24 Chapter 24
When Zhou Baixi was still abroad, his mental state was not right for a period of time. Under the coercion and inducement of his new friend Li Hao, he finally took the time to go to the hospital for a check-up, and was diagnosed with mild depression.
Later he started to keep a diary. Whenever he was confused and sad, he would write and pour all his emotions into the diary.
June 8
The 186th day of diary writing
I want to go back to China and miss Chen Ying.
June 12
The 190th day of diary writing
I often dream about high school, and Chen Ying is always in my dreams.
Want to go back home.
…
The 300th day of diary writing
Finally back home.
Still can't contact her, can't find any mutual friends.
Miss her very much.
The 350th day of diary writing
My job in the country has stabilized. If she were here in Fanhua City, I would always be able to meet her.
…
Day 400
Returning to my alma mater, I saw traces of our past together in so many places, and it made me feel sad. I wonder if she still thinks of me, or if she's already forgotten me.
Day 500
It's graduation season again. I worked overtime very late tonight. It was already 11:30 pm when I got off work. On the way home, I met a little girl who was hitchhiking. She said it was too late to catch the subway and she didn't have enough money for the ride, so she asked me if I could give her a ride.
I looked at the school uniform she was still wearing and suddenly thought of Chen Ying.
I was very tired from working overtime, but I still sent her home. When we got home, I scolded her and warned her not to ride in a strange vehicle alone in the middle of the night. I might have kidnapped her, which is very dangerous.
The silly girl seemed as stubborn as Chen Ying, and I didn't know if she listened to me or not.
…
One Thousand One Hundred and First Days
I've been on frequent business trips lately and I'm very annoyed. I'm afraid I'll miss the day she comes back.
July 28
Day 1,152
Today I was on a business trip again. During the bomb inspection at the airport, I saw someone who looked very much like Chen Ying. I called her and she turned around, but didn't see me.
There were too many people, and by the time I passed the explosion-proof inspection and chased after her, I couldn't find her.
My illness seems to have recurred. I have always known it but was afraid to admit it. But now I have hope. She is back and I can find her!
August 2
As soon as night falls, I start to recall the things that happened in high school and can't fall asleep all night. After thinking about it, I decided to go to the hospital to get some medicine tomorrow.
August 3
I met Chen Ying, it was really her.
She was carrying a small bag and nothing else, probably having finished visiting her friends and was leaving. I don't remember what I said, I just stared blankly at the phone number in my hand.
I felt like I was dreaming, it didn't feel real.
I want to text her.
"Nice to meet you."
It seems frivolous, no.
"Where have you been? No one can find you these years."
Asking this right at the start sounds like an interrogation. Delete.
"Do you remember when we were in high school, we often went to and from school together?"
...Perhaps I'm the only one who still remembers that time. Better not to ask.
Forget it, keep it simple.
"How are you doing lately?" sent.
I lay there for a long time, tossing and turning but couldn't fall asleep.
Just when I was feeling a little sleepy, I suddenly woke up. I realized that I hadn't told her who I was yet. Would I be blacklisted as a pervert? I quickly sent her another message:
"I'm Zhou Baixi."
August 4
She replied. I knew she was Chen Ying, but I didn't dare reply. I thought about it and didn't know what to post.
I'd better go find her.
I don't know how to thank Li Hao enough. He's usually so carefree, but he's incredibly reliable when it matters. I just sent him a photo from high school, and he found it for me. He took advantage of the situation and ripped me off, but it doesn't matter; even if he did, it was worth it.
August 4
This is my second update today because I have to wait for her downstairs in the company in the evening and I’m very nervous.
There happened to be a negotiation taking place near her company, so I decided to go meet her in a suit. My hair had to be done meticulously, and I had to choose the most handsome suit I could find, looking my best.
August 4
It's three o'clock in the morning. Today is a special day. I met Chen Ying. She's still the same as before, quiet and taciturn, but she seems even prettier. My heart started beating faster the moment I saw her.
We added each other on WeChat in the evening. God knows how many excuses I had made before that, but she finally agreed.
I lay in bed unable to fall asleep. Her WeChat message was quietly pinned to the top of the list, but I didn't know what to send.
It is difficult to expect her to send a message first, as she never takes the initiative to contact others.
I'm so stupid. I'm a big shot at the negotiation table, but I become tongue-tied when I meet her.
August 9
We went to the amusement park together today. I deliberately didn’t have breakfast because I wanted to eat the meal she cooked, although she didn’t cook it either.
But I am still happy that she and Xiaodoukou get along well.
When she was holding Xiao Doukou, I held her bag for her. The scene was so warm that I wanted to walk slower and for a while longer.
There were a lot of people in the amusement park, and I was afraid of getting lost, so I couldn't help but hold her hand. Only after I held her did I realize that I was too rash. Fortunately, she didn't get angry.
But I was so nervous that my palms were sweating.
When she wiped my hands, my heart almost stopped beating. At this moment, I suddenly wanted to tell her that I had been looking for her for many years.
It sounds like a confession, but I have nothing prepared. I don't have any flowers in my hand, only a cardamom.
…
It was Li Hao's birthday, and I secretly wanted to invite her. Xiao Doukou thought she was going to be locked up at home again and was not allowed to go. She cried heartbreakingly and confessed her love for her, which moved Chen Ying to tears.
I said in my heart: I like it too.
…
She fell asleep in the car. I couldn't stare at her, but my eyes were not obedient and I would always glance at her.
This is probably what a peaceful life is like. I slowed down my breathing for fear of disturbing her.
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She asked me if I remembered the stars, and of course I did.
I still remember the shock I felt that night when Uncle Wu told me that Chen Ying was Xingxing. I remember asking her before, and she said she didn't know her, so I believed her.
That night was so shocking. My friend asked me out for a drink, but I didn't know how to face her, so I went out. I ended up getting drunk and forgot she said she would wait for me downstairs that night.
I never saw her again and I stopped drinking.
I had dinner at her house in the evening. I was so excited that I don’t know how to describe the feeling.
I'm going to float.
…
Send Xiao Doukou to play with her Chen Ying (maybe her future aunt).
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Xiao Doukou is hurt and I feel sad.
Chen Ying came to see Xiao Doukou, and Xiao Doukou secretly called her aunt.
…
I'm on a business trip. Try to come back as soon as possible.
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Li Hao is actually no longer single...
His girlfriend is Chen Ying's colleague, so he won't tell her about me, right?
…
I passed by a place where fish were caught and bought a fish.
She used to look at the little goldfish often. She would look at it at Uncle Wu's house, and she would look at it on the way home from school. She would be unable to walk when she saw it. I think she really liked it.
Goldfish, goldfish, has she told you about her troubles?
…
I've been very busy recently and haven't had the chance to see her.
…
I felt like I was disliked. After reflecting on it for a whole night, I couldn't figure out what it was about me that made her dislike me.
That is, I don't like it anywhere.
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Wu Qianqiu's wedding, I saw her as soon as I walked in. She seemed not to want to see me.
I only dared to stand not too far away, for fear that getting too close would offend her.
…
Here is what I wrote today when I got home:
I met her parents by chance in the morning and helped them load things into the car. Aunt Chen invited me to her house, saying that it was a rare opportunity for Chen Ying to return to her hometown, and she would be very happy for everyone to go and play.
I went there shamelessly.
Catching fish is very relaxing, especially when I accidentally saw the words under the collar of my school uniform. I was so happy that I caught five fish in one breath.
I specifically called Li Hao to ask him to send me flowers, but this brat was late and made me wait for a long time.
The voices of wanting to see her were deep and shallow. I was afraid that she could hear it, but I was also afraid that she couldn't hear it.
So I wrote it to her.
***
After seeing the last picture, Chen Ying was so sad that she couldn't speak.
So during the years when they couldn't see each other, Zhou Baixi missed her silently and was always looking for her, but because of Wu Qianqiu's misunderstanding, she hid in another place for so many years and didn't want to come back.
What could be happier than having someone you’ve loved for years also love you?
I'm so lucky, she thought.
She sent a message to Zhou Baixi.
【Tomorrow is Mid-Autumn Festival, do you want to come and play? 】
Zhou Baixi replied: [So have you finished reading it?]
It was clearly just a simple sentence, but after reading those diaries, Chen Ying felt that Zhou Baixi on the opposite side was also full of uncertainty when he typed this sentence.
In fact, when it comes to love, Zhou Baixi is more cautious than Chen Ying. He is afraid of accidentally crossing the line if he gets too close, and he is also afraid of getting too far away and the other party not being able to feel his longing.
Chen Ying relaxed herself: [Are you free tomorrow?]
[Can I contact you at noon, at night, or whenever I have free time?]
Zhou Baixi was confused and cautiously asked, "Is there something wrong?" (doubt.jpg)
Chen Ying's eyes were wet, but she suddenly smiled.
Didn't he understand what I meant?
She quickly replied:
【Can’t you see that I miss you written all over the screen? 】
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