Chapter 76 A Touch of Ink from the Pen
The doctor remained silent, expressing his confusion.
Why should I?!
Often, even the director doesn't know how to explain it, for example, that this person is actually himself.
Over the years, he has acquired many aliases, but many of these aliases are not powerful and have no worthwhile capabilities to develop.
He's used every available alias he can, sometimes even the system can't understand it. Where is the director's sense of urgency?
Just as the system said at the beginning, each alias is controlled by the director himself, which means that he needs stronger mental strength, and the pain experienced by these aliases will be transmitted to the director's body.
Managing so many aliases can overwhelm the director and even lead to a mental breakdown.
Therefore, the system did not approve of creating so many alternate accounts from the beginning.
The drug secretly developed by the director caused his mental strength to increase exponentially. However, his physical body has no special abilities whatsoever, and because he has been handling various affairs for many years without time to rest or exercise, he is much weaker than the average person.
This caused him to suffer from frequent headaches; his body could no longer withstand the mental energy. This mental energy was like being trapped in a balloon about to burst.
In most cases, spiritual power cannot exist outside without any support, but there are exceptions. For example, the identity of "Huoji" is like an existence, an identity that is recognized.
After a portion of his spiritual power was injected into this identity, he couldn't take it back. It was as if he had gained unique recognition from this world. He could exist outside as a spiritual entity even without a physical body. However, this part of his spiritual entity could no longer be injected into other identities, which meant that it had been separated from him.
It was precisely this characteristic that gave the director some inspiration.
When he first took control of the first alias, the director felt relaxed, and the second and third were also fine. However, starting with the fourth and fifth, he gradually began to feel overwhelmed.
So the director increased the amount of medication to enhance mental strength.
This led to another problem: these mental energies could not be withdrawn at the same time.
However, since mental energy is inherently a unified whole, it will instinctively want to get closer to the main body. It may even unconsciously return to the main body.
The more aliases one has, the less control one gains.
The director was also a bit irritable, and he was often distracted, for example, when he was sleeping.
At its worst, the doctor even saw the director go several days and nights without sleep, but at the time the doctor just thought the director had gone a little crazy.
The doctor discovered that the medication to alleviate mental distress was being consumed unusually quickly. Although the director might have thought he hadn't been exposed, the doctor felt that his methods were hardly sophisticated.
If you're going to keep it from him, at least change the medicine box! Only the director knows how to use this kind of medicine in the entire base! (The doctor discovered something amiss, searched the base's junkyard for three days, and finally found the evidence.)
In addition, they had previously "inadvertently" discovered the numerous needle marks on the director's arm (a drug to enhance mental strength).
These findings led the doctors to have a bad feeling.
However, he never said anything, so the director thought he had kept it a secret very well.
However, for the director, insufficient combat power has always been the biggest threat. He often felt that only by becoming strong himself could he guarantee his safety.
Having an alias but not using it is something he simply can't control...
In addition, with multiple aliases, he often couldn't distinguish which alias was causing the pain or sensation, and this dizziness was really unpleasant.
Just as it is already extremely difficult for a person to control their left and right hands to draw different things at the same time, let alone control many different bodies.
So he made an attempt and checked out this new alias.
He had long suspected the connection between the system and this world.
There is cause and effect, and in this world, cause and effect occur simultaneously. They are intertwined, without limitations of space or time. Cause leads to effect, and effect leads to cause.
That's why prophecies exist in this world, and that's why prophecies are so accurate.
The threads of cause and effect in this world had long since bound him, this outsider, tightly, encasing him in a cocoon, airtight and impenetrable.
He is now also an "observed being," which is why he was written into the novel; all his actions were within expectations.
This "Burger King" was one of his experiments, and this was just one of them.
He had studied the issue of time before. Many things had happened in this world, and if he wanted to resolve them all at once, the best thing would be to travel back to before the gods died.
If the death of the true god of this world is prevented, everything can be resolved.
At this point, after confirming that its host could perform its tasks well, the system no longer stayed by its host's side as often.
Most of the time, he would fall into a deep sleep.
The director noticed this. He loved doing research, and if it weren't for the fact that he lived in this world, if he were in a slightly more peaceful world, he might have been able to peacefully and quietly do his research.
He was unwilling to be powerless and could only rely on the system.
By the time the system discovered it, certain consequences had already occurred. Even though the system was inside his body every day, it still didn't understand his madness.
He has no talent, only his brain.
He wanted to stop it all from the source. In his view, everyone in the world was being manipulated, so what about himself?
Through his supernatural abilities, he split his mind into several unimportant identities and used the power of his divine nature, or "laws," to send them back to previous points in time.
But... it failed! How could this be? The director, somewhat neurotic, began repeating over and over again that each of his alternate accounts had died for various reasons.
An accident? There aren't that many accidents! It was just destined...
Until finally, when he sensed that one of the vests had been put on, he felt a sense of relief and immediately fainted.
The system arrived late, looking at the director and muttering to itself, "How do you know that the existence of that pseudonym might also have been arranged?"
It severed the connection between the director and the alternate account, leaving the alternate account in that time and space at will.
At this moment, a girl woke up with a start, "Who...who am I?"
This is the director's spirit. After being divided, it will instinctively search for its original body. A kind of emptiness lingers on the vest like ants biting tightly at the girl.
The naive girl was taken back by someone else, and when they asked her name...
"I...I'm called...Burger King," the girl said uncertainly.
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After the director woke up, he sat there blankly and chased everyone out.
The system had no idea what he was thinking.
Suddenly, the system heard the director speak, "I can't go back, can I?"
Three years ago, the director wasn't as open-minded as he is now. He still believed that there were people waiting for him in his original world, and he didn't remember some things.
So even though he couldn't bear to leave this world, he still wanted to go back and see it.
But now he has proven one thing: he can't go back.
The system remained silent, watching the director. In its eyes, the director was a young man tightly bound by dense threads, almost invisible to it. Many dull and broken threads clung to the director's body.
"It's a name, is it the right name?" The director looked up, and the deathly stillness in his eyes made the system a little uneasy. It didn't want to look, so it closed its eyes.
"So that's how it is. I had to name each of my aliases myself. I came up with one after another, putting my heart into each name and trying my best to remember and adapt to them. And it turns out that you were the one plotting against me!" The director angrily swept everything on the table to the floor.
He didn't use his real name in this world, but instead chose some joking names to remind himself not to forget that world.
However, enough marks, even if each one is faint, can cover up his original words.
It was only then that the director realized he had unknowingly forgotten his real name.
He could sense that the person in the alternate account was neither dead nor under his control; the connection had been severed, and it was obvious who it was.
But he felt no joy in his success; he and this persona were like puppets being manipulated in every move.
Thinking it was his own will, thinking he could defy fate, he ended up with just a drop of ink on the brush.
He suddenly understood everything, but he was like a drowning man who was about to drown before realizing he was already in the water. He thought he was the one saving the water, but the water enveloped him instead.
He couldn't even struggle, because he couldn't bear to part with it, nor could he break free.
His vest is like a piece of cloth; wherever there are holes in the tattered vest, he patches it up.
So these pseudonyms were people who should have appeared but didn't, and the system filled in these suddenly appearing pseudonyms, so these original causes and effects naturally fell into the hands of the director.
Meanwhile, the person in the time-traveling disguise gropes aimlessly forward, trying to find their true self.
But each time they missed out, it was because of an "accident".
All the struggles were futile, and even these struggles were seen as "the way things should be."
What happened next was exactly as the doctor had seen.
This persona has entered another life, without any new memories.
Then came death, and only when the director saw this body did he have an epiphany.
Everything has come full circle after all this time.
After regaining control of the body, the remaining spiritual energy of the body finally returned.
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From the system's perspective, it's normal that the director remained calm after learning he couldn't go back, because he's a rational person, and after all, this world is an inseparable part of his life.
The only thing that drove him mad was his frantic splitting of his mental energy followed by "death."
Why is it so painful to have one's mental energy crushed? The pain is etched into the soul. Most people would go insane, but the director seems to be quite normal now.
So? Has he really resigned himself to his fate?
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