Chapter 328 Dream
She had heard this nickname more than once in his sleep.
"Sui Sui, don't!" Huo Xilin suddenly woke up, opened his eyes, his pupils were filled with fear, a little cold sweat appeared on his forehead, and even his face turned pale.
Xu Qingsui had never seen him like this before and was very curious about what he had dreamed about.
Huo Xilin stood there in a daze for a long time, and it took him a long time to come back to his senses.
As if sensing something, he raised his head and found Xu Qingsui staring at him intently.
The fear in his eyes gradually faded away, and was gradually stained with a hint of panic. He even subconsciously looked away, not daring to meet her eyes.
"Are you awake? Are you hungry? I'll go buy you something to eat." The silent atmosphere made Huo Xilin want to escape. He stood up and said to Xu Qingsui.
Xu Qingsui shook his head: "I can't eat it."
Although my voice is still hoarse, I can make sounds now.
Huo Xilin was a little surprised when he heard her speak. He bent down and touched her forehead with his hand, then put it on his own forehead for comparison, and said, "The fever has gone down. How do you feel?"
Xu Qingsui nodded: "I feel much better now."
She hadn't had a severe cold or a high fever for many years, and the confused and drowsy feeling made her feel uncomfortable just thinking about it.
After the high fever subsided, the pain in the body also disappeared. I felt as if I had unloaded a huge burden and felt much more relaxed in an instant.
Now only my nose is still a little blocked, my voice is hoarse, and my throat is still a little uncomfortable, but I feel like I have almost recovered.
"After hearing Xu Qingsui say that he felt much better, Huo Xilin finally put his worries to rest."
Having not had a good night's sleep for two days, he looked much more haggard.
"I heard you talking in your sleep. What did you dream about just now?" Xu Qingsui asked curiously.
"Am I dreaming?" Huo Xilin pretended to be dumbfounded: "Why can't I remember anything?"
He is really not suitable for lying, and Xu Qingsui saw through his poor performance at a glance.
She understood that he hadn't really forgotten, he just didn't want to tell her.
He was obviously not good at lying, so why did she believe every word he said in the past?
Looking back now, it turns out that many things had traces to follow from the very beginning.
Seeing Xu Qingsui staring at him in a daze, Huo Xilin felt a little flustered, as if he was seen through by her.
This feeling has never existed before.
"Why are you staring at me?" After a long time, Huo Xilin couldn't stand it anymore and asked helplessly.
"I'm looking at your beard, it's growing out." Xu Qingsui imitated him and started to lie.
"Has it become uglier?" Huo Xilin asked.
Xu Qingsui nodded: "So ugly... looks like a homeless person."
Huo Xilin: "..."
He said lovingly but helplessly: "I worked so hard to serve you, but you didn't say a word of kindness to me. Instead, you despised me. It really makes me sad."
Xu Qingsui was amused by his words. She was the only one who had ever seen Huo Xilin so approachable.
But as she laughed, she felt sad again. She wanted to ask him why he killed her parents back then, and whether he had regretted it over the years...
There are countless questions, but when the words come to my lips, I can't say a word. What good will it do even if I know the answers?
Things have already happened, and even if he feels a lot of regret and guilt, it's of no use.
The most helpless word in this world is - if!
If he hadn't done that thing at that time, would they be happy now?
If she hadn't lost her memory, the two of them would have been destined to be enemies of life and death from the moment they met again.
Unfortunately, there is no if, so no assumption is valid.
So she has come to the dilemma of making a decision, standing at the crossroads, with the person she loves most on one side and the revenge for the murder of her father and mother on the other. She is being torn between the two, and the better he treats her, the more painful she is.
No one could give her the answer as to what the future path should be, but she knew better than anyone that she could no longer look up to him with that pure heart, nor could she stay by his side peacefully and pretend that nothing had happened.
Huo Xilin noticed all the changes in Xu Qingsui and asked in confusion: "What's wrong? Are you feeling unwell?"
The person who was clearly amused by him just now suddenly lost his smile and looked melancholy, as if something bad had happened to him.
For Huo Xilin, he only hopes to see Xu Qingsui happy every day. For her smile, he is willing to do anything.
Xu Qingsui had a lot of grievances and questions in his mind, but he couldn't ask Huo Xilin.
So when faced with his question, she could only shake her head: "Nothing, just thinking about what happened in the past two days."
"You are already sick, so stop thinking about work. Rest and you will get better quickly."
Huo Xilin originally wanted Xu Qingsui to stop working. Their family had enough money and everything. He went out to work early and came back late every day to expand the business empire and build up his network, all for the purpose of allowing them and their son to live a free and good life.
It would be so nice to stay by his side peacefully without having to work so hard like I do now.
Although Huo Xilin thought so in his heart, he did not say it out loud in the end.
Because he knew Xu Qingsui, restoring antique calligraphy and paintings was a hobby engraved in her bones, and it had nothing to do with money. Although it was hard work, she could get a sense of accomplishment and happiness when restoring antique calligraphy and paintings.
He couldn't make a choice that would make her sad just because of his own selfishness.
To him, Xu Qingsui was never a canary that should be kept in a cage. She could do whatever she wanted freely, except leaving him.
Because she is his life. If she is gone, his life will also be gone. Even if he is lucky enough to live in this world, he will just be a walking corpse.
Thinking back on the three years since she left, he lived in a daze every day, as if he had lost his soul. Apart from eating, sleeping and working, he had no interests or hobbies in life. The only thing left was to numb himself with alcohol so that he could barely fall asleep.
Xu Qingsui listened to what Huo Xilin said to her. She knew very well that only by calming down and recuperating could one recover faster. However, the moment she learned the truth, her heart could no longer calm down.
Whenever she encountered any problems in the past, she always relied on him, and gradually, it became her habit.
But now, she had to control this habit, swallow the bitterness, and could no longer rely on him as before.
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