If it were in the past, Fan Shengnan would have been so happy to be able to drive quietly with Lu Zhan like this.
But with Shao Jingque's sudden appearance on the Spring Festival Gala just now, and an impulsive thought in her mind, she was a little absent-minded the whole way.
However, Lu Zhan did not notice anything unusual about Fan Shengnan.
On the surface, he seemed to be just quietly watching the shadows of the trees passing by outside the window, but in his heart he kept recalling the scene where Shao Jingque looked at the camera just now.
He had heard Yao Wenbin, who had been on TV, say before that TV cameras would make people look fatter than they actually were, but when he looked at Shao Jingque just now, he felt that she was thinner than when she was taking care of him in the hospital, and even her chin was pointed.
I don't know if it's because rehearsing the show is too hard...
Just as Lu Zhan was thinking, his thoughts were suddenly interrupted by Fan Shengnan calling him:
"Land battle."
Lu Zhan came back to his senses:
"Hmm? What's up?"
For some reason, when Fan Shengnan saw Lu Zhan distracted, she felt that he must be thinking about Shao Jingque, and she couldn't help but scream out.
She made up her mind and thought that since she had already decided to speak, she might as well make it clear now.
"What do you think of me?"
Lu Zhan frowned. He felt that Fan Shengnan's question was out of the blue, as if Lu Qiuya had asked him the same question before.
But out of politeness, he still answered seriously:
"It's fine. Doctor Fan is an excellent doctor and a warm-hearted person. I'm very grateful for your help to me and your care for Qiuya during this period. If there's anything I can help with in the future, please feel free to ask."
Fan Shengnan was delighted when she heard the words "very good", but what Lu Zhan said next was not the answer she expected.
Normally, she was not a shy person, but when facing Lu Zhan, whom she had secretly liked for many years, she felt a little timid and could not be herself naturally.
She originally thought that Lu Zhan had forgotten Shao Jingque, and Shao Jingque had given up staying by his side. Perhaps this was the best arrangement God had given her, giving her the opportunity to develop a new relationship with Lu Zhan.
But Lu Zhan's reaction to Shao Jingque's appearance on the screen today instantly shattered her idea.
Lu Zhan may have really forgotten Shao Jingque, but his body's reaction seemed to tell her that he still liked her.
Fan Shengnan was unwilling to give up. Her secret love for so many years had gone from hopeless to hopeful. Even if the hope was slim, she would never be willing to give up without trying once!
Just like when he first met Lu Zhan in the Mengshan battlefield, he firmly said three times that he believed in her and encouraged her to bravely take the first attempt to treat the wounded independently.
Similarly, just as she was sure that she could treat Lu Zhan's wounds, she is now sure that she will be a good partner.
So this time she has to rely on herself to take this step bravely and strive for the happiness she wants.
The car stopped in front of the inpatient building. Lu Zhan was about to get out when Fan Shengnan called him again:
"Lu Zhan, I have something to tell you."
Lu Zhan turned around. He felt that Dr. Fan was a little strange tonight, but he waited patiently for her to finish what she was saying.
Fan Shengnan took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and her eyelashes trembled continuously. She seemed to muster up the courage before opening her eyes and speaking:
"Lu Zhan, I want to tell you that I've had a crush on you since we met in the Mengshan War Zone."
"After all these years, my affection for you hasn't diminished in the slightest. On the contrary, as time goes by, I've come to realize more clearly that I really am in love with you."
"I felt really sorry for missing that blind date, so I applied to be transferred to the Ning City Military District Hospital just to be closer to you. I didn't want to miss the opportunity to be with you again because of work hours and location issues."
"I was too timid and passive before, always hoping that one day we could naturally become good friends and then develop into close lovers, just like we did in the Mengshan War Zone."
"But I didn't expect that you had already forgotten 'Xiao Lin' by then, so that our relationship remained at the level of ordinary comrades."
"I don't want to wait passively this time, Lu Zhan, I like you, can we be together?"
Lu Zhan was stunned on the spot. He didn't expect to hear such a confession from Fan Shengnan.
In fact, he did not forget the "Xiao Lin" in the Mengshan War Zone. It was just that the "Xiao Lin" at that time had long hair tied in a ponytail and looked timid. He could not be connected with the heroic Fan Shengnan who later had short hair to her ears. He never thought of the two as the same person.
But even if he recognized Fan Shengnan as "Xiao Lin", he only had a grateful comradeship towards "Xiao Lin" and would not fall in love with her because of this.
Therefore, for Lu Zhan, it makes no difference whether Fan Shengnan is "Xiao Lin" or not.
Lu Zhan didn't hesitate too much. He said seriously:
"Doctor Fan, whether you were 'Xiao Lin' back then or you are now, you are my savior and the most important comrade-in-arms for whom I would risk my life."
"Besides that, I don't have any other feelings for you, so I can't agree to be with you."
Fan Shengnan was speechless. She suddenly felt a little ridiculous.
As soon as she shamelessly asked that question, she began to imagine what answer Lu Zhan would give.
The worst outcome she could think of was that Lu Zhan might reject her, but at least he would hesitate for a moment. Unexpectedly, as soon as she asked the question, a look of surprise appeared on Lu Zhan's face.
Just a few seconds later, he rejected her without hesitation, every word clearly and distinctly, without a trace of ambiguity.
In Lu Zhan's opinion, such important words must be said especially clearly. If they are said in a tactful way, it may cause misunderstanding again and cause greater harm to people.
Because Fan Shengnan had helped him a lot before, he spoke with extra seriousness.
After Lu Zhan finished speaking, he saw Fan Shengnan with her head down and remained silent. He also knew that if he said anything more at this moment, it would only make her more embarrassed, so he said goodbye, opened the door, got out of the car, and slowly walked towards the inpatient building.
Fan Shengnan raised her head and looked at Lu Zhan's staggering back through the car window, her eyes filled with tears.
He would rather move forward with difficulty by himself than ask her for help, just to eliminate any possibility of ambiguity with his actions.
She leaned on the steering wheel and cried bitterly, as if she wanted to vent all the unknown feelings that had been hidden in her heart for so many years.
Lu Zhan heard crying coming from behind him.
But he didn't look back, because he knew that not looking back was the best response to Fan Shengnan.
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