Chapter 61 Mom, It’s Okay to Be Afraid
When the host of the live broadcast of the Spring Festival Gala was counting down the last few seconds and loudly announcing the arrival of the New Year, Xingxing was standing in front of the window hugged by her mother.
As the New Year's bell rang, the mother and son both raised their cat faces, which were stained with flour, and watched the brilliant fireworks that suddenly rose up like shooting stars in the night sky of the city and bloomed in an instant.
Under the exploding fireworks in the sky and in the cold snowy winter, Liang Jinyu lowered her head and gently pressed her forehead against Xingxing's.
"Happy New Year, baby, may you be safe and sound every year."
Every year from now on, there will be a star that will accompany my mother to count down and watch the fireworks.
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After the New Year holiday, life gradually returned to normal.
Xingxing was admitted to the kindergarten's small class and successfully became the favorite of all teachers with her cute appearance and well-behaved and quiet personality.
The edited variety show was aired as scheduled, and netizens became more and more addicted to it. After only the third episode, they had already left votes on the official blog, urging the original crew to continue filming the second season. The audience even generously stated that they didn't mind the show following the families until the kids grew up.
The mushroom-raising game was also successfully launched. After advertising and promotion, this seemingly ordinary game also experienced its own traffic peak when variety shows were being broadcast in full swing.
But apart from making Xingxing get more hugs and hugs at school, these will not have any other impact on his life.
Because Liang Jinyu was there to block all the positive or negative influences for him.
When Xingxing was in kindergarten, Liang Jinyu also began to study and train intensively. She was not the heroine of the drama, and she did not have such a big status at the time, but Liang Jinyu focused on studying the role and strived for perfection. Even in her daily life, she was often immersed in the drama and found it difficult to get out of it.
She has never stopped taking acting classes or exercising, and the focus of her life has completely shifted from being a star to studying and filming.
Occasional Reuters, announcements that are of great interest, and more and more connections...
She and Chen Lin supported each other and walked steadily further and further on that star-studded road.
But no one has ever doubted whether she has completely abandoned Xingxing from work and left her as a left-behind child.
Fish fans are the most aware of this.
Because in the fan groups, in super chats, and on various social platforms, they can always learn about the latest daily life of the stars from Liang Jinyu.
The painting of Xingxing being praised by the teacher on the wall, the little red flower stamp on the back of Xingxing's hand by the teacher, the photo of Xingxing sleeping in the arms of the Hug Bear, the short video of Xingxing sulking with a sulky face because of waking up in a bad mood, and many more...
In addition, fans also studied Liang Jinyu's schedule.
Finally, we came to the conclusion: apart from her public schedule, she either goes home to accompany her stars, or rests in the hotel and video chats with her stars. If she really has no time, she will take advantage of the time between putting on makeup to watch the surveillance cameras in the school classroom and the hall of her home!
Some people think that Liang Jinyu has a hard life. Someone once wrote an article online to evaluate her, saying that she was kidnapped by her children and family. She spent a lot of energy on work every day, and still had to use the limited time to pay attention to the stars. This was a true portrayal of a woman's life imprisoned by her children.
Many people agree with this view and sympathize with Liang Jinyu who was imprisoned by her child without knowing it.
It wasn't until a talk show that the host brought up this point and asked Liang Jinyu what she thought.
"I don't agree with that view."
Liang Jinyu refuted in a deep voice to the camera, stating her position, and then continued: "My parents died early, and I don't have any relatives to interact with. As an orphan, I have wanted a home since I was a child."
"At first, I thought family was just me and another man forming a home, and from then on I would have someone to rely on no matter how hard I tried."
"But the truth is, I was not lucky. I didn't meet a partner I could rely on. The little family I thought I had fell apart, and it almost destroyed me completely."
"And the reason why I can still sit here and accept the interview..."
Liang Jinyu paused, and the microphone could clearly hear her slightly heavy and long breathing. Then she said slowly: "The reason why you can still see me on the screen now is because of the stars."
"The star said, I am a vine that can grow into a ridge on its own without relying on a big tree. He hugs me and praises me all the time."
"He never complimented me on my beauty or my good figure. He praised me for being strong and powerful. Even my tearful eyes were pearls that would be coveted and stolen by bad people."
“I didn’t cling to men, nor did I rely on trees. I focused on myself and grew independently amid the praise of the stars. I tried hard to become better under the watchful eyes of the stars.
As a mother, I want to make all the compliments from the stars come true, and this is what keeps me motivated in life."
"As for you saying that he took up my only rest time outside of work, I want to answer: it's not that he took up my time, but I always asked him for strength and courage... Sometimes even I don't know why he, such a small person, always makes me feel at ease."
"There is also the so-called family bondage, being imprisoned by children, and being controlled by hormones..."
Liang Jinyu stared at the camera with bright eyes and said softly: "Compared to me who has work, fans, and can become more people during filming, the only thing Xingxing has in this world is his mother, and the time I can devote to him is really too little."
"Xingxing is very well behaved. On his 4th birthday, he opened the door and brought the birthday cake I ordered by himself. He lit the birthday candles by himself. As a mother, the only thing I could do was to wear a costume and a face full of unfamiliar makeup and sing a happy birthday song for him through the screen."
"That's all. Even the candles after making the wish were blown out one by one by the stars themselves."
"If this is considered being imprisoned and bound by him as a child, then most of the children in this world, including us who were not yet grown up, should have committed the same crime, right?"
Her answers were numerous and long, and seemed to be heartfelt. However, once broadcast, they were quickly edited by marketing accounts and published on major video sites and social platforms.
It also forced some fans who originally thought that Xingxing was a burden and even affected her career development to let go of certain prejudices.
Xingxing also saw this interview video.
He felt that his mother was wrong.
The mother who faces the camera confidently is no longer a mutated vine in the doomsday.
"Then what does Xingxing think her mother is now?" Liang Jinyu held Xingxing's fair and clean little face in her hands, and was particularly curious about the new self in the child's heart.
Xingxing blinked, rested her chin on her mother's slightly calloused palm, and answered honestly and earnestly: "Mom is a big tree now~"
Liang Jinyu was slightly startled, and subconsciously asked: "Why is it a big tree?"
The next second, the child whose face she was holding smiled and curved his eyes into cute crescents.
She spoke slowly and clearly, word by word, but with every pronunciation being clear and accurate: "Because mom has grown up, from a pitiful little flower, to a mutant vine, and now to a tall, strong tree."
"Mom, tall trees won't be trampled into the mud on the roadside like little flowers. Big trees with straight trunks don't have to stretch out vines and tentacles to compete for nutrients and vitality."
“As long as you plant your roots deeply and densely, even if you are cut down by bad guys, you will break out of the soil in another place.”
In the eyes of the stars, whose understanding of the world is still in its infancy, the big tree will eventually grow into a giant, a safer and more powerful existence in the forest than any predator.
And now Liang Jinyu is the big tree that is growing wildly under the sunshine and rain.
Sooner or later, this human mother who looks like a pitiful little flower in the original plot will grow into a towering tree.
Looking at the child's bright and shining eyes, Liang Jinyu felt as if she was hit on the back of the head with a club. Her brain went blank and she even had tinnitus. Otherwise, how could she not hear clearly and suddenly not understand Xingxing's childish yet firm words?
Big tree?
Giant tree?
Yourself?
Is it possible?
She suddenly felt uneasy and panicky.
Am I really a tall and independent tree? Can I really grow into the strong and lush giant tree that Xingxing said I would be?
How could he be so determined and confident?
Life is obviously a turning point at any time, and every choice will affect the outcome.
Can you guarantee that you will always be on the right path?
Can you guarantee that every choice is correct?
Shouldn't I... do this?
"Mother."
The soft and tender child's voice awakened her suddenly buzzing and confused mind.
Liang Jinyu's sight refocused, and the next second, her face was gently held by a pair of small hands.
Two pairs of similar eyes looked at each other.
Those mature eyes hide fear and confusion about the future.
The young pair of eyes were clean and clearly reflected all the emotions in the other pair of eyes, leaving them nowhere to hide.
"Mom, do you know how trees grow?"
"What?" Liang Jinyu didn't understand Xingxing's nonsensical words.
Star's eyes were curved, and she held her mother's face with her little hands, and said softly: "Before the big tree grows up, it was a small tree~"
"It is very scared of a tree as short as a star. When the wind blows, it is afraid that it will be broken by the wind. When it rains, it is afraid that it will be submerged by the rain. If a squirrel or other small animal passes by, it is afraid that it will be hit and crushed. Even if a bug or ant crawls on it, it will secretly shed tears for fear that it will be bitten and have many ugly holes."
"...What happened next?" Liang Jinyu discovered that Xingxing seemed to be imitating the bedtime story he used to tell him every night, even the tone of the pauses was very similar.
However, this story was obviously thought up by the child himself, and he spoke slowly, which made people feel weak and unable to describe the feeling.
Xingxing didn't care about the truth his mother had discovered, and continued to speak slowly at his own pace: "Later, Xiaoshu found that no matter how scared he was, there was nothing he could do."
"When it is blown by the wind, it cannot grow wings like a bird to help it fly away; when it is drenched by the rain, it cannot hide under another big tree to avoid the rain; when small animals pass by it, it cannot grow limbs to avoid them; even when it is bitten by small insects, it cannot use its claws to drive them away."
"So...what happened in the end?" Liang Jinyu asked softly.
Xingxing rubbed her mother's cheek and finally smiled at her: "In the end, the little tree grew into a big tree, and then from a big tree it became a super powerful towering tree!"
Liang Jinyu: "..."
She wanted to laugh too, but she couldn't.
How could it be that easy?
This little story is a bit too naive...
"Really?" Xingxing interrupted her thoughts, took back her hand, frowned and emphasized: "Mom, this is true, I didn't lie to you!"
The ability of the stars is to listen to the inner voice and transmit control.
In the doomsday, all living things have their own voices. When he was bored, he really heard a lot of them.
This is not a small story, but something that was secretly told to him by a super tall and super strong tree.
"Baby, mommy knows you are comforting me..." Liang Jinyu touched Xingxing's head and was about to continue saying something to cheer herself up when Xingxing suddenly covered her mouth with her hand.
"Mom, don't talk!" The child was rarely a little fierce.
Xingxing frowned, stared at her mother's stunned eyes, and said very seriously: "Mom, listen to me first!"
Then he didn't let go of my hand, but continued to tell the little story.
"Mom thinks it's very hard for the little tree to grow up. Star also thought it was hard before, but the little tree told me that it actually did nothing!"
"It didn't grow wings, it didn't grow arms or legs, and it didn't move from where it grew."
"It grew from a small tree to a big tree and from a big tree to an even bigger tree simply because it was doing what a tree is supposed to do."
"It works hard to take root, to get some sun and drink some rain water, and to use these nutrients to grow taller and bigger, and then get more nutrients."
"Mom, the little tree has really grown into a giant tree. It is a hundred meters tall. Wherever it takes root, there will be a small forest."
"Mom, just like the little tree, do what you are supposed to do. It's okay to be afraid."
Xingxing released her hand that was covering her mother's mouth, pursed her lips, and whispered to her again: "It's okay, mom. The little tree will be scared too, but the little tree will grow up, and mom and Xingxing will grow up too."
Liang Jinyu seemed to understand this long and slow story.
This doesn't seem like a storyline that Xingxing could make up.
The fog in front of her eyes dissipated and she could hear her own heartbeat.
Calm and powerful.
She may not grow into a giant tree, but at least, she has grown from a flower into a tree.
future?
Just like the tree in the story, she will do what she should do in the future.
Learn, compete, grow, accumulate, and flourish.
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