Chapter 40: I thought it was normal at that time

Wen Yan was puzzled: "Haven't we already discussed what we need to discuss?"

Qi Yu'an knew that Wen Yan was going to say this: "You are still blaming me. I know I was wrong before, but I am not unforgivable, am I?"

Wen Yan denied: "I really don't blame you. For me, the matter is over. It's you who are holding on to the past."

Qi Yu'an looked into Wen Yan's eyes. There was really no emotion in them except helplessness towards himself. He really moved on.

Qi Yu'an couldn't tell what his mood was at the moment. Wen Yan didn't care about the past at all. In a sense, she didn't care about him at all.

Qi Yu'an: "Can you please invite me in to sit down?"

Wen Yan didn't say anything. After a few minutes of stalemate, Wen Yan finally stepped aside to let the person in.

After returning from the trip, his whole mood changed. He really didn't have any feelings about what happened before. Occasionally, when he thought back on it, it seemed like someone else's life, and he himself had become a bystander in the story.

From an observer's perspective, Qi Yu'an did nothing wrong. He just refused his own request for help. This is his freedom and he cannot be blamed.

I had previously put the blame on him simply because he had failed to live up to my expectations. This was my own responsibility and had nothing to do with him.

He figured it out and got out of the dilemma, but Qi Yu'an was just the opposite. He didn't think he had done anything wrong before, but now he is trapped.

Seeing the subtle pleading in Qi Yu'an's eyes, Wen Yan's heart softened.

After letting the person in, Wen Yan turned around and saw that the person was standing at the entrance without moving. He thought that the person was waiting for him, so he pointed at the sofa and said, "Just sit anywhere."

Qi Yu'an looked at him: "Don't you need to change your shoes?"

Wen Yan finally understood: "No need, I don't usually have anyone come here except Brother Qi, so I didn't prepare any extra slippers."

Qi Yu'an didn't say anything. Shen Qi had his own slippers here, but he had to pretend to be pitiful even to get in.

I am very jealous, but I have no right to do so, so I have to hold it in.

Qi Yu'an silently began to take off his leather shoes, and Wen Yan quickly stopped him: "No need to take them off, I'm not that particular."

Qi Yu'an pretended not to hear and continued stepping on the ground in his socks.

Wen Yan saw that since it was already like this, she just let him do as he pleased. She didn't want to mop the floor anyway.

After the two sat down, they began to look at each other again. Wen Yan felt that the atmosphere was a bit strange and she had to say something.

Wen Yan: "What would you like to drink? I have mineral water and I can also make coffee."

Qi Yu'an: "Water is enough."

Wen Yan nodded, got up and took out two bottles of mineral water from the refrigerator. Qi Yu'an took it, squeezed it open and took a sip: "Thank you."

Wen Yan sat down.

Qi Yu'an: "You seem a little darker, are you having fun traveling?"

Wen Yan nodded: "Not bad, quite interesting."

Qi Yu'an: "Did anything special happen?"

Wen Yan did not answer this question, but asked: "Qi Yu'an, you didn't come in to talk to me about my travels, did you?"

Qi Yu'an pulled the corner of his mouth into a strong arc, and the bitterness in his eyes almost overflowed: "Well, I don't want to talk about this, but I really want to hear you share your life."

Wen Yan: “…”

Qi Yu'an stared into Wen Yan's eyes: "Can't you really give me another chance? I promise that I will be a very good partner in the future."

Wen Yan didn't know how to answer. She had said no countless times, but Qi Yu'an kept asking again and again. Whether she said it or not, Qi Yu'an simply wouldn't listen.

Wen Yan turned her head away, avoiding Qi Yu'an's burning gaze: "Qi Yu'an, you are in love with me now, right?"

Qi Yuan replied firmly: "Yes, I love you. Maybe I fell in love with you before we broke up."

Wen Yan was not happy to hear the answer, and she felt like crying: "Qi Yu'an, you shouldn't love me. In fact, you know that the premise for me to forgive you is that you don't love me.

You didn't love me, so you turned a blind eye to me, which was the right thing to do. But now you tell me that you loved me at that time, which is so funny, no one's love is like this. "

Qi Yu'an knew that saying this would definitely make things worse, but he didn't want to lie to Wen Yan about anything. The trust between them had already collapsed, and any insignificant little action now could potentially cause an avalanche in the future.

Therefore, he must now fight steadily and not leave any hidden dangers.

Qi Yu'an's throat moved slightly, and after a while, Wen Yan heard a slightly choked voice: "I don't want to lie to you, Wen Yan, I am too slow, I have never had love in my life before, and family and friendship only occupy a very small part, so I don't know how to love.

I thought that feelings were not important. So I always ignored your feelings. I'm sorry, Wenyan, I made you very sad during those years."

The aura emanating from Qi Yu'an's body was telling Wen Yan that this person was very sad.

But Wen Yan couldn't say anything to comfort him, because he also remembered how humble and fawning he had been during those years. He had drunk wine late at night and cooked porridge in the morning. Wen Yan personally matched and arranged Qi Yu'an's clothes, ties and shoes for going out every day.

During those years, whenever Qi Yu'an frowned, Wen Yan knew whether he had a stomachache or a headache. If he had a stomachache, he would have porridge, and if he had a headache, he would have massage. Wen Yan did everything she could.

But usually, Qi Yu'an didn't think this was love, he just thought Wen Yan was a caring lover. He would give him gifts but never express gratitude.

Wen Yan didn't explain and was very happy every time he received a gift, but when he left, he didn't take anything with him.

Later, Qi Yu'an looked at those things at home, recalling over and over again how Wen Yan received the gifts.

Wen Yan would smile, her eyes curved and her spirits bright. He would hold the gift box and stick to her side with a smile: "Did you choose this gift for me yourself?"

Sometimes he would choose it himself. He would say "yes", and Wen Yan would come up to him, hug him, and kiss him until his eyes lit up and he would push her down on the bed.

Sometimes, Assistant Xu would be asked to buy something, and he would honestly say "No". Wen Yan would be happy and would walk around him twice and happily put it away.

I didn't think there was anything wrong, but every time I thought about it later, I could only smile bitterly, unable to let it go.

Who could escape? At the time, it was just normal!

Both of them were lost in memories. Wen Yan came to her senses first and said, "It's all in the past. There's no point in talking about it now."

Qi Yu'an: "Yes, I should apologize to you for every mistake I made, and it is up to you to decide whether to forgive me or not. Instead of hiding my mistakes and pretending that I did nothing wrong even though I have realized them, what will you do about the grievances you have suffered?

I'm sorry, Wen Yan, I apologize sincerely.

I'm sorry, I made you saddest when you loved me the most. "