Chapter 101 Wishful Thinking
Ji Changqing's eyes were dark and unclear, and he felt that it was very funny that he had been worried for days.
It's ridiculous that he was trying to suppress some thoughts before.
I was struggling with not wanting to be influenced by that person, and not wanting to lose to the uncontrollable affection that was rising up.
A person is there wishful thinking and self-righteousness.
From beginning to end, he never thought about what the other party was thinking.
Because in his imagination, he took it for granted that if he allowed his abnormal affection to grow unchecked, the other party would definitely respond to him without hesitation. What he resisted was the possibility of being betrayed again in the future after establishing a deeper bond with this guy.
Ji Changqing's eyes dimmed, and a hint of self-mockery appeared at the corner of his lips. He felt that he was really stupid.
The frustration is palpable.
Suddenly realized one thing.
If he starts to behave strangely, the resistance and disgust he'll feel from the other party will probably be even greater than his...
.....
I was locked up at home for a few days for no apparent reason.
He Rui felt quite confused.
He suspected that there might be some deadly danger outside, and his brother Ji suddenly sensed the emergency and was afraid that he would die, so he blocked the door and prevented him from going out.
The relationship between the two returned to its previous state. The other party continued to engage in a unilateral cold war and isolation, and he stayed at home and exercised as usual.
But he felt that this was not going to work, and he wanted to ask what was going on, but after asking several times, his brother Ji became mute, and did not answer his questions and ignored him no matter what he said.
He Rui felt very depressed and worried to the point of losing his hair.
He couldn't bear it any longer, so that day, he ran to the aisle by the window and the bed, and squatted down in the direction facing Ji Changqing's autism, ready to force the other party to open his eyes and pay attention to him, at least give him a reason, give him an explanation, and let him know what happened.
He Rui knew that the other party hated physical contact, so he took a new pair of chopsticks and poked the other party's knee, trying to attract his brother Ji's attention.
"Brother Ji, Brother ...
Using a tape recorder and chopsticks, He Rui risked being beaten and frantically harassed the guy who was sitting above with his eyes closed to rest.
He kept calling out for people, and after calling out several times, his tongue became so tied that he couldn't even pronounce the words "Ji" and "Ge".
"Pay attention to me, pay attention to me." His voice gradually became softer. He rested his elbows on the headboard to support his head, and tapped Ji Changqing's knees lightly with chopsticks.
I inexplicably feel like I'm knocking on a wooden fish.
My thoughts began to wander, from the wooden fish to burning incense.
He Rui recalled that when he was six or seven years old, he went to a Taoist temple with his mother, sister, and uncle's family. He was instructed to put the lit incense into a low incense burner on the ground. Because he was slow, the incense ash fell on his hand and burned him badly, but he refused to give the incense to the adults for the sake of face, and insisted on burning the incense with tears in his eyes.
After knocking on the door in a daze for a while, He Rui looked up and found that his brother Ji had opened his eyes at some point and was looking down at him indifferently.
My heart skipped a beat.
Although there was no look of anger on the other person's face, he was still afraid of being beaten for his impulsive behavior. He quickly put his chopsticks on the supply box next to him and began to apologize, "I'm sorry." Subconsciously, he wanted to reach out and rub the other person's knee, but his mind came to its senses quickly, and he braked in time and retracted his hand.
I guess if he really dared to put his hand on someone's knee, Brother Ji might not have wanted to hit him at first, but suddenly he would really want to hit him.
After all, he has not yet cleared himself of the suspicion of being gay.
He Rui quickly stood up and stopped squatting on the ground. He hurriedly asked Ji Changqing, who finally paid him some attention.
"Brother Ji, why did you lock the door? Is it dangerous outside? Can't I go out now?" He asked three questions in a row.
The person opposite him narrowed his eyes slightly, and in his usual cold voice, he asked him, "Why don't you want to stay here?"
He Rui thought, how could he not want to stay here.
But if he continues to act like this, there will be no certainty in the future. Ji Changqing cannot protect him under her wings forever like a hen protecting her chicks, and protect him until he dies.
If he doesn't work harder, he will be eliminated by the end of the world sooner or later.
As an adult, he has to take responsibility for himself and cannot always rely on others.
"I can't always be lucky enough to hide in a safe place. Sooner or later, I will have to face the dangers outside. My Monkey Brother once said something," actually a sentence written by Wu Cheng'en, "It is better to make your own decisions than to seek divination from immortals. Chanting Buddha's name and reciting scriptures is not as good as having your own abilities. If I want to grow, I can't always rely on others for protection. Only when I am strong myself can I be truly strong."
"Others..." Ji Changqing snorted coldly, paused for a moment, and then added a hint of amusement in his tone, "You say that, but you recognize many brothers. Who is this Brother Hou?"
He Rui looked at the other person speechless for a moment, and suddenly realized that this young man in front of him had never watched the 1986 version of Journey to the West in his childhood, and had mistaken his Monkey King for a real person.
He scratched his head awkwardly, "I forgot you don't have Journey to the West here. My Monkey Brother is the Great Sage Equaling Heaven, Sun Wukong, a character from the novel "Mythical Creatures".
It's one of the four great classics from my area. The stone monkey becomes a spirit, not a human...
Unlike you, although I call him Brother Monkey, he is not the same type as you, Brother Ji.
I am really a monkey, and you are not really a chicken....” Under the other party’s cold gaze, He Rui silently stopped talking, and did not say the word "chicken" out loud, feeling suffocated.
"Want to go out?" The other party was silent for a while and asked in a low voice.
He Rui nodded quickly, "Yeah, yeah, I do."
"You will die if you go out." The person opposite said it again without any politeness, which made the light disappear from He Rui's eyes.
He pulled the corner of his mouth and argued, "But there are still living people out there. Not everyone is dead."
"They're lucky to be alive... But do you have half the savvy of those who survived out there? Can you defeat them? I'm afraid any random person could easily take you down."
"Who are you looking down on? Why can't I compare to them? I can kill one with one punch!" He Rui was not convinced and boasted a little bit.
Putting aside the disadvantaged groups, if we take Ji Xinghan as the standard, I feel that if we fight against slightly stronger female heroes or most of the same sex, it would indeed be a little difficult.
But he didn't go out to fight. He just wanted to go out and see the outside world. He didn't carry more than two meals of food and water with him. Couldn't he live in peace with the people outside?
He saw the other person extending a hand toward him, palm facing up.
He Rui didn't understand what the other party meant and looked puzzled, wondering if the other party wanted him to read his palm or something.
"What?" He tentatively put the flashlight in the other person's hand.
The next second, Ji Changqing threw his flashlight aside. It rolled twice and pointed towards the head of the bed. The light became much less and the room became dark in an instant.
"It's so dark, why did you throw my flashlight away? Damn it." He Rui stood up and tried to pick up his flashlight.
He Rui felt something stuck on his waist and was stopped by the other party's arms. He was confused and didn't know what the other party was doing, but he inexplicably grabbed both of his wrists.
He began to hold his wrist and shake him like a sack.
He Rui suddenly lost his balance and was pulled all over the place by the man, like a tumbler. "Fuck! What the hell are you doing?! My hand is about to be pulled off."
"You are like this, and you still say you can beat them." Ji Changqing asked coldly.
"They are not you!" He Rui retorted.
It’s not like everyone out there can tear a door apart with their bare hands like his brother Ji.
Feeling that the strength in the other person's hand suddenly increased, He Rui lost his balance and was pulled towards the person in front of him.
His heart instantly turned cold.
I thought that if I dared to fall into the other party's trap, it would be no small matter and I would probably be beaten to a pulp.
In an instant, He Rui went through all the Kung Fu he had learned from childhood to college in his mind. He gritted his teeth, twisted his waist in mid-air, and dodged to the side. Finally, he fell to the side. Except for his wrist that was pinched, he did not touch Ji Changqing at all.
He Ruiyang was lying on the bed, furious. "Brother Ji, you're trying to bait me. If I accidentally fall on you by shaking me like that, you're going to turn the tables and accuse me of molesting you!"
He suddenly recalled that it seemed like a long time ago, when he ran to Room 702 and knocked on the door to look for someone, this guy asked him with a cold face why he was taking a shower.
Now that I think about it, the kid probably started to become suspicious of him at that time, suspecting that he had bad intentions.
He Rui realized belatedly how long he had been wronged, "Let go!"
He Rui struggled to pull his wrists free against the force that bound his hands, but after pulling for a long time, he still couldn't break free. He Rui felt like a tortoise shell that couldn't turn over, feeling extremely embarrassed. "Are you going to let go?!"
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