Chapter 40: One Two Nothingness and Nothingness
Xia Cun hesitated when Xia Lan asked her if she was happy, so she said she would tell her later, and Xia Lan realized that she might not be happy.
Alas, child.
Xia Lan waited in the living room for a long time, and finally Jiang Song left with the gift. Then she left Holmes and took Xia Cun back to her room.
She turned on the starlight projector, and she and the girl fell under the fake starry sky, and asked her, "Are you unhappy?"
Xia Cun was quiet for a moment, then said, "I seem happy, but also unhappy."
"Is it because Jiang Song stole your precious pony?"
"No."
Xia Lan laughed. She was shocked when she learned Xia Cun was going to give her wooden horse to Jiang Song. Xia Cun had fallen in love with the horse at first sight; it was the most dreamy, beautiful, fairytale-like pony in the world. But she thought about it and understood.
Jiang Song and the carousel are almost the same thing, and it perfectly fits Xia's aesthetic.
Giving the ideal pony to the ideal boy is still so cute.
Thinking this way, she continued, "Well, it's normal to be happy and unhappy at the same time. This is the feeling I told you about when you first fall in love."
"Was it the same when you first started?"
"Yeah. But to be honest, I don't remember the specific feelings anymore."
"Why? Because you like that person very much?"
"I can't remember how much I liked it, but it's not because of this."
"Is it because you don't have a good memory?"
"Wow, Xia exists. So this is how you think of me."
"Why is that?" Xia Cun didn't quite understand.
"Are you sure you want to listen? It's very boring and uninteresting."
Xia Cun turned his head curiously and found that Xia Lan had pushed his glasses up to his forehead, with the lenses reflecting the starlight.
"Okay." Xia Lan's voice sounded slowly. "If I must tell you, it's because I've become an adult. Adults think differently than you kids. Children's feelings are like magical illusions. No matter how unrelated something is, they interpret it as a romantic hint of fate, just like you."
“…”
"But as people grow up, they're wrapped up in layers of things, gradually becoming dominated by a certain social logic. Romantic love, too, undergoes social disenchantment. Institutions, class, and gender consciousness all deconstruct romantic love, and naturally, feelings close the door, hiding themselves beneath the thick, hard, intelligent, and rational shell of adulthood, hiding themselves before they grow up... You're not listening at all, are you?"
"I'm listening."
"Okay, I wronged you."
"Will I forget how it feels to like Jiang Song when I grow up?"
"Not necessarily. Maybe you won't grow up at all. And you're a sensory genius. Maybe you'll remember all the feelings." Xia Lan said, and suddenly turned over to face Xia Cun, calling her name in a long voice, "Xia Cun--"
"Um?"
The starlight in the projector was moving slowly. Under the dim starlight, Xia Lan said, "Actually, none of what I said is important."
"So what's important?"
If it were before, Xia Lan would have said "Fantasy", but tonight she yawned, rubbed the corners of her wet eyes and said, "Xia's thoughts and happiness."
Whether she continues to fantasize or chooses to grow up, perhaps the most important thing is her own choice.
Okay, she might still want to be lazy, but raising a dog also requires giving the puppy free time to play.
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What is Xia's idea?
At tonight's banquet, Xia Cun wanted to dislike Jiang Song less before the end of summer.
Because of what Zhuo Manyi said, and also because of what Ms. Tanaka said. Ms. Tanaka said that Jiang Song would go back to Japan with her at the end of the holiday. She thought that if she could stop liking Jiang Song before then, she wouldn't be so sad.
So, she should do something.
She thought about the time when she was on the island and asked Xiao Lan a question about what she wanted to do: What if she wanted to do a lot of things, even contradictory things? Xiao Lan's answer was, then run back and forth, anyway, you are the best at doing such things.
That seemed to be true; if she kept running around, she could still accomplish a lot before the end of summer.
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Event 1: I will go walking the dog with my classmate Jiang Song.
Jiang Song agreed with her proposal, but that morning, the person who arrived at her house before him was Ms. Duo Meng, who rushed back to H City from her hometown. She came to pick up her beloved daughter Holmes.
Holmes clung to his master's thigh and barked. Duomeng hugged him and called him "baby" several times before he looked up at Xia Cun. The girl had already put on her shoulder bag and was standing on the side of the sofa, holding the bag strap.
"What's wrong, baby? Are you going out so early?"
“…”
In The Dreamy Lady, she and Holmes share a nickname.
Xia Lan was packing up the dog food and food bowl, and heard the voice saying, "She is planning to take the dog for a walk." She blamed her for forgetting about it yesterday and not telling her.
"Oh, do you like our Xiaofu very much?"
Xia Cun did not answer, but just squatted down and touched Holmes, then said goodbye to the mother and daughter with an expressionless face.
Duo Meng waited until the girl left before raising an eyebrow and turning to ask Xia Lan, "Didn't you say you were going to walk the dog?"
The implication was that why were you going out without even bringing your dog? Xia Lan packed up the new toys she had given Holmes and said, "Let's go on a date."
"Date! How old is your child? The subject of premature love is very sensitive."
"Don't worry, it's pure love."
Duo Meng laughed so hard that he sat down on the carpet and said, "Tell me about it. I'm quite curious."
…
Although there were no puppies to walk, the two went to the nearest park and sat on the grass in the off-leash pet area to play with other people's dogs.
It was Thursday, but it seemed many people in the city didn't have work to do, so many dogs and people came to the park early in the morning. Now playing with them were two Alaskan puppies, one for each of them.
But both of them were a little distracted. Jiang Song noticed Xia Cun and found that she was still a little depressed. Although Sister Xia Lan said that she would be jealous of other puppies, she actually liked puppies very much, otherwise she wouldn't be disappointed because Holmes left.
"Would you like to have a puppy of your own?" he asked.
Xia Cun looked up and answered irrelevantly: "We have never had a pet."
"Why?" Although it seemed like he knew the answer, he also wanted to hear her answer.
Because raising a pet requires a lot of care and attention, Xiao Lan will be very tired. Because the house is small, if a large dog is raised, it will not be able to accommodate it, and Xiao Lan's carefully decorated house will be messy and smelly. Also, raising a pet will take away Xiao Lan's already limited energy...
Xia Cun thought about it and just replied, "Because it will be very troublesome."
Unless it's Gromit, but Gromit is just an animated dog, there's no other dog like it.
But she didn't explain what the trouble was. Instead, she asked knowingly, "What about you? Do you have a pet?"
He shook his head: "ないよ, although I really want to raise one, but the mother is allergic to the fur of small animals."
Xia Cun discovered that she and Jiang Song were exactly the opposite in this matter, because she had rejected Xiao Lan's proposal to keep a pet twice.
In the past few years, Xia Lan has mentioned the idea of getting a dog twice.
One time, she saw Xia Cun's fondness for Gromit, so she did some background research on the show "Hornet," deciding to get a dog of the same breed. When she discovered it was a beagle, she was baffled. How could a beagle possibly be "Hornet"? It was an anime, after all! But she was still determined to ask Xia Cun if he wanted to get a beagle. Thankfully, Xia Cun declined, much to her relief.
Later, Xia Lan mentioned the idea of raising a dog again. The idea came to her after she watched the entire "The Thin Man" movie series, because a puppy named Asta in the movie captured her heart. Although he didn't have many scenes, he was very interesting. He was smart, timid and cute. So Xia Lan asked Xia Cun if they could raise a dog at home, and Xia Cun once again rejected her proposal.
Xia Cun didn't know the real reason why Xia Lan suggested getting a dog the first time, but she knew it all the same the second time because when she went to the movies with Xia Lan, she kept praising the dog, saying things like "so cute" and "so adorable." Asta was a Wire Fox Terrier, so she became wary when she saw Holmes, a similar breed.
Compared to Jiang Song's thoughtfulness, she seems very selfish.
At this time, the owner of the two Alaskan dogs walked towards them, put on the leashes for the two puppies with a smile on his face, and said to them: "Sorry, I have something to do at home, so I can't play with you."
The dog's owner, a young woman in her twenties, sat in the lounge area, chatting and drinking coffee with other dog owners, and gently handed the puppy over to them to play. Even after saying goodbye, Xia Zun stared at her from afar. If Xiao Lan didn't have her as a burden, would she also be able to live freely with a pet like this girl?
She looked away and found that Jiang Song was already luring the new puppy towards them.
“…”
As expected, Jiang Song is a person who cannot stand boredom and loneliness.
She stared at him until a golden retriever, unable to resist the temptation, left its companions and ran to his legs. He rubbed its head and turned to her and said, "This one is cute too."
The girl's eyes stopped at the Band-Aid on his face, and she suddenly asked, "Is your face seriously injured?"
In Jiang Song's bedroom, she and Ms. Tanaka didn't say much, because soon the housekeeper came to tell her that something happened in the study, so Ms. Tanaka left. When Jiang Song came back, he had a Band-Aid on his face, but he didn't tell her the reason at that time.
Jiang Song shook his head again and said, "It looks ugly with scratches."
In fact, he didn't put on the Band-Aid yesterday, but today he thought about meeting Xia Cun, so he covered the harmless little scratch again.
As if afraid that she would ask too much about the Band-Aid and discover something, Jiang Song suddenly changed the subject and said to the nameplate on the golden retriever's neck: "Its name is Molly, and it's a girl."
Why does every puppy have an English name? She should have an English name too.
As Xia Cun was thinking this, Molly suddenly changed direction and pounced on her without any hesitation. She fell on the grass. The golden retriever stretched out its tongue and lowered its head as if to lick her. Then she heard Jiang Song shout, "Da me da yo!"
No way!
He hugged the overly enthusiastic Molly around the waist. Molly tilted her head, as if thinking that he wanted to be licked too, so she licked his face generously.
The owner outside the fence seemed to notice this and hurriedly called Molly away when Jiang Song was being licked. Molly ran away happily. Xia Cun sat up from the grass, looked at Jiang Song who looked sad, and suddenly, as if he couldn't help it, he curled up the corners of his mouth.
Jiang Song turned his head as if he had realized something, but all he saw was the expressionless girl.
It was indeed an illusion. He felt sad again.
Xia Cunze was because Molly suddenly remembered that she saw a golden retriever passing by a convenience store a long time ago... Well, she thought of something new to do.
Event 3: I will encourage Jiang Song to dye his hair white.
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