"I am very calm now. I have never been so calm." Lou Jinchuan said with a forced smile. He pulled him towards the main hall. His strength was so great that Yan Xi could not break free at all.
"No, Xiaojin, let go, let me go." Yan Xi struggled desperately, trying hard to pry his hands apart.
Lou Jinchuan turned a deaf ear and seemed determined to get married.
In the main hall, red candles were burning, and the red curtains were emitting red light under the candlelight, dyeing the whole house red.
Yan Xi looked at the red candle that was getting closer and closer, feeling anxious. He made up his mind, pulled his hand away with all his strength, and took several steps back.
His hand fell empty, and Lou Jinchuan stumbled due to inertia. Afraid that he would run away, he quickly turned around, trying to grab his hand, and said with a trembling smile: "Brother, be obedient and give me your hand, give me your hand..."
Yan Xi refused to do so and stepped back with her hands behind her back. "Xiao Jin, we really can't get married. I can live with you like before, but we really can't get married. Calm down."
"No, I don't want to be like before. I don't want to like you secretly anymore. I don't like you always treating me like a child. Besides, didn't you say that you can do anything and listen to me? I don't have any other requirements now. I just want to be with you. I don't care about anything else." Lou Jinchuan's eyes were scarlet, and his tears were filled with strong paranoia and affection.
Yan Xi looked at his painful expression, her heart aching. "I... I can stop treating you like a child. I like you, but I can't help it. We are in that kind of relationship, do you understand? I can agree to anything you want, but I can't convince myself to cross the line. I really can't..."
As he spoke, his throat was so sore that he couldn't speak and his breathing was a little difficult.
He was also very uncomfortable. This emotional and moral choice made his brain a mess. It seemed as if his vision was blinded by these things and he could not see the future clearly.
He didn't want to see him so sad, and didn't want to suffer and feel powerless because of him anymore.
But now, he can't do it at all.
He was also confused and didn't know how to make a decision.
He thought about it for a long time today, and kept wavering between loving him regardless of morality and forbearing and restraining himself based on morality.
He knew he should love him regardless of everything, but his reason and cognition could not let him go and get through this.
If he had to make a choice, he could only choose to hide this love, not marry him, not do intimate things with him, and at most build a platonic bridge to make the two of them happy.
Lou Jinchuan looked at him and suddenly laughed softly, with a sadness that could not be ignored in his laughter. "Do you care so much about who I am?"
Yan Xi opened her mouth, but no sound came out. She could only look at him, shaking her head, and nodding.
He doesn't care who he is, but he cares about the relationship.
Seeing his hesitation, Lou Jinchuan's eyes darkened and he forced a very stiff smile, "I understand. You can go now."
Hearing this, Yan Xi hesitated to speak. After a while, he nodded and turned around silently. Unexpectedly, before he took a few steps, he felt a sudden pain in the back of his neck. He turned back in fear and looked at the expressionless boy. He wanted to speak, but his eyes went black and he lost consciousness.
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The night is as cool as water, and the candlelight flickers in the dim room.
The young man lying on the bed was wearing a red robe, which made his handsome face look even more charming.
Suddenly, his eyelashes trembled slightly and he woke up slowly.
Yan Xi blinked vaguely, looking at the crimson bed curtains and the clothes on his body, he instantly woke up. He wanted to sit up, but found that his whole body was soft and it took a lot of effort just to support himself to stand up.
Just when he finally sat up, the door creaked open and Lou Jinchuan walked over slowly with a small bottle in his hand, his eyes dark. "Brother, do you want to leave again?"
Yan Xi felt so weak that she even had trouble speaking. "Xiao Jin, give me the antidote for the muscle softening powder."
"Things have come to this point. It's useless even if I give it to you." Lou Jinchuan came up to him and smiled.
Yan Xi curled her fingers and looked at him blankly, "What do you mean?"
"I have just used a rooster to represent my senior brother in the wedding ceremony. Now all that's left is to enter the bridal chamber with him." Lou Jinchuan's smile gradually became sickly, but his tone was so gentle.
Yan Xi's face paled instantly. Glancing at the small bottle in his hand, the uneasiness in her heart was magnified infinitely at this moment. She breathed quickly with nervousness, "Xiao Jin, since we've already been married, I don't blame you, but... let's forget about the bridal chamber, okay?"
The smile on Lou Jinchuan's lips grew wider instead of diminishing. He raised his hand and touched his cheek, looking at him lovingly, "A moment of spring night is worth a thousand gold, how can you let it go?"
Yan Xi turned her head away, her body trembling with fear, "No, absolutely not."
As he said this, he stretched out his feet with great effort, trying to escape.
Seeing this, Lou Jinchuan's sick smile suddenly became extremely stiff. He reached out and pulled the young man into his arms. He pinched the young man's chin, forced him to look at him, and said coldly, "Brother, I don't want to force you, but you are really too naughty. You always want to leave, leaving me with no other choice."
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