Chapter 210 Carl's Hallucination
Hallucinogens are federally classified as Schedule I contraband.
However, the earliest hallucinogens were used in medical treatment to calm violent orcs. Therefore, doctors like Kai could obtain small amounts of them after reporting them.
It was he who gave Carl the hallucinogen, and this was the thing he regretted most in his life, no doubt about it.
At first, Carl was just an alcoholic. He would get drunk every day and wake up in various places the next day, and then continue to repeat the steps of the previous day: drink, fight, get drunk, abuse, sleep on the road, wake up, drink, fight
He was imprisoned three times for disturbing the peace, and each time it was Kai who went to the federal prison to rescue him.
Because Carl had been a street sweeper, some of the friends or descendants of those he had assassinated had learned of his whereabouts. They followed him while he was drunk and stabbed him four or five times in the back. On one occasion, they nearly cut off his hand.
However, Carl did not fight back at all. He lay on the ground and laughed loudly, which made the other party feel scared and his face was covered with tears.
If Kai hadn't arrived in time every time, Carl would have died as he wished.
One time, Kai was so angry that he grabbed his collar and lifted him up, asking him why he was living like a pile of mud. Carl's smile was uglier than crying.
"Because I would have died early," said Carl.
Kai understood what he meant.
The person he loved died, and he himself died that day. Only his body was left alive.
Carl would not attempt suicide like Scorsese, because he couldn't bear to do so. He always fantasized: What if, what if I die before she wakes up? Wouldn't that be a loss?
So he didn't have the courage to commit suicide.
But he couldn't survive a single day without her during those long days.
Kai knew his character. If he continued to do this, he would really kill himself.
So, for the first time, in a non-medical way, he injected a medical version of a hallucinogen, originally intended to calm Carl's nerves.
After the injection, Carl did get better. He stopped drinking and even took the time to dress himself up to look less disheveled. He would sit from dawn to dusk holding a bouquet of flowers, and no one knew what he was waiting for.
Kai thought all this was a sign of him getting better.
But he was wrong.
The side effects of hallucinogens are addiction, accompanied by hallucinations and a range of physiological symptoms. Initially, the patient experiences these hallucinations as real, but upon awakening, their cognition returns and they clearly recognize them as illusions. Only those in extreme distress become addicted to hallucinations, unable to extricate themselves even after later realizing they are hallucinations.
Although Kay was very careful to give him a very small dose, Carl still had hallucinations.
He hugged the soft and thin body again. The fragrance of lily of the valley surrounded him. Her hair brushed his cheek. She smiled and said to him, "Karl, if you do this again, I will ignore you."
Karl hugged her tightly nervously and said, “Don’t go, I won’t make you angry, don’t go.”
"Sui Sui, I miss you so much"
"You promised me that you would have a home with me and not leave me alone."
"Why are your hands so cold? Why won't you look at me?"
"Would you please look at me?"
"Will you take me away?"
Carl woke up crying, his pillow soaked. The hallucinogen was gradually being metabolized in his body and was beginning to lose its effect.
He stared blankly at the mirror in the ward, saw his stubble and dark complexion, and hurriedly got out of bed.
"You can't meet her like this, she will change her mind."
Karl took care of himself seriously for the first time in a long time, put on new clothes, bought her favorite bouquet of flowers, then lay on the bed, closed his eyes, and prepared to see her again.
But this time, he couldn't fall asleep.
He went out and ran twenty laps again, came back sweating all over, and lay back on the bed, holding a bouquet of flowers in his hand with a smile on his face.
Ten minutes passed, one hour passed, three hours passed
Carl had trouble sleeping.
He coaxed himself and said to himself: "Go to sleep, she is waiting for you in the dream, she is going to take you away, go to sleep quickly."
Finally, after countless attempts, Carl finally fell into a light sleep, but this time, he did not see the person he wanted to see.
After waking up, he sat motionless by the window holding the bouquet of flowers.
The sun rose and set, until the moon shone on his shoulders. He slowly got up, sneaked into the pharmacy in the dead of night, and took away all of Kai's hallucinogens.
He used a trick to get to the small building, the room where he used to live, took off his shirt, and injected himself with a shot of hallucinogen.
Carl lowered his head, waiting for something. A few seconds later, he heard footsteps at the door. Then a little head popped in from the doorway, with a timid look on its face. Upon seeing him, it asked in surprise, "Are you okay?"
"Wait a minute, I'll find some tools to help you."
Karl stared at her blankly, a feeling welling up in his throat, and his eyes suddenly turned red.
The same scene, the same expression, this was the first time he came to her hotel, and she saw what he said when he was cleaning the wound.
Karl smiled, and a tear instantly fell. He looked at her and repeated his previous words, but the tone was gentle and full of nostalgia.
"Need not."
"Come here."
He watched Qiao Sui Sui coming over, threw away the injection in his hand, and hugged her.
"What's wrong with you?"
"What about me?"
Carl repeated his conversation with her, tears streaming down his face. However, he still pretended to be relaxed and choked out, "You haven't seen it? I thought you were Scorsese's female. At least you've seen this kind of small scene before. After all, compared to the injuries he's suffered, my little drizzle is nothing."
She should have felt sick because of her own prank, but unexpectedly, the 'Qiao Sui Sui' in the hallucination reached out and hugged him back.
Carl's tears welled up and he could no longer hold them back.
He hugged her and broke down crying.
"Why did you abandon me? Why didn't you take me away?"
"You're so bad to me"
"Let me go with you. I can't wait any longer."
"Please, take me away."
The picture was distorted, and Carl suddenly opened his eyes, with the tears on his face still wet.
He looked around in a daze and found that he was still in the room of the small building, but there was no one around and the room had not been cleaned for a long time and was covered with a thick layer of dust.
Karl wiped the tears from his face and injected himself with another shot with an expressionless face.
In the hallucination, footsteps were heard at the door again.
A little head popping out, a timid expression, and a petite figure.
"Are you okay?"
"Wait a minute, I'll find some tools to help you."
Karl called her calmly and said gently: “No. Come here.”
Over and over and over again.
The floor is covered with injections.
Carl kept repeating the hallucination while awake, and then sank into the hallucination while awake.
"Are you okay?"
".I miss you so much."
"Wait a minute, I'll find some tools to help you."
"I really miss you."
(End of this chapter)
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