Chapter 29 Confusion
After that crazy day, Pu Xia's legs were trembling when she got out of the car, and she could barely stand. In the end, Xie Sheng carried her all the way back.
Thinking that they might have been discovered at any moment, Pu Xia was filled with dread. She blamed Xie Sheng for his recklessness and hated herself for being so weak and unable to resist temptation.
Xie Sheng had strong desires and acted recklessly, so she felt it necessary to have a serious talk with him. But to her surprise, after returning home, he showed no remorse and even tried to have sex with her again, still clinging to her waist.
Pu Xia was so angry that she locked him out, telling him to figure out what he had done wrong. However, Xie Sheng's focus was entirely on whether he had "done" something wrong.
After a series of nonsensical exchanges, the two finally couldn't hold back and had another argument through the door.
They seem to be compatible only emotionally and physically; when it comes to discussing practical matters, they find it difficult to connect.
Thinking of this, Pu Xia couldn't help but sigh. No one is perfect; if you love someone's good qualities, you must also accept their bad ones.
Hearing her sigh, the surrounding chatter immediately quieted down. Only Chen Yu turned around and asked Pu Xia, who was leaning against the bench, "What's wrong? Are you not used to living in the dormitory?"
Pu Xia tilted her head and turned it away, causing the girls who were chatting with Chen Yu to involuntarily take a slight step back.
Ever since news spread that Qingling had gotten herself into trouble with Puxia and been outmaneuvered, Puxia's image in everyone's eyes instantly changed from quiet and obedient to a seemingly cunning and mischievous person. Even the reasons she came to study here were fabricated in all sorts of ways. But this did bring her a rare moment of peace and quiet.
"No, I was just thinking that the midterm exams are coming up soon." Pu Xia's words successfully diverted everyone's attention.
Actually, the distinctions between people in this school are quite clear: one group, like Xie Sheng, just want to get a high school diploma, while another group, like Chen Yu, is determined to get out through their grades.
But which category does she belong to? If you had asked her a while ago, she would definitely have said the latter, but now she's not so sure.
She thought that Xie Sheng would either stay here or go to Liucheng.
Even in Liucheng, which is much larger than Baixian, what could she do? She was born and raised in S City, and the environments they lived in were vastly different. It could be said that apart from Xie Sheng, she was unfamiliar with everyone else.
Pu Xia looked up blankly at the gray sky, his confusion as subtle yet pervasive as the thin mist and thick clouds.
As if foreshadowing something, her phone rang. She took it out of her pocket, and froze when she saw what it said—
Xiao Chengming: Xiaxia, I've arrived in Bai County. I'll wait for you at the school gate in a bit.
...
Pu Xia: Didn't you say we didn't need to come over?
Xiao Chengming: I'm worried about you.
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On the other hand, to everyone's surprise, Xie Sheng skipped PE class and went to Zhou Yuhao's class for their sleep-inducing English class.
“Brother Sheng, I can’t answer your friend’s question either,” Zhou Yuhao said, scratching his head helplessly. He never expected that Xie Sheng would ask him, a bachelor for 18 years, about love. “You might as well ask Ma Zai, he’s experienced.”
Xie Sheng shook his head. If he talked like a henchman, Pu Xia would block him in the next second.
I still think it's more reliable to ask you.
Zhou Yuhao hesitated for a long time before finally speaking, "Brother Sheng, let's not talk about 'I have a friend' anymore, okay? What you really want to ask about is you and Pu Xia, right?"
Xie Sheng's heart skipped a beat.
It wasn't anything else, it was just that something he had been hiding and pretending to be indifferent about was suddenly brought up so bluntly, and he realized that he didn't necessarily feel so confident that he was right.
After a few breaths, Xie Sheng finally said, "Yes."
"...You two are siblings, aren't you?"
"yes."
Even though he already knew the answer in his heart, Zhou Yuhao still couldn't help but ask when he heard Xie Sheng say it aloud, "Brother Sheng, what are you really thinking?"
"I don't really want to, I just want to be with her."
"But have you considered how you plan to continue this relationship? Liking someone, being together, and continuing this relationship are three different things."
Xie Sheng felt he had found the right person.
"From what you just said, I think your biggest problem right now is how to move forward. Brother Sheng, to be honest, are you... serious?"
Xie Sheng laughed, but also sighed, "If I were really going to do something reckless and seek thrills, I wouldn't go after Pu Xia."
His usually sharp and piercing eyes lowered as he stared at a small black dot on the table. His voice was soft but firm. "Haozi, I've never wanted anything like that."
This was the first time Zhou Yuhao had seen such complex emotions on Xie Sheng's face—persistence, helplessness, and deep affection.
He had known Xie Sheng since elementary school, but they really became close friends in junior high.
In his eyes, Xie Sheng always dealt with the outside world in a lazy manner, as if anyone could play with him. But he knew that Xie Sheng had no attachment to anyone, whether they came or went, he didn't care.
No one can enter his world. He acts as he pleases, without considering the consequences or the needs of others.
Such an unapproachable and rather self-centered person actually revealed this side of himself for another person. It's impossible not to be moved.
Zhou Yuhao felt that as a friend, he should offer some advice at this time, but when he thought of the strong magnetic field that the brother and sister had when they were together, which made it impossible for them to tolerate anyone else, he couldn't bring himself to say anything to suggest that they break up.
"Brother Sheng, I think Pu Xia is probably feeling lost right now. After all, your relationship... is rather special. You say you don't want to separate, but is it really possible? I remember Pu Xia isn't from Bai County, right? After she graduates, won't she have to go home? She still has family, right? What will you two do then?"
Zhou Yuhao's series of questions were like an eraser wiping away the filter of "idealism," gradually revealing the hideous truth of reality.
yes.
If Pu Xia wants to go back, what will he do?
A sudden wave of panic washed over Xie Sheng as he recalled the helplessness he felt when Pu Ming left him as a child.
The agonizing English class finally ended, and Xie Sheng rushed out of the classroom. He desperately wanted a cigarette and wanted to quickly plan a future that could accommodate them.
Bai County is too small, but is Liucheng big enough for Puxia?
He always felt that no matter how exquisite the greenhouse was, it was not suitable for his roses, but when he really wanted to have her, he realized that he could not create that perfect greenhouse either.
...
Xie Sheng smoked one cigarette after another on the rooftop until it got dark before he came downstairs.
He wanted to find Pu Xia, then hold her and draw strength from her.
But when he bought some food and was walking back to her dormitory at school, he saw Pu Xia talking to a man in a suit at the school gate.
Suddenly, his heart felt as if it were being squeezed by a large hand, and it clenched tightly.
Frustration, anger, and panic are like a can of soda that's been shaken violently and then opened, bursting out in an instant.
It was simply because this man possessed an aura that was out of place here, just like Pu Xia.
At this moment, they stood together, clearly telling him that they did not belong here.
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Confusion is the true state of wisdom.
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