Chapter 345 Let’s not talk about it
Xu Qingsui looked at Qin Fang in some surprise. She didn't expect that this would be the reason why he did this.
How could she blame him?
Apart from hiding this matter from herself, he didn't do anything to let her down, and he really helped her a lot.
"Qingsui, I'm sorry." Qin Fang sincerely apologized to Xu Qingsui: "I'm sorry for hiding this from you. I had my own reasons. I was afraid that you would hate me. I just... wanted to be closer to you."
Get closer, it would be best if you could get into her heart. Even if you can't get into her heart, it would be good to stay by her side.
Unfortunately, no matter when she was a child or when she grew up, the only person she wanted from beginning to end was Huo Xilin. Even after she lost her memory, nothing changed.
What he concealed was not only what happened when the three of them were children. Qin Fang knew that even if Xu Qingsui didn't blame him now, she would blame him one day.
But he hoped that this day would come later, the later the better.
In response to Qin Fang's apology, Xu Qingsui generously said that he did not blame him.
"Brother Qin, it's okay. It's over, so let's not talk about it." Xu Qingsui brought the topic back to the point: "You must help me this time, otherwise I really don't know who to ask for help."
"Do you really know nothing about my parents' car accident? Huo Xilin, my parents and I were in the same car at the time. Why didn't you go?"
If the three of them were really good playmates, there was no way Qin Fang would be left behind when going to the amusement park.
But he was not there that day. Xu Qingsui really wanted to know what happened that day.
But no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't recall any memory of that day.
But over the years, she was often haunted by nightmares. Every time she had the same dream, there was fire shooting up into the sky and a blurry figure running towards her. Every time she was about to see the figure's face clearly, she would wake up in shock.
Finally one night, she had the nightmare again, but this time, she saw the face of the figure clearly, it was Huo Xilin when he was a child.
Xu Qingsui guessed that the nightmare must be related to the car accident that happened when he was a child. Could the flames be the flames produced after the car was hit?
Huo Xilin was not in the car at the time. He went to the bathroom to avoid the car accident. So when he came back, the car accident that had been planned had already happened.
"The day your parents had the car accident, my mother and I were taken away by my father. I was supposed to go to the amusement park with you guys." Qin Fang said apologetically, "If I had gone with you guys that day, maybe the car accident wouldn't have happened. Thinking back to this day, I still feel very regretful. In the final analysis, I am sorry for you and my deceased uncle and aunt. They were very good to me, but I failed them."
Xu Qingsui felt very strange when listening to Qin Fang's apology.
She said: "This matter has nothing to do with you. I'm glad you didn't go with us, otherwise you might not be alive now."
She was lucky to be alive.
"Maybe." Qin Fang showed a far-fetched smile: "If I could die with my uncle and aunt, maybe I wouldn't be affected by the Qin family. I have lived such a painful life these years, it's better to die cleanly."
Although Xu Qingsui had never witnessed the life Qin Fang lived in the Qin family, she had heard him talk about it before, and her mother was forced to death by Qin Wei and his mother.
It is hard to imagine what kind of difficulties a child who has lost the protection of his mother and whose father is cowardly and unable to protect him will face after being taken back to the Qin family.
So he must have lived a life worse than death over the years.
When Xu Qingsui thought of this, he felt sad for Qin Fang.
I guess in his memory, the best time was the time he lived in the courtyard.
"Brother Qin, please don't say such things. Those bad things are all in the past. What's more, you have finally seen the light at the end of the tunnel and become the patriarch of the Qin family. No one can bully you anymore, right?"
Facing Xu Qingsui's comfort, Qin Fang smiled self-deprecatingly, then shook his head: "Qingsui, there are many things in this world that are beyond one's control. Even though I am now a member of the Qin family, there are many things that I cannot do. If time could go back, I only hope to live in the courtyard with my mother and not have any relationship with the Qin family. Even if I become an ordinary person, my life will not be more difficult than it is now. I may not have money, but at least I will be relaxed and happy in my heart."
"In the end, I can face you calmly. When the Xu family was in trouble, I could still stay by your side, so that you and brother Xu would not end up on the streets and eventually be adopted by your enemies. Whenever I think of this, I hate myself to death. I feel sorry for you and owe you so much..."
Qin Fang expressed his guilt in a painful manner, tears streaming down his face uncontrollably.
As the saying goes, men don't shed tears easily, but they do until they are sad. This is the case for Qin Fang.
He still remembered that the last time he cried was the day his mother passed away. After his mother was buried, he secretly swore that he would never cry easily in this life. He wanted to become strong and make those who bullied his mother and himself pay the price. He also wanted to ensure that the people he cared about would never be bullied by anyone again.
There are two most important women in his life, one is his mother and the other is Xu Qingsui.
But his mother had died, but fortunately Xu Qingsui was still alive.
He was just waiting for the day when he became stronger so that he could reappear in front of Xu Qingsui and protect him well.
So no matter how much suffering he endured in the Qin family, or how much ridicule and insults he suffered, he never shed a single tear.
But today he really couldn't hold it back any longer. The guilt in his heart was like a huge wave that was about to drown him, and Xu Qingsui was his only lifeline.
"Brother Qin, this is not your fault. You don't owe me anything. You were still young at that time, and many things happened beyond your control. Please don't blame yourself."
Seeing Qin Fang like this, Xu Qingsui felt very uncomfortable.
She didn't know what to say or do to comfort him, so she could only worry helplessly.
Qin Fang raised his eyes to look at Xu Qingsui, his eyes were scarlet and his expression was very pitiful. He said, "You really don't blame me?"
"I don't blame you!" Xu Qingsui replied firmly.
"Even if one day you find out that I have done something to hurt you, won't you blame me?"
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