Chapter 439 Expectation and Disappointment
The noise in the house and the crying of the newborn baby gradually subsided, leaving only the exhaustion of surviving the disaster and the warm joy filling the air.
Yuan Wanru washed her hands and carefully carried the wrinkled, but now rosy and sleeping little life out to show it to the male owner.
She lowered her eyelashes, a gentle smile on the corners of her lips, and her fingertips gently brushed the baby's tender cheek. Her focused expression was as if she was holding the most precious and fragile glass in the world.
Lu Jiangnian stood aside and watched all this silently.
Just now he was outside, listening to the noise inside, and knew that this little life was almost unable to open its eyes and see this world.
As he watched the scene before him, a new and turbulent emotion was quietly taking over his heart.
His eyes were first fixed on the small swaddling clothes - that newborn, fragile, yet full of infinite vitality, which had just experienced such a dangerous birth, but was now lying safely in Yuan Wanru's arms.
A strange, almost painful throbbing suddenly tightened around his heart.
He looked at the baby smacking his lips unconsciously, his tiny fingers curled up, and a clear and strong thought came to his mind: "If the child in my wife's arms is ours..."
This thought was like a huge rock thrown into a calm lake, instantly creating a huge wave in his heart, so exciting that his fingertips went slightly numb.
He looked at the soft halo emanating from Yuan Wanru's body when she was holding the child, and felt that the scene was breathtakingly beautiful, and it made him desire to possess it more than ever before.
On the way back, the evening breeze brought the fragrance of the fields.
Lu Jiangnian was driving the cart on the shaft, Yuan Wanru lifted the curtain and chatted with him.
Mrs. Lu Jiangnian felt as if her mind was being scratched by a cat's claws. It was very itchy, but she didn't know how to start.
He cleared his throat. "Hey... that kid today, he looked pretty strong, huh?"
He tried to make his voice sound like he was talking about the weather.
Yuan Wanru sipped the water and replied casually, "Yeah, yes, he cries loudly, and his hands and feet are strong. He is a strong baby."
"yes……"
Lu Jiangnian paused, as if trying to organize his words. "You say, is such a small baby... particularly difficult to take care of? I heard that he always cries at night and can't sleep well?"
He turned around and secretly glanced at Yuan Wanru's profile, trying to catch a glimpse of her aversion to "trouble".
Yuan Wanru nodded, with the objectivity of a doctor: "Indeed, it is common for newborns to have reversed day and night and cry frequently, which will be very hard for their parents."
“Oh, that’s hard work…”
Lu Jiangnian's heart skipped a beat, and he quickly added, "But... no matter how hard it is, watching the child grow up day by day, learning to laugh, learning to crawl, and learning to call mom and dad... isn't that feeling... very different?"
There was a barely perceptible hint of yearning and caution in his voice.
Yuan Wanru noticed that the direction of his topic seemed a bit strange, but she didn't think too much about it for a moment and just thought he was expressing his feelings about today's experience.
She continued his words: "Well, being a parent requires hard work, but the joy you gain is naturally incomparable."
Seeing that she didn't seem to understand the hidden meaning of his words, Lu Jiangnian became a little anxious.
He racked his brains to find a more "direct" entry point.
"Madam, look...who does that child's eyes resemble? They are round and pretty."
"You said...if in the future..."
He paused, and lowered his voice, "If in the future our... uh, I mean, if we... um..."
He kept saying "if" for a long time but couldn't come to any conclusion. This was totally unlike his usual style.
Yuan Wanru finally felt that something was wrong. Her eyes were fixed on his face. In the afterglow of the setting sun, she saw the nervousness of wanting to speak but not being able to, and the expectation that could not be hidden in his eyes.
In a flash, she suddenly realized!
It turns out that this guy has been thinking about this all the time, beating around the bush and talking nonsense!
When they consummated their marriage, she said that she didn't want to have children too early.
This person wants it but doesn't dare to say it directly.
A sly smile instantly crept up the corners of Yuan Wanru's mouth.
She deliberately frowned, sighed deeply, and acted very worried: "Ah, husband, now that you mention it, I really think... raising a child is too troublesome!"
"Just think about it. From the tenth month of pregnancy, I definitely can't do whatever I want like I do now. I can't go up the mountain to collect herbs, I can't walk to treat illnesses. Life is so boring."
"You know, this is not the life I want."
"Also, after the child is born, he will cry day and night and need someone to take care of him all the time. There are many troubles to consider."
"I have to worry about his food, clothing, health, education... Oh, it makes me feel dizzy just thinking about it! This is like putting a lifetime yoke on myself! It's so troublesome, so troublesome!"
"Our days as a traveling doctor have just begun. Don't you think it's interesting?"
As she spoke, she shook her head exaggeratedly, but her eyes were fixed on Lu Jiangnian's expression.
Sure enough, the expression on Lu Jiangnian's face suddenly became more serious.
"There are Aunt Pang and Liu Yan who can take care of the child. You are thinking too complicated."
Yuan Wanru shook her head: "Since I have decided to be a mother, I can't be a hands-off boss."
He opened his mouth and wanted to refute, but Yuan Wanru's words were clear and logical, and every word made sense, which blocked all the words in his mind.
The light in his eyes dimmed visibly, as if a bucket of cold water had been poured on him, and his entire body wilted.
Forget it, since she is still unwilling, then just wait.
He was just feeling it for a moment today.
In the second half of the journey, he was unusually silent and just drove on. Yuan Wanru deliberately tried to talk to him, and although he responded fluently, he seemed a little uninterested.
Back in the small courtyard they rented in Dafeng Town, Lu Jiangnian made a fire and cooked as usual. His emotions seemed to have calmed down and there was no sign of anything wrong.
Yuan Wanru saw it and laughed in her heart, but remained expressionless.
After washing up, they blew out the oil lamp and lay down on the bed.
The moonlight outside the window is like water, shining through the window lattice.
Lu Jiangnian hugged her and said, "Go to sleep."
At this point, Yuan Wanru finally couldn't bear it anymore.
She stretched out her soft arms and wrapped them around Lu Jiangnian's waist, "Hey..."
She said softly, with a barely perceptible smile, "Are you unhappy?"
"He didn't pay much attention to me on the way back."
Lu Jiangnian looked down at her, meeting her sparkling eyes, and kissed her forehead: "Nonsense, I'm not unhappy, I'll listen to you."
He didn't mean what he said.
Although he already had the desire to be a father and wanted their family to be more complete.
But if she has no such plan, he will respect her choice.
Yuan Wanru felt warm in her heart because of his thoughtfulness and respect.
She tightened her arms and pressed her cheek against his broad chest, feeling his strong heartbeat, gentle but clear: "Silly boy... I was just teasing you."
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