Chapter 85 I Want to Leave Here
Life on the frontier is stable.
Studying, practicing martial arts, taking medicine every day...two years passed in a flash.
Today is Xingxing’s fifth birthday.
After getting to know the Wei family, Xingxing's body finally had its own accurate birthday.
Early in the morning that day, Xiaowu followed Uncle Li out.
My younger brother’s birthday was also the day Xiaowu entered the military camp.
Xiaowu only had time to bring the longevity noodles made in the kitchen to his younger brother, then he hurried away holding the long knife.
Because the front line had been harassed by the enemy since the day before yesterday, this was a good opportunity for training. Xiaowu struggled with Uncle Li for a long time before Uncle Li agreed to let him try his hand on the battlefield.
Watching his brother leave, Xingxing's childish and peaceful facial features were surrounded by the mist of longevity noodles, making it impossible to discern his expression.
Qiuqiu squatted on the seasoning box in front of the noodle bowl, watching Xingxing not eat the noodles for a long time, and couldn't help asking: "Is Xingxing worried about his brother?"
Xingxing shook her head, as if her thoughts were interrupted, lowered her head, held the chopsticks and ate the noodles slowly.
In this world, birthdays are not something to be happy about, and there is no process of making wishes. Many poor people can only cook a bowl of greasy noodles for their children's birthdays at best. Richer families can only boil a red egg for their children, and that is considered a very significant birthday.
There were longevity noodles in front of the stars and red eggs next to them. In this remote and barren place, everyone had tried their best to give him the best they could.
Xingxing was not worried about his brother. He just realized that from that day on, his brother no longer belonged to Xingxing, but to the battlefield.
Xingxing had never seen the fighting on the battlefields of this world. He had always been well protected, but he had seen his uncle and brother Jin'an being carried back for recuperation after being injured, covered in blood and with torn wounds. He had seen many horses that died on the battlefield being transported back to Zhenyang Pass to be shared among the people. He had also seen the thick smoke of burning corpses rising from the distant battlefield.
Qiuqiu said that wars in ancient times were more brutal than the wars of Doomsday, because in the era of cold weapons, there were too many fatal factors of uncertainty.
The soldiers would rather die on the battlefield than live with injuries.
Because medical care is not up to par, wounds can get infected, fester, and cause tetanus, etc.
The best case scenario is to be like Uncle Li, who can survive even with a broken arm.
But in most cases, the injured soldiers could only lie in the wounded barracks and wait to die.
Xingxing has a good imagination, so she can easily substitute the appearance of those wounded soldiers into her brother's facial features and body.
He lowered his head and ate the not-so-delicious longevity noodles. His brother repeatedly warned him not to bite it in pieces but to eat the whole thing.
But after he left, the child at home, out of sight, lowered his eyes and bit the noodles without any obedience.
Qiuqiu didn't dare to say anything for some reason.
I just squatted there, watching Xingxing bite off the noodles in small bites, chewing and swallowing them.
He bit off a long piece of noodles again and again...
"I want to leave here." Xingxing suddenly said.
"Ah?" Qiuqiu was stunned.
Xingxing put down his chopsticks. There was still a lot of noodles left in the bowl. He looked at Qiuqiu and said seriously, "I want to leave here and see this country."
Qiuqiu hesitated to consider Xingxing's thoughts and asked tentatively: "Xingxing, do you want to go out for a walk? There is no fast transportation here. If Xingxing wants to travel around this world, it will take a very long time."
"Besides, if you do this, you will have to leave Xiaowu..."
Xingxing remained quiet and determined, and nodded gently, "My brother is in the military camp, I don't want to stay here."
Xingxing understood the meaning of separation when he was very young. It was not that he suddenly decided to leave, but he thought about it for a long time before saying it out loud.
This is a special time and space, with an emperor's court that Xingxing has never heard of, and suffering as desolate as the end of the world. He is actually very curious about the humans in this world. They have no superpowers, no weapons, and are suppressed by imperial power and natural and man-made disasters. How can they survive?
Although the sufferings faced by humans in the doomsday are two completely different kinds, the stars seem to have not found their correct position in either world.
In the doomsday, as the zombie king, Xingxing has never eaten anyone, nor has he led the zombies to attack humans. Instead, he has mixed in with humans and had to do things according to the tasks of the savior system.
In this world, Xingxing is neither a real beggar or commoner, nor a high-ranking official with wealth and power. He floats in between the two, not worrying about survival, but also without any visible future.
Xingxing felt as if she had always been in a gray area, both worlds were like this.
Desolation and suffering have nothing to do with him, and natural disasters and man-made disasters have nothing to do with him.
With or without him, the world will continue to function the same way, and these people will continue to live the same way, without causing any trouble or impact.
Xingxing found herself a bit like the soap bubbles her uncle once made for her.
Floating in the air, it breaks naturally without leaving even a trace.
Like the background in a cartoon, a blade of grass, a small stone, a small fish...
The stars cannot find themselves in either world.
Now, he suddenly wanted to find himself.
Find that blade of grass, pick up that little stone, and catch that little fish.
The child held the round ball of light in his hands, whispering the chaotic and vague thoughts that he had been hiding in his heart, with a little confusion in his eyes. Finally, he asked in a low voice: "Do you know where I should look for it?"
Qiuqiu was completely dumbfounded.
It listened in astonishment to the stars softly analyzing the long-standing confusion in its heart, and listened to the children saying that they couldn't find where they were. The whole ball didn't know how to react.
It couldn't help but reflect, how long had the stars been confused like this?
Has it existed since the apocalypse, or is it unique to this world?
In the past, the stars were still very small, so they could not be expressed. Now that they have reached this special era, growing up safely in troubled times, can they be expressed clearly little by little?
It didn't know how to answer the stars' confusion.
But when it looked at the child in front of it who had just turned 5 and still had a childish face, it suddenly felt the growth of the star.
The stars seem to be growing up seriously. In places where we can see and in places where we cannot see, the stars' appearance and heart are growing synchronously.
He did not stagnate, nor did he indulge and lose himself in a stable life and repeated rebirths.
Instead, while observing the world, we are also observing ourselves in different worlds.
"Then let's go out and take a look." Qiuqiu heard his own answer.
Go out and take a look.
Look at different worlds, look at different people, and also look at the stars living in this world to see which path they want to take.
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"I'll accompany you." Wei Jinan suppressed the obstruction of his father and Xiaowu, rubbed the top of the child's head, and said with a smile: "In the first few years, Xiaowu, your elder brother, will accompany you, and in the next few years, I, your elder brother, will protect you. How about it? Don't you feel super safe?"
With one hand, he lifted the five-year-old into his arms and held him firmly.
Star:"……"
She naturally lay down in her brother's arms, then tilted her head to look at the two people who looked unhappy.
Wei Fengyan, Xiaowu: ...
It's a bit unbearable.
Their principles never seem to work with the stars.
So even such a big thing could only fail in the soft eyes of the children.
After agreeing, he turned around and grabbed the companion Wei Jinan and kept giving instructions and even threatening him.
If a star loses a hair...
Well, it’s not that threatening, although the severity is about the same.
After Wei Jinan's ears were callused from being nagged by others, Xingxing also left Zhenyang Pass where he had lived for two years.
Before leaving, Xingxing hid a lot of spiritual spring water in the house for her brother, so that he could survive as long as he was not fatally hit on the battlefield.
On the day I left Zhenyang Pass, no one saw me off.
Xingxing carried a small bag and sat on her brother's horse. The two of them left the border without looking back in the midst of sandstorms and the faint smell of blood.
I walked the same road I had just walked two years ago, and I walked it again two years later.
But this time I walked very slowly.
I didn't even ride a horse much.
Because the day after Xingxing set out, he found a lot of Chinese medicine knowledge from Qiuqiu's database.
He began to learn about herbs from the light screen data.
In response to her brother and Qiuqiu's questions, Xingxing shook her head, holding a freshly dug plantain, and answered softly: "I don't know what I want to do, so I try everything."
The stars don’t know how to integrate into this world, so the children can only rely on their instincts and intuition to do what they want to do at the moment.
My brother is on the battlefield, and what is most needed on the battlefield is doctors.
Then Xingxing will work hard to be a good doctor.
"Xingxing, have you ever heard this saying?" Qiuqiu whispered to Xingxing before he went to bed at night: "Studying medicine can't save the world."
Xingxing yawned, leaned into her brother's arms, and asked slowly, "Why do you want to save the world?"
Didn’t you agree not to be a savior?
Qiuqiu choked, as if he had suddenly realized something: Yes, I don’t have to be a savior. Let the stars do whatever they want. Fate is unpredictable, so just follow your heart.
"But..." Qiuqiu still tried to struggle, "Baby, your brother won't stay on the battlefield forever."
"Xingxing, you know what your brother wants to do."
Two years ago, Xingxing could easily see through her two brothers’ rebellious intentions.
Two years later, Qiuqiu didn't believe that Xingxing didn't know that his two brothers were coveting the superior position.
Qiuqiu even had reason to suspect that Wei Jinan's initiative to leave the battlefield and offer to accompany Xingxing on the journey actually had some sort of conspiracy behind it.
Xingxing blinked and nodded obediently: "I know~"
Qiuqiu stood up again: "So, studying medicine can't help your brother conquer the world."
"Then what can it be?" Xingxing was a little curious.
"Be a military advisor, be a counselor!" Qiuqiu was already excited.
Xingxing was stunned for a moment, as if using the CPU to slowly process the meaning of the two words. Then, under the excited and expectant gaze of Qiuqiu, he frowned and shook his head seriously.
"No." Xingxing refused without hesitation.
"Why?" The ball suddenly deflated like a balloon that was suddenly deflated.
Xingxing buried her head in her brother's arms, listening to the crackling sound of the bonfire, and said sullenly: "Because Xingxing is my own star, not my brother's star~"
The stars just want to do what they want to do.
Brother is just an introduction, not an indicator that will run through Xingxing’s entire life.
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