Song Jin thought about what she had felt was wrong before, and his hesitation when she mentioned getting married on the phone.
Also, he hasn't come back yet.
After hesitating for a while, she reached out and picked up the envelope.
First was the letter sent from Ning City.
"Dear Ajin:
Seeing your letter is like seeing you in person, and reading your letter makes you look happy!
It's been a month since our last phone call, and there are so many things I couldn't say in person. Through this letter, I want to share with you.
In my heart, since you existed, I realized how important you are to me; you appeared in my world and lit up my life;
Ever since I had you, I feel that life is really wonderful; ever since I had you, I actually want to live for ten thousand years; because a hundred years is too short, I am afraid it is not enough; only after ten thousand years, I feel that this life has not been lived in vain.
I never thought that I would fall in love with someone so much that I want to be with him/her all the time.
In the past, I always thought that love was just that; but after you walked into my world, I really realized that love is so vigorous and unforgettable.
You have become everything to me, the only one in my life. Thinking about how you have become the most important person in my life, I can’t describe the feeling in my heart. I just feel that I am not important at all, but you are the indispensable person in my life.
No matter when or where I am, you will always be the brightest star in my life.
Over the years, I always felt that life was lonely and without goals. It seemed that I was living just for the sake of living!
But since I had you, I found that my life has become different; every day, I want to see you, every day, I want to be with you; I want to work hard for you and stay with you forever.
Because only in this way can my heart feel at peace;
I work hard to make money and study, just to make myself worthy of you.
I also often feel inferior, inferior because I don't have a good background, and guilty that I can't create better living conditions for you.
But no matter what, I still don't want to let go of your hand.
I always tell myself that as long as I work hard enough and am strong enough, I will prove to everyone that I deserve you.
I know you don't care about these things, but I don't want you to suffer any grievances from me.
Ajin, believe me, I won't let you lose.
I am not good at speaking and I always fail to express myself clearly, but I think you can feel my sincere feelings.
Here and there, I don't know if you can feel what I want to express.
I hope my Ah Jin can understand the feeling of having the worry go away but then come back to haunt me.
Who made me meet you by chance, and have the desire to walk through this life with you?
I hope my Ajin is happy, safe and happy!
I miss you very much and will return safely as soon as possible.
No matter where we are, I will never leave you.
P.S. I wrote this at the post office, anxious to let you know I'm safe. My handwriting is illegible, so I hope Ajin doesn't mind.
Ajin's Chen Liangliu"
Song Jin was a little surprised after reading the letter. It seemed that people of this era were not all reserved.
Song Jin could clearly see the longing and eagerness between the lines, but she was not very happy at this moment.
His eyes moved to another letter.
Logically speaking, after writing the first letter, he would not write again, because he should have returned on time.
But now, this letter...
Song Jin took a deep breath and opened another letter.
"Ajin:
I'm so sorry for not hearing from you for so long!
The last time I called you, I said I would be back home soon, but due to personal reasons, my schedule changed.
This trip to the south has truly opened my eyes. I've discovered that the world is much bigger than I've ever seen or felt before.
The trip to Anshi has ended. Before that, I met a friend who is about the same age as my father, but we got along very well. It is not an exaggeration to say that we are close friends regardless of age.
His knowledge is far beyond the reach of ordinary people. On the way we met, he told me about the prosperity of his hometown, the development of his career, and how the development of cities in the south is better and faster than ours. I felt very envious when I heard him.
You also know that I have always wanted to change the status quo, eager to make money, eager to improve my social status, and no longer be just an ordinary farmer or worker. Now it seems that the opportunity has come.
He said that as long as I was willing to go back with him and work hard, he would provide me with help that would far exceed what I could provide if I struggled alone for ten years.
I think he is also very capable, with extraordinary conversation and temperament, and is a very elegant old gentleman.
He has a little daughter at home, and we are about the same age. He is also interested in acting as a matchmaker, haha.
Having said so much, Ajin is a smart man and should understand what I mean.
I probably won't go back.
I am determined to stay here and develop. I will write a separate letter to my parents to explain the situation. I think they won't be too sad since I have my brother at home.
The only thing I'm worried about is you, Ajin. I feel guilty towards you. All the things that happened before should be considered as my apologies to you.
When I liked you, I liked you with all my heart. I also wanted to accompany you for the rest of my life. I fantasized about marrying you, having children, naming the children together, accompanying them to school, and then growing old together.
However, as time goes by, plans cannot keep up with the changes.
I'm going to break my promise, Jin.
I am sorry for you, no matter how much you hate me, it is what I deserve.
My savings passbooks are all with you. Consider them as my compensation to you.
I am about to embark on my new life, Ajin. I hope you will meet someone who will love you, protect you and never let you down.
From then on, Chen Liang and Song Jin parted ways and lived happily ever after!
Last night the stars were gone
Green mountains in the distance
The mountains and rivers and the years are empty and melancholy
This life is already lost
From now on, we will never meet again
Don't talk about each other's strengths and weaknesses
I want to call you one last time, Ah Jin, Ah Jin, Ah Jin...
Goodbye, Comrade Song Jin!
Chen Liangliu
Miraculously, Song Jin became calm after reading the letter.
No, maybe not calm either, ignoring the words of her slightly trembling hands.
But at least there was no sign of unrest on his face.
Place the two sheets of letter paper side by side.
A letter filled with longing and anxiety, with deep affection jumping out of the paper. When writing the letter, it seemed as if he was eager to tell himself his current situation and how much he missed him.
Every stroke is full of love.
It was a page filled with apologies, happiness about starting a new life, and blessings to her, but it was obvious that it took a long time to write this page.
There is almost a pause between each word, as if writing each stroke is extremely difficult.
Song Jin knew that he was in trouble.
Maybe it’s a serious matter and he doesn’t want to drag himself down.
So he chose this method, telling himself that he was going to develop in the south and hinting to himself that he was going to get in touch with another girl.
Oh……
Chen Liang, you are great.
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