Chapter 333 Against one's will
Xu Qingsui said with pain: "When you liked Yan Xisui in the past, you could choose her and abandon me again and again. It was you who terminated the contract, and it was also you who wanted to marry Yan Xisui. I finally got rid of you with the help of Brother Qin. Do you think I still want to come back to you?"
"To tell you the truth, if you hadn't threatened me with Xu Youyou's custody this time, I would never have remarried you. In the final analysis, I was forced to stay with you. Huo Xilin, I have spent several years seeing you clearly, and I have given up, so there is no possibility between us. You said so many things that you must have me, and it sounded like you really loved me, but what you really love is yourself."
"You have never considered me, never asked me if I like it or not, you forced me to do it all. I can tell you clearly now that if I can choose, I don't want to be with you!"
It turns out that the feeling of saying something against your will is worse than death.
What she said just now was half true and half false.
It was true that she minded his meeting with Yan Xisui, and it was also true that she was disappointed with his deception.
The only thing that is false is that being with him is forced.
Before she knew he was the accomplice in the murder of her parents, she was willing to be with him.
She even felt fortunate when he proposed to remarry. So many years had passed, fortunately there was no one else around him, and fortunately his wedding with Yan Xisui was not a success.
Unfortunately, it is meaningless to mention all this now. After all, she still cares about the death of her parents, but she can't take revenge on him. Separation is the best outcome.
Maybe they will be sad for a while, but that is easier than loving and hating each other for a lifetime.
Huo Xilin looked painful, and said with trembling lips: "I'm sorry, I didn't know you had so many things in your heart."
"You should take good care of yourself first. We can talk about our affairs after you are discharged from the hospital, okay?" He said pleadingly.
Xu Qingsui really couldn't bear it, and regretted what he had just said at this moment.
She really seemed to tell him that they would be together happily in the future, but she remained awake in pain, knowing that she couldn't do that.
However, it would be good to leave some time for the two of them to relax. She knew that Huo Xilin could not accept it for a while, and even she herself was in a daze.
The moment she realized that they couldn't go on, she felt like the world was falling. Otherwise, she wouldn't have caught such a severe cold.
So she nodded: "Okay, I have made my position clear and you can take your time to think about it. I can also give you time, but I hope you can respect me for once."
Huo Xilin stood up and glanced at the time on his watch. It was already six o'clock in the morning. The sky outside the window was about to dawn, but the sun in his life had set and his world was gradually sinking into darkness.
"You take a rest for a while, I'll go buy breakfast." After he said that, he walked out the door with heavy steps, his hand on the door handle, but he did not open the door. He lowered his head, as if thinking about something.
Xu Qingsui tilted his head and looked at his back, feeling so heartbroken that he could hardly breathe.
She really had an urge to rush over and hug him from behind, because at this moment, his back was shaking and he seemed about to fall apart.
However, she was hard-hearted and held back.
She hid half of her face in the quilt and bit the quilt tightly, afraid that he would hear her crying.
After a while, Huo Xilin turned his back to her and asked, "Xu Qingsui, compared to the three years we were apart, which time made you happier?"
Of course, it’s the days I spend with him.
Although his deception made her sad, Xu Qingsui knew that the person who tied the bell must be the one to untie it, and only Huo Xilin could give her the happiness she wanted.
Although she felt less sad during the days of separation, her life was as bland as boiled water, without any of the bitterness, sweetness, bitterness or spiciness.
Being with him, the pain is real and the happiness is real too.
But Xu Qingsui knew that she couldn't say this.
So she once again said something against her will: "I was very happy during the three years we were apart."
Huo Xilin's body swayed, and if he hadn't been holding the door handle with his hand, he would have almost fallen.
After a long while, he sorted out his emotions, looked up at the ceiling, and said to Xu Qingsui in a relatively calm tone: "Okay, I understand."
After saying that, he decisively opened the door of the ward and walked out.
The moment the door closed, Xu Qingsui could no longer hold back her tears, and they burst out of her eyes like crazy. Even though she covered her mouth with a quilt, she still couldn't hide the sound of her crying.
After Huo Xilin left, he never came back.
The person who came back with breakfast was a caregiver.
"Hello, Miss Xu. I'm Mr. Huo's friend. If you need anything, just let me know." The nurse said as she placed the breakfast on the bedside table. "This is the breakfast Mr. Huo asked me to bring back. Would you like to eat it now?"
When Xu Qingsui heard that Huo Xilin would not be coming back, she felt relieved, but her mood also fell to the bottom. She knew that Huo Xilin took her words seriously.
If he really loves her, he will definitely consider her feelings. The more he loves someone, the more important he will regard the person he loves as than himself.
And Huo Xilin's choice just shows that he really loves her more than himself.
After confirming this, she should have been happy, but she could no longer be happy because they had finally reached the crossroads where they had to go their separate ways.
It's better this way. This way he will give up and won't have any more illusions. Although it will be painful for a while, time is the best medicine. One day he will get better.
A man like him can have whatever he wants, live whatever kind of life he wants, and have whatever woman he wants.
There will always be someone who appears by his side and replaces his position in his heart, just like she appeared in the past and replaced Yan Xisui's position. Maybe in a year, maybe two years, or at most three to five years, he will let it go completely.
As for myself...
She is a stubborn person. Once she has chosen someone, it will be her lifelong decision. She will continue to live well with the memory of Huo Xilin's kindness to her.
Seeing that Xu Qingsui did not respond, the nurse patiently asked again: "Miss Xu, do you need breakfast now?"
Xu Qingsui suddenly came back to his senses and shook his head at the nurse: "No, I can't eat, thank you."
The nurse was a very dedicated person. She was the ace nurse of this hospital, so she kindly advised: "When President Huo gave me these breakfasts, he told me to make sure you eat a little."
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