Xu Jue was furious, pacing back and forth in the living room, his finger almost pointing at her nose, "You knew Xu Mei was willing to marry Yanlong, so you must have let her go on purpose!"
Xu Qing asked her, "Mom, my little sister really didn't tell me where she went?"
In the past, Guan Jinghua would have been at a loss if he had been accused like this.
But ever since she learned that her daughter had run away from home, she felt a sense of emptiness in her heart. How would the child, who had grown up by her side, survive if she went out?
She didn't even bring any clothes.
Guan Jinghua felt weak all over, tears falling like broken pearls. Looking at this huge house, she had never felt so deeply unfamiliar.
Xu Qing and Xu Jue had exactly the same face. Even their expressions were very different at this moment. They were both blaming her, blaming Xiaomei.
Guan Jinghua said nothing, turned around and went out to look for her daughter. As she walked on the dark road, tears fell from her eyes and then filled up again.
She was wrong.
The daughter was right, having lived in a home that exploited women. The irony was that she had been exploited her entire life, and only when her daughter, the only person who cared about her, was driven away did she finally burst the bubble of self-deception she had harbored in her mother, her brother and his wife, and even in her own marriage.
If she could find her daughter, she would give up everything and would never force her again; even if she got divorced, even if she had to bear the reputation of being a virtuous woman, she would only be with her baby.
During those few days, Guan Jinghua almost shed all her tears.
There was no trace of him anywhere he could find him, including bookstores, hotels, train stations, and even under bridges.
Dragging her exhausted body back home, she hoped to see Xu Mei, but there was only Leng Mo and Xiao Zi.
Xu Jue looked at her in such a mess and walked away with a sullen face.
Xu Qing stopped.
"Ah Qing," Guan Jinghua's eyes lit up with hope, "Xiao Mei is your biological sister. I've asked at the station. They can find out who bought the ticket. You..."
"Mom, my little sister has caused a lot of trouble since she left, and you are causing more trouble."
Xu Qing was a little impatient, "You should wash and dress yourself again, change your clothes, and don't let others laugh at us again."
joke?
Guan Jinghua's voice was trembling. "What did you say?"
"Xu Mei is like this because of you," Xu Jue stopped in the yard, "She is so sensible and knows how to share the burden of the family. So don't look for a daughter like this, just let her fend for herself here."
My daughter stumbled like a little duck when she was learning to walk.
Grow up and become a beautiful girl,
She always calls me mom and hugs her daughter.
In the end, with red eyes, he kept looking back, leaving only his back to his daughter.
She was so well-behaved, so smart and independent, and she loved herself so much that the mother and daughter could sit and look at each other for an entire afternoon.
At that time, she thought countless times that loving her for twenty years was not enough. If only she could have a granddaughter, she would give her granddaughter lots of love and make a skirt for her that would make others envious.
But what about now?
In the memory, the baby's voice and the husband's indifferent voice overlapped and appeared, and Guan Jinghua even had tinnitus for a moment.
After a moment, she raised her head, her eyes red and almost bleeding.
She, who had always been gentle and devoted to her husband, reached out and slapped Xu Jue hard.
"My Xiaomei is the most obedient and sensible. It was you, and you two demons, who made me force her away with my own hands."
The slap was so powerful that Xu Jue turned his head away and even tasted blood in his mouth.
He had always been a tyrant, so how could he tolerate the humiliation of being slapped in the face by his wife? He almost wanted to fight back immediately.
But Guan Jinghua's hysterical accusations just now attracted the attention of other people in the hospital. Everyone asked about the situation, so he had to give up.
In the next two months, Guan Jinghua often went out for several days at a time. It seemed that the Xu family was no longer her home. She came back only to see if Xu Mei had returned home.
After searching for a long time, her mental state gradually became normal, and she would often squat on the ground and cry loudly.
"Xiaomei has never left me. I know she's doing well and whether she's been bullied or not."
The Xu family's son despised her for being a disgrace, moved out of the compound, and sent her to a nursing home.
At first, Guan Jinghua struggled to go out and continue looking for her daughter, and cooperated very well with the treatment.
Later, she was frequently injected with sedatives, which caused severe damage to her brain nerves and she was awake less and less.
But even so, she was extremely resistant to visits from the Xu family. She hated her husband and son, and she hated herself even more.
She had attempted suicide but failed. From then on, she never dared to commit suicide again. She was afraid that Xiaomei would come back to find her mother.
What if she misses her mother but her mother is gone?
For many years afterwards, she lived in a daze until Ji Fangshu brought her a newspaper.
The woman in the newspaper looked like her own Xiaomei, so she knew at a glance that this must be Xiaomei's daughter.
From Ji Fangshu, she soon learned that her daughter had passed away many years ago. At that time, Guan Jinghua's hands were shaking.
Looking at Ji Fangshu's calculating eyes, she made up her mind at that moment to personally sever the last blood relationship between them.
This is also the last thing she can do for her daughter.
Later, Xu Mu brought a pregnant woman and child to see her, saying that her granddaughter had made great progress, had a good husband's family, and was the biological daughter of the Chief of General Staff.
Guan Jinghua still insisted that she could not fulfill her wish of making a skirt for her granddaughter, and it would no longer be a burden on her life.
Xu Mu's wife gave birth to another boy, and the family came less and less often.
Xu Jue died, and she finally began to become completely confused.
On her daughter's birthday, she regained consciousness briefly, changed her clothes, leaned on the bed, and kept crying.
Tears flowed from the corners of her wrinkled eyes, across the bridge of her nose, and to her ears, and her consciousness gradually became blurred.
Xiaomei sacrificed herself to save him, so it must have been painful for her to be burned to death, just like how heartbroken she felt when she just learned about it.
Is she really scared, or does she miss her mother? Her daughter is still so young, and even in her biological home, Xiaomei must be very relieved.
How hard was I forced to be that I haven't dreamt of my mother in all these years? Not even a single word of help.
She must not have forgiven herself.
It's dark.
The lights in the room were turned off at a fixed time, and the room was pitch black. Only Guan Jinghua was left trembling.
Death must have stood before her.
Guan Jinghua looked at the light coming in from outside and felt her heartbeat slowly weakening in her chest. She suddenly felt a little scared. The fear of death might be engraved in the genetic sequence of every human being.
If she can do it, is Xiaomei even more so?
At the last moment of life,
Her baby is a young girl at home who is still young.
Or are you missing your mother who is thousands of miles away?
——Mrs. Xu's Fan늌·End——
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Ps: I cried as long as I wrote.
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