Chapter 4 Dissociative Amnesia

“This is dissociative amnesia.”

"......No, what did I skip in the middle? Why did I suddenly lose my memory? I was fine when I checked it. My brain didn't suffer any impact. Why did I suddenly lose my memory?"

Facing his colleagues, He Yan did not hide his headache.

Dissociative amnesia can be caused by certain events, but most cases are caused by brain damage or mental problems.

That’s why Li Nuo’s condition was so puzzling. He was lying on the hospital bed and suddenly lost his memory. There was nothing wrong with the infusion.

He Yan rubbed his face with his hands and sighed deeply.

"This is too sudden."

"He would have suddenly developed amnesia, but fortunately this does not affect his normal life."

Doctor Zhou, who was in charge of the examination, looked at the records.

After the examination, many tests were conducted, and it was finally concluded that Li Nuo had only lost his memory of people, but his common sense memory was intact, and there was indeed no major problem in his life.

"Don't stress yourself out. There's nothing wrong now. If you rest and receive psychological treatment, your memory will recover soon."

"...It's possible that you won't be able to come back in your lifetime."

"You have to think positively."

He Yan nodded slowly.

When I checked myself, there was clearly nothing wrong, but after a while I didn't check and this happened. It feels like it was caused by my own work error.

Doctor Zhou slapped He Yan on the back and said, "Don't worry too much. He is no longer a child, and Li Yan is still here."

“.......”

"If you, as his attending physician, showed concern, those two people would become even more nervous."

"That's right. I can't do this. I'll go and bring them both over."

He Yan cheered himself up and called his two brothers who had been waiting outside for a long time.

In order not to scare the two people, He Yan tried to explain the situation slowly and in a gentle voice.

"That is to say, I am fine elsewhere, my stress level is not high, and my mind is stable, but... there is something wrong with my memory."

Sitting on the chair in the clinic, Li Nuo knew what the disease was, but because he knew he was a person who traveled through a book, he remained calm.

On the other hand, Li Yan was greatly shocked and his body was shaking slightly.

Li Nuo sensed it and reached out to grab his arm, "Do you want to sit down?"

Li Yan couldn't hide his agitated heart. If he was his usual brother, he wouldn't care about his feelings at all.

I had sensed a sense of disharmony since entering the ward, and I finally understood the reason for this change and the change in my brother's behavior. However, I was still a little scared when he suddenly lost his memory.

"No, it's okay, Dr. Zhou, please continue."

Li Yan shook his head and listened to the doctor carefully, while Li Nuo seemed uninterested and absent-minded.

Doctor Zhou slapped the table and said, "It's your own business, so at least pay attention and listen."

Seeing Li Nuo's gaze turned to him, Doctor Zhou said, "This is dissociative amnesia."

"...Amnesia?"

In response to Li Yan's question, Dr. Zhou nodded in the affirmative.

Li Yan took a deep breath.

The weak and free Li Nuo might have to stay in the hospital for the rest of his life.

Recently, he couldn't eat or sleep well, so I brought him to the hospital. His health was already very poor, and he also had amnesia.

Is this my fault for not taking good care of myself?

The slightly trembling hand was held by a small hand and shook. Li Nuo seemed to be saying that it was not your fault.

Dr. Zhou continued:

“Although I don’t have any memory of my childhood, my common sense memory is still there, so I can still remember it in my daily life.

Life is fine, and as for memories, they may come back one day, or they may not. "

"Are you saying that it's possible to live my whole life with urban memory?"

"It's a pity... but it's possible. Now you two should calm down. If possible, we can go for psychological treatment."

Because Dr. Zhou is not familiar with Li Nuo, psychotherapy can help him more carefully.

“…Is psychotherapy helpful?”

"I can't guarantee it... because memory is a very sensitive part, and the patient's wishes are also very important." Doctor Zhou looked at Li Nuo. He was obviously talking about him, but he was not interested at all and just stood there in a daze.

Although Dr. Zhou did not see Li Nuo often, he had seen him several times because He Yan was his attending physician and he was a frequent visitor to the hospital.

In the opinion of Dr. Zhou, a psychiatrist, Li Nuo needed psychiatric treatment before, and he had mentioned it to He Yan before, but He Yan shook his head and refused every time.

At that time, Li Nuo's mentality was already very unstable, but he also refused to take any action. Now, with the diagnosis of amnesia, Dr. Zhou once again proposed psychological treatment.

"You can think about it, you don't have to make a decision right away."

........

After coming out of the clinic, the two of them walked back to the ward with He Yan.

"Brother, you go in and rest first. I'll talk to Doctor He for a few words before you go in."

Without asking anything, Li Nuo nodded and opened the door of the ward.

Surprisingly, the two men did not leave.

Qin Xu, who was exuding air conditioning, and Mo Chuan, who was playing with his mobile phone, were sitting on the sofa. When they heard the door open, they both looked towards him.

He should have gone in, but frightened by the looks of these two people, Li Nuo did not dare to take a step forward.

Li Nuo closed the door and turned around. Li Yan and Dr. He were talking at the corner.

It was too scary to go into the ward alone, so he wanted to wait until the two men finished talking before following them in. Just as he was about to move away, the door of the ward was opened.

Mo Chuan said with a smile, "Where are you going?"

“.......”

"Come in, we are also curious, where is Secretary Li?"

"........talking to the doctor."

"Ah, really?"

Mo Chuan said as he made way.

Li Nuo looked inside quietly. Qin Xu was still staring at him. He suddenly didn't want to go in.

To be honest, Qin Xu didn't express anger or other emotions with his eyes, he just simply looked over, but because it was so cold and sharp, it made people scared.

Just as he was hesitating, Mo Chuan grabbed Li Nuo's shoulders and pulled him inside.

"If you keep standing at the door like this, you'll attract attention."

"...I'm still staring at you now."

Using Mo Chuan's body as a shield, Li Nuo hid behind him and whispered.

Even if I didn't do anything, I felt like I was sentenced to death when I was looked at by those eyes. It was indeed the murderous look described in novels.

Li Nuo shuddered with fear and withdrew his gaze, sticking closely behind Mo Chuan before entering the ward.

Mo Chuan's eyebrows twitched.

Since they met, Li Nuo had only paid attention to Qin Xu. Li Nuo also watched him do many strange things to please Qin Xu, so his fearful look now was quite novel.

Something interesting happened.

Mo Chuan laughed secretly and pointed at Qin Xu, "Director Qin, relax. Li Nuo said he was very scared."

"........I didn't say that."

Li Nuo clenched his fists as he whispered back. Even though Mo Chuan was telling the truth, he was just saying it in front of him. What if he got angry?

Mo Chuan shrugged and pretended not to know.

Li Nuo pinched the corner of his clothes and slowly moved to the bed. While he was moving, the two men kept staring at him, causing him great psychological pressure.

Li Nuo quickly climbed onto the bed and got under the quilt.

Mo Chuan looked at the person who was wriggling in the quilt like a caterpillar, laughed and sat back on the sofa, and asked:

"What did the doctor say?"

“........”

"Were you caught lying?"

Hearing this, Li Nuo stuck his head out and looked at Mo Chuan straightly.

"I'm not lying."

Hearing his reply, Mo Chuan gave a mocking smile.

"What's that?"

"It's called dissociative amnesia."

"...are you really losing your memory?"

"That's what the doctor said."

After saying this, Linuo shrank back again.

Mo Chuan turned to Qin Xu, without saying anything, but moved his mouth.

Seems true?

Qin Xu frowned and said nothing.

He had heard the answer and should have left now, but he sat in his seat without moving.

Mo Chuan, who was thinking about something, turned to Li Nuo again.

"What does it feel like to have no memory?"

“........”

That's a good question.

The caterpillar on the bed moved.

Although Linuo does not have real urban memory, he really does not remember anything about this body. All he knows is the description in the novel.

The novel "Approaching" does not write so clearly about everyday things, especially the characters' childhood, which are only mentioned briefly.

So, when Linuo tried his best to recall his family's problems, the faces of his family seemed to be covered by gray mist, and he could only remember a brown puppy.

Is this a side effect of traveling through a book?