As soon as Song Yao said this, the two grown men subconsciously looked at each other, and no one spoke for a while.
But this time Shi Yan did not escape, but took the initiative to speak to Sang Ning.
"I want to know why, too."
Now only Sang Ning fell silent.
He also asked himself the same question in his heart.
Obviously, he and Shi Yan are the best and closest brothers, but why is he always afraid to face each other?
With this thought, Sang Ning's memory was suddenly pulled back to the day when the accident happened in the Shi family.
Although he was still young at that time, this memory has always been imprinted in the deepest part of his mind.
But even though thirty years have passed, he still doesn't dare to touch that memory.
That day must have been the most painful day in his and Shi Yan's lives.
The Red Guards filled the yard and turned the once bustling Shi family house upside down, burning and smashing things.
Finally, Grandpa Shi and Grandma Shi were tied up and put on a high platform for criticism.
That is the kindest grandma in the world!
She would wave at me with a smile all day long, calling me a naughty little monkey, but she would still carefully wipe the mud off my face with a handkerchief.
When leaving, he did not forget to stuff a handful of candy and cakes into his trouser pockets.
It was Grandma Shi who would stand in front of him with heartache when he was beaten after making a mistake!
But that day he could only watch as his usually dignified and well-behaved grandmother had her head shaved into a yin-yang style.
He was also verbally abused and beaten by countless people.
Finally, he couldn't hold on any longer and fell to the ground, vomiting blood.
He will never forget the scene of his grandmother vomiting blood and falling to the ground.
In his dreams at midnight, he hated his own weakness and incompetence.
If he were a little older, would he be able to break free from the adults' restraints and rush forward to protect Grandma Shi like she used to protect him?
At least it can protect grandma's last bit of dignity.
Shi Yan, who was crying at the top of his lungs beside me, must have had the same idea as me, right?
But they were useless, and Grandma Shi passed away in the end.
But I didn't even manage to see my grandma off for the last time.
How could he face Grandma Shi, Shi’s family, and Shi Yan!
Later, Grandpa Shi went overseas and Uncle Shi also had an accident.
Shi Yan and his mother were the only ones left in Jing City, relying on each other for survival.
And just when they needed help the most, the Sang family left.
Although he was forced to be demoted and could not even protect himself, the fact is that he abandoned Shi Yan when he was most sad and helpless.
He didn't even dare to imagine how Shi Yan spent those years in Beijing.
Especially when he was forced by all the children in Zhushui Brigade to ride like a horse and bark like a dog, he couldn't help but worry whether Shi Yan would be bullied like this in Jing City?
After all, the situation on Shi Yan's side was much more serious than that of the Sang family at that time.
Until later, Shi Yan suddenly appeared in the Nagisa Brigade.
God knows how excited he was when he saw Shi Yan standing in front of him unharmed.
I wanted to rush up and hug him immediately.
Thank him for being well.
The guilt that had been suppressed in his heart for many years finally eased a little.
But he didn't dare, because he didn't know how to face Shi Yan.
On the other hand, he was worried that his current situation would bring trouble to Shi Yan.
Shi Yan finally managed to get rid of his identity as the descendant of a big capitalist and live a normal life.
Since I can't help him, the only thing I can do is stay away from him.
Although the issue of his background has been over for many years, this barrier in his heart still exists, making it impossible for him to get along normally with Shi Yan.
Even if Shi Yan asked him now, he would not be able to answer.
Because he knew that the incident would leave a permanent scar between him and Shi Yan.
As long as it is mentioned, the scar will be torn open, with flesh and blood, and it will be painful.
So in the end he chose to remain silent.
But he didn't know that the tears flashing in his eyes and the sadness lingering around him were seen by Shi Yan opposite him.
Shi Yan seemed to suddenly understand Sang Ning's unusual attitude towards him.
He was deliberately avoiding it.
As for what he was avoiding, Shi Yan naturally knew.
That was also the scene he least wanted to recall in his life.
But he always thought that Sang Ning was only a few years old at that time and couldn't remember anything, so he had forgotten it long ago.
But now it seems that not only has he not forgotten it, but on the contrary he has been deeply trapped in it and has not been able to get out of it until now.
At that moment, Shi Yan couldn't help but sigh, reached out and patted Sang Ning's shoulder heavily.
"Xiao Ning, everything is over, we should all look forward.
I believe my grandmother in heaven would be pleased to see us now."
When mentioning his grandmother, Shi Yan's voice was a little choked.
Sang Ning, whose eyes were filled with tears just now, now had completely red eyes.
He opened his eyes wide to prevent the tears from falling.
But he couldn't help it, so he turned around and waved hello.
"Boss, bring me a bottle of white wine!"
With this action, he wiped away his tears.
Song Yao wanted to persuade him not to drink at this moment, after all, he had important things to do tomorrow, but seeing him like this, she couldn't bear to say anything.
In the end, Shi Yan had no choice but to drink with Sang Ning.
However, Shi Yan only drank one glass of the bottle of white wine, and the rest was drunk by Sang Ning.
On the way back, Sang Ning kept hugging Shi Yan, crying and making a fuss.
"I'm sorry to Grandma Shi, and I'm sorry to Brother Yan!
I am too embarrassed to see you!
Ahhhh…
It's all my fault! I'm useless!
I have nightmares every night, and in my dreams my grandma dies with her eyes open.
I hate it!
How dare those people!
How dare they do this to Grandma Shi!
I'm going to kill them!
Ahhhh!
Kill them!"
Hearing these words, Shi Yan's eyes also turned red.
It was not until Sang Ning said he was tired and finally rested that he spoke:
"Don't worry, I've avenged grandma."
I hope Sang Ning’s knot in his heart can be untied.
I think if my grandma knew about this, she wouldn’t want to see them living in pain forever.
But at this time, Sang Ning was already drunk and unconscious, and it was unknown whether he heard what Shi Yan said.
Song Yao, who had originally helped support Sang Ning, still felt a little resentful.
He is obviously her husband, but she just wants to hug her elder brother.
How could she not feel resentful?
But when she heard what Sang Ning shouted, she realized the real reason why Sang Ning always woke up from nightmares in the middle of the night.
And her older brother.
It turns out they have been carrying so much over the years.
But as their relative, I know nothing.
At that moment, I couldn't help but call out distressedly:
"Brother, you must have had a hard time during those years, right?"
And Sonning.
Shi Yan was about to comfort Song Yao when he was suddenly awakened by Sang Ning who was standing between the two of them.
He hugged Shi Yan and started crying again:
"Brother Yan, did those people bully you after I left?
Did they force you to kowtow? Or bark like a dog?
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