Chapter 031 Chapter 31 I Believe in You
Muchen felt as if he was trapped in a dark swamp, his body sinking deeper and deeper. The feeling of suffocation enveloped him tightly, and no matter how hard he struggled, it was of no avail.
That desperate and suffocating feeling always enveloped him.
Slowly, Mu Chen stopped struggling because he knew that it was useless to struggle.
As if he felt death approaching, he actually recalled his short life at this moment.
The happiest moment in my life should be before I turned 18.
The base's protection of minors is really good. Although they have very heavy training every day, they don't have to go through any danger.
Although they also receive education, they know how dangerous the world they live in is and what they will face after turning eighteen.
But before they experience it themselves, it is like seeing flowers in the fog. Without the sense of reality, they will not know how devastated they will be when they really face the outside world.
Since childhood, Muchen has been educated in the base that he cannot get close to people around him and should avoid talking to them as much as possible. But in fact, children are not that obedient. They will not ask the names of people around them, but will occasionally gather together secretly to talk and chat, thinking about the cruelty of the outside world.
They are indeed happy because they will not experience the pain of having someone they are talking to today die tomorrow.
But they are also pitiful, because sooner or later they will experience it.
Perhaps it was a self-protection mechanism before death, Mu Chen did not recall the things that made him collapse and suffer. After recalling the days before he was eighteen, he instantly jumped to the time after he was diagnosed with a level four disease.
At that time, he could no longer hold on. He had very serious visual and auditory hallucinations every day, including painful scenes of his teammates' deaths and their cries for help.
At the beginning, a psychologist came to counsel him and guide him through the hallucinations and auditory hallucinations, but later, no psychologist came again.
Muchen went to the psychology department himself, but was told that the recent dates were fully booked and he would probably be scheduled for a year later.
He returned home in a daze, knowing in his heart that he had been abandoned.
When he returned home, Muchen happened to run into his next-door neighbor, a 20-year-old girl who had been in the outbound team for only two years and had just moved next door to Muchen.
She was very lucky. Although her teammates were seriously injured in the past two years, no one died. Therefore, she seemed not to have suffered a serious psychological blow and still maintained the stupidity and naivety she had before the age of eighteen.
Seeing Mu Chen staggering and almost falling, she hurriedly stepped forward to support him, "What's wrong with you? Are you okay? Are you hurt? I'll take you to the hospital!"
Looking at the anxious and worried eyes in front of him, Mu Chen grabbed her as if he had grabbed a life-saving straw.
He didn't want to die, nor did he want to go crazy, so he instinctively grabbed the little girl named Su Lan.
During that period, Su Lan had just finished a mission and was taking a break. At Muchen's request, Su Lan came to talk to him every day.
This is a bright and cheerful little girl who is very positive about life. She always has a lot of strange ideas in her mind. In this completely hopeless world, she foolishly believes that the future will get better and better. One day, they will be able to rely on their own hands to return to their pre-apocalyptic life.
It's really stupid and naive.
But Muchen was attracted by such innocence. If he could be as stupid and innocent as Su Lan, perhaps he would not have fallen to this point.
He envied Su Lan and liked her positive attitude. He seemed to be infected by her. He felt that his condition seemed to have improved slightly. It seemed that being with Su Lan was better than talking to a psychologist.
But not long after, Su Lan came over and told him that she was going on another mission.
During the time he was talking and chatting with Su Lan, he felt very calm and happy, and he had an urge to stop time at the present moment.
But the news that she was going on a mission was like a bucket of ice water poured over his head, chilling him to the bone.
What followed was endless panic and fear.
The scene of his teammates' death appeared before his eyes again. The painful struggle before death and the mournful groans made him feel dizzy.
Mu Chen was very panicked. He had heard about Su Lan's experience in the past two years and knew that she had been very lucky in the past two years. She had not encountered any mutated animals or plants that were too advanced to deal with, let alone mutated animals or plants that were beyond the records. Now the teammates around her were all the same ones she had when she first joined, and they had not been replaced.
Can anyone really have such good luck all the time? He was panicked and scared, worried that Su Lan would die outside like his teammates.
He couldn't even imagine whether he could bear it if Su Lan really died.
However, he had no way to stop Su Lan from going on the mission. Therefore, Mu Chen wanted to tell Su Lan the weaknesses of all the mutant animals and plants, and wanted to pass on all his combat experience to her. He racked his brains to recall if there was anything he had missed.
The next day, when Su Lan went out on a mission, Muchen followed her from a distance and watched her leave the base.
At that time, panic prevented him from going back to wait for her, so he stood at the exit of the base, waiting, from before dawn until dark.
When it was completely dark, Mu Chen's heart sank to the bottom.
Until someone from the security department found him and urged him to go back and rest.
At that time, Mu Chen looked at the people from the Security Department numbly and asked, "It seems that the team that went on the mission today hasn't returned yet?"
In fact, a group of people came back, but because they came back at noon, and Mu Chen's mind and eyes were full of Su Lan, he didn't pay any attention to this group of people at that time.
Upon hearing this, the security personnel sighed, a trace of pain flashing in their eyes. "You can't come back, don't you know? The beast tide broke out earlier than expected. Those who went on the mission today..."
boom--
Mu Chen felt as if his head had exploded with a buzzing sound, and his lips trembled. The beast tide had broken out ahead of time, and the meaning of this was self-evident. In addition, Su Lan had not returned yet, so the chance of survival was negative.
He didn't know how he got back to the room at that time. His short-lived happiness was like a bubble that burst when someone poked it, and he began to hallucinate and hear hallucinations again.
In addition to teammates', there is also Su Lan's.
He tried to tell her so much and teach her so much, but in the end, nothing was of any use. When she stepped out of the base, she was doomed to die.
Mu Chen cried bitterly, wishing he could travel back to the first day of Su Lan's mission and keep her here.
In fact, you can keep her if you want. The base does not allow self-harm to avoid missions, and that will only result in more severe punishment.
But he can take action. As long as Su Lan doesn't have to go on the mission and as long as he can keep her, he can suffer any punishment.
Unfortunately, he doesn't have the ability to travel through time and cannot change what has happened.
Mu Chen was immersed in his memories when suddenly a person appeared in front of him.
She was wearing a combat uniform covered in battle scars and stained with thick blood, and her neat short hair was also stained with blood, but she still had a familiar smile on her face.
"Su Lan..." Mu Chen stared at the person who appeared in front of him, sizing her up with almost greedy eyes. However, he was afraid that this was his own hallucination and did not dare to go forward. "Are you okay? You are not dead, are you?"
Su Lan smiled, but didn't answer his question. She sat down not far from him and said, "I remember you asked me before what I would do if my teammates died in front of me, right?"
Mu Chen was stunned for a moment, then remembered that it was when he first met Su Lan. He was attracted by her silly innocence, but also couldn't stand her optimistic look. He couldn't help but ask a cruel question.
Su Lan tilted her head and looked at Mu Chen, "Do you remember how I answered?"
Mu Chen nodded. "Remember, you said you would be sad, but you would work harder for it. Because our lives now are much better than the early days of the apocalypse. Our current lives are the result of the blood and flesh of our predecessors. Now it is our turn to pave a smoother road for future generations so that they can live a better life."
Muchen always remembered these words.
But in fact, he felt that Su Lan was just talking without any pain. She had never experienced it, so she didn't know the pain, so she could say such naive and fearless words.
Su Lan nodded. "It's good that you remember it. So, I hope you can be like me, okay? Don't dwell on the past. We don't live just to live, we are fighting, fighting for the future. You are so powerful, you will definitely not be beaten, right?"
Mu Chen looked up in a trance and looked into Su Lan's eyes.
Even though she was covered in blood, the smile on her face was still so contagious, and her eyes were still bright and sincere.
Mu Chen felt his eyes a little sore, "I'm sorry, I can't do it."
Su Lan blinked and looked at Mu Chen seriously. "No, you can do it. You are very capable. I believe in you."
Mu Chen wanted to laugh, to laugh at Su Lan for being so naive. He could feel that he could no longer bear it, and perhaps he would lose his mind and go on a killing spree the next moment. He himself had no confidence in her, so where did she get the confidence to believe in him?
"Mu Chen, believe me, this world will definitely get better and better. I hope you can help me see if the future world is what I imagined, and then tell me, okay?"
Obviously, this was indeed his hallucination, because when he said this, Su Lan's figure in front of him gradually faded until it disappeared.
My heart felt hollowed out in an instant.
Mu Chen covered his chest and looked dully at the direction where Su Lan disappeared.
He did not answer Su Lan, but at this moment, he felt a strong sense of unwillingness in his heart. He was unwilling to wait quietly and continue to sink. He wanted to struggle, wanted to get out, and wanted to - survive.
She believed him so foolishly, he couldn't just give up like that. Even if he still couldn't break free, he had to use up every last bit of his strength.
While struggling desperately, he was like a seedling breaking through the soil, and saw the light at the end of the darkness.
Mu Chen suddenly opened his eyes.
The nurse examining him was startled and let out a brief exclamation.
The two security personnel and two members of the Flying Eagle Team standing by felt nervous and immediately rushed over to drive the nurse away, keeping an eye on the person on the bed.
The nurse was pulled away and hurriedly said, "Calm down, everyone, calm down. It's okay, the patient just woke up."
When they looked over, they saw that Mu Chen had indeed opened his eyes. The blood color in his eyes had faded a lot, but they could still see some bloodshot veins on his eyeballs that had not completely dissipated.
Mu Chen moved and found that his hands and feet were tightly bound by restraints and he could not move at all.
The nurse hurried over, looked at Muchen and asked, "How do you feel? Are you okay? Do you remember your name?"
Mu Chen opened his mouth, his throat aching as if he had swallowed a razor blade. He frowned and uttered two words with difficulty: "Mu Chen."
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