Chapter 39 Sorry, Mom
Looking into the child's black and white eyes filled with worry, Liang Jinyu's heart tightened slightly.
She realized that something was wrong with her.
Her breathing slowed down, but her heartbeat became faster and faster. She held the sweet candy that kept melting in her mouth and reached out to hug Xingxing tightly again.
He buried his head and held his breath in the child's shoulder.
After a long time, so long that her disordered heartbeat gradually returned to normal, she took a deep breath and slowly let go of Xingxing.
She smiled, but there was no smile in her eyes. She just looked at the stars and asked him softly, "Baby, mommy will take you to the aquarium to see the little fish, okay?"
There was no light in her eyes.
Even the reflected stars are dim.
Xingxing didn't even hear any words from her mother's heart at this moment.
The human mother in front of him was like an empty shell that could only speak woodenly according to a program.
Even though she had come back to her senses, even though she was calm and sober, her soul seemed to have lost its color and her world seemed to have lost its sound.
Quiet, empty, and dark.
The stars are among them. When you look up, you can't see the dense stars, and when you look down, you can't see the green flowers and grass. You can only hear the hollow sound of the wind blowing past.
Xingxing tilted her head and nodded gently under her mother's empty gaze.
"Okay~"
He raised his little hand to wipe away the tears that had covered his mother's face. He kissed her wet and gray eyes and whispered in her ear, "Mom, let's go see the little fish~"
Liang Jinyu subconsciously hugged him tightly.
The real hug and warmth slowly revived her aching heart. She wiped away her tears and walked towards the bedroom holding Xingxing.
She placed the family ticket to Polar Ocean World on the coffee table, pressing it with the remote control so that anyone passing by could see it.
The lights in the living room are turned off and the lights in the bedroom are turned on.
But the camera shots in the bedroom have been completely blocked, and the audience can only hear the occasional whispered conversation between the mother and son in the live broadcast room.
[…I feel like Liang Jinyu’s mental state seems a little off?]
[She just started crying. It's so weird. Is she really okay?]
[Why does it feel like the person who is really sick in this little family is not Xingxing, but Liang Jinyu? Could it be that the pressure is too great?]
[If I were her, I would have collapsed long ago. The internet is full of haters cursing and insulting me, I have lost all my jobs, my child is sick, and my ex-husband is publicly slandering me online... She can still laugh, and I wonder if her laughter is real.]
[It is terrifying to think about it. Everyone is criticizing Xiao Yongyan for domestic violence based on her one-sided statement, but those who condemn and curse her online are also committing cyber violence against her? Who is more noble than the other? Moreover, it is only Xiao Yongyan who is talking. Has he produced any solid evidence?]
[It’s so funny. She just shed two tears, and someone couldn’t wait to feel sorry for her and clear her name? Flies don’t bite seamless eggs. If she really didn’t commit domestic violence, then why would Xiao Yongyan say those things?]
[As you said before, only flies bite eggs. It sounds like Xiao Yongyan is not a good person, right?]
[No matter what you say, I think that someone who can patiently raise an autistic child and make the child's condition better should not be a domestic violence person.]
[+1, although everyone says this is just acting in front of the camera, after watching the live broadcast all day today, I can see that the relationship between mother and son is really good, and Xingxing was brought up very well. I don’t believe that she would abuse Xiao Yongyan.]
[Speaking of which, will Liang Jinyu really have mental problems due to online violence? If so, then I can only say that when there is an avalanche, no snowflake is innocent. If Liang Jinyu really has a problem, those haters who curse her to death, have they ever thought about what will happen to Xingxing, an autistic child, in the future?]
[They can curse others and their entire families to death. Will their conscience still consider the life and death of a child?]
[No matter who is right or wrong, the haters who claim to be righteous but actually carry out cyber violence are the most disgusting! ! ]
[……]
In the bedroom.
Xingxing curled up in her mother's warm embrace, feeling her mother's gentle and steady breathing, and slowly closed her eyes.
After he fell asleep, Qiuqiu scanned the physical data of Xingxing and Liang Jinyu.
The final conclusion was that Liang Jinyu's mental illness was indeed much more serious.
Compared to her, Xingxing is gradually getting better because her soul has been replaced.
Liang Jinyu's condition is like a winding and undulating curve, sometimes good and sometimes bad. If you are not careful, you may fall completely into the abyss.
Qiuqiu is a little worried.
Because Liang Jinyu's situation was really a bit tricky, she behaved like a normal person for at least 20 hours out of 24 hours.
But in the rest of the time, those fermenting emotions and divergent thoughts would drag her spirit and body into a worse state.
She already has quite obvious somatic symptoms.
There will be arrhythmia, heart pain, hand tremors and unstable breathing...
The most serious thing is that she began to have attacks regardless of the situation, and she could no longer control her emotional changes.
To change this situation, besides seeing a professional doctor, you have to try to keep her emotions stable.
That’s right, it means keeping your emotions stable and not letting them fluctuate. Don’t be too sad, nor too happy.
Any emotional ups and downs could make her illness worse.
Thinking of this, Qiuqiu looked at Liang Jinyu, who was pretending to be asleep and then opened her eyes to stare at the stars in a daze, and sighed helplessly.
It's too tricky. It's really troublesome for humans to get this disease. What can I do to make her get better?
In the end, the answer lies in the stars.
Xingxing is Liang Jinyu's only relative and also Liang Jinyu's only "wealth".
But if it all depends on Xingxing, Qiuqiu will not be willing to do it.
It is true that Xingxing replaced Liang Nanxing, but this was a transaction. In the transaction, Xingxing accumulated more love for Liang Nanxing to fill his empty soul. If she had to keep pulling the rope that held Liang Jinyu, it would be very tiring.
Qiuqiu hopes that Xingxing can be happy, free and relaxed, instead of being bound by tasks and family ties. Qiuqiu doesn't want Xingxing to bear the burden of two heavy souls.
But Qiuqiu can't decide all this.
Not even the stars.
So when Xingxing woke up the next day, Qiuqiu said to Xingxing, "Baby, your mother's illness needs to be controlled by medication. If there is a chance, let's coax her to go to the hospital to see a doctor, right?"
Before making this suggestion, Qiuqiu carefully told Xingxing about Liang Jinyu's current condition.
At that time, Xingxing was sitting at the dining table, eating the fried eggs fed by her mother.
Xingxing had a small bib on her chest. She ate while listening to Qiuqiu's words. Finally, she wiped her mouth and reached out her hand, and her mother gently took her out and put her on the ground.
"Baby, she looks normal now, but her heart has started to get sick." Qiuqiu couldn't help but worry.
If Liang Jinyu's psychological and mental illness is not resolved, even if Xingxing will not be hurt again, Liang Jinyu's life will not go far.
Yesterday and in the past few days, Qiuqiu watched Xingxing pull Liang Jinyu back from the edge of the cliff every time. Every time, he thought she would be better, but the next time she would unknowingly return to the edge of the cliff.
Qiuqiu is not afraid of mission failure, but he does not want to make Xingxing sad, because Liang Jinyu is the only human being that Xingxing depends on and trusts in this strange world.
If Liang Jinyu died... Qiuqiu couldn't imagine Xingxing's life after being sent to an orphanage, and couldn't accept that Xingxing had lived quietly and alone in this world for decades.
"Don't be afraid."
A pair of small hands gently held it, and the familiar warm darkness enveloped it again.
Qiuqiu was stunned for a moment, then subconsciously relaxed and calmed down.
"I'm not scared..." Qiuqiu muttered to defend himself, but he didn't quite believe what he said.
The stars won’t believe it even more.
Xingxing held it in her hands, rocked it gently like coaxing a baby, and said softly, "Qiuqiu, mommy is just sick, she will be fine, don't be afraid, Xingxing is with mommy and Qiuqiu too."
Whether you are sick or scared, the stars will be with you.
The stars are not sick, and the stars are not afraid.
The stars will help you get better.
Qiuqiu: "...I'm sorry, I was too anxious."
Qiuqiu apologized sullenly. He knew that he was too impatient and was frightened by Liang Jinyu's situation and lost his composure.
It almost affected the stars.
The ball of light squatted in the palm of the star with self-blame, like a child who had made a mistake.
Xingxing put it back on top of her head, then moved her small stool and sat at the kitchen door, watching her mother who was washing dishes inside.
Xingxing can’t say many words to make his mother and Qiuqiu happy. He is better at observation and companionship.
The quiet child held his soft cheeks with his little hands, and looked at his mother quietly with his curved eyes, and seemed to be looking at every participant in his life.
After breakfast, Xingxing picked up the paintbrush and drawing paper again. This time, she did not lie on the ground, but sat at the small desk with her mother.
"Mom, it's the second day of growing mushrooms."
As Xingxing spoke, he placed the painting that he had torn off yesterday in front of his mother.
Then, he asked Liang Jinyu, who was waiting for the opportunity: "Mom, did you cry last night?"
Liang Jinyu was stunned.
The audience who were looking forward to this mini-game in front of the screen were also stunned.
Raising small mushrooms...is there such a process?
Being stared at by Xingxing's clear eyes, Liang Jinyu swallowed back the doubts that she was about to ask.
She nodded honestly.
But Xingxing gave her a smile, then lowered her head and started drawing seriously on the drawing paper.
Soon, a crying little girl appeared on the paper.
In front of the little girl, Xingxing drew the familiar little flower pot again.
After finishing the painting, he looked up and explained seriously: "Mom, Little Mushroom heard your crying last night and tasted your bitter tears, so I'm sorry..."
Liang Jinyu's heart tightened, and she subconsciously asked, "What are you sorry for? Did my tears hurt it?!"
Xingxing shook her head, but still kept her original speaking speed, trying to pronounce the words as clearly as possible, and said slowly: "I'm sorry, Mom, the little mushroom you raised has lost the chance to become a delicious little mushroom."
Liang Jinyu stared blankly at the small flower pot on the drawing paper and asked softly, "Baby, can it... still grow into a healthy little mushroom?"
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