Family... Home...
All these had long since disappeared from his world, and even in his dreams, he no longer dared to hope for them.
From the moment he merged with Ye Mufeng's demonic soul, his world was filled with only coldness, hatred, pain, despair, and violence... If the world of ordinary people is heaven, then his world is a complete hell.
And Xiao Lingxi was the only warmth in his entire world.
During that time, the reason why he stayed in Floating Cloud City was because of her. He would feel endless satisfaction as long as he could see her every day, and even the huge pain he endured when absorbing the magic source seemed nothing. But he never dared to get close to her, because in front of others, he was a terrifying demon god, and in front of Xiao Lingxi, he only felt endless inferiority, timidity, and shame in his heart.
Because in his eyes, he was no longer a human being, but an ugly devil, a devil whose soul was completely filthy.
He longed to kill Yun Che... After leaving Floating Cloud City that day, he thought Xiao Lingxi would never want to see him again, and would only reject, fear, and even hate him. In the three months before the final battle with Yun Che, he could not control himself and returned to Floating Cloud City several times, just to see Xiao Lingxi. But he could only watch from afar... for fear that she would see him.
And today, not only did she save him from the brink of death, she also took the initiative to acknowledge him as her brother, become his relative, and give him a new home.
No one could know how strong her every word and sentence was to his soul, like a snowstorm that covered the sky in his cold world.
Stunned, dazed, and unable to believe... Then panic set in. Fen Juechen shrank back and shook his head violently: "No, it can't be... It shouldn't be like this. You must... must be doing this to stop me from killing Yun Che..."
Xiao Lingxi said forcefully, “Brother Fen, every word I said and every oath I made were from the bottom of my heart! If…if it was because of Xiao Che, how could I let Brother Tianxia bring you back…”
“No, you don’t understand!” Fen Juechen shook his head more violently. He closed his eyes, his face full of pain: “I am now… just a demon, a demon full of sins, living only for revenge. You won’t understand… you won’t understand!”
“You don’t understand!!” Xiao Lingxi shouted, “Brother Fen, do you still remember that four years ago, in Fentian Sect, your elder brother Fen Juecheng broke your arm in order to protect me, but you refused to let him go… I, Xiao Lingxi, will remember this incident and this favor in my heart for the rest of my life and will never forget it. How can you be a devil!”
"During the time you were in Floating Cloud City, I could sense that you were in pain the entire time. You made yourself cold and cruel, and even called yourself a demon... and all of this was done to avenge your loved ones. A true 'devil' is selfish and cruel. How could a true demon give up his life and make himself so miserable just for the sake of his dead relatives!"
"I am afraid of your threat to Xiao Che... But I know better that you have done nothing wrong from the beginning to the end. You have always been just a victim. At least, you are definitely not the villain you think you are..."
“No… don’t say any more.” Xiao Lingxi’s words did not soothe his heart or soul. Instead, his expression became even more painful. He held his head with both hands: “You don’t understand, you really don’t understand… I really am a devil…”
"I don't have the right to let you do this to me!"
“Whether or not you are qualified is not up to Brother Fen to decide.” Xiao Lingxi still shook her head. She said softly, “‘Family’ is a very sacred word to me. In my life, my only relatives are my father, Xiao Che, and Xiao Yun who just returned. I have never thought of actively asking other people who are not related by blood to be my relatives. However, Brother Fen is different… When the Divine Phoenix Army was approaching our Floating Cloud City, it was Brother Fen who protected Floating Cloud City, the hometown where Xiao Che and I were born and grew up. So to me, Brother Fen is not only a good man and a benefactor, but also a true hero!”
Fen Juechen: “…………”
"So, I have always felt grateful, close, and respectful to Brother Fen. If Brother Fen could become my elder brother, a relative who could rely on and take care of each other, it would be an extremely happy and lucky thing for me. If Brother Fen refuses, I would definitely be very disappointed and sad."
Fen Juechen's body stopped shaking, and he stood there motionless, his eyes dull, as if frozen.
“But, it seems that Brother Fen doesn’t like me to be your relative.” Xiao Lingxi raised her head and looked into Fen Juechen’s eyes with a slightly lost look.
“I… I…” Under her gaze, this man who had caused the Divine Phoenix army of 200,000 to tremble and who even Yun Che feared deeply suddenly became panicked and spoke incoherently.
“But…” Xiao Lingxi laughed again. The sudden smile made the world in front of Fen Juechen suddenly brighten up. “I’ve said everything I wanted to say, and I’ve sworn an oath. No matter whether Big Brother Fen is willing to acknowledge me as his sister or not, in my heart, Big Brother Fen is my brother from now on! From now on, Xiao Clan will be Big Brother Fen’s home, and this room will always be reserved for Big Brother Fen. When Big Brother Fen is at home, I will take care of him like my own brother, and share all the good and bad things with him.”
"But if Brother Fen does something wrong, as your younger sister, I will criticize and correct him without hesitation!!"
Without waiting for Fen Juechen to respond, Xiao Lingxi stood up and said with a charming smile: "It's decided! Brother Fen is seriously injured now, and all resistance is completely ineffective! So..."
"Wait for me, I'll be right back!"
Xiao Lingxi finished her words and ran away... After a while, she pushed the door open again, holding a stack of clean grey-white coats in her hands.
"Brother Fen, your clothes are all rotten and stink. Change into this set first. Brother Fen has never been used to relying on others, and it seems that he has recovered a lot of strength. He can definitely change his clothes by himself, so I won't ask Brother Tianxia to help." She said with a smile, and gently placed the clothes next to Fen Juechen's hand: "By the way, this is the clothes that Xiao Che has worn, it should be very suitable."
Fen Juechen, who was in a state of confusion, heard the word "Yun Che" and a surge of anger rose from his chest instinctively: "Yun... Che!?"
“Yeah!” Xiao Lingxi didn’t care about the abnormal tone and breath of Fen Juechen at all, and still smiled sweetly: “These are the clothes he left behind before he left last time. I just washed them and dried them not long ago. I know that Brother Fen hates Xiao Che very much, but there is nothing wrong with the clothes. Brother Fen is such a powerful person, he certainly won’t be so stingy as to make things difficult for a set of clothes… I’m going to make another batch of medicine, Brother Fen, please change your clothes obediently. I’ll come over when I’m done.”
With a light smile, Xiao Lingxi turned around and left, closing the door.
The world became extremely quiet, and for the first time, Fen Juechen felt his heartbeat was so clear and intense.
He was stunned for a long time, then finally reached out his hand and reached for the coat at hand.
The clothes were neatly folded, every pattern was as clean as new, and one could faintly smell a light fragrance.
This was the clothes of Yun Che, the person he hated the most. He hated Yun Che and everyone in his family... He should have been disgusted and torn it into pieces, and even became irritable for a long time. But... at this moment, he held it in his hands, and there was not even a trace of hostility or murderous intent in his heart. Even the action of holding it up was subconsciously careful and light.
…………
“As the heavens bear witness, I, Xiao Lingxi, am willing to take Brother Fen Juechen as my elder brother… From now on, I am Brother Fen’s relative, and my home is Brother Fen’s home…”
"You don't understand... I'm afraid of your threat to Xiao Che, but I know better that you have done nothing wrong from the beginning to the end. You have always been just a victim. At least, you are definitely not the villain you think you are..."
"...To me, Brother Fen is not only a good man and a benefactor, but also a true hero!"
"If Brother Fen could become my elder brother and relative... then it would be such a happy and lucky thing for me..."
"No matter whether Big Brother Fen is willing to acknowledge me as his sister or not, in my heart, Big Brother Fen will always be my elder brother! From now on, Xiao Clan will be Big Brother Fen's home..."
………………
Xiao Lingxi’s voice, every word, every sentence, resounded in his heart and soul again and again, echoing in every corner of his cold soul.
drop……
The slight dripping sound was extremely clear in the quiet world. Fen Juechen lowered his head in a daze... On the corner of the gray clothes in his hand, a wet mark was spreading silently.
Eyes...tears...
He stretched out his fingers and touched his face with trembling hands... His fingertips touched a long trail of water...
Tears...
I am clearly a demon who has lost all humanity and emotions, and is left with only sin and hatred...
Why...I still have tears...
His fingers were trembling, and his soul was becoming even more confused. He didn't know what the feeling that filled his soul at this moment was. Only the tears on his face were falling uncontrollably, unable to stop...
So I can still be a... "person"...
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[Tonight at 8 o'clock (the 21st), there will be a live broadcast of Zongheng's annual celebration (maybe) in Douyu 1589414 room. I am the special guest (I don't know why! I have been confused!), those who are interested can come and join in the fun... But I strongly don't recommend it, because I am now a middle-aged uncle who dares not see people! ! ]
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