Chapter 188
No one knew how long she had been sitting there, but Aunt Li just sat there quietly, staring at Yin Zijin without blinking, as if she wanted to engrave the image of the Sixth Young Lady deeply into her mind.
Time passed quietly, and Aunt Li was completely immersed in gazing at Yin Zijin, so much so that her concept of time gradually became blurred.
At this time, Aunt Qi, who had been accompanying her, leaned close to Aunt Li's ear and said in a very gentle voice, "Aunt, look at the sky. It has already darkened without us noticing. It's time for us to go back to Yiju Courtyard. Let the Sixth Miss have a good rest! Can we come to visit the Sixth Miss again in three days?"
Aunt Li slowly came back to her senses, and a deep sadness suddenly appeared on her originally delicate face. However, this sadness only flashed by, and then she raised the corners of her mouth slightly, revealing a forced smile, and said softly: "Look! I was in a daze and didn't even notice that the sky has gradually darkened. Aunt Qi, it's getting late, we should go back early!"
After saying this, Aunt Li sighed softly, as if her heart was filled with endless sorrow and resentment. At this moment, she seemed to have turned back into the weak and pitiful woman of the past, which made people feel pity for her. Her slightly trembling body and the tears that were faintly visible in the corners of her eyes all made people feel the pain and helplessness in her heart.
Aunt Li stood up, her movements gentle and graceful, for fear of waking up Yin Zijin who was sleeping uneasily. Then, she turned her gaze to Nanny Zhou and A Tian standing beside her, and gently instructed: "You must do your best to take good care of the Sixth Miss. I am counting on you two! I can't be with the Sixth Miss all the time, so in the days to come, I will have to rely on you to take care of her!"
At this moment, Aunt Qi came forward with light steps, holding a white cloak in her hand, and carefully tied it around Aunt Li.
The cloak was soft and smooth, embroidered with exquisite patterns, just like a blooming flower on Aunt Li's body.
After hearing Aunt Li's instructions, Nanny Zhou and A Tian hurriedly bowed and said, "Please rest assured, Aunt Li, we will definitely take good care of the Sixth Miss."
Before she finished her words, Li turned around resolutely and walked out the door without looking back. Her steps were firm and powerful, and each step made a crisp sound as if she was stepping on hard stone slabs. However, although her figure gradually moved away, the atmosphere of loneliness and determination always lingered in the air for a long time.
Aunt Li seemed to have made a great decision, and felt like she was rushing towards death, but she was willing and resolute...
However, after that resolute figure turned and left, Aunt Li could no longer suppress the surging emotions in her heart, and tears slid down her slightly pale cheeks like a flood.
At this moment, she has made a difficult and resolute decision to use her own blood to pave the way ahead for the Sixth Girl. Even if this road is full of thorns and dangers, she will open up a smooth road to a bright future for her children!
It turned out that Li still had some hesitation and timidity in his heart. After all, life is extremely precious to everyone, and she longs to continue living, to feel the beauty and warmth of this world, to accompany her children, to accompany her husband...
But now, all her worries have been thrown behind her, because at this moment, she is no longer just the prostitute in the brothel, no longer the concubine in the Yin Mansion who has a low status and is bullied, and no longer the weak woman who always looks pitiful and can only allow others to trample on her dignity.
Now she has only one identity, an ordinary mother, a mother who is willing to do everything to protect her children! In order to make those evil people who had bullied and oppressed Sixth Girl receive the punishment they deserve, and to give her children a bright future, she is willing to do anything even at the cost of her own life!
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After returning to Yijuyuan, Li seemed to have lost her soul. She slowly walked to the dressing mirror and then sat down like a sculpture. She stared at herself in the mirror, her eyes empty and confused, as if she didn't know who this haggard, tired-looking woman was.
After a long time, Li blinked as if waking up from a dream and looked at the image in the mirror carefully again. For some reason, at this moment she felt that she had suddenly become so old and weathered, and the years seemed to have left deep and shallow marks on her face.
At this moment, Li took out a small and exquisite wooden box from the corner of the dressing table. It looked very old, but one could still see the fine and sophisticated craftsmanship of its production. Li gently reached out her hand, carefully took the wooden box, and rubbed it in her hands.
She slowly opened the wooden box and saw a pure white jade hairpin lying quietly inside. The jade hairpin has a smooth and delicate texture and a soft and pure color. It is obviously carved from the finest white jade. Even after many years of baptism, this jade hairpin still exudes a faint luster, as beautiful as when it was just made.
Aunt Qi, who had been standing by, was stunned when she saw Li take out the jade hairpin. She asked in surprise, "Aunt, why did you take it out?"
Li raised her head slightly and looked at Aunt Qi, with a trace of tenderness and attachment in her eyes, and said softly: "This jade hairpin is an heirloom of our family, and it has been passed down for several generations! Even when we were in the most difficult times in the past, I never thought of selling it.
Now, seeing that the Sixth Miss is about to get married, I was thinking of giving her this jade hairpin as a wedding gift. It’s just…” Having said that, Li couldn’t help but hesitate. She picked up the jade hairpin again and looked at it carefully. “Although the texture of this jade hairpin is good, the style is really too simple. Tell me, will Sixth Miss be disgusted by it?
I want to inlay some gold on it to make a gold and jade hairpin? That might be more beautiful. I want to inlay the gold myself and make a hairpin for the sixth girl myself.
This thing isn’t too expensive, and only by doing it yourself can you show your dedication…”
Nanny Qi is Zhang's person, so she must know what Aunt Li promised the Madam. Now, looking at Aunt Li's expression, he couldn't bear it any more, so he said quickly, "Aunt, wait, I'll get the materials right away."
After Madam Qi left, Li instructed again: "Xiaoqing, bring someone to get dinner. The master is coming tonight. You must personally watch over the food and there must not be any mistakes."
When Xiaoqing heard what Li said, she was delighted and bowed quickly, saying, "Yes, Madam, I will prepare it right away."
After Xiaoqing led people out of the house, he hurriedly said: "Go, get some food first. I still have some things to do. I'll be over when you're done." Then Xiaoqing went back to her room and dressed up carefully.
After Li sent Xiaoqing away, the room suddenly became much quieter, with only two illiterate maids doing some cleaning chores.
Li walked quickly to the desk, and I wonder what he was writing. After writing it, she put it into her three-inch golden lotus foot binding cloth. The foot binding was changed every day, so no one noticed.
Then Li started to practice calligraphy. As she wrote, her thoughts went back to her childhood: "Zhenzhen! Do you know? This jade hairpin is different from other jade hairpins. It is hollow."
Li Zhenzhen, who was only seven or eight years old, was puzzled and asked in a childish voice: "Why do you want to make it hollow? Mother."
The woman gently picked up Li Zhenzhen and said, "Because! This hollow jade hairpin is like a man, it has no heart.
Zhenzhen, remember, you can use men and rely on men, but you cannot give your true heart to men. You must remember that a man can still escape from his infatuation, but a woman cannot be stopped from her infatuation.
You should close your heart like a hollow lily hairpin, so that you won’t get hurt! Only when you become strong inside, no one can defeat you..."
Li smiled bitterly inwardly and said, "Mother! I did what you said. I didn't open my heart and didn't give my true heart. I am still living strong.
But, mother. It’s different now. I have a child, and I have a weak spot. I see him suffer, and I can’t hold on any longer. I can’t hold on any longer.
I want to use my own blood to save my child. He is innocent. He was born because of my selfishness. What should I do for him? I hope he can forgive me and that selfish mother in the future..."
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