Chapter 122: Never Being a Good Child
"Brother, why are your eyes so dark?" Little Moon came closer curiously, and her soft fingers gently touched Xingxing's slightly dark lower eyelid.
Xingxing couldn't help feeling sleepy, and yawned slowly. She rubbed the tears in her eyes, shook her head, and said to her sister, "If you don't sleep at night, you will become like this."
Little Moon was thoughtful.
After the person washing his face in the kitchen left, she leaned close to her brother's ear mysteriously and whispered, "Brother, my third sister and my eldest father and mother must not have slept last night either."
She had just secretly observed them one by one, and the dark circles under their eyes were much darker than her brother's!
It's obvious that he didn't sleep well.
Xingxing looked at her sister's sparkling eyes filled with cunning, and nodded with a smile, "Well, they were whispering at night and forgot to sleep."
He listened all night long, and heard not only the protagonist's inner voice, but also the whispered conversations between his grandparents.
The reason was that when my eldest dad went to the town yesterday to sell ginseng, he met my dad in the pharmacy.
Even Xingxing was a little surprised at the unlucky index of the protagonist and his family.
Why is it that no matter what they do secretly, they always get caught by the people who are least supposed to find out?
So last night, my parents discussed it all night and finally decided to pretend that they didn't know anything. As long as my dad didn't say anything, they wouldn't mention it at home.
After all, it’s several hundred dollars.
In this age when one or two dollars are extremely valuable, this money is their life, even if they are brothers born from the same mother. After struggling, Zhao Guodong decided to find an excuse.
Regardless of whether his youngest brother knew that it was an excuse or not, Zhao Guodong just gritted his teeth and brushed it off, just to hint to his youngest brother not to say anything nonsense when he went out.
Of course, the most important thing is not to tell your family.
They didn't feel it when they were poor before, but now that they have suddenly got an unexpected fortune, Zhao Guodong and his wife suddenly have various plans for how to use the money.
The children's education, the family's living expenses, the children's pocket money, the coffin fund for both of us, and we need to build a small kitchen and a toilet as soon as possible, etc...
With this calculation, even my original plan of secretly giving some money to my mom when I had money has become tight.
So after the embarrassment, in the morning when the two families were in the kitchen boiling water for washing their faces and cooking, Zhao Guodong pulled his youngest brother out, and in a secluded place not only told him the excuse that he and his wife had racked their brains for the whole night, but also gritted his teeth and whispered something about his youngest brother's contact with the doctor in the cowshed.
Zhao Guozhi listened to the particularly obvious meaning in his eldest brother's words, looked at the pair of familiar yet somewhat unfamiliar eyes, and was stunned for two seconds.
"Brother, what do you mean?" He suppressed the emotions surging in his heart, and under his brother's strange expression of evasion and forcing himself, he suddenly sneered: "Forget it, I understand, you and sister-in-law don't have to worry about me not being able to control my mouth. No matter what you did yesterday, it has nothing to do with me. I didn't see it and I won't tell everyone. I'm not that kind of mean person, and I won't be jealous of others' good life."
He had a smooth personality and could strike a witty tone with anyone. But now, facing his own elder brother, listening to his clumsy and unfamiliar lies and threats with poor excuses, Zhao Guozhi felt as if someone had poured a bucket of cold water on his head early in the morning, and his heart became completely silent.
There are always people in this world who can share hardships and sufferings with you, and my eldest brother is one of them.
As the eldest brother in the family, he shouldered a lot of responsibilities for his younger siblings. He and the second sister saw it and kept it in mind, otherwise they would not have made those foolish decisions regarding the eldest brother's marriage.
It turns out that even though they have been brothers for decades, the eldest brother can only share the difficulties with him, but has never thought about sharing the happiness with him.
When Zhao Guozhi found out yesterday, he didn't think of telling anyone. He just wanted to keep it to himself. He was also happy for his eldest brother's family from the bottom of his heart. He felt that it was a rare opportunity for them to have such an experience. In the future, Xiaoyang and Yuanyuan should be able to study hard and grow up without having to follow the same path as himself and his second sister, who had to drop out of school and get married in a hurry for a little money.
He never thought of using this opportunity to curry favor with the eldest brother's family, let alone trying to get close to them and borrow money.
But the eldest brother seemed to have not slept the whole night, because he was afraid that he would reveal the fact that he was rich. His words of pity for his poverty were obvious, and it was obvious that he wanted to cut off the idea of borrowing money from him.
For a moment, Zhao Guozhi felt as if he didn't recognize the person in front of him.
My mother gave birth to three of them. People always say that brothers and sisters are blood relatives who are connected by blood even if their bones are broken. The second sister is a girl, and he and the eldest brother can be said to have grown up wearing the same pants. But even such brothers, brothers who have the same blood of their parents in their bodies... now they are wary of him as if he were a thief.
Seeing his elder brother's expression suddenly change after hearing what he said, Zhao Guozhi pulled the corner of his lips and said calmly: "Brother, now I understand how wise and decisive Mom's decision to agree to the division of the family was."
If there had been no division of the family, my eldest brother would not only call me out and find excuses to threaten me, but would have directly stuffed money into my pocket to shut me up, right?
Zhao Guozhi sneered and no longer had the patience to say anything more to his elder brother. He ignored the conflicted and painful look on his face and turned away.
Zhao Guodong stood there in a daze for a long time, his expression dazed and even revealing a bit of misery and self-blame.
But he didn't say a word to keep her or explain.
Behind the wall, four children hid there and eavesdropped.
Some people didn't understand at all, some were completely confused, and some had an idea as soon as their eyes rolled.
"Xingxing, do you understand?" Zhao Yuanyuan suddenly asked the child who was watching with his eyes downcast holding his sister's hand and remained quiet.
When she called her name, Xingxing looked up at her.
Zhao Yuanyuan was stunned.
Facing the child's clear black and white eyes, she suddenly looked away guiltily, feeling a little uncomfortable.
She didn't know why, but even though she hadn't said anything, this child seemed to be able to see right through her innermost thoughts with those eyes. It made her feel uneasy, as if she couldn't hide anything she was thinking from those eyes.
Just as she took a deep breath and was about to think of another solution, she suddenly heard a soft and tender response.
"I don't understand~"
Xingxing tilted her head slightly, her clean and pure eyes reflecting Zhao Yuanyuan's current appearance. She asked softly, "Third sister, do you understand?"
Zhao Yuanyuan quickly adjusted her mood, smiled, and said mysteriously: "Of course I understood. Do you want to know what they were talking about just now? I can tell you, but I can only tell you~"
Next to Xingxing, Little Moon's expression changed from curiosity to anger.
Behind Zhao Yuanyuan, Zhao Huayang looked at his sister with her back to him, lowered his eyes a little disappointed, then pouted his lips. He stopped eavesdropping and imitated his father's behavior just now. He sneered softly, turned around and strode away.
What secrets can't I tell him?
He doesn't want it!!
But when she walked inside, she couldn't help but look back. She glanced at her two younger brothers and sisters who were holding her hands all the time, and then looked at her own sister. She couldn't help but secretly reddened her eyes, and hurriedly raised her hands to wipe away the tears.
It doesn’t matter, Xiaoyueliang and Xingxing are also his brothers and sisters. Even if Zhao Yuanyuan doesn’t recognize him as his brother, he still has brothers and sisters!!!
Zhao Huayang clenched his fists in anger, holding back his anger, but still moved a small table and a small stool and sat under the eaves to study hard.
He has suffered and seen too many things recently due to lack of education, and he has decided to study hard. He doesn't want to become a cultured person like his father, but at least he wants to learn to be a decent person, to bring honor to his parents and make them happier.
Outside, Zhao Yuanyuan took Xingxing to a more secluded corner. After confirming that no one was eavesdropping nearby, she whispered to Xingxing, "My dad sold a ginseng plant yesterday and made a lot of money. Yaoba must have wanted to borrow money from my dad, so he talked to him for so long."
Qiuqiu was so angry listening to this that he almost died.
This protagonist is totally bullying the kid because he can't understand too many words, so he deliberately distorts the facts!!
Did she really think that all children were fools?! That would really disappoint her. The stars were not fools, and they would not be easily deceived by humans' clumsy lies! !
Qiuqiu was so angry that he was about to explode.
However, the stars are following the script preset in the protagonist's mind.
"What is ginseng? Why does Daddy want to borrow money from Grandpa?" The child raised his fair little face and told Zhao Yuanyuan word by word the conversation he had preset in his mind.
A gleam of surprise flashed in Zhao Yuanyuan's eyes.
She didn't expect it to be so smooth! He was just a child with simple thinking, and he took the bait after being guided casually.
She took a deep breath, and then said with a hint of disdain, "After the separation, your father has no job, and your mother is in poor health and can't earn work points. They also have to support a family of four, so of course they have to borrow money from my parents. But unfortunately, Daddy didn't get the money, and maybe you and your sister won't even be able to afford food in the future, and you'll be hungry every day."
After she finished speaking, she thought she would see Xingxing's panic-stricken expression, but the child in front of her just looked at her with a silent and quiet gaze.
here we go again.
That look again!
Zhao Yuanyuan felt irritated and uneasy. She clenched her fingers tightly, forced herself to calm down, and forced a smile on her lips. "I saw some ginseng in the mountains yesterday. Do you want it? If you do, I can take you to dig it."
After a conversation lasting less than a minute, Zhao Yuanyuan had completely made up her mind.
She wouldn't let the human traffickers take away Xingxing.
She wanted to leave Xingxing behind, let him watch his once happy and warm home fall apart, let him go into the mountains and encounter danger, let him lose his sister and regret it for the rest of his life, let him gradually realize that his existence was a huge burden to his family, and make him an unlucky jinx that everyone feared, hated and didn't want to approach.
It forms a sharp contrast with myself holding the Fuwa Koi character.
In this way, the better my life is in the future, the more my father's family will be shrouded in dark clouds and shadows, and they will never be able to see a glimmer of hope in their entire lives.
She knew that what she did was wrong, but didn't she use this method to save Xingxing, preventing him from being abducted by human traffickers and allowing his parents to keep a child? If she hadn't intervened, both children would have been lost. Saving people was just a small revenge.
"Okay, I'll go dig ginseng with my third sister."
Xingxing nodded slightly in response.
At the same time, he withdrew his gaze and no longer looked at the increasingly twisted and deformed adult soul hidden in this body.
She was crying and laughing at the same time, crying with sadness and grievance, and laughing with pride and ferocity.
Out of the corner of her eye she noticed the ball that was about to explode with anger. Xingxing watched her third sister leave contentedly, then reached out and gently held the inflated ball in her palm.
"Baby, I hate her!" Qiuqiu hated the other party's endless malice towards Xingxing.
He even wanted to violate the rules and instigate Xingxing to kill her!
But after he finished speaking, Qiuqiu found that Xingxing didn't seem angry.
Not only was he not angry, but there was something in his eyes that Qiuqiu could not understand as he quietly gazed at the protagonist's figure.
Qiuqiu: “?”
I've watched my kid grow up so many times, but he still has emotions that I can't understand?!
Qiuqiu was shocked and asked: "Baby, she is so mean, aren't you angry?"
The stars also seemed a little confused.
He shook his head, his face wrinkled, and said softly, with a little confusion: "I don't know, but...she must have never been a good child before, right?"
I have never been a star before.
But Xingxing continued to be a child afterwards.
Being loved and cared for by humans, having friends of the same species and small pets, and now having a father, a mother, and a sister.
Children don't suddenly become bad adults, they just become bad children.
But the protagonist is clearly using a child's body, but he still turned into a bad adult.
Xingxing guessed that the reason why she didn't become a bad child was probably because she had never been a good child?
"..." Qiuqiu flipped through the original novel, reading the occasional revelations about the protagonist's past and present lives. She understood what Xingxing said, and suddenly she couldn't get angry anymore. She could only mutter sullenly, "There's nothing we can do. There are too many children who have been hurt by their original families like her. Children are always helpless. They can't choose their own family and life."
So before they had the chance to be good children, they were forced by their families to become bad adults.
Xingxing pinched it, her beautiful and clear eyes slightly curved, and she said softly: "Don't be angry, nor sad. She is luckier than this star. She has a chance to start over, and this time she made her own choice."
Not a very good choice.
Xingxing wasn't angry, but she didn't feel sorry for her either.
Xingxing just felt that... she seemed to have never been the protagonist, even with the golden finger, she was not the real protagonist.
Xingxing didn’t know what the protagonist should be like, but the kind, strong, tough and brave protagonist in the plot was not the Zhao Yuanyuan that Xingxing saw.
Because Zhao Yuanyuan was gray and dirty, she hid inside other children's bodies and tried hard to steal other children's things. If she couldn't get them, she would destroy them, and if she couldn't get them, she would cry and curse.
She didn't get anything and lost her own things, so she became tattered and empty.
The protagonist has lost his kindness and strength, as well as his tenacity and courage.
There were more broken parts of her.
But she is not Xingxing's sister, so Xingxing doesn't need to fix her broken body.
Zhao Yuanyuan traveled through time with the golden finger of the spiritual plant space and all the memories of her life in peacetime.
Xingxing also came to this world with balls and his own memories.
He changed from a zombie cub to a human cub, and Zhao Yuanyuan also changed from an adult human to a human cub.
But the star had not yet become broken, but Zhao Yuanyuan could no longer repair it.
Why is this?
Xingxing thought about Zhao Yuanyuan's every paranoid thought, every grievance and cry after a quarrel, pursed her lips, and suddenly found the answer.
"Because I have so much love."
But Zhao Yuanyuan had nothing.
For the first time, Xingxing felt the weight of the love he had.
If it weren't for their love, perhaps I would be like Zhao Yuanyuan.
He will become a zombie who never played a good role as a child.
It will become a star that cannot be repaired and will never shine again.
He tilted his head and looked at the little moon that had been peeking over there.
"Brother, what did Third Sister whisper to you?" Little Moon moved closer, the curiosity in her heart turning into question marks bubbling out.
"She said that she envied Xiaoyue because she was loved and cared for by her parents."
"She also said it would be great if she could turn into a little moon."
Xingxing did not lie. What he said was the most unwilling and longing voice in Zhao Yuanyuan's heart every time she saw her sister.
Little Moon was stunned, then she put her hands on her hips angrily, "No! What if Third Sister turns into Little Moon, then what will happen to Brother?!"
The third sister doesn’t even like brother Xiaoyang, so she definitely won’t like her brother. So what if she bullies her brother?
Xingxing was hugged by her sister. Little Moon grunted and tried her best to suck milk. She said fiercely and aggrievedly, "Why do I have to become Little Moon? I only want my own father and mother. Even if my father and mother are the same as my elder father and mother and like my brother more, I will not steal my third sister's father and mother!"
Little Moon knew that her grandparents were partial to each other. Although she was small, she also knew that partiality meant secretly leaving food for another child.
Every time Xiaoyueliang saw her third sister and eldest brother quarreling, she would think about what she would do if she and her brother were also favored.
The little head thought about it for a long time, and finally laughed foolishly.
Because most of the snacks that mom and dad shared with my brother went into my little tummy~
So if mom and dad favor my brother, then wouldn't I get to eat more delicious food? !
The little girl sucked the saliva and clung even closer to her brother, like a little follower.
So when Zhao Yuanyuan wanted to take Xingxing up the mountain to look for ginseng, they couldn't find a good opportunity for the brother and sister to be alone together for several days.
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