Chapter 60: I envy him so much I want to kill Li Yuheng
"Sister, are you angry with me? Do you want to punish me? Do you...?" Li Yuheng asked repeatedly, his forehead covered in cold sweat.
“No,” Gu Shanyue wiped away his cold sweat and said gently, “I am angry, but I will not punish you. You have things you want to do, and I will not stop you from living the life you want to live.”
Even if she doesn't approve of his choice, she will give him complete freedom, just like her senior sister did for her.
Li Yuheng opened his mouth to speak again, but Gu Shanyue said, "Alright, drink your medicine first."
She took the bitter medicine, stirred it with a spoon, and the bitter smell made her frown. She threw the spoon aside, helped Li Yuheng up with one hand, and brought the bowl to his mouth.
"Just drink it like this, it's not so bitter if you gulp it down."
Li Yuheng leaned against her, looked up at her and smiled: "I'm not that afraid of hardship."
As he spoke, he picked up the medicine bowl and, as Gu Shanyue had instructed, drank it down in one gulp, his face turning even paler from the bitterness.
Bai Yan immediately took the medicine bowl, offered warm water and candied fruit. Li Yuheng drank a cup of water, then put the candied fruit in his mouth. His tightly furrowed brows relaxed, and he smiled at Gu Shanyue, revealing two cute little tiger teeth.
When he smiles, he looks remarkably like Wushan jade.
Gu Shanyue wanted to touch his face again, but after rubbing her fingers, she lowered her hand: "Take better care of your health, live longer, and don't do this again next time."
Li Yuheng smiled obediently and said, "I'll listen to whatever you say, sister."
His gaze shifted and met Qi Baitong's eyes in the corner, who was carrying a wooden bucket. Qi Baitong watched him coldly as he nestled in Gu Shanyue's arms, trying to please her, his face expressionless.
A dark resentment welled up in Li Yuheng's eyes; he had not only seen it, but also heard it.
It turns out that even the usually stern-faced Qi Baitong has a pair of canine teeth, revealing two sharp points when he smiles, just like him.
Gu Shanyue said she liked to see Qi Baitong smile.
Was Qi Baitong using this to get close to and deceive Gu Shanyue?
Otherwise, how could Gu Shanyue, who is always indifferent to everyone, possibly favor a lowly bodyguard?
Gu Shanyue clearly only cares about him; everyone else in the world is unimportant to her, only he matters.
Regardless of love, hate, joy, or resentment, Gu Shanyue's emotions should only be affected by him alone.
It must have been Qi Baitong who interfered, tricking Gu Shanyue into saying those things on the cruise ship. It's all Qi Baitong's fault; it's all Qi Baitong who's hindering all of this.
What a poorly made fake.
What a despicable and shameless scoundrel.
"Yu'er, why are you trembling?" Gu Shanyue asked worriedly.
Li Yuheng came to his senses, suppressed the overwhelming hatred in his heart, pressed down on his trembling hands, raised his eyes, and whispered, "Sister, I'm scared, I'm afraid to sleep, will you stay with me?"
Gu Shanyue agreed without much hesitation: "I'll go with you."
Li Yuheng held her hand tightly, lay down, and stared at Gu Shanyue with lingering eyes, as if she would disappear in the blink of an eye.
Li Yuheng had lived in this house for ten years. Now that the two of them had returned here, Gu Shanyue couldn't help but feel as if she had been in another world, as if everything down the mountain was a dream and Li Yuheng was still the child who had depended on her for survival back then.
She placed her other hand over his and patted his clenched, white fingers, comforting him, "I'm right here, you can sleep peacefully."
Li Yuheng nodded and smiled, "Mm."
Gu Shanyue quietly left after he fell asleep, leaving Bai Yan to watch over him.
Gu Shanyue walked out the door, shaking her stiff and sore arms. Li Yuheng was a light sleeper, and any movement from her would wake her up, so she had no choice but to remain still, her hands stiff from the effort.
"Are your hands tired? Let me give you a massage."
Qi Baitong, who seemed to appear out of nowhere, took her hand and gently kneaded her palm and arm with her calloused hand, relieving her discomfort and making her feel relaxed.
Gu Shanyue leaned against his shoulder, letting him knead it gently.
"I didn't expect Yu'er to actually come. It took her so long to fall asleep. She's even harder to coax now that she's grown up than when she was little." Her words were laced with complaint and obvious affection.
Qi Baitong lowered his eyes. Even though he didn't seem to care on the surface, his heart had already sunk to the bottom after Li Yuheng appeared.
Gu Shanyue hadn't expected it, and neither had he.
The more enjoyable he felt being alone with Gu Shanyue a few days ago, the more stifled he felt now.
Qi Baitong tried to suppress her other thoughts and gave a smile that was no different from her usual one: "Let's not talk about him anymore. Are you hungry? The carp I caught this afternoon is simmering on the stove. I'll bring it to you."
Gu Shanyue became interested: "Okay."
The carp was simmered for a long time, resulting in a milky white soup. The fish meat was tender and soft; the pieces would fall off the skeleton with a touch of chopsticks, and it melted in your mouth, incredibly fragrant.
Drinking a bowl of fragrant, steaming hot crucian carp soup in late autumn can invigorate one's spirits.
Gu Shanyue ate two bowls in a row, her back sweating as she ate. As soon as she put down her chopsticks, Qi Baitong brought her sliced melon to feed her. The melon was crisp and sweet, bringing a sweet coolness to her mouth after the fish soup.
Gu Shanyue, being quite unruly, casually leaned against Qi Baitong's chest, eating with great comfort from his hand.
"tasty."
After speaking, there was no response. Gu Shanyue looked at Qi Baitong and realized that he was lost in thought, staring out the window, seemingly pondering something.
Gu Shanyue followed his gaze and looked out. The moonlight was cold and clear, the night was desolate, and there was nothing there.
She pinched his cheek: "Qi Baitong".
Qi Baitong: "Hmm?"
He looked at her, then brought another piece of melon to her lips, a completely subconscious action.
Gu Shanyue held his hand and fed him the melon: "You eat it."
This whole plate of melon ended up in Gu Shanyue's stomach; this was the last piece.
Qi Baitong smiled, opened her mouth and ate the melon: "It's very sweet."
Gu Shanyue leaned against his lap, hugged his waist, and looked up at him: "What are you thinking about?"
"I was thinking..." Qi Baitong pursed her lips slightly, then shook her head. "It's nothing."
Gu Shanyue frowned and pinched his waist: "Who said they would be obedient?"
She disliked Qi Baitong's attempts to hide things from her.
After a long pause, Qi Baitong concealed the disappointment in her eyes and said softly, "I'm just a little envious."
It's not envy, it's jealousy. And it's not just a little, it's a lot.
Jealousy filled his heart. He didn't want Gu Shanyue's hands to touch anyone else, especially Li Yuheng. He didn't want Gu Shanyue's eyes to be on anyone else, especially Li Yuheng. He didn't want Gu Shanyue's mind to be on anyone else, especially Li Yuheng.
If Li Yuheng didn't have that identity, and wasn't Wu Shanyu's son, he probably would have already taken action, determined to kill him as soon as possible, at any cost, so that no one could occupy Gu Shanyue's attention and mind again.
But Li Yuheng was Wu Shanyu's son, so he couldn't do anything about it and could only endure it.
Gu Shanyue didn't understand for a moment: "What's there to envy?"
Qi Baitong remained silent for a long time before she could remove those vicious words and calmly utter the words from her mouth.
“I envy you and Li Yuheng having so much in the past, I envy his unshakeable place in your heart… I envy you so much,” Qi Baitong held her hand, lowered her head and pressed her face against her palm, her dark eyes looking at her with a dim gaze, “Am I a bad person like this?”
Gu Shanyue laughed, propped herself up and kissed his cheek: "You're not bad. You're different from him. You don't need to envy him."
"Yes, I'm different from him."
Qi Baitong's eyelashes trembled slightly as he received her kiss. He felt happiness in his heart, but also a sharp pain.
He was never the same as Li Yuheng; they were incomparable. Because between them, she would always choose Li Yuheng.
The quiet harmony of the courtyard was broken when Li Yuheng arrived. He always wanted Gu Shanyue to accompany him day and night. He was ill, and Gu Shanyue almost indulged him.
Qi Baitong never complained, and after Gu Shanyue returned, she remained as considerate and gentle as ever.
Two days later, Li Yuheng had recovered somewhat and had breakfast with the two of them in the morning.
Not far away, the wind rustled through the bamboo forest. Through the window, one could see a large expanse of green bamboo swaying. Li Yuheng slowly sipped his soup, his tone ambiguous: "This must have been made by Lord Qi. His skills are truly excellent. I never knew that the Inner Guard's secret agents had such abilities."
Qi Baitong nodded, but did not reply.
He knew that Li Yuheng disliked him, but so did he.
Seeing this, Li Yuheng was filled with rage. What kind of person dared to act so high and mighty in front of him? Using his looks to coax Gu Shanyue into giving him some pity, did he really think he was about to rise to the top?
"Why is Lord Qi silent? Are you perhaps upset that I have disturbed your peace and quiet?"
Qi Baitong lifted her eyelids and glanced at him: "Why would I blame you?"
He desperately wanted to kill Li Yuheng.
Li Yuheng sneered, raised his chin, and said disdainfully, "My sister and I lived in Zhuoguang Mountain for ten years. Everywhere here are our memories. It is only natural for me to come back to accompany my sister. Even if Lord Qi wants to blame me, he has no right or qualification to do so."
Qi Baitong: "Heh."
Gu Shanyue was engrossed in her meal, knowing that the two of them didn't get along. Let them argue, it's no big deal.
After she finished eating, she looked up and saw Li Yuheng glaring at Qi Baitong like a little rooster. Qi Baitong was only focused on adding soup and serving food to Gu Shanyue, completely ignoring him, which made Li Yuheng seem particularly unreasonable.
Li Yuheng was still boasting: "I watched this bamboo grove in front of the house grow little by little with my own eyes. My sister used to teach me swordsmanship in the bamboo grove..."
Qi Baitong didn't even glance at him. Gu Shanyue remembered that Qi Baitong had said he envied Li Yuheng, so he said, "Alright, you're feeling a bit better now, so shut up for a bit."
Li Yuheng put down his chopsticks and said aggrievedly, "Sister, I've just been away for a long time, and seeing everything familiar made me feel nostalgic. Do I have to worry about Lord Qi's attitude for this? Now that you have him, have you completely forgotten about me?"
"..."
"You haven't eaten much, aren't you hungry?" Gu Shanyue changed the subject.
“I can’t eat. Sister, you know that every time I’m sick, I have to eat mung bean cakes from the town down the mountain to whet my appetite.”
Li Yuheng's face was still a little pale. He was dressed in simple clothes from Zhuoguang Mountain. The sense of unfamiliarity that had grown over the past two years had faded, and he looked like the young boy he once was.
Gu Shanyue recalled the past: "I asked Lu Ya to buy it."
"Sister, please go and buy it for me yourself, just like before, okay?" Li Yuheng tugged at Gu Shanyue's sleeve and shook it gently.
"good."
Even if she were to descend the mountain herself, given her light-footed skills, it would only take her a short while.
Moreover, Li Yuheng rushed back for Wu Shanyu and fell seriously ill. After all, he was a junior whom Gu Shanyue had raised since childhood, so Gu Shanyue's resentment towards him had lessened somewhat.
Gu Shanyue stood up, and Qi Baitong followed suit, but Li Yuheng stopped them.
He looked up and smiled, revealing his cute tiger teeth: "Sister, you come and go like the wind, come and go quickly. I see that Lord Qi hasn't eaten much, so why don't you stop bothering me and stay for dinner, and chat with me?"
Gu Shanyue frowned. These days she had been inseparable from Qi Baitong, but with Li Yuheng's arrival, the two of them inexplicably grew distant.
She glanced at Qi Baitong's bowl; indeed, she hadn't eaten much. Just as she hesitated, Qi Baitong was the first to agree: "Okay, I'll stay."
Gu Shanyue: "You..."
Qi Baitong shook her head, interrupting her, and gave her a reassuring look.
"It's alright, I'll eat some more. Go ahead and leave, I'll wait for you here."
"Alright."
Gu Shanyue said no more. She was a decisive person by nature, and immediately leaped away.
Li Yuheng kept staring at Gu Shanyue's back until he could no longer see her, then turned his gaze to the black lacquer-white paulownia tree.
The smile on his face slowly faded, and a cold arrogance appeared between his brows, as he reverted to his aloof and superior demeanor from Shengjing.
"Lord Qi, you really are surprising."
Author's Note: Double update today!
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