not love any particular person.
"How can I be so selfless?" Shen Qingmang touched his nose. "I also have my own selfish desires."
Just like if she had educated them well, she might have been able to avoid her own death to some extent.
"Why doesn't Master need love and affection? Is this also out of selfishness?"
"Maybe for me, love is complicated and uncontrollable."
She is curious about love, but more so, she is skeptical and critical. She reads romance novels, but can't help but complain about the settings and characters. She reads this book mainly because she wants to know what the students are interested in, but she can't put herself in their shoes.
"Master, you won't fall in love with anyone? Then your feelings for us are controllable? You hate losing control?"
"Who doesn't hate losing control? I certainly hope to be in control of everything." Shen Qingmang gently tapped Gu Suihan's forehead. "Why are you asking so many questions today? Do you have a crush on a girl and want to ask your teacher what to do?"
Gu Suihan was stunned at first, then blinked rapidly and said, "Master, can you even give me some advice on this?"
"Of course." Shen Qingmang said confidently: "Although I have never been involved in love, I have witnessed the breakups and reunions of others. I think I have summed up some experience."
"Then... my disciple has a crush on someone who is as warm as the sun and as bright as the moon. I want to chase the sun and the moon. How should I do that?"
Shen Qingmang frowned. "Your description is too general. Can you be more specific? What are her characteristics?"
"There are a lot of people who admire her."
"Oh...there are still a lot of competitors. Then be the most special one, stand out, and let her notice you."
Gu Suihan smiled. "Thank you for your guidance, Master. I understand now."
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