“Boss Shen, you…”
"What did you want to say just now?" Shen Si Ning interrupted before he could finish.
Su Yan was silent for a moment, a trace of struggle flashing in his eyes. As if he was going all out, he squeezed out a sentence: "I met Yao Xinxu, the president of Yao Group, today. He told me some stories about your... necklace."
Shen Si Ning suddenly tightened her handkerchief and was silent for a long time. She said to the housekeeper, "Uncle Liu, go and do your thing first."
"Okay, miss." The butler's eyes wandered between the two of them for a moment, then he lowered his eyes and turned away.
There were only two people left at the door.
Shen Si Ning looked at him with a complicated expression and touched the necklace around her neck. "I know what you want to ask. Yao Xinxu should have told you that this necklace was indeed given to me by him."
After a pause, she added, "His name is Xu Yan. He was my college classmate and my first love. I have never forgotten him."
Hearing this, Su Yan's lips turned pale, "Do you... still like him?"
Shen Si Ning was silent again, but Su Yan knew that she had given the answer.
She also likes Xu Yan.
Su Yan's eyes were sore, but he was at a loss, "Yao Xinxu said that he and I look a lot like each other."
Shen Si Ning looked at him, moved his lips, and nodded silently.
Seeing this, Su Yan's heart sank, but he still didn't give up. He endured the pain in his throat and trembled again, "Ten years ago, you came forward to help me, it shouldn't be because of this reason, right?"
He deliberately asked the question in the negative, subconsciously unwilling to believe this fact.
However, Shen Si Ning's next words pushed him into the abyss, "Su Yan, I... don't want to lie to you. At the beginning, I was indeed largely because of... this."
Su Yan's pupils suddenly shrank, and he could clearly feel his body becoming numb and powerless. He desperately suppressed the piercing pain in his heart, and opened his mouth tremblingly, unable to form a complete sentence, "Then...then...what about me?"
Then what am I?
He didn't say this out loud.
Because when the words came to his lips, he found that he had no right to ask them.
It was he who wanted to like Shen Si Ning.
It was he who wanted to pester her.
If it weren't for this face that looked so much like Xu Yan, he and Shen Sining would never have met in this life.
There was no way he could stand here and talk to her properly.
Su Yan suddenly felt physically and mentally exhausted. He could not see any light at all. It seemed as if there were high walls all around him, trapping him inside and leaving him with no way to vent.
Yes, he had no right to ask her this question.
Su Yan smiled suddenly, with sadness in his eyes.
Shen Si Ning looked at him like this, and felt uncomfortable, "I'm sorry, if you mind so much, let's end it here, I don't want to hurt you."
"It ends here..." Su Yan muttered to himself, his body seemed to be shaking with heartache, "I..."
He looked at Shen Si Ning, his mind was in a mess, and his language function was a little disordered.
Su Yan found himself speechless.
He didn't know, he really didn't know what to do.
Shen Si Ning, who was also confused, turned his head away and said, "That's it, it's getting late, you go back, I'm a little tired and want to rest."
The order to expel had been issued, and Su Yan had no reason to stay any longer. He glanced at Shen Si Ning's back, steadied himself, and forced himself to leave.
The moment I turned around, the tears that had been accumulating for a long time quietly slid down.
He used all his strength to control his trembling body, drive his legs, and move forward step by step.
But his blurred vision made him feel a little dizzy, and he eventually staggered for a long distance until he disappeared from Shen Si Ning's sight.
Realizing that the person behind him could no longer see him, Su Yan had no more strength left, and his legs went limp as he fell to the ground.
He covered his chest and cried softly, his voice very suppressed.
He lost her after all.
Or maybe never got it.
For ten years, he had been cautious in front of her and dared not reveal his feelings.
During the two months of their relationship, he was worried and anxious all day long.
But all this pain was his own fault, he couldn't blame anyone else.
Because he had to like her and demand a result.
In the end I realized it was all my wishful thinking.
From the beginning to the end, he was imprisoned by his wishful thinking, but he didn't want to leave and was willing to do so.
His friends once said that he was stupid and it was not worth it.
He had thought about this question before, but was convinced by his own likes again and again.
Su Yan felt difficulty breathing, and his eyes went dark and bright. He tried hard to support himself and got up. He stumbled and walked aimlessly, just wanting to escape from here quickly. He didn't want Shen Si Ning to see his embarrassment.
Shen Si Ning stood at the door and looked for a long time. When he found that he could no longer see the person, he slowly raised his head to look at the sky, raised his hand to touch his abdomen, and his eyelashes trembled slightly.
The next moment, she grabbed the clothes around her abdomen, took a few deep breaths, and walked into the house step by step.
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