She thought that after crying and releasing the stress, she could return to her normal state, but when she took the initiative to try to help a soldier with a broken left arm for the second time, her hands became uncontrollable again.
Every second she was unable to take action was accompanied by the soldiers' painful groans and struggles, which undoubtedly intensified her inner fear and pressure.
This time, her strong dissatisfaction with herself and the huge shame of not being able to help made her burst into tears.
On the cruel battlefield, no one had time to comfort her. The urgency of time and situation only made everyone more stiff. The people in the medical team no longer regarded her as a useful medical force, and only asked her to do some work such as preparing medicine or running errands and delivering messages.
Fan Shengnan did this silently, but she felt extremely uncomfortable in her heart. She felt ashamed all the time for not being able to treat the wounded and relieve their pain.
Every time she had a break from her shift, she would hide in the woods and cry secretly out of self-blame. She thought no one noticed her whereabouts, but she didn't know that everyone was just watching her and had neither the time nor the energy to enlighten her.
I don’t know from which day on, or from whom the nickname “Lin Daiyu” came out, and they even called her that without any hesitation.
Fan Shengnan knew what "Lin Daiyu" meant. It was not to praise her talent or beauty, but to subtly make fun of her for being a crybaby.
She could feel everyone's dissatisfaction with her, and she had no confidence to refute. In her heart, she complained and blamed herself no less than anyone else.
At this moment, isn't she just a delicate young lady who can only cry...
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