Chapter 247 Ending Remarks
That's all. I was going to write a sub-CP, but my recent health condition doesn't allow me to do that.
This book was much harder to write than I thought. The way to write emotional works is different from the way to write plot works. I write in an immersive way and need to completely immerse myself in the writing: every action, every line, and even every micro-expression; how he holds her hand, what kind of touch it is, and the subtle chemical reactions when the distance is shortened. I need to imagine it first, and then repeatedly figure it out and revise it. So my writing speed is really slow, and because of the repeated revisions, a lot of scraps will be produced. The 4,000 words you see may actually take me 6,000 to 7,000 words to polish. I don't have any skills in writing, I rely entirely on consuming emotions, so my efficiency is really low.
In addition, unfortunately, the past few months of serialization have coincided with the busiest and most exhausting period in my three-dimensional life. Those who follow my Weibo should know that my sister picked up a pregnant stray cat a while ago, and later gave birth to a kitten with congenital malformation, slight paralysis of the hind limbs, and inability to take care of itself. It has a strong vitality, and although its legs and feet are not flexible, it is super lively, loves to eat, love to play, and is very clingy. So I really can't bear to let it fend for itself. It takes a lot of energy to treat and take care of it. In addition, several native cats at home have fallen ill one after another, and I have been running to the hospital non-stop in recent months.
Fortunately, after visiting several hospitals, I met a very good Chinese veterinary professor. The cat took Chinese medicine and injections for almost two months. The muscles in the hind legs were atrophied and I couldn't use them at all. Now I can stand up. Except for the fact that urination and defecation are still a headache, it is really amazing to have such an effect.
Except for the uncontrollable factors such as taking my cat to see a doctor and attending the author conference, I sit in front of the computer every day. I have not taken a day off since I started writing. I have never been lazy. Even if I have a migraine, I will not lie down until I can't bear the medicine. So every time I see people are dissatisfied with my lack of updates, I feel the powerlessness of a middle-aged man with impotence.
I have gained a lot of surprises in the process of serializing this book. I have seen everyone's love for Tingting and Xiaojiu, and I cherish it very much. I am a person who likes to read comments, especially paragraph comments. The first thing I do after updating every day is to refresh. Basically, I am familiar with the earliest readers every day. I will constantly refresh to see where you have left comments. If you are happy to read, I will also be happy to read your paragraph comments. Everyone's feedback can bring me a lot of sense of accomplishment and satisfaction, which in turn stimulates my creative enthusiasm. This kind of positive interaction is the source of my early happiness.
But for an author, reading reviews is a risky thing, because one bad review can wipe out a hundred good reviews. As the number of readers increases, there will definitely be some unfriendly voices. When such voices reach a certain level, the negative impact on the author will exceed the positive motivation. Usually this balance is broken in the middle and late stages of a serialized article. The time when "Excessive Wildness" was broken was much earlier than I expected.
This series received more attention than "Sentiment" during its publication, so it received more criticism. I became less free to write. When I was writing, I had to consider: Will someone find this plot unacceptable? Is it in line with universal values? Are there any sensitive details that I have not taken into account? The more I consider, the narrower my creative space becomes.
I myself have a poor physical condition, and I suffer from migraines, backaches, and neurasthenia. Normal people are fully charged every day, but my maximum charge is probably only 50%. The pressure of life, body, spirit, and other aspects has caused the update speed of this book to be much slower than my original plan. I am also very sorry to disappoint some readers, because my original intention was just to create a story that I like and that can make everyone happy.
Every time I finish an article, I will gain something new. This time, I also gained some new thoughts and experiences. I may need to take care of my body first. I hope that I can be more energetic and freer in the next article. I will write happily and you will read happily. In 2025, I hope to be a free bird. I also hope that we will meet in the next article and create new sparks~
I really want to thank everyone who has supported me all the way to now. Your likes are the motivation for me to stick to it until now. Thank you! I will send you some small gifts in a few days to celebrate the completion. You can follow @鳥松米 for the physical progress.