Chapter 26 Let me think about
it again Qi Ji didn't find it strange to hear this.
In fact, Yuan Zhuo had been saying that he liked him since the first day they officially met.
But looking closely at Yuan Zhuo at this moment, his eyes were no longer as well-behaved and innocent as usual, but instead had some determination and aggression that could not be ignored.
The whole person seemed to have changed from a cute and innocent little puppy who always loved to act coquettishly to a big wolf dog with bared teeth and very protective of food.
Those eyes full of tension and determination stared at him tightly, as if they would not allow him to escape at all.
In this way, even Qi Ji, who had no experience in love, understood that the love Yuan Zhuo said this time was not the kind of love he had thought before.
Qi Ji didn't know why things had inexplicably developed to this point. Everything seemed out of control, but it had to be solved no matter what.
"Let me go first."
Yuan Zhuo didn't know why things had suddenly developed to this point when everything was so beautiful before.
He regretted not controlling himself at the critical moment, but the current situation did not allow him to regret.
He couldn't lose him, and couldn't be without him.
Holding Qi Ji tightly in his arms, he continued to confess in a tight voice.
"I know, I know this is too sudden for a brother, but I really like you, brother. It's not the love of a younger brother for an older brother, nor is it the admiration of a fan for an idol. It's the kind of love that one person has for another person and wants to be with for the rest of their lives, so brother, will you be with me?"
After hearing this, Qi Ji confirmed that his guess was correct, and finally understood the real reasons that had confused him in the past.
So that's how it is...
That's right, how can a younger brother be so good to his older brother? He is still a child himself, but he almost gives everything to him.
He was too careless. It turned out that his love for him was the kind of love that wanted to be in love.
Qi Ji does not discriminate against homosexuals, or in other words, except for the few people around him, he does not care about anyone or anything other than his life goals.
Who someone falls in love with, whether the other person is a man or a woman, whether the other person is good or bad, are all that person's own choices, and have nothing to do with him, and he has no right to comment.
But now that the matter has fallen on him, he has no way to stay out of it.
However, there is no doubt that Yuan Zhuo is still different for him, right?
If it was another person who treated him like this, Qi Ji believed that he would refuse without hesitation, walk away, and pretend that nothing had happened.
But facing Yuan Zhuo like this, his choked and trembling confession echoed in his ears, and Qi Ji couldn't push him away cruelly.
Of course, this does not mean that he agrees.
He will not agree. Being friends with Yuan Zhuo is already the biggest accident in the last stage of his life. They will never and should not have other more difficult to break relationships. After all, he has a destined ending.
Qi Ji had thought about this before: would Yuan Zhuo be sad after he left?
He should, after all, they had at least been friends for some time by then.
But people have many friends, and he believes that the sadness brought to him will soon be worn away by time.
But lovers are different. Although Qi Ji has never been in love, common sense tells him that lovers are different from friends.
From another perspective, Yuan Zhuo is still so young, can he really distinguish between admiration and love?
Although Qi Ji himself does not know what love is.
But as an elder, he has the responsibility to guide Yuan Zhuo correctly, instead of taking advantage of his momentary erroneous cognition and recklessly enjoying the warmth and everything he provides... regardless of his future and life.
He knew that he couldn't leave today, or he didn't want to leave Yuan Zhuo alone here.
After all, he had spent all his efforts to prepare all this for him. No matter what his feelings were, a person's intentions should not be easily denied or even trampled upon.
Qi Ji took a deep breath, calmed down, raised his hand and gently patted Yuan Zhuo on the back, coaxing him softly.
"I won't leave, let me go first."
If possible, Yuan Zhuo really wanted to hold Qi Ji like this until the end of time.
But he didn't have the habit of avoiding reality. Instead of avoiding it, he preferred to face the problem and solve it.
Slowly letting go of Qi Ji, Yuan Zhuo lowered his head slightly, then raised his head and looked at him pitifully and sadly.
"Brother, I'm sorry, but I really like you. I will definitely work hard to become better and stronger. I will treat you well for the rest of my life. Please consider me, okay?" It
's not like Qi Ji hasn't been confessed to before. This kind of thing even happened frequently before.
But no one's confession could have such a big impact on him. Usually he would politely refuse and walk away neatly, without exception.
But now there is an exception...
Without answering his question directly, Qi Ji sighed deeply again, walked to the sofa not far away and sat down.
"Come here, let's talk."
Without him saying anything, Yuan Zhuo had already followed closely.
It's just that he didn't sit on the sofa opposite Qi Ji. The distance was actually not far, but at this moment he needed to be as close to Qi Ji as possible so that he could feel a little relieved.
Sitting on the carpet in front of him, he looked at Qi Ji cautiously while resting his chin on his knees.
"You're talking about brother."
In the past, when he didn't know about his thoughts, Qi Ji gradually got used to these intimate behaviors.
But now, he can't indulge him like this anymore.
After spending some effort to get rid of the little bit of secret softness in his heart, Qi Ji reached out and pushed Yuan Zhuo's head away, looking at him seriously and indifferently.
"You should know that I have no plans to fall in love."
Although he didn't know the secret hidden in Qi Ji's heart, from Yuan Zhuo's point of view, he also knew very well that Qi Ji did not have this plan.
At least during his service, he would never let love distract him.
In fact, Yuan Zhuo had no intention of confessing his feelings so early. His plan was to gradually enter Qi Ji's life and become the person closest to him.
After Qi Ji fulfilled his dream, he would naturally become his lover.
But who knew that change is always faster than plan, and such a big accident happened just when his plan started.
But things have already happened, and complaining is useless. He still has to think about how to solve it. Hearing Qi Ji's words, Yuan Zhuo's brain immediately started to work quickly.
In the past, no matter what he did wrong, as long as he acted coquettishly and naughty, Qi Ji would tolerate him and forgive him, because in his heart at that time he was a younger brother and a child, and the mistakes he made were within his tolerance.
But this time is different. This time, he broke his bottom line, and it was useless to act coquettishly or naughty.
Yuan Zhuo never does useless work. After clearly realizing this fact, he immediately gave up his previous methods and looked for new solutions.
Soon, he had a countermeasure.
Since it is impossible for him to agree to fall in love with him no matter what, he should settle for the next best thing.
Thinking of this, he raised his head, making his eyes look as pitiful and innocent as possible, trying to win Qi Ji's heart.
"I know, can I line up first, brother? When you want to fall in love, consider me first, okay?!"
Of course, with that said, Yuan Zhuo had no intention of giving anyone a chance.
Oh, let alone jumping in line, even just approaching Qi Ji.
Unless, unless, Qi Ji still can't like him in the end...
Maybe just thinking about this makes Yuan Zhuo feel so uncomfortable that he wants to kill someone.
Quickly getting rid of this suffocating thought from his mind, he continued to look at Qi Ji pitifully.
He didn't know if it had become a habit, he knew very well in his heart that Yuan Zhuo's current obedience and pitifulness were all meant to soften his heart, but inexplicably, Qi Ji felt that he just couldn't really harden his heart towards him.
He didn't know why, this was not like his usual self.
Could it be that no matter what purpose and mood Yuan Zhuo had in treating him like this, at least his care and companionship were real, so he couldn't just easily erase everything he had done?
Qi Ji found a seemingly reasonable reason for himself, but he knew in his heart that this was not the real reason.
But he couldn't figure out the real reason for a while... Growing up, his thoughts had never been so complicated and unsolvable.
Sighing secretly, he decided to give up sorting out his chaotic thoughts and solve the problem of the little boy in front of him first.
Does he really like him?
Calming down and looking at him, Qi Ji had a very big question mark in his heart.
He really didn't understand why Yuan Zhuo had such an incredible feeling for him. If he wanted to solve this problem, he must first know the real reason.
"Tell me, why do you have such feelings for me."
Yuan Zhuo didn't have anything to be embarrassed about. He immediately told his sweetheart his psychological process without reservation.
After listening, Qi Ji was silent.
Combining the pitiful knowledge of love that he had learned in his nearly 25 years of life, he thought about it thoughtfully for a long time, and finally came to a conclusion.
"I still think that you just mistook admiration for love."
Yuan Zhuo didn't think so.
When he really realized that he seemed to like Qi Ji, he had thought about this problem thousands of times, and had discussed it with his closest brother and sister.
The final conclusion was that he really liked Qi Ji.
Because admiration does not mean wanting to be with a person for a lifetime, nor will you miss him when you can't see him, and your mood will not fluctuate with his joys and sorrows.
In fact, it is very simple to prove this point. As a big man, even if he admires someone, he will not want to kiss him, hug him, or even fuck him, right?
Of course, even if Yuan Zhuo had ten thousand more courage, he would not dare to say so.
His goal is very clear, no matter how Qi Ji views his feelings for him now, as long as he doesn't drive him away, it will be fine.
As long as the green mountains remain, there will be no shortage of firewood to burn. He believes that one day, Qi Ji will understand that he just loves him, not just worships him.
So now as long as he allows him to stay by his side, nothing else matters.
Thinking of this, Yuan Zhuo raised his face, pursed his lips, lowered his eyes, and when he looked up at Qi Ji again, his expression became even more pitiful and lovely, and even tears welled up in his eyes.
"No matter what, brother, don't chase me away, okay? I swear, I will control myself in the future and never do anything that brother doesn't like!"
In HOW, Qi Ji has always been famous for his absolute calmness. No matter how critical the moment is, he can think rationally and handle everything.
At this moment, reason clearly tells Qi Ji that the best way to solve the problem is to cut off all ties between him and Yuan Zhuo.
But facing such a Yuan Zhuo, he really seems to be unable to make the most rational and correct decision as cleanly as before.
This is so unlike him that Qi Ji couldn't help but close his eyes, which were as quiet and bright as cold stars, again with some helplessness.
But in fact, if you think about it carefully, all this does not seem to be without trace.
It seemed that since they met and got to know each other, Qi Ji's previous principles and habits had been compromised and changed for Yuan Zhuo. Could it be that this time was no exception?
That strange and unfamiliar feeling came over him again. Qi Ji felt that he really needed to be alone for a while, rest, and think again.
"Let me think about it."