Chapter 294 296 Lonely Soul
Although he passed many levels and obtained many treasures throughout the day, Ning Qingyun was exhausted both physically and mentally due to the high mental tension he had been in.
After finishing a dinner that was as heavy as swallowing medicine, Ning Qingyun meditated in a secret room that he had already cleared, closing his eyes to rest.
As usual, as soon as he closed his eyes, the figures of Xianxian and the children would appear in front of him. He wondered where they were now? How were they doing? Ning Qingyun's heart was filled with longing, concern, worry, longing, and all kinds of complex emotions. It was hard to describe what it felt like. His eyes felt sour, and a crystal teardrop slid down from the corner of his eyes. His tightly closed eyes concealed all his fragility, but his figure, stretched by the dim light, looked lonely and desolate.
Men don't shed tears easily, only because they haven't reached the point of being sad.
In this unknown corner, there is a heart missing another person, and a lonely soul longing to return.
"Wow." Rong Xianxian was awakened by the sound of Xuanxuan sobbing. Xuanxuan's long eyelashes were already wet with tears. She closed her eyes and kept sobbing. Her frown showed that the child was currently in a very restless mood.
"Good girl, don't be afraid." Rong Xianxian patted her daughter's back quickly and coaxed her softly.
In her previous life, Xuanxuan often woke up from nightmares because she felt insecure. But in this life, the children lived a carefree life and never sobbed in their sleep.
Xuanxuan was woken up by a pat from Rong Xianxian. She opened her eyes and looked at Rong Xianxian, then burst into tears with a "wow", sobbing and calling for her mother. Rong Xianxian looked at her son sleeping next to her with a headache. Sure enough, Xiao Luo was woken up by his sister's crying.
"Mom, what's wrong with my sister?" Xiao Luo looked at them with sleepy eyes.
"Sister had a nightmare and she will be fine in a while. Xiaoluo, you go to sleep first!" Rong Xianxian comforted her daughter while hugging her daughter with one hand and patting her son with the other.
"Xuanxuan, don't cry anymore. Crying will attract monsters." Rong Xianxian lowered her voice and said in her daughter's ear.
Although the three of them slept in a separate tent, people who practice cultivation have much sharper hearing than ordinary people, and the noise here might affect others.
"I'm not afraid of monsters." Xuanxuan said with sobs.
"If you keep crying, you'll wake others up. That's so rude! And if others know that Xuanxuan is crying, they'll laugh at you!" Rong Xianxian said in a low voice.
Xuanxuan stopped crying, "But I dreamed of my father. I missed him so much. I felt so sad, woooo." The child's tears kept falling like beads with a broken string, and she sobbed softly on her mother's shoulder.
Rong Xianxian didn't know what she was feeling. Xuanxuan was nearly two years older than Xiaoluo and could remember things a long time ago. Although Ning Qingyun didn't talk much, he loved the child very much. Xuanxuan would occasionally mention him before, but her emotions had never been as intense as today.
"Xuanxuan, are you worried about your father?" Rong Xianxian asked softly.
"Yeah." Xuanxuan thought about it and nodded.
"Dad is very capable, you don't have to worry about him. Maybe he has found a beautiful aunt and is preparing to have another beautiful baby!" Rong Xianxian said deliberately.
"Like Qingqing's father? Doesn't father want us anymore?" Xuanxuan pouted and wanted to cry again.
Qingqing is Xuanxuan’s classmate in kindergarten. Her parents are divorced and Qingqing lives with her grandmother.
"Xuanxuan, if mom and dad can only choose one, who will you choose?" Rong Xianxian said in a relaxed tone as much as possible.
Although it may be very cruel to let such a young child face such a choice, but as they are getting closer and closer to the capital, Rong Xianxian chooses to settle down in the capital for the sake of her children's studies and personal growth, as well as to obtain a better living environment, so they will meet sooner or later.
Both children are her life, her treasure. She can raise them well by herself and will never allow the mother and children to be separated.
If the tragic death in the previous life was a knife across the heart, and the wound would never heal without revenge, then the portrait of Ning Qingyun's first love in her office was a poisonous thorn in her heart, constantly reminding her that the man she married had another woman in his heart.
Rong Xianxian appears to be gentle on the surface, but is actually quite cold at heart. He passively accepted his relationship with Shang Yuege, and slowly got used to it. When their friendship grew stronger, he and Zhang Xiaoxiao started dating.
At that time, Rong Xianxian was disheartened and happened to meet Ning Qingyun, who had helped her once. He seemed to be in a bad state. Rong Xianxian hesitated and asked him a question. Ning Qingyun asked her, "Are you willing to marry him?"
At that time, Rong Xianxian nodded as if possessed by a ghost, and from then on she went further and further on the road of losing herself.
Because of his words, "What children need is a mother, not a nanny", Rong Xianxian gave up the major she had studied hard for and the job she was proud of, and returned home to become a full-time mother.
Just because he once said, "Eating at home is the most peaceful. Thank you for your hard work." Rong Xianxian learned how to make basically all home-cooked dishes from a kitchen novice who only knew how to fry eggs and cook noodles.
Ning Qingyun didn't like having outsiders at home, so Rong Xianxian gave up the idea of hiring a 24-hour live-in nanny and only hired part-time workers and nannies during Ning Qingyun's working hours.
Ning Qingyun is an extremely home-loving person. After work, except for necessary social events, he never goes anywhere and goes home immediately. Because of this, Rong Xianxian is very confident about their relationship. She thinks that although their marriage was a bit frivolous, they have a harmonious relationship and it can be considered a happy ending.
Rong Xianxian took care of the children at home for a long time, and got used to taking care of the household chores for him. She relied on Ning Qingyun for everything outside the family, so in her previous life, she waited for him for three months without hesitation and with full of anticipation.
Looking back now, I feel as if I was poisoned at that time. I always felt that I was living a happy life.
Even when she accidentally discovered the portrait, Ning Qingyun's face was obviously ugly, but she didn't notice anything wrong.
Rong Xianxian originally thought that their marriage was two sad people huddling together for warmth, and that their lifelong companionship would eventually lead to a happy marriage.
Looking back now, she had to admit that it was just her wishful thinking. She loved him so much that she couldn't help herself and lost herself in love. However, Ning Qingyun was always neither far away nor close, making it difficult for her to see clearly or understand. Sometimes she felt that he was within her reach, and sometimes she felt that he was out of her reach.
In the previous life, in the desperate waiting day by day, in the arduous trek step by step, in the sleepless nights of tossing and turning, and fear and anxiety, the strong love faded away bit by bit, and the hot heart gradually turned cold. Rong Xianxian finally woke up and realized that the only person she could rely on in this world was herself. How ignorant and terrible it was to pin her hopes on others.
(End of this chapter)
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