Chapter 58 [Extra]
The sound of the woman's footsteps was really loud in the night, and each step seemed to step on Gu Luoyan's heart.
The streetlight hung its head in dismay, unable to illuminate Nian Qing's face.
Gu Luoyan felt a little uneasy, glancing away guiltily, not daring to look directly at Nian Qing's face.
When she came closer, a cold fragrance embraced Gu Luoyan.
Gu Luoyan knew that Nian Qing never liked to use perfume, and the scent on her body was more like the one she had used before.
She clenched her fist and unclenched it in confusion, but eventually she turned her head to look directly at Nian Qing's face, a smile on her face: "Nian Qing, long time no see."
Unexpectedly, what he waited for was Nian Qing's gnashing teeth and saying, "You still remember to come back."
So Gu Luoyan shut up, lowered her head, put her hands behind her back like a child who had made a mistake, and kicked the dust in front of her feet.
The man walked closer, causing Gu Luoyan's breathing to tighten.
But she didn't make any other moves, but asked aloud: "Why?"
Gu Luoyan looked up at Nian Qing.
This glance made the person in front of her smile. She suddenly stepped forward and raised her hand to pinch Gu Luoyan's cheek. She forced Gu Luoyan to retreat continuously with her force, but she didn't want her to fall. After taking a few steps back, she put her other hand around Gu Luoyan's waist.
Nian Qing stared at Gu Luoyan with an uncertain expression, his tone tinged with anger: "Don't play dumb! You clearly know what I'm talking about!"
"Hmm..." The person whose face was pinched felt a little sore, but did not struggle. Gu Luoyan certainly knew what Nian Qing was talking about.
Two years ago, before going abroad, she got drunk, spent a night of passion, and left at dawn.
And that person was none other than Nian Qing.
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It’s two o’clock in the morning, let’s go.
Gu Luoyan sat at the bar and finished his last glass of wine.
The bartender was a handsome guy. He took Gu Luoyan's glass very considerately and asked her if she needed a refill.
Gu Luoyan shook her head and leaned her head on the shoulder of Nian Qing who was traveling with her.
Her roommate was just a filler, dragged along by Gu Luoyan to join in the fun, but given the euphemism of broadening the horizons of a straight woman.
Nian Qing didn't blame her. She didn't drink any alcohol, so she drank strawberry sweet ice in the lively atmosphere of the bar.
Several times, someone approached her and flirted with her, but she responded fluently, clearly an old hand.
Of course, Nianqing was also noticed, but she wasn't good at talking. When someone asked for her contact information, she remained silent. When someone asked if they could have a drink together, Nianqing held up her strawberry ice cream. Such silence and dullness would turn even the most passionate lesbian into a retreating sea.
Nianqing was a bit of a fool, and she knew it herself. Before college, she knew nothing about love, and had no expectations or aspirations.
But that was before I went to college.
During her undergraduate studies, she met someone who was different from her, lively and sincere.
Nian Qing is a ball of ice, a terrible ice that doesn't understand any worldly ways. That person is like a ball of fire, a brilliant fire that can burn everything.
She stood in front of Nian Qing and handled those annoying and complicated interpersonal relationships for her.
She stayed by Nian Qing's side, took Nian Qing's hand, and said, "It's okay, you come and live with me, we'll be roommates, and I'll be your friend."
She appeared in front of Nian Qing, always with a smile on her face, and walked into Nian Qing's life with the color of the sunset.
She regarded Nian Qing as her best friend, so she came out to her and talked to her about the troubles in same-sex love.
Nianqing is the best listener. She listens silently and comforts silently.
Nian Qing was always looking at her.
Silently, from the four years of undergraduate study to the three years after admission to graduate school.
Well, Nianqing is what she calls a straight woman, and in her eyes, Nianqing is a best friend. Nianqing is a coward who can't speak out, and Nianqing's feelings are hidden deep in her heart.
So back to the present, on the eve of her going abroad.
Someone suggested going to a bar for a night of drinking, and she happily agreed to go with him.
Now, Gu Luoyan is leaning on Nian Qing.
The man closed his eyes, with tiny tears on his eyelashes.
Her face was flushed and she reeked of alcohol.
She leaned against Nian Qing, and her hands were dishonestly moving towards Nian Qing's body.
The bartender came over and asked her if she needed help. Nian Qing hesitated and finally shook her head.
The bartender stood behind the bar and once again asked about Nian Qing's relationship with the drunk lady.
Nian Qing was stunned for a moment, then said to her, "We are classmates."
She paid the money, stood up, and walked out with Gu Luoyan in her arms.
The door opened and the night wind blew in, bringing with it the unique scent of autumn.
Nian Qing hugged Gu Luoyan. She didn’t hate being hugged by Gu Luoyan.
The smell of alcohol enveloped her and she seemed to be drunk too.
The strawberry ice cream is so sweet, and the people around me look so bright in the neon lights.
Oh, Nianqing is drunk.
My heartbeat was rising, and every step I took forward, supporting Gu Luoyan, was like stepping on stars and moonlight.
An unconcealable joy rises in this undisturbed night and can never be put down.
Nian Qing knew what she was, and to describe herself she used a word that Gu Luoyan had told her many times: "deep closet."
Nian Qing was afraid of that secular door and she didn't have the courage to open it.
But finally, on the street after midnight, in the fragrance of the hair of the people around me.
She finally opened the cabinet a little, and quietly felt her liking for it, to watch, to touch, to love and to be moved.
The streets were deserted at this time, and Nian Qing slowly walked forward, supporting Gu Luoyan.
Every breath would be tainted with the smell of alcohol and perfume from Gu Luoyan.
She was secretly delighted.
She was enjoying this moment alone with Gu Luoyan late at night.
Nian Qing felt that some of his behaviors were really abnormal.
She was jealous when she saw those women hanging around Gu Luoyan in the bar.
When she was finally able to be alone with Gu Luoyan, she looked at him over and over again almost greedily.
When the sight is no longer satisfied.
With restraint, her right hand lifted the arm that Gu Luoyan had placed on her shoulder.
Nian Qing looked forward, left, and right.
She was too afraid of being looked at.
There was no one around.
She finally lowered her head slightly.
She gave a gentle kiss to the back of Gu Luoyan's hand that was resting on her shoulder.
The lips loosened and moved down again.
She is sucking.
She didn't stop until the back of her hand, which was bitten by her lips and teeth, turned slightly red.
The wind blew towards her, dispelling the confusion in Nian Qing's eyes. Her sanity returned, and everything seemed normal again.
She once again hid in the darkness and became Gu Luoyan's good friend, becoming what she called an outsider.
Nian Qing's other hand, which was wrapped around Gu Luoyan's waist, tightened its grip uncomfortably and squeezed inwards.
As he walked forward, his breathing became heavier. A voice beside him whispered in Nian Qing's ear.
"Why did you kiss me?"
His steps paused, but his other hand did not forget to hold Gu Luoyan tightly.
Nian Qing remained silent. She continued to walk forward, trying to fool the situation. "You're drunk, Gu Luoyan."
But I heard a laugh.
"You clearly kissed me," Gu Luoyan raised the hand that was on Nian Qing, "kissed my hand."
"Nianqing, do you like me?" she said teasingly, then lowered her head affectionately to the face of the person next to her.
She was quite drunk.
Nian Qing's breathing was disrupted.
She tried to stay away from Gu Luoyan, tried to avoid Gu Luoyan's cheek that was leaning towards her.
But it was of no avail.
Suddenly, she stopped.
Nian Qing turned around and looked at Gu Luoyan.
Nian Qing leaned her head closer, and she seemed to be furious, she bit Gu Luoyan's lips.
He lashed out fiercely, as if venting his anger.
Then she let go and looked coldly into Gu Luoyan's eyes: "Yes, I do like you. Are you satisfied now?"
The person in front of him was stunned for a second, then his eyes moved and a smile appeared on his face.
Gu Luoyan did not run away, nor did she feel disgusted.
Her hands passed through Nian Qing's hair and embraced Nian Qing's neck.
Gu Luoyan blew air towards Nianqing with the smell of alcohol.
She said, "I don't believe it. Kiss me again."
So even wind and rain could not stop it.
Nian Qing kissed him. His rationality was gone, and his longing and reluctance turned into quick, sticky kisses that fell like raindrops.
She took advantage of the fact that Gu Luoyan was drunk and could not stand steadily, so he pushed her to the side of the street.
The shops along the street were closed, their glass doors locked. Nian Qing pushed the man against the door and kissed him, but he was no longer satisfied with just a kiss on the lips.
Her kisses began to move down, from the side of her neck to her chest/mouth.
Gu Luoyan's eyes misted, and her face flushed as she looked at the knight in front of her.
The knight kissed her madly, hugged her, and fell in love with her.
A sweet smile spread from the corner of his mouth to Gu Luoyan's fingertips.
The person finally stopped, her long hair tangled around her fingers.
Sniffing the bone smoke at the tip of her nose, she whispered to Nian Qing:
"Nianqing, I want to do it."
The woman who seemed to be not good at speaking stretched out her arms and picked her up.
It was a small hotel on the side of the road, with dim, old lights emitting a warm yellow light.
The relatively clean white sheets showed signs of being crushed.
There was the sound of running water in the bathroom, and groans in the mist.
The helpless arms were bound by another pair of hands, becoming a shadow behind the glass water droplets.
Night is the clouds wandering in the sky, the last thin layer of sweat before dawn, and the sound of bubbles after a kiss.
Until dawn.
Gu Luoyan woke up first, with a severe headache.
I felt dizzy and thirsty, but the most terrifying thing was finding a woman lying next to me.
The vague memories were pieced together like a puzzle, and I finally restored the general idea of what happened last night.
Gu Luoyan lowered her head and saw countless kiss marks on her body left by the people around her.
Looking at her again, I felt guilty and remorseful.
She seemed to be very tired from tossing and turning last night and was still sleeping soundly.
She laughed even in her dreams.
This made Gu Luoyan feel even more damned.
This was her friend! Her best friend! Her best friend from college.
But she slept with her, her body was more honest than her mind. They were so compatible that Gu Luoyan even thought about her behavior last night and felt that she didn't act like a "newcomer".
Subconsciously, I wanted to get out of bed and leave, pretending nothing had happened.
Although this person is abstinent and considerate, although this person is handsome and beautiful.
But she is Nian Qing, and even if it is a teasing, Gu Luoyan cannot accept it.
Well, Gu Luoyan likes her best friend.
Every time we hold hands and chat at night on campus, my heart beats fast, and I feel secretly happy when we unconsciously drink from the same bottle of drink.
She secretly likes an impossible person. She likes a person who is gentle and firm and stands by her side.
Nian Qing is very important to Gu Luoyan.
To a certain extent.
She didn't allow her feelings to taint their relationship.
At least at the moment, this is not allowed.
Gu Luoyan stood up and looked at Nian Qing who was sleeping soundly.
Melancholy crept onto her face.
Fortunately, she was leaving, going to a place where she might never see Nianqing again.
The bold, open and passionate Gu Luoyan carefully concealed her inner feelings.
She was timid and cowardly, even resorting to fabricating relationships and talking about them in front of Nian Qing.
She wanted her friend to feel at ease.
I wanted to subtly tell her: Look, I have my own life. So you don't need to worry about me falling in love with you. Don't be afraid of Nianqing. Please don't alienate me or leave me.
Gu Luoyan put on her clothes, picked up her shoes and walked out dizzy.
It was a very embarrassing day.
Gu Luoyan, smelling of alcohol, changed his flight and embarked on his journey to the other side of the ocean early that evening.
Yes, Gu Luoyan escaped.
She didn't dare to face Nian Qing, nor did she dare to think about how Nian Qing would view her.
All she could do was turn off her phone, change her SIM card, and gradually forget the man in her heart. She also hoped that the other party would do the same.
Until today, two years later.
We met again domestic.
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Nian Qing pinched Gu Luoyan's face. She couldn't wait for Gu Luoyan's answer.
Disappointment appeared on her face, and she kissed him and bit his lips.
The smell of blood mixed with the stirring of the tongue. Nian Qing pinched Gu Luoyan's face tightly, and only let go after a long time with the kiss.
The fingers left fingerprints on Gu Luoyan's face.
Nian Qing was panting, she looked at Gu Luoyan, her eyes still fierce.
She suddenly burst into tears and asked Gu Luoyan, biting her tongue:
"do you like me?"
There was blood between her lips and teeth, which was swallowed by Gu Luoyan, turning into waves of bitterness in her heart.
She looked at Nian Qing without saying a word, and finally waited until he turned around in despair and wanted to leave, then she smiled bitterly:
"I don't think I'm qualified to say that."
Nian Qing was stunned. She turned around and looked at her, and saw Gu Luoyan's eyes.
Gu Luoyan's voice choked: "Nianqing, I'm sorry. I don't ask you to forgive me."
"So you like me?" Her apology was interrupted by a hurried voice.
Nian Qing rushed over and looked at Gu Luoyan. She saw her hesitation and doubt, but she finally lowered her head and nodded.
At that moment, all the crazy phone calls after waking up and the anguish of three unsuccessful searches on the other side of the ocean seemed to have disappeared.
Nian Qing didn't let Gu Luoyan say anything else. She held Gu Luoyan's hand with trembling hands.
Humble and forbearing, he asked, "Gu Luoyan, Gu Luoyan."
"Let's start over, okay?"
"I don't want that reason anymore. I want you."
Nian Qing took Gu Luoyan's hand and brought it to her lips. Just like two years ago, she kissed the back of Gu Luoyan's hand again.
That coward can no longer close that door.
Because she had gotten out, she didn't want to go back.
Nian Qing knelt down on one knee, holding Gu Luoyan's hand. She asked her:
"Gu Luoyan, are you willing to give me a chance?"
The ignorance and naivety of two years ago have been washed away.
Gu Luoyan looked at the knight who was kneeling on one knee in front of him.
The longing hidden in time came out, puncturing the friendship that she thought was hers.
Gu Luoyan also knelt on one knee towards Nian Qing.
She lifted up Nian Qing's hand that was holding hers.
Her mind was gone. She imitated Nian Qing and placed a kiss on the back of his hand.
She said to her, "Nianqing, I love you."
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