Chapter 93 I Understand What You Mean

The first rays of sunlight in the early morning shine through the narrow window into the cold and dark cell.

Chu Ran turned over, and with a thud, his fragile head accidentally slipped from the edge of the pillow and hit the bed lightly, but Chu Ran was still awakened by the pain. He opened his eyes and stared blankly for a long time before he realized that there was no one next to him. The place where Li Fu lay yesterday was actually empty.

Is this a hallucination?

But the illusion is so real...

Could it be that he hit his head?

Chu Ran suddenly felt extremely terrified. Damn it, his brain might really be broken. Would he become a fool? Even more frightening was that he might become a fool who often had hallucinations, just like a poor fool who accidentally ate poisonous mushrooms from Yunnan. This was really a bolt from the blue, and misfortunes never come singly.

Li Fu sat on the stool next to him and saw Chu Ran with his eyes closed, his expression tense, his brows tightly locked, and even his lips tightened into a straight line. It looked like he had a nightmare while sleeping, but Li Fu knew that Chu Ran was awake now.

I just don't know what's going on in that weird head of his.

"Chu Ran."

Chu Ran opened his eyes quickly, and his lowered gaze moved upwards, then forwards, and finally fell on Li Fu's face not far away.

I'm really going crazy.

Why did he see Li Fu again!

Is he really out of his mind?!

"Chu Ran, what are you doing?" Li Fu sat upright with a frown.

Chu Ran got up from the bed with a start. He sat like a mermaid on the shore, with his palms supporting the bed, muttering to himself: "It's not an illusion..."

"What hallucination?" Li Fu's eyebrows tightened. "When did you have the hallucination?"

"No, no." Chu Ran hastily denied it, and then asked hesitantly: "So you are here to see me?"

Li Fu: “…Yeah.”

"Thank you." Chu Ran said.

He knew that Shen Minghan came to help him out of Li Fu's sake. If it weren't for Li Fu's help, he would still be in the hands of that corrupt official named Yu, and who knows how Yu would torture him.

All things considered, at least Li Fu saved him from going to jail, and he should be grateful.

But this "thank you" sounded particularly heavy and indescribable to Li Fu. It was as if he had returned to a few months ago when he had just returned to the capital and Chu Ran had been so cold and indifferent to him. He had finally repaired their relationship and made them closer, but because of some of his wrong words and wrong actions, their relationship had returned to square one.

But it was all his own fault and he deserved it.

"I sent someone to tell you something," Li Fu said. "I told you to confess whatever the other party asked you to confess. Why didn't you do as I said?"

"That's what I did." Chu Ran said with a guilty conscience: "He said that I was the one who ordered the pagoda to collapse. I admit it."

"Then why are you still hurt?"

Chu Ran didn't know how to explain, so he answered randomly: "You can't admit everything... I didn't do any of this in the first place..."

"Chu Ran." Li Fu called his name seriously.

A spark fell on the firewood, and he couldn't control himself all of a sudden. The anger that was suppressed in his heart suddenly ignited. Chu Ran said angrily: "Then what do you want me to do? He forced me to admit that you were the one who ordered all this. What do you want me to do? Say you were the one who ordered it? They were originally coming for you. If I admit that you were the one who ordered it, the emperor didn't like you in the first place. When you were a child, it was obviously not you who made the mistake, but he almost beat you to death and even locked you up. If you made such a big mistake, do you think he would treat you the same way he treated Li Dingning?"

He was already in a bad mood, especially because Li Fu had provoked him and made him unhappy, but he still didn't apologize to him, which made him even more unhappy. He also questioned him sternly. Although Chu Ran felt embarrassed that he came to visit him, he was still very happy in his heart. But if he came here just to say these things, Chu Ran would rather he didn't come, because he said things that he didn't like to hear.

The two people sat facing each other, but neither of them looked at each other. The air was stagnant, quiet and depressing.

"Why did you leave that night?" Li Fu asked.

"You chased me away, but I didn't leave? I have no shame."

"I didn't chase you away." Li Fu said.

"You're chasing me away." Chu Ran imitated Li Fu's expression, with a cold expression and impatiently said: "Go away. Aren't you chasing me away?"

"I can't possibly chase you away." Li Fu whispered, "Not in this lifetime."

Chu Ran's breathing stagnated slightly, and soon he turned his head to the side.

"I shouldn't have spoken to you like that." After a long time, Li Fu looked at Chu Ran seriously, apologized and begged sincerely, "So, will you come back?"

Chu Ran's breathing quickened. He opened his mouth but no sound came out. After a while, he seemed to think it over again and again, and said arrogantly, "Then I have to think about it."

Li Fu suddenly stood up and walked to the bed. He was tall to begin with, and when he stood in front of Chu Ran he was like a big tree. Chu Ran moved to the back of the bed, leaving just enough space for him to sit next to it. Li Fu sat down on the bed.

The two people were a little close to each other, Chu Ran felt panicked and moved back again.

"Will you go back?" Li Fu asked again.

Chu Ran was so pressured by Li Fu's questioning eyes that he didn't even dare to look up. He dodged his gaze and made a perfunctory reply: "I'm still in jail... I don't know when I can get out..."

"What about going out? Do you want to go back?"

"I haven't thought about it yet..."

"So what do you think about now?"

Why is Li Fu so annoying? He has already said he needs to think about it, but he insists on forcing him to make a decision right now.

"Alright, alright." Chu Ran frowned and said helplessly, "I'll go back, I'll go back, alright."

Li Fu's eyebrows curved and he chuckled, "So you forgive me?"

Chu Ran: "Oh."

Li Fu suddenly came over and hugged Chu Ran's waist. Chu Ran didn't react much because the way he held Chu Ran was very much like a child holding an adult, which reminded Chu Ran of their childhood.

Li Fu hugged Chu Ran quietly for a while, then he turned his head to the side, and his moist and warm breath sprayed on Chu Ran's slender white neck. Li Fu stared intently at the two protruding blue blood vessels on Chu Ran's neck, his eyes gradually dimming, and he even had the urge to bite it, but he didn't bite it, instead he gave it a light kiss.

Chu Ran's scalp tingled when he touched Li Fu lightly. He pushed Li Fu with a red face. He thought he would use a lot of force, but he pushed Li Fu away easily.

Chu Ran looked straight into Li Fu's eyes and said seriously, "There is something I want to discuss with you."

"After all, we are not children anymore. Of course, it was okay to do these things when we were children, but aren't we grown up now? Some things are hard to do. I mean, we may need a little distance."

But he was afraid that Li Fu would misunderstand him and think that he was deliberately pushing him away. After all, the two of them had just explained the misunderstanding, and it would be bad if another misunderstanding occurred. So he explained again: "I am mainly afraid that others will misunderstand me after reading it."

"I understand what you mean."

Chu Ran breathed a sigh of relief and nodded with a smile.

As long as he understands.

"I know what you mean, so from now on, we won't do this in front of outsiders. We'll do this in private."