There was a hint of indifference in Shui Jiangyi's eyes.

He looked at Dazai Osamu. This was the most intense emotion he had ever received from Nakahara Chuuya in Nakahara Chuuya's body. Every time he thought about it, the overwhelming emotion seemed to overwhelm Mizue Eikan.

He felt the strong emotions he had for Dazai Osamu from that Nakahara Chuuya.

There is guilt, embarrassment, and more...

It's that deep, rich, helpless feeling, as if I've been abandoned.

He walked in the darkness with Dazai Osamu for too long, and suddenly he was told that Dazai Osamu had lied to him about everything. The reason Dazai Osamu lied to him was that he wanted him to live happily and this world would no longer be incompatible with him. However, the person who brought him closer to this world was gone forever.

Shui Jiangyi had no idea how despair this was.

He also didn't know how many times Nakahara Chuuya tried in the end, how many times he wanted to wake up the person in front of him, how many times he wanted to see Dazai Osamu's eyes in the future, but apart from him, there was only the blooming dusk of the sunset, not the scorching purgatory on earth.

He also didn't know why such a powerful Nakahara Chuuya would be so helpless in the end that he gave up everything and placed all his hopes on a person he didn't even know, hoping that he would find Dazai Osamu and save him.

Shui Jiangyi only knows the ending of this story.

Dazai Osamu lost his memory forever, and Nakahara Chuuya...

He has lost his life forever. At least in that world, the Nakahara Chuuya, who once had sparkling eyes and proudly raised his eyebrows to Dazai Osamu and said, "I can take on your soul," has closed his eyes forever.

Shui Jiangyi raised his eyes and looked at Dazai Osamu. His icy blue eyes reflected the expressionless face of the man in front of him. He said, "Then you are not the future of Dazai Osamu in the if line, you are me..."

"Are you the Dazai Osamu in my memories?"

His voice was almost choked with sobs and a little pleading. Shui Jiangyi looked at Dazai Osamu and said, "I don't want to know why you appeared here, but you appeared on that rainy night. Did you want to save me?"

The eyelashes of the long-haired Dazai Osamu seemed to tremble slightly. Shui Jiangyi was extremely sensitive to emotions at this moment, and only caught a few flashes of emotions in his eyes, which were then drowned by endless coldness.

Dazai remained calm and said, "Yes, I want to save you because you shouldn't die at this time."

"Then." Shui Jiangyi could hardly restrain his voice and said, "You can't wait to see me, is it because, in your speculation, you should see me at this moment?"

“…”

I don’t know what touched Dazai Osamu. Dazai Osamu, who had been very calm all the time, narrowed his eyes. His fingers moved, as if he had been thinking for a long time, before he raised his hand to wipe away Nakahara Chuuya’s tears.

His hands were very cold. When he first touched the tear, he wiped it away carefully as if he was afraid of being burned. He said, "I didn't mean it that way."

"I wanted to see you because I thought I should meet you, so I came to see you that night, so I..." Dazai seemed to be considering his tone. He rarely spoke to him in such a hesitant tone, and there was an unnaturalness in his words. He said, "That's why I saved you that night. You shouldn't have died at that time."

"That's what I meant."

This person who played with gods in Nakahara Chuuya's memory, this person who was very arrogant and lazy in Nakahara Chuuya's memory, seemed to have forgotten how to get along with others for a long time, and even forgot how to stop a crying person from crying.

So what I said was somewhat inorganic and somewhat helpless.

“…”

When Dazai Osamu raised his hand to wipe away his tears, Mizue Eki realized belatedly that he had shed tears. When he was playing the role of Nakahara Chuuya, he clearly understood that Nakahara Chuuya was a very proud person and he should not shed tears.

When he faces anything, he never evades. Whether as an individual or as the pillar of a team, Nakahara Chuuya has always been a very proud and calm person.

He shed tears at this moment, which could almost be regarded as an ooc behavior, but Shui Jiangyi couldn't stop his tears. It was as if the tears had been accumulating in Shui Jiangyi's eye sockets for a long time, and finally waited for a chance to fall, and they couldn't wait to fall from his eye sockets.

He turned his head to avoid Dazai Osamu's cold hand, wiped away his tears with his hands, took a few steps back on the bed, and distanced himself from Dazai Osamu, which is the distance that people should maintain when they are together.

When Dazai saw the plot that Nakahara Chuuya had separated from him, he couldn't help but frowned, as if he was quite dissatisfied, but he didn't say it out loud. He just looked at Nakahara Chuuya and said, "...It's okay."

It doesn't matter what?

Is it okay for Nakahara Chuuya to cry, or is it okay for Nakahara Chuuya to cry in front of him?

Shui Jiangyi almost felt his temples jump when Dazai said this to him. Shui Jiangyi quickly said, "What do you want to tell me?"

He really couldn't control his emotions, and could only try his best to deviate from that emotion and talk about other things.

Dazai Osamu said: "I see, you are from the future."

Shui Jiangyi was not surprised. After all, in his memory, Dazai Osamu had become a kind of world consciousness, and the world consciousness could see his origins and developments. He thought this was very normal. He said, "So, you are afraid that I will mess up the story line? You want to send me back?"

Dazai looked at him solemnly and said, "I won't do that because I know you won't listen to me."

"It's as if you won't listen to me?" Shui Jiangyi said with a pursed lip, "It's as if you insist on having your own way and are going to be swallowed up by the world's consciousness?"

Dazai was silent for a while because of his words. He said: "...Although I can't feel your emotions, I seem to feel that you are sad because of me."

"Are you blaming me?"

Dazai Osamu said softly, he always seemed to have this ability, no matter how far Nakahara Chuuya took the topic, as long as he wanted, he could always bring the topic back.

I really tried very hard to change the topic and get back to the main business instead of talking to Dazai Osamu and reminiscing about the past. Mizue Yi was silent for a moment.

Although he didn't know what happened in the process from Nakahara Chuuya's memory to the ending where he saw Nakahara Chuuya collapse, he could easily know from the ending he saw.

This is not a good story and it is a story of the past.

However, Dazai Osamu's persistence gave Shui Jiangyipin a bad feeling.

He decided to try it out himself to see if this was in line with his assumptions.

Shui Jiangyi said: "Now, can I still call you Dazai Osamu?"

The long-haired Dazai Osamu's aggressive attitude just now completely eased at this moment. He looked at Nakahara Chuuya a little at a loss, his eyelashes trembling, and he said: "It's been a long time since someone called me like this, but if you want, you can call me like this."

Shui Jiangyi said: "Then can you tell me why you hid it from me at that time?"

"No." Shui Jiangyi refuted himself before he finished speaking, "It's not that you deceived me, but the person I saw was trying to catch you almost from the beginning to the end, but he never seemed to see the end of the story, and it wasn't approaching him."

In the story, Dazai Osamu had already said goodbye to Nakahara Chuuya.

From the day he saw Akutagawa Ryunosuke, he had already started to say goodbye to Nakahara Chuuya. Every time he went to the kitchen, every time he made a friendly joke to Nakahara Chuuya, the achievements he made by working almost all night before the war, when he defeated the correction officer, he smiled and asked Nakahara Chuuya what he should do if this world was an illusory empty shell, and the look he looked back at Nakahara Chuuya when he said goodbye to him for the last time.

He didn't even say a word of goodbye, but it seemed as if he had said goodbye to Nakahara Chuuya tens of millions of times.

At the corners of his eyebrows and eyes, at the corners of his lips, and at his fingertips.

Dazai Osamu said: "Do you want to hear me lie to you, or do you want to know the truth of everything?"

Mizue felt that Dazai was just talking nonsense, but the look in his eyes when he looked at her was so serious that Mizue knew that Dazai really felt that way, so he said, "...Tell me the truth."

Even if the truth is too late, all stories are over.

The people in the story have already gone through so many reincarnations and encountered so many new stories.

But Shui Jiangyi felt that at least this story should not be left without an ending.

If one day he could know the truth of the whole story, he would like to bring the story to a complete circle.

At least he didn't leave any regrets, at least he had completed the greatest regret he had ever felt.

Dazai Osamu said: "I knew him before the world consciousness took away my consciousness."

His voice was very faint, as if he was talking about some stories that had nothing to do with him. Shui Jiangyi didn't know whether he had stopped caring a long time ago, or after becoming a god, he no longer had the emotions he had before. In short, Dazai Osamu's statement was as if he was describing his not-so-brilliant life, and it was very poor.

"He is a man with great ambitions, or maybe he is just a coward whose edges have been smoothed out by time. When he met me, his biggest thought was to escape from this world. He longed to possess my body."

"Unfortunately, even if he is the world consciousness, when I saw him, I still didn't want to speak out. When I saw him, he couldn't do anything to me, even if I defected later and also defected with Zhong Ye."

"While he was hunting me down, he repeatedly killed the people he sent to kill me and Chuuya, but he still couldn't do anything to me because I was unwilling to admit that I had seen the so-called world consciousness."

"In my memories, although I have not experienced such an emotion, my memory tells me that I enjoyed this kind of life alone with Chuuya very much, and I felt a lot of comfort."

"Until... I saw Akutagawa Ryunosuke."

"When I adopted Akutagawa Ryunosuke, I only saw the wildness in his eyes and thought he might be a good executioner in my hands in the future, but this does not mean that I can watch Akutagawa Ryunosuke become a loser just because I defected from the Port Mafia."

"If I had met Akutagawa Ryunosuke normally, I would have taught him a lesson like before. No, I might have been even more ruthless than before. After all, I would no longer be his teacher like before, teaching him what position he should be in and what he should do after each mission. From now on, every meeting between us could be the last time I see him."

"Unfortunately, when I saw him, he was clearly standing in front of me, but it was as if he wasn't standing in front of me at all. I clearly saw the surprise and confusion of Akutagawa Ryunosuke when he saw me for the first time. He seemed to have seen a great surprise and couldn't wait to drop everyone and run towards me. I was thinking about how to teach him a lesson."

"The Rashomon behind him uncontrollably wrapped around his neck, tightening little by little, and when his neck was bleeding, Akutagawa Ryunosuke stopped running towards me, and he returned behind everyone, and ordered them to start shooting."

"At that moment, I tried to see the look in Akutagawa Ryunosuke's eyes, but unfortunately, I couldn't."

"He was standing in the crowd, and I couldn't see him clearly, but I was almost certain in the first second that his consciousness was controlled by the world consciousness. At that time, I was thinking, what if Akutagawa Ryunosuke could also be controlled."

Dazai looked at Nakahara Chuuya, and his voice, which had never been turbulent, suddenly rose and fell a little. He said to Nakahara Chuuya: "Do you think that in the future, everyone in this world will be controlled by him?"

"I don't like this kind of world, so after that day, I wanted to kill him."

"But how can you kill a world consciousness?"

"World consciousness is immortal. As long as the world exists, it will continue to exist until someone can replace it, until someone can usurp its position and kill it."

"And that person, apart from me, doesn't think of anything else."

Therefore, as the most suitable candidate, Dazai Osamu decided on that day that he would kill the world consciousness and exist in its place.

Therefore, Dazai Osamu was not controlled by the world consciousness, but Dazai Osamu killed the so-called world consciousness.

Mizue Yi hardly needed to think, he could imagine that after Dazai Osamu replaced the so-called world consciousness, that world would easily resume its operation.

Everyone has returned to normal and will never be taken away to the point of losing their consciousness again.

However, Dazai Osamu has lost all his emotions. His past memories still appear clearly in his mind, but... Dazai Osamu can no longer understand why he would reveal a gentle smile in his memory at certain times.

Shui Jiangyi figured it all out, and finally understood Zhongyuan Chuuya's last words.

What was the meaning of the sentence, "I want to keep him," which has influenced him from the beginning to now?

Nakahara Chuuya could never keep Dazai Osamu.

In other words, no one can keep Dazai Osamu. The Dazai Osamu in the mind of Nakahara Chuuya who made this wish is even more difficult because he has lost all emotions.

He has become a god who looks down upon the world. As the world consciousness, he can remember everything clearly.

But he was never the one who could stay in Zhongyuanzhong every morning.

It was Dazai Osamu who was lazily leaning against the window, with the beautiful morning light on his cheeks, holding a cup of milk and saying lazily to Nakahara Chuuya: "Good morning, what are you going to do today?"

At the last moment of that world line, Nakahara Chuuya, who had always been abandoned by his partners, had long forgotten what partners were and no longer expected their company, received the last gift from Dazai Osamu.

He gave the Dazai Osamu in his past memories the name of a companion.

You have never been a lost monster. When you are lost, there is always someone by your side. That person's name is Dazai Osamu.

Although he is not very strong, Dazai Osamu will not hide behind Nakahara Chuuya when facing the enemy, watching Nakahara Chuuya fight hard for him, and remain indifferent even if he sees him bleeding.

He will stand in front of Nakahara Chuuya, and when Nakahara Chuuya is silent, he has already decided everything. He will stand in front of Nakahara Chuuya and protect him from the wind and rain.

Nakahara Chuuya returns to the past and wants to leave behind Dazai Osamu's already turbulent life.

All the ups and downs, all the intrigues and schemes are borne by him.

He hopes to see Dazai live his life peacefully and smoothly.

This is Nakahara Chuuya's greatest wish.

Shui Jiangyi said: "... Then why did you tell Dazai Osamu of this world everything? He shouldn't have known these things originally."

If this Dazai Osamu did not appear in this world, then the Dazai Osamu of this world would not know the subsequent story. Perhaps he would not know that in the near future, Nakahara Chuuya would die for some reason. Then he would not explore the cause of Nakahara Chuuya's death again and again, and perhaps the story would not have reached this point.

The situation is simply out of control.

The long-haired Dazai looked at Shui Jiangyi and said, "Letting him die in such an ignorant way, is this considered as forgiveness?"

"Isn't this the greatest form of torture?"

"I didn't know all the stories before. When the world consciousness told me everything, I suddenly woke up and realized that this world was already very different from what I remembered."

"Unfortunately, it was too late by then. After I became the world consciousness, I told him about his future life long ago. Even if he died later, he would not feel any regrets, right?"

Mizue Yi was almost amused by Dazai Osamu. What kind of theory is this?

He said, "But you can see that I am from the future. In the future, Nakahara Chuuya became the leader of the port mafia because of the death of Dazai Osamu. Do you think he feels regretful?"

"Or is this the ending you wanted to see from the beginning?"

Dazai was silent for a while: "So, I want to find you, meet you, and let us try to change this ending together."

"In the original storyline, after this story happened, Dazai Osamu in the if line would start to distance himself from Nakahara Chuuya, because he would start to make the hat on your head. When this hat appears, it will be the day he is about to die."

"Because he believed Verlaine's words that one person's death can make up for the incomplete fate of another person, Dazai Osamu, who has become the leader of the so-called port mafia..."

Dazai Osamu said: "I don't know why he chose death. In the future I saw, I only saw the present."

"The past cannot be changed, but the future may not be."

Shui Jiangyi narrowed his eyes and said, "So, you want me to change that blank space that you can't even see?"

"Yes." Dazai Osamu said, "This is a feasible plan. It can prevent you from being discovered by the world consciousness of this world, and it can also appropriately adjust the story of this world."

"But……"

"Why?"

Shui Jiang Yi thought that he wanted Dazai Osamu of this world to survive because he did not want to see that kind of future, and he did not want Dazai Osamu to die in a spectacular way.

And what is the reason for this Dazai Osamu who has lost all emotions?

The strong mobility he displayed didn't seem like a boring experiment at all. He was clearly profiting from Dazai Osamu.

Dazai Osamu was stunned for a moment. He seemed not to have expected that Nakahara Chuuya would ask such a question. He said.

"Why why?"

"Why did you save Dazai Osamu? Why did you think of a solution for me?" Shui Jiangyi asked, "This is not the question you should be thinking about, right?"

After hearing his question, Dazai Osamu's eyes paused slowly and he said.

"Because it's enough that this tragedy happened to just one person."

"Besides, I want to see him again in his body."

Dazai Osamu said: "Just once is fine."

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