Chapter 107 Chapter 107 "Because I will die!"...
Gong Chengyue quietly left with his feather fan as soon as Xie Yun arrived.
He knew that with his friend's narrow-mindedness, if he heard something he shouldn't hear or saw something he shouldn't see, the consequences would be very miserable.
The tea at hand exuded a slightly bitter herbal aroma. Zhang Jingxian carefully identified it and guessed that it contained Chinese yew seeds. In the past, she would also pick some Chinese yew seeds from the mountains, dry them, and use them to make tea. It was said that it could prevent epidemics.
"I visited Madam Zheng today, and she told me that boiling a soup made from grains and adding moxa to the blood can alleviate nightmares."
Zhang Jingxian finally turned around and softly asked Xie Yun if she wanted to try it tonight.
"After trying, Ah Xian, will you admit that you have me in your heart?" His laughter was filled with mockery. If it weren't for him, why would she remember that he liked spicy food, why did she really believe that he was sick, why would she run to the home of an old lady she had only met a few times to find a prescription for him?!
She left Jiankang, stabbed an arrow in his heart, and congratulated herself on her wedding over and over again, forcing Xie Yun to admit that she did not love herself.
But even if he is a cold-hearted person, it is hard not to get lost in the word "husband", a pair of smiling eyes, and a responding gesture.
When he greedily demanded from her, the peasant girl, even though she was unconscious, still tried hard to open her eyes and look at him. There was no boredom or resistance in her eyes, only the charm that attracted his whole body and mind.
How could she not have him in her heart?
Xie Yun fell into self-doubt again and again, but every time his heart looked at her warmly, she would avoid him coldly and never gave up escaping from him.
"If," Zhang Jingxian glanced at him and quickly turned her head away, "you are willing to divorce me and promise not to disturb my life in the future, I can admit that you are in my heart."
She knew that this would make him angry, but so what? What she had always wanted was a world without him.
Zhang Jingxian didn't want to deceive him anymore, nor did she want to deceive herself.
"I don't want to, and I won't promise. Ah Xian, just give up on this idea." Xie Yun smiled slightly. He had even thought of the place where they would be buried together a hundred years later. She liked Yangshan, so they would be buried under Yangshan.
"You used coercion and inducement to force me to stay in Changling, so why bother asking me why I didn't accept you?"
If he was willing to let her go, she would be grateful to him, but if he asked her to give up, then she could just ignore him.
Zhang Jingxian couldn't hide her disappointment. She picked up the porcelain cup, drank up the tea with Yun Yingzi in it without leaving a drop, and tried to walk out.
The thatched cottage was not very big. Xie Yun stretched out a hand and pressed on the door frame, blocking her way.
Zhang Jingxian raised her head and met a pair of dark eyes that weighed heavily on her heart, "Ah Xian, you are avoiding the question."
He could see the panic that flashed through her mind, so he put his arm around her waist and dragged her back to the hut. With a little effort, he lifted her up and placed her on the low couch.
He threw the troublesome porcelain cup and teapot to the ground with a cold face, and they shattered into pieces with a crackling sound.
Zhang Jingxian moved her lips, lowered her head and remained silent.
Her breathing was rapid, but she couldn't utter a word. She had assumed without a second thought that he was marrying into the Chao family and had misunderstood him, so it was understandable that he was angry.
"Ah Xian, answer me."
Xie Yun twisted her face up and forced her to look into his eyes. He was indeed sick, and the blood flowing in his body was becoming more and more irritable, and he urgently needed a breakthrough.
He looked down at the peasant girl expressionlessly and pinched her earlobe hard with his fingertips.
Seeing her lips open almost instantly, he bit down like a beast that had smelled its prey, and forced out moans from her with fierce and relentless force.
Zhang Jingxian's body was almost half bent, one hand was tightly supporting the low couch, and her legs were trembling, but he still pressed down forcefully, his big hands tightly gripping her neck.
It seemed that even if he couldn't get an answer today, his demands on her would not stop.
"We've been married for a long time, and we haven't tried anywhere else, not even during the day. What's the point of drinking grain soup? Ah Xian is my medicine."
Xie Yun smiled and buried his head in her neck. His laughter sounded very funny.
She was the one who could hardly breathe, and she was the one whose body was trembling and sensitive, but he was the one who exuded a sense of melancholy.
"Because accepting you would kill me."
Zhang Jingxian's eyes were empty, and a helpless smile was on her face. "I don't want to die again. Is that reason enough?"
She had already died once.
...Xie Yun slowly loosened the arms that were restraining her. Zhang Jingxian couldn't recognize his expression at that moment, but she only noticed that his eyes were a little red.
It was a bit like when he woke up from a nightmare at night.
"I told you you won't die."
"Ah Xian will live a long life."
"Remember that."
Xie Yun spoke each word in a deep voice, as if it was imprinted in her mind.
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At night, Xie Yun drank the soup made from grains. Zhang Jingxian didn't know how it tasted, but the burning moxa in the room made her sleep soundly until dawn.
When she woke up the next day, she was full of energy. She broke free from the embrace and went to the courtyard to practice archery.
The ice silk was very handy to use. Facing the tree stump that was half a person's height, Zhang Jingxian almost never missed the target, and every arrow penetrated deeply into the stump.
All the arrows she uses now have been replaced. The arrowheads are sharper and faster.
A total of more than ten arrows were shot out. She stood in place and shook her wrists. She was still too weak alone.
Zhang Jingxian returned to the house and found the business card that Mrs. Zheng had given her. She looked at it carefully and wrote one herself imitating the business card.
In fact, in her previous life, she had hosted and attended several banquets under the name of Madam Zhang. However, the process was always a bit awkward, after all, she and the people at the banquet had lived in completely different worlds since childhood.
After looking at it again, Zhang Jingxian decisively blacked out her own picture and sighed slightly.
No, she had tried it in her previous life, and she didn't want to go down the same path again.
Zhang Jingxian made up her mind to keep Madam Zheng's business card. It just so happened that meat patties were made for breakfast today, so she asked Tinglan to return the warm meat patties and the business card to Madam Zheng.
"If Madam Zheng asks, tell her that I prefer a filling meat pie to fame."
Tinglan responded and conveyed the original words to Mrs. Zheng.
Madam Zheng was stunned for a moment. Grain official Weng, who was standing beside her, picked up a meat pie and ate it with a smile on his face. He sighed as he ate, "This pie is so delicious."
Seeing his wife still in a daze and without a response, the grain official Weng smoothed the wrinkles on his face and said jokingly, "The envoy's wife is from a commoner family, so naturally she can't learn the ways of the nobles to gain fame. I don't think there's anything wrong with that. In the end, the world will all come down to who can fill everyone's stomach."
Upon hearing this, Mrs. Zheng also picked up a meat pie and took a bite. It was indeed very delicious. It must have been made with more than just mutton.
"I am old, and Madam Envoy is still very young. Perhaps the old-fashioned way of doing things is really not suitable for young people who are full of vitality."
Mrs. Zheng was moved. She hadn't seen such a person for a long time. He was genuine both inside and out.
Over there, Zhang Jingxian was also eating meat patties. She couldn't tell whether the meat inside was lamb or something else, but she thought it tasted good and ate three in a row.
With a bowl of water shield soup, she felt extremely satisfied.
Compared to her, Xie Yun ate slower. He finished his breakfast when Zhang Jingxian was about to go to the front hall.
They walked to the front hall together without saying a word. Just before entering the corridor, Xie Yun casually said that the medicine he had taken last night had taken effect and he no longer had nightmares.
Zhang Jingxian paused, looked at the red bloodshot in his eyes that had not yet faded, and hummed vaguely.
"Ah Xian, as long as you are in Changling, no one can harm you."
He was smiling, and both the curve of his lips and the expression on his face were calm and elegant.
Zhang Jingxian felt a chill in her heart, and she felt that his illness had worsened. The five-grain soup and moxa had no effect on him at all...
"Well, is it really true that General Chao, the son of the Grand Marshal, led his troops to Changling just to guard against the Di people?" In his previous life, it was Xie Yun who turned the tide alone and led tens of thousands of troops to fight against the Di people. There was no General Chao.
Prime Minister Xie sent quite a few members of the Xie clan, including his son Xie Ju, Xie Yun's cousin.
The Chao family came after the great victory in the war.
Zhang Jingxian didn't know what this change meant, but she instinctively became wary of the Chao family who had taken her life.
"It's just a high-sounding excuse. The Grand Marshal's real goal is the Northern Palace Army." Xie Yun mentioned Chao Liang with a tone that was neither angry nor happy.
When he was young, Chao Liang led several northern expeditions to safeguard the peace of the dynasty. Although he was ambitious and gradually indulged in power, it is undeniable that his military achievements were substantial.
"Then how do you plan to deal with General Chao and the soldiers he brought with him?" Zhang Jingxian asked him.
"Ah Xian, don't worry about me. There are people who are more anxious than me." Xie Yun's eyes warmed up and he silently mouthed something to her.
King Xiao Chongdao of Donghai is the one who hates Sima the most.
Zhang Jingxian nodded silently. So, does Xiao Chongdao also want the people of the Chao family to die?
Yes, he was also a victim of the struggle between the aristocratic and royal families.
"The man who came is the Grand Marshal's youngest son, Chao Xu. If he behaves unruly in Changling, we can kill him and blame it on Xiao Chongdao."
Xie Yun had already determined Chao Xu's fate, and he told the woman beside him without hesitation. As soon as he finished speaking, he explained, seemingly unintentionally, "The person who came here had bad intentions. I don't want to be slaughtered, so I have to fight back. Ah Xian, this isn't cruel."
He still cared about what she said.
Zhang Jingxian silently repeated Chao Xu's name in her mind. After hearing his explanation, she was stunned for a moment, then looked up at him without blinking. "I know that neither counterattack nor revenge should be blamed."
It doesn’t matter whether the means are cruel or not; what really matters is having a clear conscience.
Xie Yun looked at her intently, her tone gentle, "These are the most pleasing words I've heard from Ah Xian in the past few days."
Compared to the peasant girl when we first met, she has grown a lot.
Or maybe, she is herself all along, but being in a complex environment has brought out a new side of her.
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The autumn tax was gradually processed. Nearly half a month later, when the cold north wind blew into Changling for the first time, Chao Xu arrived with a large group of soldiers and horses.
The day before, Zhang Jingxian took the opportunity to go to the barracks with Xie Yun. Not only did she meet her cousins, but she also sent them warm clothes, bedding, malt sugar and other items.
At this moment, her mental state was excellent, and her whole body was like a completely polished jade, beautiful and at the same time indestructible.
When she was riding on the pony's back, Chao Xu quickly set his eyes on her, except for Xie Yun.
After getting closer, he unscrupulously looked at the woman who was said to be from a humble commoner background. His contemptuous attitude happened to match that of the person whose appearance Xie Yun could not see clearly in his dream.
Immediately, Xie Yunru was sealed in ice, and there was no warmth in her body.
His eyes were cold, and veins bulged on his forehead and the backs of his hands.
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