Chapter 332 Prayer
He gently took her hand and placed it in his palm, treating it with care as if it were a treasure.
Tears fell on the back of her hand without warning. At this moment, Huo Xilin looked as fragile as a child.
Xu Qingsui's hard heart felt a sharp pain.
He raised his head, looked at her with wet eyes, and pleaded with her pitifully: "So Qingsui, can you please not leave me? Without you, I will really die."
Is this still the omnipotent Huo Xilin?
Xu Qingsui stood there in a daze, unable to come back to her senses for a long time. The person in front of her was completely different from the Huo Xilin she knew, and he was so unfamiliar that it made her feel distressed.
What is love?
Love is that even if you see that person clearly, whether he or she is good or bad, you are still hopelessly and unable to extricate yourself from the love that moves you.
She really seemed to nod in agreement and be with him forever and ever, but the deep hatred between the two was like a chasm, she was on one side and he was on the other, and no matter how hard they tried to cross it, they could not truly embrace each other.
On the contrary, it is possible that one wrong step may lead you into the abyss and you will be smashed to pieces.
He had done all those things, so how could he not understand that it was impossible for them to be truly together? Even if she was still by his side, her heart had already drifted apart.
Or maybe he understood that all he wanted was her body?
Seeing Xu Qingsui remained silent for a long time, Huo Xilin became anxious and asked hurriedly, "Is it okay?"
"Does it matter whether I agree or not?" Xu Qingsui sighed helplessly: "I don't have a choice, do I?"
Whether she agrees or not, he will not let her go willingly and will try every means to keep her by his side.
So, no matter what she said, it was useless.
He just wanted to hear an answer from her, a promise that she would stay with him willingly.
But Xu Qingsui couldn't go against her heart, she couldn't say these words.
Xu Qingsui's attitude explained everything. Huo Xilin's hope slowly turned into despair. He asked Xu Qingsui, "Can you tell me why?"
He seemed to have accepted that what she had just said about divorce was not a joke, but her true feelings.
Love makes people very greedy. What he wants is not only for her to stay by his side, but also for her heart to be with him.
After hesitating for a long time, Xu Qingsui said, "I don't love you anymore, and I don't want to lie to you. I'm sorry."
She said something against her will and didn't dare to look him in the eye.
She hoped that these words would make him give up and let her go.
Seeing that Huo Xilin remained silent, he seemed to have not yet recovered from what he had just said.
Xu Qingsui continued, "I don't want to lie to you, but I can't lie to myself. I'm a very decisive person. When I love someone, I can't accept others. When I don't love someone anymore, I can't accept being with him reluctantly. So Huo Xilin, I'm sorry, I don't love you anymore, and this is the reason for the divorce."
Huo Xilin opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but when he looked at Xu Qingsui, his eyes were full of despair.
Xu Qingsui's heart ached so much that it was about to bleed, but she had to be strong and calm, and stubbornly did not want him to see anything, so she met his gaze with an indifferent look.
Huo Xilin looked carefully into Xu Qingsui's eyes, as if trying to find evidence that she still loved him, but all she got in response was coldness.
Huo Xilin was very familiar with this kind of look, because he often looked down on everything with it. It was a kind of indifference and indifference.
When he looked at others with such eyes in the past, he felt no ripples in his heart. But at this moment, when he was stared at by Xu Qingsui like this, a sense of frustration arose.
He suddenly remembered that when he was very young, his parents always quarreled without considering his feelings. Either of them could say that they didn't want him anymore. The feeling of being discarded like garbage was not gradually healed until he was picked up by his grandfather and met Xu Qingsui.
But this girl who once healed him is going to push him into the abyss with her own hands, making him return to the time when he was abandoned.
He really wanted to ask her why she treated him like this and whether he had done something wrong.
But he knew that his humbleness would make her look down on him, and even disgusted by him from the bottom of her heart.
Even if she no longer loves him, he still hopes to leave a good impression in her heart, so that when she recalls it in the future, he will be the only man worthy of her.
So, he asked feebly: "When did it start?"
He seemed to have given up struggling and accepted the death sentence she had imposed on him.
But before he died, he wanted to die with a clear mind.
"What?" Xu Qingsui asked in confusion.
Huo Xilin said clearly, word by word, "When did you stop loving me?"
Xu Qingsui didn't know what to say. It was not because she didn't love him, but just an excuse to break up. It was a lie she told against her will. She still loved him.
But Xu Qingsui knew that Huo Xilin would not give up unless he could give a credible reason.
So she said, "I am very bothered by what happened between you and Yan Xisui. Every time you two meet, I tell myself to stay away from you. Slowly, I stop loving you. Huo Xilin, maybe you think you haven't done anything to let me down, and I believe you haven't betrayed me, but I'm sorry, I can't accept you lying to me. Every time you lie to me, I give up on you. We can't go back anymore."
Huo Xilin wanted to defend himself, but when the words came to his lips, they sounded pale.
Because Xu Qingsui made it very clear that what bothered her was not only the fact that he and Yan Xisui had met in private, but also his deception.
He could have countless reasons to explain why he met Yan Xisui, but deception was an indisputable fact.
"I know that you have been treating me as Yan Xisui's substitute from the beginning. I asked you for something. At that time, my brother was in danger and I had no choice but to live under someone else's roof. For my brother, to free myself from the control of the Lu family, and to avenge my grandparents, I was willing to sign a substitute contract with you. Huo Xilin, you should know that from the beginning, I was not with you because I liked you. There was no love between us. We just got what we needed. You were greedy."
"The person you liked from the beginning was Yan Xisui, but unfortunately she betrayed you time and time again. You had no choice but to give up on her and fall in love with me. Maybe you have true feelings for me, but you love yourself more."
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