Chapter 172: Delicate Mind, Timid, Secret Love
His love for fools is unprecedented.
There has never been a person who has distracted him so much attention and time. His eyes would always unconsciously follow the other person and care about the other person.
...
He observed that fools are actually tougher in character, and they are not hesitant to express their disgust when faced with things they disagree with or cannot tolerate.
During these days, I listened to the conversation between He Rui and that guy and learned that the idiot was from a family background or the other party's mother's strong and extreme education.
So this guy seems to have never had any thoughts about love between men and women, as if he is not interested in it.
So far, I have never interacted with anyone and have never had an intimate relationship with anyone.
That's why this guy was so slow to see what he was thinking.
Even outsiders, even passersby, could tell at a glance that something was wrong with him.
But a fool is so stupid that he attracts others without knowing it.
What he is facing now is a difficult goal of being single but never having liked anyone.
and...
Although the situation was different, in reality, he was just like the fool and had little experience in relationships.
He and Ji Xinghan lost their parents when their peers were just beginning to fall in love.
During his school years without the protection of his parents, and in the five years after the disaster, he never paid attention to the opposite sex and had no experience of interacting with women.
This was the first time he liked someone.
So liking idiots is also a new and unknown experience for him.
He thought a lot, seriously and comically.
After you are sure that your feelings are not a misjudgment, but that you truly like this person.
I couldn't help but imagine the future.
A lot of things to consider.
Even though he deeply understood that what he was thinking about was actually an unattainable fantasy.
But he couldn't stop imagining things.
He considered that if in the future, he could get what he wanted, fall in love with the idiot, be accepted by the other party, and they could be together smoothly.
So after a few years, is it possible that because of their overly close relationship, they expose previously undiscovered shortcomings in each other that they don't like, and then develop resentment and become tired of each other?
Is it possible that in the future, my passion for this person will fade, and I will do something like abandoning this guy?
Or, the other person might fall in love with someone else, regret accepting him, and hate him for being a man.
I thought of many terrible futures...
Emotionally, he wasn't sure how long his love for the idiot would last.
Just like he couldn't trust the domain, he couldn't trust himself either.
In the unknown future, he couldn't predict whether he would become a piece of trash.
He couldn't guarantee that this strong feeling would last forever or just be a flash in the pan.
If you are just controlled by emotions at this moment and want to withdraw afterwards, then why did you drag the fool into this emotional whirlpool in the first place and hurt this guy in the future?
I pondered it carefully and thought about it seriously for a long time.
She pondered over how to keep the relationship from breaking down and make sure she never let down the idiot.
After thinking about it, he remembered ridiculously that this was just a fantasy of his.
The possibility of him making any progress with the idiot and becoming close friends is almost zero.
As for the problems he was worried about later, they would never come true.
After all, he would not take this idiot by force without considering his own opinion.
He also knew clearly that if he dared to tell this person what he was thinking, with his stupid personality, he would definitely be terrified and might even avoid him immediately.
So he would not reveal his true feelings and tell the other person any of the rich and stupid entanglements and assumptions in his heart.
I don't intend to show anything wrong directly.
At noon, the idiot asked him why he kept explaining the joke. He couldn't tell him that the reason he was so persistent in explaining it was actually because he didn't want the idiot to misunderstand that there was any connection between him and that ridiculous guy.
But he knew very well that once this explanation was spoken, even the dumbest person would be able to deduce his intentions from his words.
Therefore, for the time being, until he was sure, he could only look at the other person greedily and timidly, saying nothing and doing nothing.
...
Perhaps because it was night, the man spoke in a low voice, his voice clear and gentle, "Don't worry about me, you go to sleep first, I'll watch over you."
After hearing this answer, Ji Changqing said nothing more and just continued to look at the guy quietly.
After a few seconds, he suddenly saw the man turn around and look at him, and his eyes met his gaze.
Then the other person walked towards him quickly, got close to him, looked down at him, and said something incoherent.
"Brother Ji, are you suffering from insomnia?"
He looked at the man in surprise as he suddenly approached him. After a moment of hesitation, he slowly stepped back, avoiding the idiot's approach and moving from the bed to the other side.
He noticed that the other party was obviously frustrated by his avoidance.
"Why are you hiding? I'm not a dung beetle. Why are you running so far away? It's just too dark to see clearly, so I wanted to get closer to see what your expression is... Why are you hiding from me like this, my friend? What's wrong with me? Why do you dislike me so much..."
The young man looked quite aggrieved.
"Sorry." Ji Changqing apologized with an ambiguous look.
The other party sighed, "Because you dodged me like that, I suddenly remembered a sad thing."
At this point, the idiot shut up and looked at him silently.
Through observing this guy chatting with others these days, he knew that the idiot was waiting for him to talk to him.
The idiot was not ready to continue until he asked.
"What's wrong?" Ji Changqing asked in cooperation.
He Rui sighed, "I remember a few months ago, when I hadn't come to your place yet.
I have a relative who lives in another province and whom I have hardly seen since I was a child. I think she is my aunt. She came to my house...
As a junior, I was forced to accompany my mother and chat with relatives. As a result... my aunt suddenly said that my eyes were fierce and she was afraid, so she asked me to stop staring at her...
I was devastated! Brother Ji, do I look fierce? Or is it just that my face is a bit menacing? You were hiding so far from me just now, were you scared by me too? That shouldn't be the case...
I’m neither dark nor strong, and you’re almost ten centimeters taller than me, so why are you afraid of Dio…”
Ji Changqing saw that this idiot was talking and naturally walked half a circle around the bed, closing the distance again, moving next to him, sitting very close to him, and turning his head to face him.
He held his breath, his Adam's apple rolled, and his eyes couldn't help but be attracted to the other person, sketching the idiot's delicate and beautiful face at close range inch by inch.
In the silent room, he seemed to be able to hear the pounding of his own heartbeat.
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